Sorry for the delay everyone. Not going to bore you with reasons why, so lets get to what important…

Flashback – Summer 2005

First Time

I don't understand it, oh what's come over me
But I'm not gonna worry, no not anymore
'cause when a man's in love, he's only got one story
That's why my love is somewhere lost in your kiss
When I'm lost and alone it's you that I miss
With a love like yours, it's hard to resist

My life has resulted to scheming.

Because that's what you had to do when the girl you were seeing was jailbait… literally.

I was going to have the house to myself for the weekend. Since Alice was going to be senior next year, my parents wanted to get a start on college visits. They had planned a weekend in Seattle to take Alice to visit my Alma Mater, the University of Washington in Seattle. They had invited Angela and Bella to come along, but Bella declined because she said she wasn't feeling well.

I knew that wasn't the case. We had planned that she would tell her parents that she would be sleeping over my house on Friday which was the truth, but what they didn't know is that Alice was not even going to be home. And my parents just assumed I would be hanging out with Seth.

Well, you know what happens when you assume right?

My parents and the girls left early Friday morning as it was a four drive and they were not expected back until Sunday morning.

I cleaned up my room and ordered some Chinese food as I waited for Bella to arrive. I wanted to be with her so badly. I wanted to feel her naked body under my own. I wanted to be deep inside her wet pussy so much, but I didn't want to do anything that she wasn't comfortable with. As much as I wanted her, I was going to let her be in the driver seat on tonight's events.

When she finally got to my house, all I felt was excitement to be able to spend some time with her alone. As soon as she got in the house, I pulled her to me for a searing kiss that left us both breathless.

"Did you have any problems with you parents?" I asked her as I pulled back.

"Nope, I told the truth, I told them I was coming here, I just didn't tell them I was coming to be with you."

"I'm sorry we have to sneak around like this." I said. "I wish I could take you out on a date."

"I know, me too, but this is fine with me, Edward." She said. "I honestly just want to be with you."

I smiled at her and then took her hand. "Come on," I said as I led her into the kitchen. "I ordered some dinner."

After eating dinner, we ended up on the couch in the wreck room watching a movie. I'm not sure how focused we were on the movie because our hands were telling a different story.

I was lying on my back and Bella was next to me on her side with her back pressed against the back of the couch. My hand was running up and down her spine as her hand… well it had found a home right on my crotch. I was trying to concentrate on the movie, but her hand was not making it easy for me. I was so hard under her touch and when she started moving her hand over my jeans I thought I was going to cum right then and there.

Bella then shifted herself so she was on top of me with her legs straddling my hips. I wrapped my arms around her back as I kissed her deeply. She responded and moaned in my mouth.

"Edward," she gasped. "I want to be with you… tonight."

I looked up at her as I brushed her hair out of her face. I knew what her statement meant; I felt it in my heart. "Are you sure, Bella?"

"I am so sure."

I smiled at her and kissed her again. I then moved her off of me and as we got to our feet, I lifted her up in my arms so she could wrap her legs around my waist.

I carried her up to my bedroom and once we were inside, I pushed open the door and then closed it with my foot.

I knew this was her first time and I wanted it to be special for her. I gently placed her on the bed and then pulled back so I could pull off her socks. I then ridded myself of my own. I looked down at her on my bed and smiled at her before I climbed on top of her.

I touched her face and then leaned down to kiss her. Very slowly we undressed each other until I was left in my boxers and she was only in her pink panties, all I could do was look at her. She was so beautiful and I wanted to love every inch of her.

I moved so I was once again on top of her, moving myself so I was between her inviting legs. I kissed her quickly and then broke away. I continued to explore her body with my mouth. I kissed down her neck to her breasts to her stomach and then her hips. I then focused my attention on removing her panties. Once I slid them slowly down her legs, my hands instantly went where I have been wanting to touch her again, only this time I could see all of her and fuck her pussy was so perfect. My fingers grazed her softly making her squirm under me.

"Edward," she gasped letting me know she liked what I was doing. She parted her legs wider for me.

I then touched her deeper feeling her wetness. I pushed one of my fingers inside her, making her squirm more and moan louder.

"Fuck... Bella, you're so wet."

I had to have to her right then and there. I looked into her eyes and could tell she wanted the same thing. I stood up from the bed and looked down at her beautiful naked body waiting for me.

I slid my boxers off and stood in my place for a minute allowing her to look at me. She smiled as she looked at my naked body in front of her. I moved back on the bed and positioned myself once again between her legs.

"Bella, I need to know that you're sure." I knew I sounded like an idiot, but this was a big deal and something that could not be undone.

"I am Edward, this feels so right. You feel right. I'm ready."

