"-rke"
Clarke stirred under the covers.
Sleeping was so peaceful.
You forgot all your worries, your mind still in dreamland.
And god knows how much Clarke needed to forget all that happened even for just a little while.
She'd tried to continue her life normally, but going to the hospital to attend the training program, soon revealed to be useless as she spent all her time in Jake's room. So her mother and Dr Lewis decided to give her a special exemption for family reasons.
It had been ten days since the day she woke up.
Her days went by with her waking up at 7:35 take a shower, breakfast, get dressed, go to the hospital to see dad and read him a book (This week was The Hobbit), have lunch with mom and Raven (whose workplace, fortunately, was a couple of minutes away), go back to sit with dad and talk to him about anything, and at 16:00 come back home and research Stories of people who woke up from comas, dinner, and then bed and dreams.
She had lost her old routine but at least, she thought, she still had one.
Her dad, luckily, didn't go into cardiac arrest since the day he almost died in front of her, and now he was peacefully, at least as it seemed from the outside, resting in a deep slumber. Now it was easier for her to pretend that he was only sleeping just a little longer than usual.
Now it was easier to dare to hope.
"-RKE!"
Many times she tried to write a letter to Bellamy, but for some reason she felt stuck.
The last letter she had sent, letter #5, she had poured her soul out, and that didn't happen usually, and certainly not with someone she had barely seen once…
The day after she had sent it, she kinda regretted it.
It was really, way to personal.. But on the other hand what are the chances that he actually receive it and responds to her? His band is getting famous by the second, and have loads of fans.. What are the chances of him finding her letter? Close to none. She sighed in her sleep pushing down the stab of disappointment. She was thinking way too much for someone who was supposed to sleep and have pleasant dreams.
"CLARKE WAKE UP!"
She puffed hiding under the covers as she heard someone banging on her door
"Go away, I'm sleeping, my alarm didn't go of yet so, it's note time to wake up"
"You formulated a sentence way too long for someone who's asleep" another bang, but Clarke hided even deeper under the covers "CLARKE I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU DO NOT OPEN THIS DOOR THIS SECOND I'LL FUCKIN' THROW IT DOWN"
Clarke sighed very loudly and ughed also very loudly and stomped to the door
"WHAT?" she demanded as she opened it
Raven that had been ready to throw down the only thing that separated her from her friend, quickly relaxed her pose and smiled brightly holding an envelope,
Clarke looked at it and then back at her crossing her arms "You woke me up for mail?"
Raven grinned "YES!" and walked past her, inside the room
Clarke took a deep breath, "MAIL?" She exclaimed not even trying to hide her annoyance
Her friend rolled her eyes "Oh Shut Up and read You FOOL" she held it to her
Clarke took it and now was Raven's turn to cross her arms, and she smirked as Clarke frowned.
It was a registered letter.
"Well? What about it? It surely could wait until my alarm went off!"
"OH MY GOD" Raven threw up her hands "LOOK AT THE SENDER YOU DIMWIT"
"HEY! RUDE!" Clarke shook her head but did as she was told "Bell-" she sucked in breath "-amy Blake" she blinked and looked at her friend that was looking at her expectantly "OH MY GOD" Clarke began to move from one foot to the other like she was standing on hot coals flapping the envelope in her hand "Ohmygodohmygodohmygod" Suddenly she lost the grip on it and it flew in a corner of the room "OH MY GOD!"
Raven screeched "NO! WHERE DID IT GO?!"
"I DON'T KNOW!?"
They both scrambled on their feet and searched every corner.
Finally Raven whooped in victory as she was holding it in her hands. She handed it to Clarke again, but before Clarke could take it she pulled it back "Just, don't throw it away, will you?" Clarke shook her head quickly.
When she had the envelope in her hands again she took a deep breath and then began to open it.
She didn't know what she was feeling when she realised that he had written a lot. Inside the envelope there were three sheets fully written, back and front. And she was surprised, even if she didn't know why exactly, to see that his handwriting was beautiful.
She looked up at her friend that smiled encouragingly as she settled on the floor with legs crossed, that reminded her of a kid waiting to hear a story.
Clarke took another deep breath and with shakings hands turned the pages to find the first one.
"Dear Clarke,
First of all, I'm curious, why don't you use the dear in front of my name in your letters? I'm not dear enough for you?"
Clarke giggled and Raven smirked "This guy.. Surely knows how to start a letter"
"Or is it (more likely I guess) that you think that is way too personal, for people that met only once?
