Rach broke the kiss and looked at her like she did when she broke down in front of her in the class room.

"But you shouldn't... Like you said I Scared the shit out of you as you thought that I wasn't going to make it... You should be with someone like Buxton who doesn't want to kill herself every minute of the day..."

Frances continued to stroke Rachel's hand "Hey, how many times do I have tell you Rach? your the only one that makes me happy, I want to spend the rest of my life with you"

Rach looked at Frances hand then moved it off her own hand "I'm really not the one you want"

"Rach baby, you are the one I want to be with, I want to be the one that makes you happy, the one who makes you forget that you've been hurt..."

"Are you sure you want to do that?"

"I want to make you better Rachie"

Rach smiled a little when she heard her call her Rachie then spoke "it's gonna be a challenge"

Frances smiled at Rach as she smiled a little "is that a smile? , I promise you that it's gonna be worth the challenge"

Rach took her hand again and put her other hand on Frances face and stroked her cheek gently "I'm sorry"

"Hey, don't be baby"

"No I am I really scared you"

"Hey why don't you tell me what happened?"

"What bit did you want to know about?"

Frances stroked her hand again "all of the crash to now baby, I promise that I'm not going anywhere"

"I can't it hurts to much to think about that night"

"Hey princess take your time"

"I can't"

"Hey,you can"

"I can't Frances"

Frances nodded "Tell me when ready to"

"I will tell you but not yet"

"Just take your time"

Rach nodded a little at her "I'm really sorry"

"Hey it's okay I'm still here"

Rach smiled a little more and got a little comfy, she wanted to cuddle into Frances , Rach looked at her but wasn't sure if Frances still wanted her to call her babe so she didn't

"bab...Frances?"

"Yeah princess"

"Can you lie with me"

"Hey princess you don't have to ask"

Frances got onto the hospital bed and laid down with Rach, she let Rach cuddle into her as it made her feel better, Steph had lied about going to the office, she had her keys and took Kathy to her car, she unlocked it and got in, Kathy did the same and put her belt on. Steph started to drive she had told Kathy that she was taking her home but she was taking her to the hospital instead.

Kathy had no idea that she was on her way to see Rachel, Steph drove onto the main road and followed the signs to the hospital , Kathy looked out the window and saw one of the signs

"Where are we going?" She asked

"To see Rachel"

"I don't want to..

"She needs her mum Kathy"

"What have I told you, I'm not her mum anymore"

"Kathy Goodwin, your always going to be her mum, she needs you!"

"I'm not her mum anymore!"

"God sake Kathy! Your her mum and she loves you!"

"For the last time! I'm not her mum anymore!"

"Yes you are! And your going to see her and that's final!"

Kathy didn't say anything as she knew that Steph was right, Rach was still her daughter and she did need to see her to tell her that she didn't hate for for going out with Frances. Kathy got her phone out and opened up her pictures and looked at the one of all four of them and smiled a little.

Steph looked over at her and seen her smile, she smiled to

"Is that a smile?"

"No.." Kathy tried to lie about the fact that she was smiling.

"It is isn't it?" Steph said with more of a smile

"Maybe it is" Kathy said as she looked over at her with the smile on her face.

"Oh I know it's a smile"

"Okay okay, it is"

Steph continued to smile as they pulled up into the hospital carpark, she drove around trying to find a space she couldn't find one yet. Rachel was now asleep on Frances, Frances didn't mind it as she loved making Rachel feel safe.

Rachel didn't wasn't expecting any visitors as She didn't know that France had told Kathy and Steph about her trying to attempt suicide as Rach thought that she was doing her mum a favour by not being around anymore.

Steph finally found a parking space, She parked up and looked over at Kathy and took her hand

"You ready?"

Kathy looked at her as she thought that they was too late to see Rachel "what if we're too late?"

"We aren't honey"

"But what if we are? I never got the chance to say I'm sorry"

"Kathy, listen to me, we aren't late, she's still in there with Frances"

Kathy nodded a little "what if she hates me?"

