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Forks the Holidays: Chapter 7:

He pulls me tight against his chest, his arms wrapped around me, as he says, "Are you sure you're okay? I am so damn sorry for not realizing just how much of a threat James is."

"It's not entirely your fault Jake. I let my guard down too." Bella bites down on her lip.

"This is all so damn crazy. First Miranda and now James." He sighs heavily.

She feels the impact of his words as they slammed against her heart. It was all her fault. If she had never come to Forks, then Miranda would never have gone off her medication and accidentally killed her sister, James would not be here stalking her and Jake would have been living a normal happy teenage life once again.

"I'm so sorry." Tears spring out of her eyes as she drops her head sobbing softly.

"What? Why?" Jake lifts her head up, looking into her leaking eyes.

"This is all my fault. You did not deserve all of this. If I had never come to town you would be so happy and not always on a look out of someone trying to attack me." She weeps as her chest heaves with great turmoil.

"Don't you dare. Don't you act like this was somehow ALL your fault. Come on, I didn't even know my own girlfriend was mentally unstable. I was living a lie. I was enduring it all because I did not see any other option open for me at the time. When you arrived and we connected I was totally blown away but I was happy. I was truly happy. I AM happy with YOU. " Jake assures her as he wipes the tears from her eyes with his fingertips.

"How!" She exclaims as she turns her head away not wanting to look into his eyes and see the love that glimmered at her when he stared into her eyes.

"What do you mean how? Bella what we share is much deeper and healthier than anything I ever had with Miranda." Jake sighs sadly as he kisses her on the cheek.

"Are you sure I am worth all of this? Every time we turn around something bad is happening to me. I feel like I am a constant train wreck." Bella gulps air as the words take root in her head and heart. It was true, since she arrived she had been in constant danger and was always surrounded by something bad. The fact that she had stolen Jake from Miranda when she had believed they were the perfect couple still surprised her.

What he could possibility see her was still a mystery to her. She was nothing like the other girls at school. Sure she was pretty and smart but they had simpler lives. Ones with less drama. She was seriously fucked up. The old Bella had been an evil person. She had walked around acting like her shit did not stink. So in away maybe this was karma coming back to make her pay her dues for all the hateful things she had said and done to others.

"Baby you are worth every breath I take. I swear to you Bella I will never hurt you, like he did." His lips cover mine as he seals his promise with such a tender kiss that the tears that spring out of her eyes are those of relief and happiness.

Victoria stormed into the hotel room wearing her most pissed off face ever.

"Seriously! How long did you plan on having her out there? Did you fuck her?" Victoria growls as her nails sink into her waist glaring down at him where he laid on the bed spread out with his arms behind his head.

"Okay, first of all baby I don't answer to you. Secondly, I could have kept her as long as I wanted, thirdly, I did not fuck her. You know Bella does not fuck around." James snorted as he gave her a brief moment of his attention then turns it back to the television in front of him.

"Then did you accomplish what you wanted? Cause I am not going to do that again. I don't care what you say or do. I am not your puppet." Victoria tap her shoes as she gulp hard as his eyes turn icy cold looking straight at her face.

Sliding off the bed, his breath on her face he glared at her with such contempt that Victoria knew at last she had gone past the point of no return. James and her were over. There were no more fun filled raunchy sex escapades. Nope. She was done. She could not be Bella's replacement. She would not let him trick her and control her the way he had Bella for years. Hell, even she had told Bella that he was such a control freak and yet she had been more than agreeable to spread her legs for him. What had happen to her pride? What had happen to the girl who stood up for herself? It was like Bella had left town and she had slip into her high heel shoes. She had become the girl that James played with.

At first it had been fun to pretend that she was better than Bella. At first it had even been a thrill. Now, months later it was no longer exciting. It was going further than she had ever planned to allow it. She had somehow lost control of her power in this game. James was slowly manipulating her, creating another version of Bella within her. She had to fight this. She had to fight James. She had to tell Bella the truth and fast.

Then it dawn on her if she told Bella the truth, it would end their friendship. After all this sick game between her and James had honestly begun before Bella had even left town. Yeah, she had betrayed their friendship before Bella had made the big change in location and personality.

Would she forgive her? This new Bella was stronger, kinder and filled with forgiveness. She hoped like hell that once Bella learn the truth that this Bella and not the old one would show her some compassion when she judged her horrible decisions in aiding James to fuck with Bella's life.

