ikilled iCarly
Trouble
Sam's p o v
Carly held my hand as we went to grab the door knob inches away from it the doors swung open and in rushed Nate one of Carly's old boyfriends his eyes looked haunted he was breathless and sweating as he screamed the next words that will haunt me forever ..Words that have become all to familiar in American Schools today.
They have a gun their shooting up the school !
Everyone get down!
We all seemed frozen for a moment in time then in seconds we were all moving at once trying to barricade the door as a deafening buzzard rung out singling that the whole school was on lock down.
I felt the panic start to rise inside I felt sick I felt dizzy what I didn't feel was the need to go anymore.
I felt Carly squeezing my hand so hard I thought it would break. I looked at her and saw her eyes she was frozen and about to panic. I had to take action grabbing her I pushed her to the door so we could help keep them out.
Kids were screaming in the hallway I could see everyone rushing around books being scattered papers flying as everyone tried to get out or get into a safe room. I felt bad someone was probably going to get shot because they couldn't get into the library but I had to protect Carly. She was hyperventilating I was scared she would have An Asthma attack ..
Heads down keep your heads down get under the tables!
POP! POP!
The gunshots are coming closer everyone stay down!
I was almost near panic myself Carly was frozen her eyes filling with tears. The library was in a state of utter pandemonium everyone was shoving to get to safety. The shots were so loud it felt like my ear drums were going to burst .
The windows we need to get out of them!
We can't were on lock down
What the hell How does that make sense we need to get out not stay trapped!
Sam!
Shh Carls it's going to be okay
I promise baby I'm right here..
Grabbing her I ran to the back remembering the cubbyholes that some students use if they have study pr during 6th and lunch instead of going to their lockers their stuff things inside of here. I dragged Carly who was like a limp rag. Finding the nearest one I threw the stuff out of it and pulled her inside covering her with my body, We were both shaking as we held each other I had to think of ways to get out we weren't going to die here no way!
I held her kissing her and talking to her softly which seemed to help her as she wrapped her arms around me tighter pulling me so close. I could feel her breath her tears, her fear, I knew she had to feel my pants and felt the embarrassment creep up my face. She never said a word about It she just kept kissing me telling me she loved me.
The shots were getting louder it sounded like firecrackers going off. As part of the ceiling came down kids started to scream some were crying some praying. That's what Carly started to do she took my hands and held them in hers.
Lord in heaven we pray to you
Lord we pray that you are by our side we can feel you
We need your guidance and your love now more then ever
Lord please keep us safe
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death or through the darkest valley
I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
I'm not a religious person at all I can't even say I truly believe in god I mean he really hasn't done a lot for me. I knew this was helping Carly though and to me that's all that mattered, I wondered if he was hearing her prayer would he listen would he care? I thought of all the school shootings that have happened in the last 10 years how many of these kids have sat huddled with a friend praying they would survive? How many prayed for mercy only to be shot and killed like a animal? How many thought they might have a chance? How many begged for their killers to turn away? What were their thoughts? Did they feel any pain? How many thought god was their savior and he was going to make them come out safely? Girls Like Cassie Bernall , who was asked if she believed in god and when she said yes she was murdered her name stuck in my mind even though I was only five when Columbine happened.
Suddenly the whole floor started to shake and the walls vibrated I could hear the sounds of shattering glass as it sounded like a explosion, Carly held me tighter her tears soaking my shirt as I rocked her the gun shots sounded like they were right outside. I just held her and thought about all the things I have never gotten to do. Would I get to do them? Would my Mom ever know that I loved her? Did she even love me? Did she care about what was happening ? Did she know?
Another explosion ripped through the air this time I saw it I pulled Carly's face to my chest so she wouldn't see as the doors were blown open in a ball of fire. I saw the nice Librarian who had talked to Carly earlier be blown back by the Explosion as a kid who couldn't be any older then us entered carrying a semiautomatic he or she looked around and just started firing bullets sprayed the air as kids screamed trying to hide pulling chairs in front of them tables anything, the kid was wearing all black and had a ski mask on. I saw the reddish orange blaze as the gun fired off rounds. I saw kids being shot. I shushed Carly so she wouldn't get us shot she was whimpering and crying silently but with enough force she was going to give us away if she didn't stop. I held her and kissed her as my eyes were glued tears burned my throat but I refused to allow them to fall.
Classmates were dropping left and right I saw the Librarian trying to get up to crawl over to the desk to signal for help. The kid turned and shot her in the back and her legs, I gasped thank god it wasn't heard.