I smiled at her and then reached over to my nightstand to pull out a condom from the drawer. I opened the packet and slid it down my length. I then positioned myself between Bella's legs and smiled when I felt her open up for me. I leaned down to kiss her tenderly. I looked at her one more time, giving her the opportunity to stop me, but she pulled me down to her mouth kissing me passionately. We both knew what was about to happen and we both wanted it.

"Please Edward— I need you."

I lowered myself down to whisper in her ear as I licked it.

"I need you too."

I kissed her deeply and then I pushed myself inside her.

Sweet Jesus.

I pushed ever so gently all the while watching her face to make sure she was okay. Once I was all the way inside I paused to give her a minute to get used to my size.

"Edward, I'm okay," she sad reassuring me. "You can move now."

I groaned when I started to move inside her. She was so tight and so wet that it was completely taking me over.

"Bella, you feel so good." I said as I kissed her.

"Edward," she gasped.

The feel of her wetness around my body was the most amazing feeling. I pulled her closer to me, as close as I could get her to my body, holding her.

I pulled all the way out of her and then pushed back in making her cry out. We were both moving with each other rocking to each of my thrusts. I knew I wasn't going to last very long, she just felt so good. I reached down between our bodies and began to rub her clit.

"Oh god Edward."

Hearing my name come from her lips as I made love to her made me feel things deep inside that I have never felt before.

"Come for me Bella," I said as I rubbed her and thrusted at the same time.

We were both moaning in pleasure. I leaned down so I could kiss her as I moved inside her.

"Edward, oh… oh… oh god.

"Christ." I groaned.

"Yes Edward," she said gripping onto my shoulder. She burred her face in my chest as she came hard around me.

I groaned as I felt her squeeze me as she came. I rocked into her deeper and a little harder until I came… hard.

"Uhhhhh fuck… fuck!" I groaned as I released. I collapsed on top of her and kissed her breasts as he stroked my damp hair.

After a couple minutes I rolled off of her onto my back and discarded the used condom in my trashcan. I then took her in my arms so she could rest her head on my chest. I ran my hand up and down her back and then kissed her forehead, as she lay silent in my arms.

A few minutes passed and I was still holding her naked body in my arms, only now we were wrapped up in my comforter. I loosened my grip on her and turned to my side.

"Bella?"

"Hmm?"

"Are you okay, did I hurt you?"

She lifted her eyes to mine; I swear her eyes could melt me heart.

"Of course you didn't hurt me Edward," she said. "I mean it hurt for a minute but then it felt really good. I'm okay, promise."

"I'm glad," I said kissing her again.

"Was it… I mean I know I have nothing to compare it to, but you do so was it… I mean was it okay… for you?"

I could tell she was feeling a little insecure since I have been with other girls, but there was no comparison.

"Bella, past experiences could never compare to what we just shared. I promise you that was amazing and it was very okay for me."

I saw her sigh in relief and then she snuggled up to me. I took her in my arms and held her close.

After some time of dozing off, I felt that Bella was awake as she deeply sighed in my arms.

"What's on your mind?" I asked her, but she didn't answer. "Come on Bella, talk to me. You have to tell me what you're thinking."

She moved so she was now facing me as we both once again lay on our sides. I reached over and paced a stand of hair behind her ear. She took a deep breath and finally spoke.

"This was perfect… being here with you, I've wanted this for so long, but I can't help but think about what comes next? I mean our age difference is something we can't ignore and I just… don't wan to lose you Edward,"

A single tear fell from her eye and I pulled her closer to me so I could hold her tightly in my arms. I ran my hand up and down her bare back trying to soothe her.

"Bella, you're not going to lose me," I said as I pulled back from her. "I know there's the age difference, but you're going to be eighteen in a little over a year, we can be careful until then."

""It just seems so long away," she said trying to hold back her sobs.

"I know it does baby, but I'm not about to let you go now, so we just have to hold on until then," I said. "It will be worth it."

"I know it will be," she replied. "I guess we really have to be careful when you start your job. Good thing you're not teaching at Forks because that would be really hard to play it safe."

"Yeah I'm not sure I'd be able to see you everyday at school and not get a massive hard on. That would not be a good first impression," I chuckled. "But seriously, Bella… soon enough we'll be able to be open about this."

"I'll wait as long as it takes." She leaned into kiss me on my lips. "Thank you for making tonight special for me."

"You're welcome, it was pretty fucking special for me too."

I once again took her in my arms and held her. There was no doubt in my mind that I was completely and irrevocably in love with her.

A/N: Aw jeez, he's so in love with her.

Next chapter we go back to present day at Edward's house.

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