"We are not done until I say so Victoria. Remember I have things that I could easily show Bella and she would throw your fat ass out of her house in a heartbeat. Her and her father." James cock an eye brow as his lips curl up into a sinister smile that warn Victoria that he would not hesitate to ruin her. He had nothing to lose from it all. It was not like Bella was any closer to running into his arms.

"If you do it you would only make things worse for you and Bella." She reminded him that he had played a part in their nasty game as well. She knew that Bella already hated James for what she knew he had done but if she learn all the horrid details of just how far he had truly gone then he would have no shot in hell with her, ever!

"It's a chance I am willing to take, are you?" He asks with a haunting laugh.

"I might. After all I can just return home." Victoria refused to let him see her scared. She knew he fed on that weakness. He was a parasite that got his rocks off on people's vulnerability.

"Can you? What would Mommy and Daddy do when they learn about their daughter's nasty habit of snorting snow whenever she feared she might be gaining too much weight? After all Daddy likes his girl slender. How about I show Mommy the pictures of you dancing at that fancy night club where you exposed your entire body in the nude. Would she proud of her precious baby?" He rolls his eyes as he turns away from her.

"I. Hate. You." Victoria's teeth clench together as she wish more than anything that a gun or knife would simply appear in her hand and she could take his sorry ass out of this world. It would be a brighter place without him in it. Who would really miss him? No one. He was so horrible that even his own father did not seem in the least concern when he disappeared for weeks and months at a time.

"I know you think you do but honestly baby you love that I bring out the darkness in you. I never put a gun to your head to force you on that stage or snort that yummy goodness up your nose. Nope. You did it all willingly." He chuckles as he bends down grabbing a beer out of the mini fridge. Opening the can he takes a long guzzle, wiping his mouth on his arm then looks directly at Victoria.

"You know we can fight all night or you could get that sweet ass of yours on that bed and we can spend all that energy on something more worthwhile." He licks his lips inviting her to do what he always does when they are alone.

"NO!" Victoria shouts at him then flees from the room before he can physically stop her. Jumping into her car she races to the Edward's cabin. She had nearly given in to him. Her body had been so tempted to be used and punished by James. She was not going to do that anymore. She was much better than that. She was a decent person. She deserved to be with someone worthy of her not someone as sinister and sickening as James was.

Gripping the steering wheel she felt the sting of tears in her eyes as she made her way back to Edward's cabin. She had promised to help him clean up but after Bella and Jake had taken off she had found herself heading straight to James. Like a fool, she had allowed her morbid curiosity and jealousy to lead her back to him. No more. This was it.

She might not be able to tell Bella everything. Not yet. Eventually she would reveal little things to her, until Bella discovered it all on her own and then James could not lash out at her and ruin her life. Yeah, that was the plan. Just simply give Bella some hints, a little bait until she caught the big fat slithering snake on the end of her hook. Then she could explain everything to Bella in a way that maybe Bella would understand and if she was lucky, damn lucky, they might be able to repair the damage in their friendship that she had fucked up.

Wiping the tears from her face she checks her make up before heading inside the cabin. She saw several cars had already left. Smiling sadly she hoped that maybe tonight she and Edward could share something that might erase some of the ugliness she felt inside. She needed to know what it felt like to be wanted but most of all to have someone who look at you and saw only you and not their ex-girlfriend.

Lauren had her fill of the party as she grabs her keys heading for the front door. She had already told Edward good-bye. He had made her walk a straight line before he agreed she could receive her keys. She had laughed at his serious protective side. It was a new image for him. The old Edward would have not even considered the life of another. It seemed the death of Rosalie and the lock up of Miranda not to mention Alice lying in a coma had changed his life in such a big way. She was happy to see him relaxing and enjoying himself tonight.

She was starting to see glimpses of the old Edward. The one who had made her blood body to tingle and her pussy to drip nonstop. Yeah, it was definitely good to see him coming back to life. However, she was not sure if Bella's new friend, Victoria was the right remedy for that. She seemed cool enough but something about her made Lauren's radar scream potential enemy.

She was not going to rock the boat just yet. After all, Bella was being a big help with the cheerleading try outs and she needed a squad to compete in finals. She did not want to lose Bella's assistance and if she was honest with herself she was starting to like Bella. She was starting to feel lonely again. She missed the bickering she once shared with Rose. Even if it had been cruel at times it showed her that Rose still saw her as a threat. It had also been their way of acknowledging each other's existence even if they were no longer best friends.

