In his bathroom, Levi vomited again, tears streaming down his face as his stomach heaved. Having emptied itself of his lunchtime stew, his stomach tightened and rolled. He gripped the toilet bowl as he unwillingly voided up thick sour bile.
He had nothing left in his system to throw up, yet grief kept him retching again and again. Eventually his wet sounds of distress quietened down, and he slumped gasping beside the toilet. His heart pounded and sweat prickled on his skin.
Sighing in mild relief, he lowered his face into his palms, feeling the sickly heat radiating from his cheeks.
Jesus Christ…What do I do…I've lost her… Swiping his fist across his face, he pressed his forehead against the cool tiled wall. He rested peacefully there for several minutes. His head jerked up sharply as adrenaline filled his body.
"No! She hasn't married him yet! I can at least tell her how I feel. I can still give her my letter." Patting his pocket, he realised he had mislaid it. "Shit! At least it wasn't signed. If anyone finds it they'll think it belongs to one of the brats."
Standing up, his blood was thrashing furiously in his veins as his brow furrowed in determination. "I'll go to her quarters and talk one on one." If she…DOES…choose him in the end, at least I will not regret remaining quiet. I will give her my heart!
Levi rose like a vengeful spirit, beautiful and proud. Sweeping his fringe back, he rinsed his mouth out and, inhaling deeply, marched purposefully to your room, stopping in front of the wooden door he had spent so many nights staring at, lacking the courage to knock. iNO MORE!/i
He rapped sharply- no response. Shit, is she still in the Hall?
Biting his lip, he decided to wait for you inside. Cautiously pushing your door in, he was mildly horrified at the state of the place. Clothes were scattered everywhere, paperwork was messily strewn across your desk.
He sat tentatively on the edge of your bed, hoping it wouldn't give you the wrong impression. Clearing his throat, he practised how he would initiate the conversation, stumbling and stopping himself in frustration.
Time wore on and nearly an hour passed by. Levi sat in silence now, his earlier confidence rapidly fading. His bladder clenched in nervousness. God I need to piss…Glancing at your en suite bathroom, he gave in, the need to relieve himself greater than anything. He wandered into your bathroom, not bothering to properly close the door, merely closing it over.
After relieving himself, he took a few minutes to fix himself up, tidying his messy fringe. He stiffened as he heard the bedroom door opening and footsteps entering. Shitshitshit, here she is, shitshitSHIT!
Levi tried to slow his breathing as he reached for the door handle. He stopped dead when he heard you talking to someone. Hanji? he wondered- and felt his skin crawl when Erwin's deep voice responded to you.
Hearing you giggle because of him caused a wave of fury to shiver through Levi's body. Peeping through the crack in the door he clenched his fists in anger as the two of you removed your boots, sighing in relief together, laughing together.
You and Erwin were starting to pack up your belongings, folding them neatly into one of the many wooden crates that were stacked in a corner. Erwin picked up a black bra, one eyebrow raised in amusement as you snatched it away from him. "Oi you, behave. Plenty of time for that AFTER I've moved in!" Erwin simply smiled and wrapped his arms around you. You closed your eyes, inhaling the unique smell of him- a smell of something warm and comforting and slightly spicy. "Hmmmmm…." You hummed happily into his arms.
Erwin swivelled you around to face him and kissed you, softly at first, deepening into something that hinted at more. A spark rose in your lower stomach and your inner thighs clenched as he traced his fingers along your collarbone, dipping slightly to tickle the curve of your breasts.
Levi's breath caught in his chest, yet his eyes were glued to the horrific scene.
You steered Erwin towards the bed, your eyes burning with lust. "You're beautiful you know?" His words made you blush, no matter how many times he said it. Pulling you into his lap, you wrapped your legs around him, straddling him. His strong fingers unbuttoned your shirt and slid your body free, exposing your skin to the air. "Absolutely beautiful…I feel so proud that everyone knows about us, about the wonderful woman I've been blessed with..."
His words were lost as he planted tiny kisses in the hollow of your neck. Your breathing deepened as his hands skilfully unclipped your bra. His lips closed around one of your nipples, sucking and drawing your skin deeper into his mouth. He cupped the other breast, working your nipple with his fingers.
He was excited too, you could sense it in his breathing, the way his eyes were flashing, the satisfied moans he was making as he feasted on your pinkened flesh.
He released your breast, your nipple rosy and tingling. Seizing you by your waist, you could tell he wanted you badly. "Slow down baby, slow down, I'm not going anywhere." You soothed him softly as you pulled him down to meet your lips. "I'm lucky, so lucky, to have you. I love you so much." His words tickled in your ear, making your heart soar with love and desire.