Well, If that was the case, you might want to revisit your mention of ass-" Clarke stopped as she felt her cheeks warming up and closed her eyes as embarrassment made her want for the ground to swallow her up
"Whoa, Wait a sec, you wrote about ASSES?" Raven laughed "Oh my God, what did you write, like how gorgeous his ass was, or something?" she doubled over in laughter
Clarke covered her face with one hand "Oh my god.. It's all your fault!"
Raven laughed even louder "I- I can't believe you wrote" she gasped to get the words out between her laughter "-bout asses"
Clarke pouted "Actually it was about Assholes.."
Raven stopped at that, and stared "YOU DID NOT!" she said as another fit took her
Clarke huffed and looked away
Raven managed to quieten down emitting a little giggle here and there and gestured her friend to go on
Clarke took another deep breath and looked for where she'd left off
"Don't get me wrong, though, I actually enjoyed it. I laughed so hard that my eyes watered..
It was adorable really.. Please don't be mad at Raven, I'm glad she sent the letters so that you didn't have time to edit them, tell her that I'm deeply grateful"
Clarke looked up and rolled her eyes when she saw the triumphant grin on her friend
"Fine! THANK YOU"
Raven only smiled wider and gestured to go on,
Clarke shook her head feigning annoyance but a smile managed to spread over her lips
"And if it wasn't clear; of course I remember you, How could I ever forget the random-crazy [to use your words] girl that asked to draw me? (I'm leaving the creepy part out on purpose, because I don't think you're creepy at all, Awkward yes, but I happen to like awkward, so..)"
"Aww, that's cute" piped up Raven with a smile
Clarke nodded with a little giggle, her face still hot, and continued "By the way, I really loved your drawings, my favourite is the one of you and your dad, though.. You are really good"
Clarke smiled and sighed sadly as she thought of her gift to her dad, the drawing that he had framed the day after his birthday and that now was resting on the side table of his hospital bed.
She felt a squeeze on her knee and looked at Raven "You okay?"
Clarke smiled and nodded "Yeah..
"And that's why I was really surprised when you told, wrote me that you were a med-trainee, I naturally assumed that you were an artist but then when I thought about it I guess, it just made sense.. You gave the vibe of someone who'd do anything to help others.."
She cocked her head. When she looked at Raven, she had a raised eyebrow too
"Okay, that sounded weird.. But my sister.. Well, it's kinda unbelievable, I mean what are the odds? But you know my sister" Clarke frowned
"She told me of the day you spilled coffee on her shirt and lent yours after she told you that she had a job interview for Vanity Fair.." Clarke's jaw dropped open as she read further "Her name is Octavia"
Clarke looked up and imagined that her face must be the same as Raven's, eyes wide and jaw on the lower floor
"No way!" Raven whispered bringing her hands up to cover her mouth "Among all the people that you could've spilled coffee onto, you spilled it on HIS sister.." she shook her head with an amazed look on her face "Only you Clarke, only you"
Clarke blinked still processing what she had just read
"Octavia.. Bellamy.. She told me some things about her brother.. but.. I never-" she ran a hand through her hair "How the hell could I know that HE was her brother? How's this even keep happening? It's ridiculous!" She exclaimed massaging her eyelids
Raven laughed and got up to sit beside her on the bed "Here let me, please?" she gestured for the pages and Clarke gave them to her
"Believe me I'm mind blown too, right now.. I mean seriously, what are the chances? I called her when I received your letters, after I read about your encounter.. and she gave me your number.. I actually tried to call you earlier, but the line was dead. So instead I'm writing you.."
Raven looked at the date on top of the page and gasped, Clarke lowered the sheets and looked too, her eyes blurred "He wrote this the day of the ac-cident" she sobbed the word out and Raven put down the papers to hug her
"I'm so sorry" she whispered rubbing her back
Clarke shook her head and gathered herself "I'm okay.." she pulled back from the hug "I just..Damn his timing was awful" she said with a snort, drying her eyes
Raven smiled shaking her head "You could definitely say that.. It's a pity though.. the phone got crashed.. Now he doesn't have your number and you lost Octavia's.."
Clarke sighed "Again, awful timing.. There's nothing we can do about it.. is there?"
The girls thought hard for a while
"Let's just go on with the letter, maybe he says something that can help.." Raven suggested in the end.
"I'm glad you wrote me Clarke, and I hope, once you receive this letter, you keep doing it. I see what your dad means about letters, they have a certain something that make them different from any other form of communication.. I kinda like letters too..