Yeah, it was a pretty fucked up rivalry but it had helped get through some of the more boring days of High School. Now she had nothing to occupy her free time.

She hit the switch unlocking her car as she step up to the driver's side.

"Leaving so early?" A cocky voice slur behind her.

Lauren turn slowly knowing who the voice belonged to and was pretty sure he was there to gloat, again.

"It's not exactly early Paul. It is midnight." She rolls her eyes staring at his inebriated state.

"Ahhh…the witching hour. You need to hurry and jump on that broom of yours to meet up with your coven tonight." He laughs hysterically at his own joke making Lauren wonder how any girl could possibly be turned on by him.

"You're not funny. " She replies with a bored face.

"Really. Well, honey I hope you're not funny either when you dance on my lap. In fact I hope you're far from funny." His teeth graze his lower lip as he reaches out grabbing her hips. Lauren loses her balance falling hard against her car.

"Damn it Paul." Lauren reaches back to rub her head where it had hit the door.

"What? You don't like it rough baby." Paul's breath on her face. The strong smell of booze nearly made her gag.

"What the hell Paul. Let me go." Lauren orders him as his face grows closer to hers.

"Why? You know I got to thinking and I think you really hoped you would lose so you could get a chance to grind that sexy body of yours on me. I think deep down that you really want me but you're too scared to admit it." Paul's voice deepens as he stares in to her eyes.

"The fact that you can think at all amazes me." Lauren scoffs but feels a warm sensation swirling in the pit of her stomach as one of his hand slides up her rib cage to stop and cup underneath her breast. His thumb circling around her taunt nipple as his mouth covers her. Lauren could hear alarms in her head warning her that he was drunk off his ass and that they were both playing with fire. She knew it was to her, the sober one to stop things before he or she did anything they would regret in the light of day.

"Stop…." Lauren moaned into his kiss as his both hands now covered her chest, teasing and pinching at her harden pebbles. Her hands press up against his chest, instead of shoving him away she was enjoying the feel of his muscular chest as her hands slid up and down his chest.

"Do you want me to stop?" He whispers into her ear as he takes his mouth away from hers, nibbling on her ear now, pinching harder and harder until she feels her panties dampen from the small climax that had begun.

"No. Yes." Lauren was not sure what she wanted at this point. She just knew that his touch was doing things to her that she had not felt in such a long time. She could make out with any guy anytime she chose to. She was just picky about who got to see her naked and who would receive the pleasures of her body and mouth. She was after all a lady not a whore.

The feel of his warm hands against her bare flesh made her feel a little less excited about all of this. After all Paul was drunk. He would not even remember any of this. If he did he would no doubt brag to Mike and the others how easy it had been to make out with her. She had to stop them now before it went so far and she would have to deal with the humiliation that follows would a stupid decision like this.

"You taste so damn sweet." Paul's mouth replaced his hands as he suck in her nipple. Lauren cried out in pleasure. His mouth was so warm, the flicker of his tongue made her juices explode between her legs. Her hands begin to act on their own accord as she rub against his cock over his pants. She wanted to pull them down and look at the big cock that was outlined and felt like a steel crowbar beneath her needy hand.

"Mmm….yess…." Lauren's head fell back as her body grew limp, her eyes rolled into her head when she felt his fingers slid underneath her costume and touch her swollen bud with a skilled hand. She knew she would feel some sort of shame when his fingers dipped lower and her juices covered his fingers. He was definitely going to have a lot to tell his friends tomorrow. She knew this was stupid. This would cost her big time yet she did not stop him as he forced his fingers in and out of her making her squeeze his shoulders and cry out loudly. Her body shook against him. Her eyes closed saw little stars sparkling behind her eye lids.

"You. Are. So. Wet." He mumbles as his mouth feasts between both of her breast.

"You. Are. So . Hard." She cries out as her body quivers, goose bumps popping up all over her bare skin.

The feeling of release shakes her to the core as she feels a need to give him the same satisfaction as he had delivered to her. Grabbing his pants she slides her hand underneath to find he is going commando tonight, one part of her brain is warning her that this a clear sign that the boy had planned on getting lucky with some unsuspecting girl. She was pretty sure it wasn't her he had in mind when he left home without any briefs or boxers on. It was probably Eve he had intended on fucking not her. A stab of jealousy hit her nearly making her lose the momentum as she grip her hand around his long hard cock.