Levi clenched his eyes tight, unable to look anymore. He heard clothing being removed, he heard whispering…
Silence…
He cautiously opened his eyes again to behold the sight of your naked form on the bed. His eyes drank in your body, the dip of your throat, the soft plumpness of your breasts, your toned stomach and hypnotic hips that sloped down to your pussy. Levi couldn't break away his gaze from your shapely ass, as you turned to Erwin, who quickly removed the last of his clothes. His hands traced up your thighs, gently stroking against your pussy, causing you to catch your breath. Why...why do I see her NOW, with someone else?
In despair, Levi shook his head, wishing above all else, that it was he who would make love to you, show his dedication to you by offering his flesh, body and soul to you.
Your skin glowed with happiness, with love, with excitement as Erwin lay next to you, the heat of his bare skin mingling with yours.
Levi turned away, trapped in this hellish nightmare. No…fuck no…I can't see this, I can't hear this…GET YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF HER!
Erwin crept down the bed and teased your knees apart. You looked up at him, perfect, toned, scarred, of course, but beautiful. His chest was wide, his shoulders broad. His chest was dusted with blonde strands that darkened into a light brown on his stomach. His treasure trail led down to a most impressive, thick erection, nestled in silky curls.
He knowingly rubbed it against your opening, relishing the feeling of his cock sliding between your moist lips. Your cheeks grew flushed as he leaned down and kissed your pussy, his tongue slipping into your folds and flicking lightly against that tiny pearl of electric flesh.
You gasped as he grazed his teeth against your thigh. "Ah Erwin…who would think the proud Commander could be so filthy?" He chuckled, creating little vibrations that thrilled you. "This is the me that only you know. Though sometimes you make me want to lose control."
He slid up your body, pressing his tip into your clit, making you moan as you felt your flesh grow slick with his pre-cum. "I want to hear you moan like that again. I want to lay claim to you, I want to make love to you like this forever." He slowly, teasingly grinded his cock against you.
"I love you Erwin. Show me. Show me how you'll love me as your wife."Erwin reached down and, using your juices, slid two fingers into you, wiggling them. "You want me to keep doing this? Or do you want me to stop?" He quickly withdrew his digits, leaving you feeling empty. "You fucker, don't tease me!" Your voice cracked in desperation.
Erwin smiled as he filled you with his fingers again, slowly this time, stretching your tender skin. His palm rubbed against your clit as he pumped his hand back and forth. The weight of his his cock lay heavily against your thigh. He was built unusually thick, with balls to match, velvety-soft skin over rigid flesh. His cock head was swelling, glistening with sticky fluid.
You felt yourself growing wetter and juicier, your pleasure spiking, until, with a shudder and a gasp, you came in his hand. "That's what I like to see, you're quite dirty yourself, you know." Erwin removed his slick fingers, placing them in his mouth and sucking them clean. "You taste like more!" He kissed you, your own intimate taste upon your tongue. His faint stubble scratched your skin deliciously.
"I want you inside me baby." Erwin happily obliged, falling upon your body like a wave crashing onto the shore. Pinning your hands above your head, he eased his throbbing cock head into you with care. You moaned softly, relishing that instant he spread your skin wide. Erwin shuddered, forcing himself to go gently, remembering how tight you were. He pulled out and thrust forward again, pushing a little more inside you, your moans driving him wild.
He momentarily lost control, and forced his cock in fully. "AH! God!" you cried out loudly, pleasure on the brink of discomfort. "Sorry, sweetheart, I'm sorry." he whispered, kissing your neck, his blonde hair, loose and in disarray, tickling your cheek.
Your Commander stilled with difficulty, allowing your body time to accommodate him before sliding the rest of his girth into you with a relieved sigh. He seemed impossibly thick, your pussy felt on the point of tearing, but you knew this would pass very soon and give way to immeasurable pleasure.
Your walls tightened, clenching him, locking him deep within you. Erwin began to thrust, forwards and upwards, hitting your sweet spot. He placed his hands under you, on the small of your back, lifting you ass and pushing your hips against him in time with his thrusts.
He was incredible, the two of your bodies working in a rhythm that can only come from familiarity.
He was always a caring, selfless lover, ensuring you reached your peak several times before allowing himself to let go.
Sensing you were close, he quickly pulled out and rolled you over, lifting you onto all fours. He pushed into you hard and fast, brutal thrusts that were almost like stabs, rough and raw, the way he knew you liked it. He circled one hand around your throat, as his other hand gripped your hips for better anchorage. He cracked his hand against your ass, the fleshy snap echoing above the sounds of your lovemaking. Erwin was gasping with each thrust, delighting in your cries.
