Discovery of one's self.
This is a sequel to 'Eyes of a unwanted girl' and I hope you enjoy, especially Rylie D, who was one of my most fav readers.
I am currently working on this and the next chapter of 'Through her eyes' so don't worry it will be up soon. And thank you to my few, but awesome readers.
Also, again, I have no clue regarding the name of this darling story. Sad, I know.
Sorry for not updating. I have been busy, what with skool starting and RCI, which means I'm taking a college course along with my normal classes. Gods it gets worse, they blocked fanfiction at my skool. I know, tragic.
Oh my new story is called Suddenly I See and so far there are three chapters up so enjoy.
Ok just like last time:This is raven speech
This is thoughts and mind speech
This is dreams and visions
This is any speech of every other animal
This is Wolf
Songs in Last Chapter in the order they were played:
Evanescence- GoodnightFrom the Hit Anime Show 'Cowboy Bebop'- The Real Folk Blues
Flyleaf- All Around Me
Heart- AloneRascal Flatts- What Hurts The Most
Death Cab For Cutie- I'll Follow You Into The Dark
My Chemical Romance- Ghost Of YouChapter 7: Fate Is A Bitch
((She grabbed her remote and turned her CD player up louder. But what unnerved her the most was the fact that in the song that was playing, Anne heard Conor's voice.
" Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark"
Anne fell into the Cd, unaware of the weeping girl hidden in the shadows, hidden in the tree canopy.
" I never said I'd lie and wait forever At the end of the world Get the feeling that you're never At the end of the world If I fall At the end of the world
If I died, we'd be together
I can't always just forget her
But she could try
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
and all the smiles that are ever ever...
Ever...
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
and all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
If I fall (down)
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
for all the ghosts that are never gonna..."))
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The weeping girl turned out to be Conor's sister, who had been in America for the last four years. Her name was Dolla and she had never felt such grief off the young leader.
Slowly she came out of the shadows, just as Anne was walking out onto the balcony, the tears still running down her face, the music seeming to follow her out. The lights were bright around Anne, but they stopped when they reached her eyes. The music alone was the only thing that reached her and Dolla could see her mouth forming the words to the song.
" Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you
Burning on just like the match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Cane a time when every star falls
Brought you to tears again
We are the very you sold
And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again when both our cars collide
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight"
Anne looked down and locked eyes with Dolla's and stopped breathing.
" Dolla, I…" she lost her voice.
" Oh Anne, it's ok." Dolla said, jumping up to the balcony and enveloped her in to tight embrace.
" It's ok, I don't blame you. I'm right here." She whispered into Anne's head.
Anne only stood against the older woman.
" Dolla, I think I'm dying." She whispered.
" Why do you say that?"
" My soul and body feel like their dying. I don't know where to place this feeling, but I can see it, overhanging my near future. I'm gonna die." Anne said, looking up at Dolla with dull eyes.
The older Vampiric Elf gasped as she realized that young Anne was right.
" Your soul mate died. One half of a soul can only live for so long without it's other half once they found it." Dolla said, tears pricking her eyes.
" I know." Anne said before turning back to the chair in front of the radio, her eyes dulling even more with every moment.
OoOoOo
The day of the Second Task:
Anne hadn't attended the first task, but the letters from her brothers' told her that Harry had come in second. Now she was standing in the doorway of the Great Hall, glancing around with extremely dull Auburn Ebony eyes until they found Harry, who looked extremely nervous.
Fred spotted her and Dolla and nudged Harry, who whipped around and paled at Anne's face.
' I must look like crap.' She thought as her friends raced towards her.
She turned and walked outside, knowing that they were going to follow, Dolla's hand supporting her on her elbow.
" Anne." Jamie said, looking scared at her.
" Hello, Jamie." She responded.
" Anne, you don't look well." Harry said, looking over her frail form.
" Been under the weather lately." Anne answered.
She felt eyes on her and looked up at her father.
She nodded and moved towards him, Dolla still on her elbow.
" Father." She acknowledged when she stopped in front of him.
" What's wrong with you?" He asked franticly.
" Not here. Dolla, find Finbar, tell him I'm here and that I'll see him at the task." Anne said to the older woman.