"Then you two need to talk to each other more"

"When we try to, I always blame her for Danny's death.."

"You do know that she tried her best to save him"

"Yeah... I've been to hard on her, I should of been there for her" Kathy said as she had tears in her eyes, steph pulled her into a hug "hey, shhh, there's still a chance to get Rach back"

Kathy nodded again and cried a little into her, Steph continued to rub her back to calm her down, she also kissed her head Kathy smiled a little as she felt while she was calming down.

"Hey it's okay" Steph said softly as she kissed her head again

"I want to see her, I need to see her" she said as she wiped her tears away

"And you can honey, I'm not stopping you"

Kathy nodded and got out the car, Steph also got out and went round to her and took her hand, Kathy held it with a little smile, they started to walk towards the hospital. When they got to to the hospital entrance Kathy looked around before walking into the reception and asked where Rachel was.

It took them a few moments to find out as the woman on the reception drakes asked who Kathy was to Rachel so Larry had to explain that she was her mum, they finally got told where she was.

Both Kathy and Steph walked to where Rachel was staying, they got to the door, Kathy looked in through the window seeing her daughter attached to the heart rate machine and cuddled up to Frances.

Frances woke up to the feeling that someone was watching her sleep, she looked down at Rach and kissed her head seeing that she was still asleep, she stroked her hair gently before she looked up at the window seeing Steph and Kathy. As Frances saw Kathy standing at the window she smiled a little and gave them the hand signal to come in.

Kathy started to feel unsure that she was doing the right thing so she told Steph to go in first , Steph didn't want to leave Kathy's side as she knew that she would walk off so she held her hand more tighter to tell her that it was going to be okay, Kathy felt and calmed down a little before walking into the room, Frances just smiled at her as she was proud that she had came and she started to have doubts that she wasn't coming.

"Hey.." Kathy said quietly seeing Rachel asleep

"Hey miss" Frances replied

"How is she?"

"She's asleep, blaming herself that she doesn't want to be here..."

Kathy gave a small nod, "She didn't want to be saved did she?"

"No.." Frances replied.

Kathy looked away "it's all my fault"

"Why don't you come sit next to her?"

"I can't she hates me"

"Hey, you both need each other right now, I can go if you want"

Kathy looked at her and smiled a little "no your fine" she said as she started to walk over to the bed and sat down on the chair next to Rachel. Kathy watched her sleep as she noticed that Rachel's left arm was bandaged up, she took her hand gently and held it.

"What happened to her arm?"

"She...erm... She found a razor blade" Frances paused as her voice started to shake as she was thinking about how she found her.

"She didn't did she?" Kathy asked softly, Frances looked down as she had tears again so she just nodded before speaking again

"She also overdosed with her tablets and vodka..."

"She did all that because of me?" Kathy replied looking at Rachel with tears, she was stroking her hand softly.

"Yeah..." Frances paused "she said that she didn't fit in anymore, that no one loves her, but I do..."

"I know you do, and I'm proud that it's you"

"What do you mean miss?"

"With everything that's gone on, you've been by her side, where as I haven't been..."

"Hey, it's okay you was grieving"

"We both was... It's not, I pushed my own daughter away when I should of been there for her, she's the one who needed more help then I did"

Frances put her hand on top of Kathy's and held it

"But your here now miss"

"Yeah"

"Then that's all what matters now"

Kathy smiled more realising that she was right, Rach slowly started to wake up hearing Frances talking to someone as she didn't know that it was her mum, Kathy watched her as she did.

"Hey sleepy head" Kathy said quietly again, knowing that she was half awake, Rach thought it was Frances

"Hey" she replied and woke up more , she realised that it was her mum talking so she looked at her mum and pulled her hand away from hers, thinking that she came to have a ago at her when all that Kathy wanted to do was apologise for her not being there

"Rach?"

Rach didn't say anything to her as she didn't know what to say to her so she looked away before thinking of something to say to her

"Why are you here?"