With each slam of his hips, his hand tightened slightly around your neck, thrilling you, dizzying you with the sudden lack of oxygen. Your rising groans, getting louder and louder, were enough to tell him to help you finish off. He leaned back, shifting himself until he was kneeling, pushing you deeper onto his flesh.
Tangling his hands in your hair, he pulled your head to one side and sank his teeth into your neck, one tooth puncturing your skin ever so slightly. He pounded you mercilessly, his cock buried into you balls-deep, impaling you. He was biting deeper with each motion, viciously sucking and tearing at your neck until- "AH! ERWIN!"
In the bathroom, tears ran down Levi's face as he heard you crying out your pleasure. Nothing could compare to the pain of hearing his best friend making love to you. Each cry of delight from you was a knife in Levi's heart. He didn't need to imagine your face as you came- now he knew what it was like. And he knew agony, aware that he could never please you in that way.
With a wild shuddering, you came again, riding out your orgasm and as your body shook and bucked, Erwin's cock speared you deeply. He relaxed his grip, allowing you to lose yourself in your pleasure, your body naturally bobbing on his flesh. Sweat glistened on his body as he urgently tried to control himself to hold on, just a little longer.
Your body was driving him crazy, the slick tightness, the clenching spasms that ran through you. The scent of your release made him dizzy. He was determined to love you more, love you harder than ever before. He loved your cries and moans, loved when he could make you scream. But most of all, he loved the way you said his name at your peak. Your heart fluttered to a calmer beat beneath his hands, as he cupped your breasts.
Kissing your bruised neck, tasting a tiny drop of blood, he leaned over you once more, his body enveloping you. "Are you ok, sweetheart? I wasn't too rough was I?"
Looking over your shoulder at him, his eyes were full of concern. Amazing how he can go from an animal to an angel in a split second. "That...that was amazing. But…I can't get enough of you…"
Reaching back, you ran your nails down his thigh, feeling his cock stiffen again inside you. He closed his eyes and tried to contain the moan that threatened to escape. "I know what you want Erwin. Do your thing."
Reluctantly sliding yourself free from his rock hard flesh, you sat at the edge of the bed, legs spread wide, allowing him to see the juice that existed because of him. He knelt on the floor between your legs, burying his tongue into your juicy pussy. He sucked your clit into a whirling storm of electric feeling, relishing your cries and moans, loving that he could bring you such pleasure, before lifting himself to hold you against him, your skin glistening with sweat.
You spoke softly in his ear- "Fuck me. Fuck me, Erwin. I want you to fuck me, any way you like. Because I love you, more than anything. I want you to fuck me hard."
You gasped in surprise as he roughly scooped you off the bed with an angry growl, forcefully wrapping your legs around his waist.
He lowered you onto his cock, taunting you with the swollen tip before groaning loudly as your body swallowed up his throbbing flesh. He looped his arms around you and thrust upwards, hard and slow, bucking a little harder each time.
He loved it like this, loved to watch your face grow wild with lust, loved to watch your face contort with pleasure he was giving you.
He reached up to your shoulders and pulled you down even further onto him, making you hiss air out between your teeth. You were shaking, already close again with his deliberate movements. "Erwin, more!"
Erwin didn't need any convincing. He practically ran to the wall opposite the bathroom, and pinned you against it.
The rough concrete bit into your skin, marking you with thousands of tiny scratches. Whimpers escaped you without warning as Erwin claimed you.
Your cries rose higher and higher as he slammed into you, a dull thudding echoing around the room as the wall took both your weight. The fleshy sound of two bodies slapping against each other reverberated around the room.
Levi stared through the door crack in absolute horror and awe- he didn't think someone as small as you could take such aggression. He'll fucking break her, the bastard! Over Erwin's muscled shoulder, Levi could see your eyes clenched in pleasure, hear your breath gasping.
Your breasts shook every time Erwin thrust into you, your hands clutched desperately at the Commander's back, leaving deep red scratches in his skin. Your legs were around his waist, your feet digging into his buttocks spurred him on, as you urged him in deeper.
Erwin held your hands tight above your head as he kneaded your buttocks with his free hand, forcing himself into you fully time and time again, feeling your pussy walls strain to accept his swollen cock.
His silky hair clung to his forehead, as his breathing became heavy and panting. You felt the tell-tale tremble in his hips that mean he was at his limit. You loved seeing his eyes fill with that almost desperate lust, loved that split second when Erwin let go and gave himself fully to you.
