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By the time Meredith arrived home, she was physically and emotionally exhausted. After answering 'I'm fine' to all of Mark's worrying questions, she took a nice, long, hot shower where she contemplated what was sure to happen next.
She was almost positive that Derek would go back to Seattle. And everything should return back to what it used to be. She would go back to being the new Meredith, successful, strong, and happy. She needed everything to return back to normal. She needed to forget Derek, forget that smile that made her melt in his arms, forget those eyes that made her knees weak, and forget those arms that wrapped around her in an embrace that was comfortable, an embrace that made her feel like she was home.
After her long shower, she walked into the bedroom where she saw Mark lying, reading The Sun Also Rises. She almost broke down in tears right there. Slowly she got into bed and pretended to sleep as tears trickled down her face silently. The Sun Also Rises had been Derek's favorite novel. How come every time she tried to forget him, he kept coming back?
"What's wrong, honey?" She heard Mark ask in a worried tone.
Crap.
"Umm… It's just… That book makes me cry every time. It's so sad." She blurted out pointing at the novel in Mark's hands.
"Is it? I'm only on the first chapter. Is it any good?"
"It's…It's a great book. But it's just sad." She said trying not to show that she was lying.
"Really?"
"Yeah. I'm a little tired. I think I'm going to sleep." She said pretending to yawn.
After she silently complimented herself on the great lie, she remembered the real reason for her tears. She decided not to think about it. Surely he'll be gone by tomorrow and then her life would return to normal.
A/N: Okay, well I finally updated. Mark's a little oblivious to what is going on. But don't worry, he'll learn the truth from a certain little one. Meredith is obviously still in love with Derek even if she won't admit it to herself. She believes that once Derek leaves, her feelings for him will slowly fade away. Little does she know that Derek may be in New York longer than she may like. This chapter was more MerMark. I don't really like this chapter all that much because it made Mark seem a little well dumb. And well I luv Mark, so I'm gonna try to develop his character more. This chapter was more the aftermath of the whole park thing in Meredith's point of view. You can see she's really hurting. Well, That's the chapter. Please review. The more reviews, the faster I update! ;)