" Yes, Lady Anne." She said, sadness in her voice and left.
Severus helped Anne down to his chambers and watched as she fell into the couch.
" Anne, what's wrong?" He asked again, kneeling down in front of her.
" I'm dying daddy." She whispered, the first sign of emotion entering her eyes in months.
" What? What do you mean?" Severus asked alarmed.
" Conor was my soul mate and once a soul finds it's other half, it cannot live without the other half should it die. When he died that night, I felt like my soul was being ripped apart and it was. I don't know how much longer I have left to live, but my guess is a couple of months." She whispered, the tears that had been locked up for months, flowing freely.
Severus just sat there, tears rolling down his cheeks.
" Who else knows?" He asked.
" Aunt and Uncle, mama and papa ((A/N: That is the Wolf queen Lady Darla and Wolf King Lord Drouga)), you & Dolla. I don't know how to tell Harry and the others." She whispered.
" We have to tell them soon." Severus said, squeezing her hand.
She nodded and looked up.
" When does the task start?"
" Shit, in ten minutes." Severus answered, getting up, pulling her along behind her.
They arrived just as the champions were getting ready to….
Jump into the lake.
" What the hell?" She asked, looking up at Severus.
" I can't say. Jamie's coming. I'll see you later." He answered, kissing his cheek before dashing off.
" Anne, come on we're over here." Jamie said, leading her over to the stands.
An hour later, after both Fleur, Cedric and Krum were already out of the water, Anne was panicking when Harry hadn't resurfaced. She was about to rush out to help when he resurfaced with Draco and a small blonde girl with him, sputtering like mad.
Despite her poor health, Anne ran to her brothers' sides, while Fleur came at the small girl.
" Gabrielle!" She screamed, pulling her sister close to her chest.
Anne reached Draco and Harry and dropped to her knees.
" Hi." She whispered, kissing each of their cheeks.
" Hi owl." Draco said. " You look really pale."
" I haven't been feeling good lately." She said, not lying at all, just leaving out facts.
" Liar." Draco said, glaring at her.
" What?" She said, shocked.
" You're lying. Something is really wrong." Draco said.
Anne nodded.
" Later brother dears." She said, seeing Madam Pomfrey come up to the two shivering boys, placing blankets around them and hot chocolate in their hands.
OoOoOo
" You're kidding, you have to be." Harry said, clinging to Draco.
" I wish I was, but I'm really dying." Anne whispered, sitting again in her father's study.
" Shit." Jamie spat, punching the wall.
" Jamie, calm down." Finbar ordered, pulling his brother down. " Anne, are you sure your not gonna be able to fight this?"
" How can I fight it when I can't live without Conor. He was my soul mate Finbar. You're my wisest brother, you know a soul cannot live without is other half once it found it." Anne answered, crying again.
Before Finbar could answer, Anne had leaned back and slipped into sleep without much effort. Severus carefully lifted her up and carried her to his room, carefully placing her under the covers before moving back to the study to have an inevitable sleepless night.
OoOoOo
She went quicker then anyone thought, even Anne. She fell into a coma two months after that night and never woke up. It was said that when she died, every star dimmed and every wolf in Scotland and England howled in mourning.
Draco had never seen his mate so distraught. He could barely eat sleep or concentrate. He only walked around, his head hung low, his emerald eyes, dull.
When her funeral came, the field had never been so packed. Close to 300,000 Vampiric Elves, vampires, wolves, elves and some humans filled it, all mourning the loss of a young leader who fell to quickly.
She was buried next to Conor, draped in the finest silk of Purple, Black, Silver and Green. Everyone wore not black but red, to honor her young age. The new appointed leader Finbar glared at the heavens, cursing the fates for taking both his brother and sister in the same year.
Harry and Draco fared no better, swearing they would find Conor's killer, because he inevitably caused young Anne's death.
Severus had never seemed more cold and distant then he did at his only daughter's funeral. He could think that he was going to kill the man Anne said was a possible suspect for Conor's death. Oh he would get revenge for her, that's the least she deserved.
The sun finally setting, the crowd began to drift away when a angelic like voice broke the silence with a song that caused everyone's heart to stir.
