When I was allowed to leave the infirmary Four took me to his apartment. He carried me to his apartment in bridal style. When we came to his apartment he laid me down on the couch.
"Are you hungry? I bring something for you from canteen," he asked awkwardly.
"I am tired I want to sleep," I said a little harsh.
He carried me to his bedroom and wanted to say something but I turned my back to him so he left the room. Whenever he was going to work Cristina came to sit with me. Four and Christina came to me one by one trying to speak to me but I don't want to talk to anybody. All day I was sleeping or just staring at celling. Days pass and I practically didn't eat anything and that didn't bother me. One month passed and one day I decided to talk to Four and broke with him. I don't know if he pities me or still loves me but I don't feel like I love him anymore. Something has broken inside me. I am broken and I don't want to be mended. I just want to be alone for some time and then time will tell. His bed is big so he comes and sits near me.
"We need to talk," I say with an official tone.
"Do you know how much I missed you and your beautiful voice?" he asks pressing his forehead to mine.
Then he hugs me tightly and the warmth of his body overwhelms me with feelings again but I push them away.
"I had time to think about what happened and don't want to see you anymore," I say with stern look.
He just looks at me for a moment as if to see if I am joking or not then says.
"But I love you Tris and I know that you love me too I felted it when I hugged you. And my feelings for you haven't changed. I love you. And don't you dare to think that I do all of this because I pity you!" he said tears rolling down from his eyes.
"I am sorry but I don't feel it anymore," I said with shaking voice.
"Please Tris please give me a chance and I will make you to love me again. Give me month and when the month will pass and you decided to leave me, I'll let you go," he pleaded with his big and depthless eyes.
I looked into his eyes and I looked so long into his depthless eyes that I loosed my cool. And then I understood that I was going to make a horrible mistake if I refused his offer. I still feel something for him. I do not know it is love or something else but I don't want to lose this feeling. After long pause I finally say.
"I accept your offer. I give you one month," I said trying to sound normal.
He embraced me so tight I couldn't even breathe then he said with.
"But this month you will stay at my apartment. I'll go to the canteen and bring you something to eat and you will eat all of it," he said with a cheerful voice.
I agreed and he raced to the canteen and he brought for me mashed potato, apples, bananas and a whole dauntless cake. I smiled widely and started to eat.