"To see you?"

"I don't want to see you?"

"Rach please?"

"Why should I?! You didn't even care about all the pain I've been going through!"

"I do, I'm sorry, I've pushed you away, I'm sorry for blaming you for everything"

"Sorry doesn't mean nothing..."

"Rachel please I'm trying here"

"Well don't"

"Please Rachel?"

"You don't really care about me!"

"Hey that's not fair!"

"Oh it is fair!"

"Rach, I'm sorry you know..."

"No I don't know... I needed you that night!"

"What night?" Kathy paused "the night Danny did"

And where was you?"

"What's that got to do with it?"

"Tell me where you was that night?"

Kathy just looked over Steph, neither of them said anything

"Well mum?"

"I was with Steph" she said really quietly

"What was that?"

Frances looked at Rachel as Rach pulled away from the hug.

"Rach don't do this to her.."

"Why not?"

"She's trying to be there there for you"

"Well she rather sleep with a member of stuff then be with her dying husband!

Kathy looked down at the floor with tears "Rach I'm sorry"

"I want you to go but a part of me want you to stay.."

Kathy looked up at her, and wiped her tears "I was going to tell you?"

"When? After the funeral that I was never invited to?"

"I wanted you there Rach, I really did"

"Why didn't you?"

"Because I knew that your Nan would start on you..."

Rach nodded "so you banned me to protect me from her, but why did you start blaming me for it?"

"It happened to fast.. I mean I had that call then I thought back to that argument that we had and I guess I let my anger over take my feelings"

"It hurts when I tried to tell you that I've never killed him, I tried to save him mum but I couldn't" as Rach's voice went shaky as her eyes started to feel with tears, Frances gently pulled her back into a hug , Kathy held her hand again, this time Rachel let her she also cried into Frances.

"I know honey, I'm sorry"

"I want my mum back"

"I'm here sweetie, why don't you tell me and Frances what happened that night?

"You wouldn't believe me..."

"Hey we would honey"

"But you might not"

"Hey, we will"

"It was the day argument, I didn't know he was gonna use that car , I though he was going to use yours"

"What did you do Rach?" Kathy asked softly

"I...I cut the breaks of his car... I'm sorry mum"

Kathy just stroked her hand knowing it was an accident

"Hey it's okay, it wasn't your fault"

"No mum it is... I killed him!"

"But it was an accident you tried to stop it from happening"

Rach nodded a little "I'm a murder though"

"Rach, your not, don't ever think of your self as one"

"You should still hate me..."

"Rach I can't hate you anymore because your my daughter and I know we haven't always seen eye to eye but I love you"

"Mel's your favourite daughter, she's not a fuck up like me"

"Hey, Your not a fuck up, Your my special daughter"

"I'm not special, I'm just a mistake"

"Rach, shhh" Kathy said as she sat on the bed, Frances let go off Rach so that Kathy could hug her, Kathy hugged her tight, Rach put her head on her shoulder, Kathy kissed her head. Rach looked up at her a little

"Mum?"

"Yeah honey?" Kathy replied softly

"Can you forgive me for what I put the family through?"

"Hey, Course I can, I know that you never meant it" Kathy paused "Can you forgive me for saying that I never wanted to see you again?"

Rach nodded with tears "I miss him Mum"

"I know you do, because I miss him to" Kathy replied kissing her head with tears again before looking over at Frances

"I want you two to know that I'm not angry with you for liking each other, I'm proud that you've both found someone that makes you happy"

Frances looked at her "Thanks Miss"

Kathy smiled "Frances you can call me Kathy seeing that you are going out with my daughter"

Frances nodded and cuddled into them, Rach had got comfy on to Kathy and had fallen asleep again, this time she was asleep on her mum. Kathy looked down and smiled at her and stroked her hair "Someone's tired"

"Not surprised with how much alcohol she had taken in to her system today" Frances replied

Kathy nodded "Maybe now that she knows that she has a family she won't drink that much anymore".