Everyone turned to see Harry standing near her grave, blue tears running down his face, his mouth open as he sang.
" Lay down
your sweet & weary head
Night is falling
You have come to journey's end
Sleep now
Dream-of the ones who came before
They are calling
From across a distant shore
Why do you weep?
What are these tears upon your face?
Soon you will see
All of your fears will pass away
Safe in my arms
You're only sleeping.
What can you see
on the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea
A pale moon rises
The ships have come
To carry you home
And all will turn to silver glass
A light on the water
All Souls pass
Hope fades
Into the world of night
Through shadows falling
Out of memory and time
Don't say
We have come now to the end
White shores are calling
You and I will meet again
And you'll be here in my arms
Just sleeping
What can you see
on the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea
A pale moon rises
The ships have come
To carry you home
And all will turn to silver glass
A light on the water
Gray ships pass
Into the West"
Another voice picked up when Harry's left off, this time it was Lady Darla's voice.
"I've been looking in the mirror for so long
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side
All the little pieces falling shatter
Shards of me too sharp to put back together;
Too small to matter
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces
If I try to touch her
And I bleed
I bleed
And I breathe
I breathe no more
I take a breath and I try to turn off what my spirit's will
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child
Lie to me, convince me that I've been sick forever
And all of this will make sense when I get better
But I know the difference
Between myself and my reflection
I just can't help but to wonder:
Which of us do you love?
So I bleed
I bleed
And I breathe
I breathe no-
Bleed
I bleed
And I breathe
I breathe
I breathe
I breathe...no...more"
With every song sung, Conor and Anne's graves glowed brighter, as if they were enjoying the music.
The last voices were not anyone of the mourning. Instead it came from the very place they had left.
Anne and Conor's graves were blinding in the light shining from them and two figure rose from the light, dancing as two voices sprung from them.
"What would you do if we woke up and the whole world was gone?
Well, would you believe with me is where you belong?
Well there goes the world and we're right in the middle
There goes the world and we're right in the middle
I said leave me here
I said leave me here with you
As the city crumbles I see that there's nothing left behind
As we lay here together I feel your heart beat with mine
With time standing still, here is where we've always been
Well there goes the world and we're right in the middle again
I said leave me here
I said leave me here
I said leave me here
I said leave me here with you
Hey you, where are we going from here?
Hey you, where are we going from here?
Hey you, where are we going?
Cuz there goes the world and I'm right in the middle with you
I'm right in the middle with you
I'm right in the middle with you
I'm right in the middle with you
I'm right in the middle with you"
The lights merged and fell back to the earth, bit it was smaller and it was crying.
Draco and Harry moved forward to the small glowing light to see an infant with jet-black hair with wild black streaks and Auburn Ebony eyes.
" I don't believe it. They actually did it." Meagan said, staring down at her grandchild.
" She's beautiful. Reminds me of Anne when she was little." Tucker said.
" They made the magic child? Impossible." Jamie said, moving forward.
But it was.
From their graves, with the help of those that sang, Anne and Conor had combined their magic to form a baby girl that had every single one of their gifts. It seemed the village would not lose their seer after all.
A slow song filtered around them, making the little girl, who Harry called Lyra, coo out at her mother and father's voice, giggling, causing her uncles to laugh as well.
" How I wish I could surrender my soul; I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain, How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind; I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
instead I've found no meaning.
all pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.
all pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain."
((A/N: Ok, crappy and semi-sad ending. But I felt the need to end the story. Work your imagination with this one's ending and futures, b/c I don't plan on a squeal. If you add up this and 'Eyes of a Unwanted Girl' chapters, I have written 28 chapters. I know Rylie, you love my stories, but I have to focus on ' Through her eyes' and 'Suddenly I See'. Thank you to all who read this but don't review, u made my life sux a little every time that happened. But nothing but love for Rylie D, who actually reviewed. This right now does not apply to future readers who may come after this is done. I say may b/c I have a very low fan base…SOB))
Songs:
My Chemical Romance- Helena
From Lord Of The Rings: Return of The King- Into The West
Evanescence- Breathe No More
Theory of A Deadman- In The Middle
James Blunt- Tears and Rain