A/N: I do not own twilight or any of the characters therein

Chapter Seven: Confidant

Renesmee POV

I awoke thoroughly disgruntled. I never returned to my dream meadow with Jacob after I went back to sleep. I did dream about Jake, but the rating never got above PG. I rolled out of bed and walked to the door. I needed a shower, I could still smell my arousal on my body, and in a house full super sensitive noses, it just wouldn't fly. I opened the door and walked down to the second floor landing. I turned left into the bathroom and closed the door, seeing that Alice had hung up my outfit for the day on the hook.

I stripped off my gown and panties, throwing them into the hamper with yesterday's sun dress. I wondered vaguely again about the dress as I sauntered over to the shower. like all things in the Cullen house, this shower's extravagance was immediately apparent. It was three walls of obsidian black granite with the front wall a thick pane of glass. water nozzles and jets protruded out at regular intervals from the stone walls. I turned the knobs and ran my hand through the cascading water, checking the temperature. When it was hot enough for my tastes I stepped into the shower and instantly felt wrapped in a cocoon heat and steam. The water was amazing, the heat of it pressed against my tense muscles, soothing them. The reason for my tense muscles was brought to the forefront of my mind and I idly wondered how it would feel to have Jacob in here with me, his strong hands rubbing the knots out that he had put there (in a manner of speaking). His hands running over my body, applying blessed pressure in all the right places...

I suddenly squashed that line of thinking, knowing if dad was downstairs he would have just seen everything I had thought in that moment of weakness. Embarrassed with myself, I quickly went through the motions, finishing up and hopping out. I toweled off quickly. As i ran a brush through my damp curls, I examined the clothes that Alice had laid out for me, the underwear she had put out was an unusual choice for me. It was a crimson satin piece of fabric, barely more than a thong. I usually got standard white cotton, maybe she knew there was a coming change in my attitude about my underthings.

I dressed in the jeans and sleeveless pink tee hung up for me and left the bathroom, I knew it would be sturdy enough for the hunting trip planned for the day. Since reaching maturity mom had finally allowed me to hunt predators. I relished the idea of taking down the anonymous bear or mountain lion that would find itself under my unerring jaws today.

I walked downstairs. Taking note of the pleasant feel of satin rubbing against my skin. I made it to the first floor, Jasper and Emmett were watching some football game on the couch taking bets. Rose was laying on the floor with Esme, playing a game of speed chess, moving so fast it would look like the pieces were moving of their own volition to human eyes. Carlisle was watching them over his most recent medical journal with an amused smile on his warm face. Rose triumphantly yelled "Checkmate! That's nine to nine. One more?" Esme already had the board reset before Rose finished.

Every one greeted me good morning as I looked to Alice, who was sitting at the table waiting expectantly for me.

"sleep well?" she asked with an odd smile on her face. Emmett guffawed at her question and something made me unwilling to look at him. I made the connection though, not wanting to have this conversation in the house. I changed topics quickly, "Where are mom and dad?"

"they stopped by earlier this morning, but left before you got up." she added quickly when she saw the look of horror on my face. I absolutely did not want dad to know what I had seen and felt since waking this morning, and was fervently glad he wasn't present for it.

"I'm hungry. Are you ready to go?" I asked Alice. I needed someone to talk to and she seemed to fit the bill perfectly. She bounded up from the table, dancing to a stop next to the door, her hand on the knob. "what would you like? Bear or lion?" I wasn't committed. "eh, dealers choice." she smiled, her eyes bright, surrounded by her pixie-like face. "excellent."

She opened the door and we walked out, a chorus of "have fun"'s and "Enjoy yourselves" rang out behind us as I shut the door. Alice stepped out into the sun, her skin shimmering like the facets of a million diamonds, my skin faintly glowed as well, I preferred theirs to mine.

As we walked towards the forest behind the house I noted the fresh scent of my parents leading to the garage. Dad's Aston-Martin was missing. "Where are mom and dad going today?" I asked. They normally never went anywhere without seeing me first. I felt simultaneously grateful and abandoned. Alice didn't respond she just tilted her head towards the river. I went along with it. we jumped across the river together, landing sinuously into a dead sprint, when we were finally out of earshot of the house, she answered.

"they went to Charlie's at my urging. I saw that he had more questions. He had time to process all the information he received yesterday and wanted to clarify a few points. It was also convenient that they would not be here when you took your shower this morning. Had they stayed, I foresaw your father having a meltdown. I assume you were thinking about something pretty graphic. Edward is just not ready to have his baby girl grown up yet."

I could not run as fast as the others, but close. Alice kept pace with me, by my side, I knew that if she wanted to she could leave me in her dust. I turned my head from the forest racing past us to look at her, she was smiling her odd little smile again. I huffed, in irritation and exertion. "what did your hear last night?"

she smiled wider still. "Not much, just your panting and gasping in your sleep. Well, that and your screaming declaration for Jake to quote 'DO IT!' unquote. Good Dream?" Alice was baiting me and I knew it. I was horrified. That was why Emmett had laughed this morning, he'd heard it too. They all had.

"How loud?" was all I could force out over the embarrassment that was crashing down on me.