Then the shooter turned and looked to this girl in our History class Emily Emeralds she's 15. I didn't hear what was said but I saw the bullet fired straight into her head. She fell her eyes wide open her mouth spurting out blood.
After a bullet smashes into your brain you have maybe 10 to 15 seconds to live the brain is a fragile organ surrounded by liquid not only does a bullet destroy whatever tissue is around it the shock waves severely jar the whole organ ripping apart millions of delicate structures , connections. In the seconds that follow the brain swells up with blood and other bodily fluids, the part that controls breathing stops. The heart stops beating. You Die..I watched as Emily took her last ragged breath as her killer smashed his foot into her stomach and laughed.
I swallowed I felt sick but I had to be strong.
I knew that as much Trouble as we were in now.. for the moment we were hidden we hadn't been seen if the shooter saw us...Trouble wouldn't even begin to say what we were in.
I pulled Carly closer back further we were already so cramped my legs were numb my shoulders were on fire. My head was pounding and my eyes burned from too many sights and sounds.
I helplessly watched as the shooter kept shooting and taken victims. Closing my eyes as I felt her or his footsteps come closer. I wondered Did Carly know how much I loved her? She was frozen in my arms I kissed her lips lifting her face to mine..I couldn't speak from fear all I could do was kiss her.
Ah...
I screamed as my hair was yanked up and I was staring into the shooter's eyes I knew those eyes..I went to school with those eyes we had classes together..we had lunch together..I didn't know their name . I just knew that I knew them.
Carly was gripping my arm as she hide behind me she was shaking as she clung to me in full panic attack mode. I tried to shush her squeezing her hand...
Shut up!
The killer screamed my ears burned from all the noise I couldn't pin point who he or she was. I just looked them in their eyes..
Do you love her?
The gun was pointed at Carly who squealed who was shaking her legs started to give I went to reach out to her and felt the sudden pain shot through my head as I saw too late the end of the gun come down on my head I collapsed.
Answer me!
Do you love her!
I saw Carly's eyes as she stared at the kid she wasn't afraid all of a sudden her eyes now held a peaceful look like she was accepting what ever her fate was. I stared at her breathing heavy my chest and head on fire. She had never looked more gorgeous as the sunlight caught on her face and hair.
Yes I love her!
I swear I saw a grin I know I heard a snicker..
So that makes you what?
Human you piece of gutless ..
Sam Stop!
Aw how sweet the Queer defends her bulldyke
So that's true then your Gay?
I knew better then to argue and I wasn't about to lie...
Yes..
Good to know you wanna know what I think about you sick freaks?
No
They say when your about to die your life flashes before your eyes but I can tell you that's a lie. As I stood there with the gun pressed against my head the kids breath hot against my face. All I felt was time frozen.
I heard the click I closed my eyes then I felt the swoosh of air as the gun breezed by and aimed at Carly I heard the Pop and I screamed.
I Don't Wanna Die"
Hollywood Undead
[Chorus] [Charlie Scene] [Chorus] [J3T] [Chorus] [Danny] [J3T] [Danny] [J3T] [Chorus]
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die so you're gonna have to
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
No I don't wanna die so you're gonna have to
Blood is getting hotter, body's getting colder
I told you once I'm the only one who holds her
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die so you're gonna have to
I look inside of myself and try to find someone else
Someone who's willin' to die as to watch you cryin for help
I know that blood will be spilled and if you won't then I will
My grave will never be filled it's either kill or be killed
So let heaven be told that some may come some may go
Where I'll end up I don't know but I ain't dyin' alone
I keep on askin the question can I be saved by confession
You see this blood on my hands at least I still reach into heaven
I got to pick up the pieces I gotta burry 'em deep
And when you look in my eyes I'll be the last thing you'll see
Words turn into blood and the blood keeps on pourin'
From every poor I wipe it off cuz this just could be the moment
Now someones gotta die and I'm my only opponent
Cuz I won't watch my baby cry so I keep on just goin'
Am I a man or a beast it's mother nature at least
Watch humanity cease cuz it's our human disease
You gotta kill when you gotta kill yeah that's what they say
And I can't go against God's will you better pray
Cuz I'm an angel a demon yeah I'm hell and I'm heaven
I'm everything you couldn't be now you believe in the devil
I gotta Pick up the pieces I gotta bury them deep
And when the dirt hits the coffin just go to sleep
I see
I see you buried
Six feet Below
Another life goes into the knife
I couldn't let 'em breath 'cause I didn't wanna die
I see
I see you buried
Six Feet Below
It's not alright can you hear me as i cry
I couldn't let you live 'cause I didn't wanna die