"Edward! What was that for?" I yelled back at him, as I picked myself off the floor.
"I am sick of your drama! It's something new every day. You are more wrapped up in yourself than you are with me," he accused.
"What are you talking about?" I asked him annoyed. "You are my number one priority! I put you ahead of myself! I have done everything you have asked of me! So, I ask you again, what are you talking about?"
"Number one, don't yell at me," he said. He was so calm that I was more scared. "Number two, I come before anyone else, and if I say you aren't talking to someone, guess what? You won't!" he said as he pushed me into the wall. "I wasn't going to do this, but now you have royally pissed me off!" he said punching the wall by my head. "You are not talking to your mother any time soon! You are going to focus on us and no one else! Got it?" he yelled in my face. "And quick fucking crying! You are not a baby!" He headed to the front door. "I find out you have talked to her behind my back and this," he said waving his hand between the two of us, "will get a hell of lot worse!" He slammed the door and left.
I could handle that, him leaving mid argument and not hitting me. I didn't understand why he was paranoid about me leaving or other people coming before him. With what I've found out about him he had a very good childhood, with both of his parents in his life. I was wondering if he was the like this, because something happened in a past relationship or if he was just that much of a spoiled brat. He had experience in life and I didn't, but I felt more mature. Yeah, I didn't know a whole bunch about being in a relationship or sex, I knew what sex was I just didn't had any experience, but I knew he really had no reason to be the way he was.
I have wanted to talk to Renee more than anything; I really wanted to pick her brain. Edward knew this and yet, when I get my chance he flies off the handle. I knew he was under pressure with the grand opening days away, but again, his reaction didn't make sense to me. I knew I was going to have to try and curve my crying. I didn't want to upset him more when he was already mad.
I wanted to keep my mind busy, so I started to clean the apartment. I did laundry, cleaned the bathroom, bedroom, living room, and kitchen. When I was done with all the cleaning I went back to the laundry room and folded the clothes that had finished drying. While I was in the closet putting everything away, I heard the front door open and shut. My heart started to beat a mile a minute. I hoped that he was in a better mood.
"You're still up," he said, as I walked out of the closet. I glanced at the clock and saw that it was after eleven. "I'm sorry I pushed you," he said as he handed me a single rose.
"It's okay, you didn't hurt me. Thank you," I said as I stepped closer taking the rose from him.
"I love you Bella and I hate that I get so angry, I have no excuse," he said as he pulled me into a hug. "I'm so sorry; you don't know how many relationships I have fucked up, because of my temper. You are the only person I have ever felt such a strong connection with, and I don't want you to leave me," he said. What took my breath away was when he nuzzled into my neck and started to cry. "I am sorry Bella, I love you," he said for the second time. "I just want some time for us. It seems like there is always something or someone getting in our way," he said with a sniffle.
"You really love me?"
"Yes, do you think you could ever love me back?"
"Yes," I said as he started to kiss my neck.
"I want you to love me, marry me, and have babies with me. I want it all with you," he said as my eyes started to water.
"I want the same things."
"Would you marry me?"
"Tomorrow," I said wanting to prove to him that I wanted to be with him just as much.
"You love me?"
"Yes," I said with a smile. "I love you."
"God, I love you too," he said as me picked me up off the ground and hugged me. "I wish it wasn't so late, I will make it up to you tomorrow," he said as he kissed me.
"Promise?" I asked trying to sound cute.
"Yeah, I promise," he said into my mouth as he kissed me. "Go get ready for bed," he said as he set me back on my feet. I walked out to the kitchen and found a tall glass for my rose and then went back to the bedroom. He was already in bed, so I hurried to get myself ready. When I got into bed he had my covers pulled back and he was waiting with open arms.
"I forgot to tell you, we are going to my parents tomorrow for dinner," he said. I was immediately nervous.
"Do they know about our age differences?"
"Bella, age is just a number," he told me. "There is nothing to be nervous about, they will love you," he said as he lifted my head to his. "They will love you as much as I do," he said kissing my mouth.
I didn't know how to describe the way his kisses made me feel. His lips and tongue were so soft, but even when our kisses were sweet and slow, there was always dominance, possessiveness behind each kiss. I loved every kiss he has ever giving me. Tonight felt like a change for us, and I just had to hope that it stayed.
The alarm clock went off way too early. I was perfectly warm and I wanted to sleep more. What shocked me was that Edward was up before me. I felt like I needed fifteen more minutes, but Edward didn't allow that.
