I did not sleep well, tossing and turning until my comforter covered me like a cocoon. I didn't open my eyes until a cold hand grazed my forehead. "It's 1 o'clock, you still have a little time, if you want to sleep more." The soft velvet voice of my father slowly woke me completely. "No, I'm getting up." I said untangling myself from my confines. I was still tired, but I wasn't going to be able to get the rest I needed until I saw her and heard what happened.

"I see a lot of her in you." My father said slowly playing with a ringlet of my hair as I sat up. "I have some of you in me too," I stated defensively.

"Only the good traits I hope." He said laughing afterwards. I smiled up at him. I never got the chance to thank him for going down to Texas with me, because I had been so angry with him for leaving my mother with Jacob.

He took my hand, "You're welcome, anytime." With that he got up and left me to get ready. I walked across the large room, and glanced in the full length mirror next to the closet door. I looked terrible, and I sighed glancing at the clock. I still had a while before my mother was expected home. I decided I would jump in the shower and try and look as presentable as possible. My mother would be worried about me if I was still wearing the same clothes she last saw me in, and my hair was a tangled mess.

I took longer than necessary under the hot water, hoping that my tension would wash down the drain. After changing clothes and brushing through my matted curls I walked right past the full length mirror and made my way downstairs.

"Did you get enough sleep?" Alice beamed up at me from the tan sofa. "Not really, but I'll survive…" I trailed off; I didn't want to ask her how much longer I had to wait.

"She'll be here within the hour Ness", sometimes you would think Alice could read minds just like my father could. "Thank you…" I didn't know what else to say. With that I walked into the kitchen where I found Emmett and Rosalie.

"Hey kid! You hungry?" My uncle Emmett was behind the large counter with what looked like a cook book in front of him. Rosalie was leaning on the counter beside him.

"I don't think I could eat anything right now." I suddenly felt my stomach flop. When was the last time I'd eaten anything? I wasn't even sure. But I wasn't going to be able to eat when I was as nervous as I was. "I know I'm no Emril, but I could try!" He protested, thinking that I didn't want to eat because of his cooking skills.

"Don't make her eat if she doesn't want to Hun, she's upset still." Rosalie defended me leaving her place at my uncle's side to stand in front of me. "She'll be home soon Ness." With that she hugged me and I heard a humph from behind her. Emmett closed the cook book a little too loudly and suddenly I couldn't breath. "Put us down!" Rosalie stormed and we both dropped to the ground. I laughed, and I haven't laughed in a long time.

But I suddenly went from laughing to crying. As the tears rolled down my face, I heard my father walk through the door. "What happened?" He asked sternly, I knew he wasn't asking me, but my aunt and uncle.

"I hugged them." Emmett said innocently. "I huge bear hug!" Rosalie clarified playfully punching Emmett in the shoulder. I began sobbing harder. "Ness! What's the matter?" My father sank to my side on the floor. I knew I wouldn't be able to make out the words so I raised my hand to his face. The memories of Jacob's hugs and the way he always made me laughed flashed from my mind to my fathers. I missed him, and I finally realized that I may never get a hug like that again or laugh the way I could with him. My hand fell to my lap as I heard the swinging door open. I didn't want to see every one of my family members hovering over me so I lowered my head refusing to look up. There was nothing they could do to make me feel better. Suddenly a cold hand slid under my chin and tilted my head up. Through my cloudy vision of tears I saw my mothers face starring back and me. "MOM! Oh Mom!" I threw myself into her arms and we sat on the linoleum floor with no one else around us.

"Shhh" she patted my hair and rocked me back and forth slowly like I was an infant.

"Calm down sweetie." She said softly. I was no longer crying, but my breathing was uneven. Finally I was able to pull myself together. She was okay, but I needed to compose myself so I could find out what happened.

"I wish I had your gift right now." She said pulling me to my feet. "It would make this a lot easier, because it's a long story Ness."

I plopped myself down on one of the stools and stared after her. I was ready to hear everything now that my mind was clear. I was also wishing she could show me everything, that way she wouldn't be able to leave anything out that might upset me.

