Chapter 7: I'd Lie
"I want you to-", she's trying to spoke her mind out, but nothing comes out from it,
"You-", she did tried it again several times, but still, she can't say it directly when she seen his eyes, every time in this way made her stumbled on her minds, which granted by a confused expressions by the person she's talking to,
"Kurapika, what'd you trying to say honestly? You keep saying 'I want you to-'or 'you', and I'm sorry I didn't get it", said the person caringly, he sounds like some man who wanted to judge his woman speech honestly but afraid of hurting her heart, that much of what she could tell just by looking at,
"I don't know either, why I just couldn't say it", said Kurapika in surrender tone, as she's definitely had no idea of why she couldn't say those words, they were stated perfectly on her mind but her mouth may have listen to her heart which made her couldn't let it out loud.
Some minutes have passed since the first trial of speak, Kurapika really found how hard it is to just say some short word, and to Chrollo, he somehow felt relieved to know that she couldn't say what's on her mind, maybe because it'll turn bad if she says,
"Kurapika, would you like to dance..with me?", asked him finally after getting bored for waiting for her to speak her mind, and there also something on the back of Kurapika's mind that can be blamed for causing her to say yes in low tone and took his hand.
The music was quite loud, they both can hear it from this place, but it's a slow music, probably jazz or anything slow.
Kurapika hold on Chrollo's shoulder softly, while he also hold her back firmly as if he would never let her go again,
and they both fell for the dance as they steps through each moves they have learned years back,
she never thought of dancing with him after they're very best year back then, and as she lean her head on his shoulder,
she shed a tear, remembering how she would betrayed her grandmother, and also her homeland if she fell for this man again, but she already did, and nothing in this world would change it.
Feeling a single tear on his shoulder, Chrollo let himself feels every emotions she let him feel, he grab her waist and pull her closer so he can hold her more, the voice in his head told him to never letting go of this blonde anymore, and so does his heart for her.
They both found themselves fall for each other again, and hopes it lasts forever.
She knows exactly how wrong it is considered he was the same person who massacred her homeland, but she need him, the love that planted on her heart since the time they've met have bloomed too much to thrown back,
and with him now honestly says about how he sorry for everything,
she can only think to forgive him and move on with him on her side.
However, something in her head suddenly spoke and distinct every nice sensation she felt a second before.
It was all the Kuruta people who blamed her all the time for loving the said man too much, and threw away the feeling of vengeance in a blink for his touch.
The person was perhaps, her friend (or whoever you'll know later), whose hate the spider, since the massacred, for her life (even afterlife, that is) and trying her best to posses Kurapika's body so she can have her revenge delivered,
and unfortunately, she had won over the consciousness of Kurapika Hibiki because of the-too-strong-hatred the she felt.
"Chrollo-", said her as she suddenly withdraw from the dance,
"This isn't right, I shouldn't have betray Grannie for you", asked the girl panicky, as she stepped an inch after inch away from him,
"Kurapika?", said him confusedly, as he thought about the girl, a second, she hold him tight, and the next second, she stepped away from him, and he didn't understand everything,
"LEAVE ME ALONE", cried the girl as she spin her heels and run to the party, leaving him alone and confused,
"What just happen to her?", he asked out loud.
Chrollo comes back to the party and found Kurapika was avoiding him, strangely as it seen.
Having no idea of what just happen to that girl, he decided to walk around, enjoy the party like it should be but his mind still stuck with the past moment that caused him to not feel any enjoyment over the said party.
That's when a girl on his class were looking at him and walk closer to the young man,
"Hi there", greet the girl with the smile,
"Hi", replied him coldly,
"I'm Stella, we've been classmates, remember?", the girl said happily, which confused him,
"And?", asked him formally as he's looking back at the girl,
"Well, obviously, it was strange if there is a girl who ask for it, but I do, would you like to dance? With me?", said or rather to say asked the girl with her womanly charm which she thrown to him,
but unfortunately, it goes the wrong way,
he did seen the charm, but it took him to the just-happen-a-moment-ago memory which cause him to refused the offer and walk away.
Along the road he had passed, Chrollo found himself wondering about the last thing that confused him, and suddenly, he remembered something,
this was happen before, he thought as he drove his car, his memories stirred back to the time when they were younger.
It was a summer that they've spent together since the too-close-relationship they're in.
they're playing together just like children should, with sometimes joined by Shalnark whose just turn two at the time.
"Chrollo, let's play truth or dare!", asked the girl fierily, in which has turned him frowned,
"Why'd? all of the sudden?", asked the boy curiously,
"Awww, come on, you two are playing without me because it's a play that a girl couldn't do, but this one could be played by all of us", replied the girl, more like explanation with persuasion tone,
"Okay, all you request Onee-chan", come the reply from Shalnark, which froze Chrollo,
"I thought you're on my side Shal", said him disappointedly, but the kid has just came closer and whispered in his ear,
"Or else, Nee-chan would be scary", said him shortly, and turn Chrollo into curiousness,
"You owe me big explanation, Shal", said him finally when he also decided to gave in.
As the time goes on to sunset, the three of them had to finished they're playing time and go back to rest.
And when the time had shown 10 pm, when they have to went to bed, Chrollo spoke his question out,
"Why'd you say your Nee-chan would be scary Shal, I bet it happen frequently", asked him to the said boy who's just turn his body to face him,
"You know, Nee-chan was from village that I don't know the name yet, guess I'll asked my parents later, and the beliefs of her village is that along came a child, there would be a guardian of the child from someone who died by the time a child has born, and what I know is that sometimes Nee-chan's guardian posses her, and the reason is because she say Nee-chan has too weak heart that by mean means too kind", explain the kid lengthy,
"How did you know all this stuff?", asked the little raven-haired kid to the sandy-blonde-haired one,
"Hmm..I know you would ask such a question, but, I'll answer you anyway. I know since a half of year ago, I accidentally heard that Nee-chan says 'Kurapika dear, I need you to rest a moment because you were too weak to face up' to herself, strange as its sounds because I already know her name is Kurapika", continued him, before he's yawning and rolled back to sleep.
Leaving Chrollo and the information that that time was hard to digest by himself.
But now that he grown up, he knows how it sounds crazy but true,
I have to figure a way out to get rid of the guardian's in her, he thought aim fully, because he wants her, he needs her.
But the guardian inside her was truly in his way, and as himself of Spider's head, he's always hate having something in his way of getting whatever he wants.