Pumping him up and down she felt his lips sucking on her neck as he grunted from the hand job she was giving him in return.

"Oh. God. Oh….your hands are so damn soft." He moans into her neck.

Lauren finds herself giggling knowing that her hands were far softer than his own calloused hands.

"Baby….your mouth…wet…need it wet…" He groans as he pushes his fingers deeper and harder into her. Her thighs clench around his hand as a bigger climax slams her with such pleasure. Taking a long deep breath she pulls his hand away from her body. She sees the instant pout on his face. Smiling wickedly at him, she starts to kneel down when the sound of a car alarm goes off making her fall back on the cold damp grass.

"What?" Paul looks confused as he stares down at her with his long hard cock exposed to the entire world.

Lauren looks at it, licking her lips and realizing for the first time ever that Paul had a lot more to offer a girl than she had expected. He use to brag about his size but hell what guy didn't except usually those whose bragged were usually a hell of a lot smaller than they lied about. In Paul's case he had not exaggerated in the least. In fact she would boast if she had a thick cock like his.

"Come on Lauren. Don't stop." Paul pleads as his hand circles around his cock, pumping it himself while looking at her a dark sensual gleam in his eyes that Lauren felt her heart skip a beat. Knowing that if she was smart, which normally she was, she should just get up and laugh in his face and leave. Yeah, that was the smart thing to do. If she left now she would still have some pride left tomorrow.

Yet her mouth watered as she willed her eyes to look away but they refused to acknowledge her command.

"Paul! Dude where are you?" Mike Newton shouted from the porch.

"I am telling you Eve he did not leave you. My buddy would never leave his date. Especially not one as sexy as you babe." Mike informed Eve.

Lauren blinked a few times realizing that Eve was still at the party and was wondering why her date was not inside with her. Lauren felt her cheeks burn as she considered how close she had came to sucking and probably fucking Paul's brains out. Searching the ground she found her keys that had fallen out of her hands earlier.

"What are you doing?" Paul looks frazzled as she shakes her head, her eyes showing the disappointment she was feeling about having to end things this way with him.

"Go to your date Paul. She will take care of that for you." Lauren look at his hard cock one last time before jumping inside her vehicle. Biting on the tip of her tongue she refuse to let the tears that threaten to spill slip out of her eyes.

It had all been a mistake. A stupid careless mistake. They were just two horny teenagers that got caught up in the sexual tension. Nothing more. Hell, if Paul had not been drunk he probably would never have made a move on her at all. That was it. Paul was drunk. He did not like her. He was not interested in her unless he was torturing her with some lame ass bet. There was nothing but a moment of weakness between them. A moment where she had felt like butter melting in his hands and his mouth. Pressing her thighs together trying to stop the tingling sensations that still seem to flow through her even after she had left Paul.

A sudden bout of laughter hit her as the image of Paul with his pants to his ankles, stroking his big ass cock, looking completely puzzled by her sudden departure, while she drove away stuck in her mind as she blushed from head to toe the entire ride home.

When Bella woke up she had a mental checklist already in place. She had to do some shopping for a cute outfit for tonight's date with Jake. She had to find some time to talk to her father about the incident last night.

Jake had spent the last twenty minutes of their time together arguing that it was important they kept her father clued in on what was going on. He had been so upset that she had finally caved in and agreed to do it just to ease some of his anxiety.

No matter how many times he told her that her appearance in his life had only been good for him she had to disagree with him. She wondered how long he would feel that way. What would be the breaking point? What would make him finally wake up from his romantic notions about them and call it quits?

She knew she was being negative again but it was hard not to be so. After all she felt like this year was slowly turning into one nightmare after another.

Brenda came around the corner looking happy as she smiled warmly at Bella.

"Hey Brenda. Did you guys get a lot of kiddos last night?" Bella had missed her routine Halloween night of passing out candy to the local children.

"Yes, we did. I had so much fun. Hope you did too." She glances at Bella neck before looking back at her face.

"What?" Bella suddenly fears that Brenda had seen something that she should have hidden. Touching her neck she remembered the way Jake had kissed, suck, and nip on her neck as they made out. She had allowed him to touch her breasts but nothing below the waist. She was not sure why but she felt they had to take things slow.