"Baby…I have to…" His voice was rough, panting, begging your approval. Gasping, you nodded. With a throaty animalistic sound, Erwin emptied himself into you, his scalding hot fluid burning a firework through your entire system. His proud, strong voice carried in the dead air, deep earthy groans that shook with each spasm.
Feeling him indulging in his climax drove you to the edge. Erwin's tongue seeking out yours threw you over as he bit your lip hard- you screamed "ERWIN!" His mouth tried to unsuccessfully swallow your noises as your bodies trembled together.
You were alone in the world, with eyes only for each other. Blinding white circles danced on the edge of your vision as you exploded together. A tremendous heat sparked between you as with a final low moan, Erwin pressed the last of himself into you, holding your body tight to his.
Breathing slowed. Hearts calmed. Erwin gently wrapped his arms around you and, his throbbing cock still buried inside you, lay on the bed, pulling you onto his chest as his flesh slowly relaxed.
Kissing you, he sighed in satisfaction. "I love you, you little minx." Chuckling softly, you ran your fingers along his carved cheekbones, marvelling at the man you would marry.
"I love you too Erwin." Glancing round the room, you rolled your eyes before settling your head on his chest again. "So much for packing!"
Erwin laughed loudly, his voice booming around the room, blue eyes sparkling. "To hell with it. Sleep in my quarters tonight and we'll sort it in the morning. I feel like falling asleep with you officially tonight. I want to wake up with you in my arms without worrying about Hanji or Levi walking in on us."
Savoring the wonderful afterglow of coupling, you felt him slip from you, your mingling fluids dampening your thighs, smelled the musky scent of him. It always reminded you of pennies clutched in a hand for too long, that slightly metallic scent. The scent of him.
You listened to his heartbeat, knowing it as intimately as you knew your own. Tracing your eyebrows, Erwin stirred as his previously turgid flesh finally relaxed. He nuzzled your hair. "Come on sweetheart, let's not give everyone more to gossip about."
You laughed- "Yeah we wouldn't want them thinking their stiff, proper Commander is a kinky old man, would we?" Rolling you off him, Erwin spanked your ass in retaliation, chuckling under his breath. "Hey, less of the old man, huh? Young enough to keep up with you, young whippersnapper!"
Laughing, you grabbed a towel and cleaned yourself up, the sticky pearly liquid still gently escaping your intimate lips. You slipped your lacy black underwear on, eliciting a cough and a "Nice view!" from Erwin.
Throwing his shirt at him, giggling, you quickly got dressed, and tossed him the rest of his clothes, loathe though you were to see that magnificent body covered again, that strong chest and muscled thighs, the firm tight ass and his incredible cock that could impale you violently and also love you so sweetly. Your hips began to ache deliciously, the result of your intense lovemaking.
"Damn Erwin, you uh, really filled me up this time."
Wrapping his arms around you, he rested his chin on your head. "Maybe someday...that'll come in handy."
Reaching up, you placed a hand against his cheek. "Erwin, are you saying what I think you're saying? Are you talking about..."
"A baby? Yes. Someday, if you want. I think you'd be a wonderful mother. It's just a thought. Because I'd like a family with you, someday."
Pulling away, you hugged him tight, thrilled beyond words. You both resumed dressing in comfortable silence, each thinking the same thoughts.
Dressed now, you fixed his hair for him, as he stroked yours. Gazing into his incredible azure eyes, you felt your whole being swell with happiness. "I love you Commander Smith." He kissed his reply.
You left together, hand in hand, the heat and scent of lovemaking clinging to you both.
Within the bathroom, Levi lowered his face into his hands again, nauseated and broken at what he had witnessed. How can I compare to that? She loves him, loves his touch, loves his skin, loves everything, even the way he fucks her!
The thought of you pregnant with Erwin's child shook him to his core. Until it had been spoken aloud, he never even knew it was something HE had wanted with you.
Images of a little dark haired boy with your eyes ran through his mind, scenes of the youngster holding Levi's hand, being tossed into the air and caught by his father. A child's voice echoed with laughter in his head- "Daddy!"
The little boy faded before him, a haunting vision of what would never be. No matter whether he told you or not, the life Levi wanted with you, would never happen.
Slamming his fist into the wall, his heart turned to stone. I'll never tell her. Never. She loves him so passionately, she'll never love me that way.
Choking back a sob Levi silently left your quarters. Mumbling to himself as he walked slowly back to his room- "I'm half the man he is…If I tell her how I feel, she'll feel guilty..I can't hurt her…She will never ever know."
Locking his door, Levi sat in darkness and let his heartbreak loose…