Alice was positively on fire with the enjoyment at this as she spoke next. "Well you've never been to a rock concert or been standing near a jet taking off, so... there isn't an adequate description I can provide for you. Given your parents calm attitudes this morning, I don't think they heard you."

"Could you please take less joy in my humiliation Alice" I said through my gritted teeth.

"Aw, I'm not taking joy in your pain Ren, I'm just proud that your growing up. You're finally becoming as much a pervert as the rest of us randy vampires."

"Thanks, I guess." well I this was the topic I wanted to discus, I might as well take the opportunity. I sighed, "Yes the dream was good, but frustrating, I want to make my dream a reality but I'm unsure how to proceed. Plus I'd really like dad to not kill my boyfriend, after the fact."

"Well the first part is easy, just get him alone in a nice place and push his boundaries. Jake is imprinted on you, he'll do whatever you want. I'd put money on it that he wants it every bit as much as you do." "as for your father, well you could always torture him a bit with your desires, you could make him regret ever peeking into you mind. Or you could talk to him and make sure he knows that this is what you want."

"But he's so old fashioned, I don't want to wait til' I'm married to Jake, I just want to satisfy my needs. I want to feel like a woman."

"While you father is old fashioned, he knows that his personal rules can't apply to everyone. And even his specific love embargo on your mom before wasn't one of rules and turn of the century morals, he was afraid of killing her by accident during the act of lovemaking. It drove your mom to near insanity as I recall."

We had just jumped over yet another river when I crossed the fresh scent of a bear and slowed down. I tasted the air. Male, good, I would not orphan any cubs to satiate my thirst. His scent was meandering down a trail to the west. I pushed my senses out as far as I could, closing my eyes, concentrating on the sounds of nature around me, I heard the sound of fast moving water to the west, the fluttering sounds of many heartbeats in the water, likely salmon... it was spawning season after all. And there he was, north bank of the river 600 yards out, his slow heart accelerated with exertion. he'd been hunting the salmon. I could hear the wet sounds of tearing flesh. I stealthed down to within 50 yards and took a perch in a tree about 30 feet up. Alice landed silently next to me.

"What are you waiting for?" she asked, confused by my hesitance.

"I want to let him finish eating first." It was true. The magnificent beast down there was going to be my meal in just a few moments time. From the second I caught his scent, his life belonged to me. Right here, right now, I had become this animal's god. I would be merciful, but I would still take what was mine. He finished his fish and moved off the shore into the forest. My thirst had waited long enough. I jumped from my perch and landed in a crouch with deafening silence. I closed to within ten yards in a mere second. He would want to fight, no matter how lopsided the odds. I would not deny him that. I snarled, alerting him to my presence. The bear turned around taking a defensive stance, his mass was about eight times mine, but he slowly backed away regardless, sensing a greater predator in his presence. I sprang at him, he stood on his back legs to intercept me with his paws, it was a futile effort. I flew right through his front legs, my mass and speed slamming him onto his back. My teeth found the hottest, pulsing part of his neck, and I clamped down hard. It was over before he really knew what happened. He struggled feebly as his life force drained out of him. The bear slowed, then stilled. He was empty. I was full.

I pulled away from the bear's embrace as Alice walked up. "Why do you always have to play with your food Ren?" was her only statement.

I thought about it for a second as I inspected my cloths, they were still perfect. "I don't play. I allow them the chance to go with dignity, the way I would want to go to, face my opposition. To go out on your feet is all you can ask for when facing overwhelming odds."

Alice laughed "Ren you're too young to be thinking like that." given my rocky start with the Volturi, I wasn't so sure, but I let it go. "All right lets go hunt you up some game."

….

after Alice had fed on a mountain lion, we headed back to the house.

"You know your going to have to be careful." Alice said, breaking the silence as we ran. I didn't have to guess what she meant. I had a nearly human menstrual cycle. The only difference between me and a normal human female was that my cycle was fairly longer, about 45 days.

"Does Carlisle really think I can get pregnant?" I asked

"Well you are a genetic anomaly sweetie. Humans have 23 pairs of chromosomes vampires 25. you have 24." In nature a half-breed animal is usually sterile, which you don't seem to be. A child can be conceived only when the parents are a genetic match, and the chromosome counts are either the same, or 2 pairs off. And there only two races that fit the narrow genetic profile you have to conceive a child. One is obviously, other half-vampires."

"You mean Nahuel," I countered, seeing as he was the only male half-vampire in existence. He was cute, but I had no interest.

"Or" Alice continued over my musings "The only other human-like race with 24 chromosomal pairs. Werewolves. Long story short, use protection."

Oh great. I was going to have to buy condoms. Ugh, I sighed. Defeated, I asked in a dead voice "were can I buy some con-"

Alice cut me off before I could finish the word.

"don't worry, they're already in your nightstand." I sighed, she was truly on my side.

"Thank you Alice, you've done so much for me." I said

"I'm the cool Aunt, it's in my job description." and she was. truly she was awesome.

A/N: a special thanks goes out to Christiemariecullen for being my soundboard for this chapter. And keeping me highly entertained with witty banter while I wrote it.

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