"I'm not sure where to start." She said sitting beside me, but facing me so I could read her face. "Well after Edward let with you, Jacob and I were frozen neither of us spoke for a long time. I wanted this to happen. You see I was nervous when you said you wanted Edward to go, because Jacob never really liked him and that's saying it mildly. I was afraid he would get angry, and I guessed right. I wanted him to calm down, so I could talk to him as Jacob and not a wolf. I was really hoping I would catch him before he morphed, but with none of us saying anything he finally calmed down enough." I underestimated my mother. I thought of when I first told her what happened between Jacob and I and her livid emotions. She was able to calm herself down enough so that she could cool down Jacob as well.

"So it didn't really surprise me when Jacob left the living room and came back wearing another pair of sweats. He must really go through a lot of them. Anyway, I told him that I sent you away because I thought it would be safer. Of course Jacob thought it was ridiculous because he would never hurt you. I told him that I also thought it would be best that you weren't there because I didn't want you to be emotionally hurt more than you already were, and that took him by surprise. I told him how difficult it was for you to tell him that you didn't want to be with him anymore. I explained to him that I understood what you were going through because I had been where you were before." My mother's eyes looked like a tear might've fallen from them as she spoke.

"Jacob reacted just like I thought he would. He said that it didn't shock him, because you and I were so much alike. I think that is one of the reasons he imprinted on you, because he wanted so desperately to be with me, that when I had you, you were the next thing that came close to having me. I explained that he could still have you in his life if he wanted, but not the way he was planning." It astonished me that my mother would allow Jacob within three feet of me. "Why did you say that?"

"You don't want Jacob in your life?" She said confusion playing on her face with the words. "Yes I do, but I doubt he would still want to be around me. And I thought that you and dad wouldn't want him around me either." I explained quickly.

"Let me handle your dad." She said with a smile.

"What does this mean than?" I asked still confused, especially with her smile gleaming in my direction.

"Well when I told him that he could still be a part of your life, he looked at me with the same confused look you have. So I explained it to him the same way I'll explain it to you.

Jacob loved me, and yet he was still strong enough to be friends with me despite all the things I did that he didn't approve of. So, if he loved you the way he says he loves you; he will respect your wishes and want nothing more than friendship from you. Of course I told him that if that wasn't good enough than to never speak to you again, because I didn't want you to get hurt more than you already were."

My jaw dropped. How could she tell Jacob to never speak to me again? I felt like I was about to break down like I had earlier when suddenly she interrupted me. "Sweetie, no worries, I'm smiling for a reason. Jacob told me to give you this." In her hand was a piece of paper folded in half. She handed it to me, and the letter sat in my hand. I hesitated, just starring down at it hoping that whatever was inside would heal the hole in my heart. Finally I lifted the corners.

Ness,

I'm so sorry.

But I was hoping you would forgive me.

You may not love me the way that I love you

And after talking to your mom, I think that we can still be friends

If that is what you want

I might need a little time, but I can't picture my life without you in it, even if you are in it only as my best friend

You are important to me, and I don't want to loose you completely.

Jack

My hands shook, as I folded the letter back up and put it on the counter. My mother covered my hands with hers. "Not too many people get the chance of keeping someone this important in their lives Ness. He is being very strong by still wanting to be your friend." Suddenly with her words it sunk in. Because of her, I got to keep one of the most important people in my life. I got up swiftly wrapping my arms around her neck. "Thank you mom! I love you so much!" As I let go, I realized how she must be feeling. She had more of a difficult time keeping Jacob in her life, if it weren't for me being born, she probably wouldn't be friends with Jacob today. "He must love you too." I stated finally. Now she was the one with the confused expression. "And why do you say that?" She asked me finally. "Because…" I laughed. "Jacob is so tenacious, and he's a little softer with the people he loves." She laughed lightly and took me in her arms again.

"So do you want to go tell your father the good news?" She asked me quietly.

"No way! You said you would handle dad!" I reminded her quickly.

"Well at least I won't have to repeat the story because he was most likely listening to the whole conversation." And she smiled. I smiled back and laughed knowing that she knew my father so well.