If they rush into sex right away they might lose that special something that seems to keep the spark alive in their relationship. After all she knew the chase was the biggest part that the guys enjoyed. If she gave in too fast they would lose interest. It had worked for her this long, a little longer could not hurt she told herself each night she left him longing for something more.

"Your neck. I suggest a turtle neck. After all it is cooler outside." She chuckles as she walks past Bella.

Bella runs back upstairs, throwing the door open ignoring Victoria's squeals from behind the shower curtains.

"Damn it Bella!" Victoria shouts angrily but a soft laugh follows it.

"Sorry. Had to check my neck." Bella explains as she locks the door behind her.

She stared at the small oval size hickey on her neck and was shock to see that Jake had left his mark on her.

Normally he was so careful not to leave these marks on her. She knew her father would be pissed if he saw it. She was lucky that it had been Brenda who had noticed it first.

"What's wrong with your neck?" Victoria sticks her soapy head out of the shower looking at Bella with a knowing smile.

"I got a hickey." Bella groans.

"Oh no! Not that! You better hurry and rush to the doctor." Victoria cackles as she closes the curtain and proceeds with the washing of her hair.

"Funny. My dad will kill me." Bella cringes as she searches for her make up bag.

"Wear a turtle neck. It's suppose to be cold today." Victoria announces. Bella rolls her eyes playfully knowing that Victoria never had to worry about her father seeing anything on her body because he was rarely ever at home.

"That is what Brenda said." Bella replies as she begins to dab on some concealer.

"OH shit! You think she will tell Charlie?" Victoria wonders out loud.

"I don't know. We were not exactly friends when I first arrived but lately she has been cooler." Bella puts a few coats over the bruised like mark before putting up her make up.

"I think she is cool. She did not tell on me for coming in an hour late." Victoria smiles to herself remembering how Brenda had been in the kitchen when she tried to tip toe in last night. She had been sipping on some warm milk looking at a magazine when she called out to Victoria.

"You know your late." she says as she gave Victoria a steady look.

"I am sorry. I helped Edward clean up. I did not want to leave his cabin in such a mess." Victoria had not been entirely lying when she said it. They had begun cleaning up when they found themselves making out on his couch and after a few minutes of foreplay they both agreed they would much rather skip it and go straight for the fucking. Edward had produce a condom in no time and they had gone at it like rabbits on the couch, on the floor, on the kitchen counter and ended on the back porch where they both had orgasm underneath the starry sky. It had been great. No worries. No guilt. Nothing ugly about it. Just two people enjoying each other. Two people having a little fun. No one was getting hurt by what they were sharing. Neither of them thinking of anyone else but the person who they held onto.

Such a big change from she had been used to since she began hooking up with James on the side.

"That was nice. Okay. Go to bed. Charlie will be home in a minute. He got a call about some kids vandalizing a house." She had answered with a knowing smile.

"Really. That is cool of her." Bella was surprised and happy to know that Brenda was not as big of a parental pain in the ass as she had once been when Bella first arrived.

"Totally." Victoria agreed looking at her own set of hickeys that were all over her breasts and hips. She laughs softly remembering the way Edward enjoyed biting on her last night. It had been incredibly fun. She hoped they would remain friends now that they had shared something intimate with one another. She was not looking for a love affair. She was looking for some fun. Someone to hang out with. Someone who let her be herself and had no restraints on her.

"Why did you get in so late?" Bella was about to leave when it occurred to her that maybe she and Edward had hooked up. Not totally sure why the thought of them screwing one another caused such a sharp pain in her stomach. After all she had no claim on Edward. They had been nothing more than close friends. Sure Edward had wanted much more but she had been consistent in her feelings for him and never pretended otherwise. She was in love with Jake and that had not changed.

"I helped clean up a bit before I left." Victoria answers hoping Bella did not start giving her some holier than now lecture about how she shouldn't give it up so easily to each guy she came across. She remembered even when Bella was a wicked tart she disliked the way Victoria had been so at ease with sharing her body for pleasure.

"Oh. That was nice of you." Bella pressed her lips together as she left the bathroom. She was not about to give her friend a lecture that would fall on deaf ears. After all if anything had happen it was between two consenting young people. She had no rights over Edward or Victoria. If neither of them ever wanted to experience a well-meaning relationship with someone then that was not her problem. Nope. She had enough of those already.