I just don't get it, he didn't seem mad at me at the movies, or the one time I had talked to him since, but Jacob hadn't seen me in two weeks. Maybe I had misjudged him, maybe he really was upset at me for not feeling the same way he did. I really did wish I could feel like that, he was my best friend and I hated hurting him.

But I didn't, couldn't feel like that about him, about anyone. I hadn't gotten over him yet. It still hurt to even think his name, and I knew it was over, I knew that. And I would move past him, eventually, it would just take me some time.

I thought Jake knew that, I thought he knew he was essential for me to start to rebuild myself. Maybe he finally realized how selfish I was being and realized that he deserved better than me. The thought hurt me enough that it felt like I physically needed to hold myself together or I would actually break apart.

Maybe it was better this way, if Jacob wasn't around me Laurent and Victoria wouldn't hurt him when they finally came for me. I had been waiting since I had seen Laurent in the meadow, surprised it had taken them this long. Surely Laurent would have told her that I was here alone, unprotected, easy for her to get to and kill. But then again maybe Laurent had been right, she wouldn't want me now that him and the rest of them weren't here, didn't care about me.

She wanted revenge against him, not me, and killing me obviously wouldn't give her that, maybe she found a new way to hurt him. The thought hurt me, I didn't want him to be hurt in any way, he was a good person.

"Just keep yourself busy," I whispered to myself as I worked on my math homework. It was always a good distraction because it took all of my concentration and I wasn't very good at it. This is what I had gone back to in the past week, distracting myself, keeping myself busy.

Only this time it hadn't seemed as painful, maybe because I was used to it, but that isn't what it seemed like, this seemed different. Maybe it was because this hadn't been ended, maybe I still had some hope that this could be fixed.

"I'm going to fix this," I said to myself. I still sounded a little unsure and so I repeated it, "I'm going to fix this." It sounded better, more confident. I could do this, he was Jacob, he would hear me out, I would make sure of it.

After another week I couldn't take it, I had given him enough time to come to me, I had been patient enough. I decided to go to his house tomorrow, Saturday, and confront him, and tell him everything I had been thinking. I needed my best friend back. My friends from school were fine, but other than Angela I didn't find myself wanting to be around them. I just found myself being near them as a reason to not be alone.

The next morning I got up and waited at least until 8, I figured that would be late enough for it to be acceptable. And I couldn't handle waiting any longer, Charlie had gone fishing, I had nothing to distract me.

The drive seemed to take forever but I finally got there and I decided I would wait outside, someone would have to come out eventually. I saw one of the curtains move in the small house and Billy's face appeared. He looked confused and I waved at him. He scowled at me and let the curtain drop.

A few minutes of nothing went by and I was beginning to wonder why I hadn't thought to bring anything to do.

"Maybe I have a piece of paper in-"

I was interrupted by a knock on my window and I nearly jumped out of my skin. Jacob was standing beside my truck, only it didn't look like Jacob.

This Jacob had cut off all of his hair, his beautiful hair, but that wasn't why I could see it wasn't my Jacob. I had never seen his features so twisted by unending rage. He looked like he absolutely hated me, and it terrified me.

"What are you doing here Bella?" He asked me, and his voice even sounded different, angrier, distant. This was not going to end well, I could feel it in my gut.

So, I know this chapter is really short again, so I'm posting this chapter and the next one today, and I promise that soon I will be posting chapters with more content, and it will finally start to drift away from the original plot line of the books/movies.

I really appreciate all the comments I've been getting and the feedback encourages me to keep going, so thank you!