"Come on, let's go shower," he said moving back the blankets. As soon as the cool air hit the skin on my bare legs I was put into a bad mood.
"I don't wake you up when I get up," I said in a snotty tone.
"Ah, someone's in a bad mood," he said with a laugh.
"How can you be in such a good mood at six in the morning?"
"Because, I have a beautiful girlfriend that I love, and who is going to be in the shower with me in two minutes or I won't be happy," he said with a playful serious voice.
"We wouldn't want that now would we," I said as I sat up and flung my legs over the side of the bed.
I brushed my teeth while he peed and then we reversed the rolls. I was getting more and more comfortable with him every day. I didn't feel as shy about taking my clothes off in front of him. As the warm water hit my cold skin I was in heaven and I didn't want to share the water. As I wet my hair he fondled my breast.
"Do you know how beautiful you are?"
"You make me feel beautiful," I said as I started to wash my hair.
As I watched him shower I started to think about how easy men had it when it came to taking a shower. They needed one bottle of soap and they were done. I had my shampoo, conditioner, body wash, and shaving gel, it was all a little much. By the time I was done rinsing out the shampoo he was done. He never got out though; he always stayed with me while I shaved. It didn't take me long to shave, but I didn't like shaving the who-ha in front of him. I didn't know why.
"Have you ever thought about waxing?" he asked as he rubbed the shaving gel off of my vagina. The thought of waxing scared the shit out of me; it had to hurt like hell. I felt bold at the moment, and I wrapped my hand around his shaft and started to jerk him off.
"Have you ever thought of waxing?" I asked him as I gently pulled at his pubic hair.
"Point taking," he said with a chuckle. Just as I was going to take my hand away he grabbed my wrist and started to move my hand faster.
"Do we have time for this?" I asked.
"I won't be able to take care of you, but my promise still stands for tonight," he said looking me in the eyes. He was so sexy, I couldn't deny him anything. "Fuck, that feels so good," he said as I worked him over. I moved my hand up and down on him as fast as I could, and before I knew he came.
"Was that good?" I asked rinsing my hand off before he shut the water off.
"Yeah, I really needed it," he said with his pretty smile. I started thinking about us having sex, and every time the thought came in to my mind I would get nervous. I was small and he was very large, I didn't think it was humanly possible for him to fit inside of me.
"Can I ask you a stupid question?"
"Babe, if the question gets an answer, it's not stupid."
"Well, the questions not stupid, I just feel stupid asking it," I said with a laugh.
"What do you want to know?"
"Are you going to fit inside of me? I mean I'm really small and you're really big. I know it is going to hurt no matter what, but that thing looks like it is going to rip me in two," I said as I started to get dressed.
"Bella, I fucking love you," he said as he laughed and shook my head. "Yes, I will fit, there is nothing to worry about," he said as we finished getting dress. "Change your shirt, you have to much boob showing," he said. I didn't even think twice about what he said until I pulled the shirt up and over my head.
"Were you serious?" I asked as I stood in front of him. All he did was nod his head yes. I didn't find it a big deal that he wanted me to change, but I found it odd that I had already worn the shirt to school while I had been with him.
"Should I get on some kind of birth control or something?" I asked him not knowing what he would want me to do.
"You are just full of questions today," he said as we were getting in the car.
"I know, it's just that I know you are going to want to have sex, but you said something last night about wanting babies, so, I just didn't know what you wanted me to do."
"Would you be upset if you got pregnant in two weeks from now?"
"I don't think that would bother me," I told him honestly.
"And, we are going to get married, so I don't see why you have to worry about birth control."
"We are getting married?"
"Um...yeah you said yes last night when I asked you. I'm going to get you a ring today," he said with a smile.
"That's so cool," I said. It felt like my life was coming together. "Were you serious last night when you said I couldn't talk to Renee?" I asked as we made our way to the school. I knew this could cause a fight, but I really wanted to know.
"Yes, I'm not saying you can't ever talk to her, just not right now. I really just want to focus on us. Baby, I know you want to talk to her, but I want to be on the top of your list right now," he said almost pouting.
"You will always be at the top of my list, well that is until we have children and then you will go down to number two," I said as he laughed.
"Okay, that's a fair deal," he said. "I think I would be a great dad."
"I would have to agree with you, but you have to do something about your temper," I said as he rolled his eyes.
"We will worry about that when the time comes," he said as we pulled into the school parking lot. "Okay, we are going to try this again," he said as he put the car in park and turned toward me. "See if you can get a ride home from Rosalie," he said unzipping my bag and grabbing my phone. "This is a cell phone, if she says she has to go to the store, you call me and let me know. Do you understand?"
"I'm not fucking stupid," I said as I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms over my chest.
"I want you right home so you have enough time to get ready. Do you understand? Your attitude is not needed. This is your second and last chance to prove to me that you can handle this," he said.
"Yes, I understand," I told him as he put my phone back into my bag.
"Have a good day. I should be home around four thirty and we have to be at my parent at five thirty, so please make sure you are ready," he said staring at me.
"Yes, I will be ready."
"Good, I love you," he said with a sweet smile.
"I love you too, and I hope you have a great day," I said as I leaned in for a kiss. As I got out of the car I was greeted by Rose and Alice.
"Rose, have you been crying?" I asked knowing her eyes were never that puffy.
"Emmett and I got into a fight," she said. I knew how she was feeling. "He said he is buying me a new car." I felt so bad for her. Any other person would be happy about this, but Rose rebuilt the whole engine. Her car was her baby. I understood why she was upset. "He said he was sick of me always fiddling with it, and 'nothing works right'," she said making air quotes. "I told him I wouldn't drive it and he got so mad," she said wiping her tears away.
"Did he hit you?" Alice asked rubbing her back.
"No, his yelling was enough," she said as she composed herself. In a sick, twisted way I felt better knowing that someone else was fighting as well. "Are you both going to their parent's house tonight?"
"Yup, I can't wait!" Alice said too excited.
"I'll be there," I said with a smile. "Do you think you could give me a ride home after school?"
"Yeah I have to go get clothes and then go to Emmett's, he gave me until three to get to his house," she said rolling her eyes. Before we were inside Rose's phone started to go off.
"Hello?" she asked sounding sad. "Okay, I understand," she said seeming to look a little happier. "I am going to give Bella a ride home and then I will be home by three," she said sounding more like herself. "K, love you too," she said hanging up the phone.
"Love you too?" I asked knowing that she was picking on me just a few days before about those words.
"Shut up," she said with an eye roll and walked away.
The day went faster than I would have liked. I hated feeling nervous about meeting new people, this was a good thing. Edward said that his parent's would love me, and I had to trust his words. I really wanted to meet his parents, but I just couldn't shake my nerves. Rose and I met at her car and she was all smiles.
"So, I see your day is going better," I said as she smiled at me.
"When Emmett called this morning he said he was sorry and he didn't mean to yell. As long as I promised not to work on my car while we were together than I could keep it, but if it breaks one more time it's gone," she said.
"And you are okay with this?"
"Yeah, he was going to take it off the road tomorrow. So, yeah I can deal with that," she said as we started to drive. We were about ten minutes away from home when her car started to shake really bad.
"What's wrong?" I asked getting scared.
"I think I just blew a tire," she said as she pulled over. She jumped out of her car and we saw that she did have a flat. "Shit," she said as she kicked the deflated tire. I knew I had to call Edward and let him know what was going on. "What the fuck are you doing?" she said slapping at my phone.
"I have to call Edward and let him know what is going on," I told her as her eyes welded up with tears. "What's wrong?"
"You can't call Edward, because then Emmett will find out, and he will take my baby away," she said as she started to cry.
"Rose, please don't cry, I'm sorry, but I have to call him or I will be in a shit load of trouble when I get home," I said as she started to cry harder. "Stop crying and start fixing the tire. I will see if Edward won't tell him, okay?" I asked her as she started to get to work on the tire. The girl knew her away around cars. Before Edward even answered his phone she had the car jacked up.
"Hey, Baby. You home?" he asked.
"Um...no, Rose got a flat and she is fixing it now, so it shouldn't be that long. I just wanted to let you know," I said as I heard someone yell in the background. "I'm sorry you're mad, no one knew this was going to happen. I don't want to fight with you, please I'm so sorry," I said as I held back the tears.
"I'm not mad Baby, where are you?"
"Oh, well, that's a good thing. Do you think maybe, that you won't tell Emmett about this?"
"Too late," I heard a voice other than Edward's say.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck!" I hear Rose yell.
"Rose, are you okay?" I asked.
"What's wrong is she hurt?" I heard Emmett say.
"Shit, your bleeding."
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