So, since your letters could go lost in all the other fan-letters and the fact that in these days we're in tour, I wrote you all the addresses of the hotels we're going to stay at, and also my address back home in Norwich, yeah I live a couple of hours from London, maybe one day we can see each other?
Okay, if you calculate the time a letter usually takes to arrive, we should be golden"
Raven laughed "Oh my god, this dude is even more organized than you" she said teasingly
Clarke just looked at the other pages and nodded when she saw all the addresses of the various locations where the tour would performing at and how many days they'd be staying at each one
"Wow, he was serious" whispered Raven whit a snort
Clarke returned to the actual letter
"I hope you're okay with the fact that O. gave me your number.. She did it in good faith..
Anyway, I guess I should end this letter now..
I hope you're okay,
Love,
Bellamy"
"Well I guess, Now we do have a way to contact him, but that's doesn't change much does it?" Raven thought out loud and Clarke sighed "At least, now we know that your letter won't get lost in the hundreds of fan letters.." Raven said trying to be helpful
Clarke hummed "He really wants me to write him, he even sent it in registered mail.." she frowned "Why did it come so late then?"
"I think it got mixed up with all the other mail.. After the accident mail wasn't really much of a priority" Raven shrugged "I thought to settle them during breakfast this morning, and I found it"
Clarke sighed "I wish I could tell dad.."
Raven put an arm around her "You will, when he wakes up"
She smiled resting her head on her friend's shoulder and looked down at the papers again.
They both jumped when they heard the alarm go off.
Clarke laughed and turned it off.
Then the bell rang and they jumped again
"What the hell?" Raven exclaimed, while they both went downstairs.
Clarke just stared when she opened the door
"Hey" said Wells a little awkwardly
"You picked up babysitting while you were here?" asked Clarke snarkily, seeing as his supposedly best friend had a baby in his arms
Raven palmed her face and Clarke looked at her frowning "What?"
Wells cleared his throat "She's my daughter, Clarke"
She didn't have to process that because than another figure appeared and.. Hugged her?
"Clarke! I'm so glad that you're okay! We were so worried.." the girl pulled back and gave her a kind smile "I really hope your dad pulls through too"
Clarke just blinked and frowned again "Thanks.. Emily?"
The girl slapped her forehead "I'm an idiot, sorry, yeah.. I'm Emily" she held out her hand and Clarke shook it, still in a daze
Raven, seeing as Clarke looked more like a zombie right now, decided to take the situation under control, and opened the door wider "Please, Come in" she said pulling Clarke out of the way to make them space
When they were all in the living room Clarke looked at the baby of a year or so sitting on Raven's lap and then back at her best friend "WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER?"
Wells clenched his jaw and drew in a deep breath, Emily looked away uncomfortably, Raven bit her lip and the little one just shrieked, like every excited baby does
"Well, I thought you knew how babies were born by no-"
Clarke held up her forefinger "You stop right there, I'm not having any of your snark. You know fuc-" she glanced nervously at the baby "-Freaking well what I mean WELLS JAHA"
Wells had the good sense to hold up his hands in surrender "I'm sorry" He took another deep breath "You're right.. It's just.." He closed his eyes and covered his face with both his hands
Emily squeezed his arm and looked at Clarke with a rueful smile "It's all my fault, Clarke really.. I was the one that didn't want anyone to know.. I'm 23 and still studying and my parents are racist assholes" the girl sucked in breath and clenched her jaw "All this time I felt as I needed to hide the most beautiful part of my life, but when I heard you and Wells fight the other day, I finally realized that I wasn't ruining only my life by doing so but his too, and I couldn't bear the thought of him losing you," She smiled "You're very important to him.. And when your mom called and told us what had happened to you and your dad, we dropped everything and came here.."
Clarke gave her a small nod and turned to her friend "What about your dad? Did you see him?"
Wells smiled "Actually yes he was there when we arrived to the hospital.."
Clarke winced "And how did that go?"
Emily laughed "Actually surprisingly well, it turns out that Thelonious Jaha has more than enough grandpa material, I would have never guessed with what he'd told me" she said giving Wells a little nudge
Clarke smiled "Tell me about it.." she looked at Raven who was making weird sounds to entertain the little girl, then back at the pair "So that's how Raven find out?"
Wells grinned and Emily snorted "Well, let's just say that she was really upset when she saw him, so she sort of almost attacked him and the only ones that could stop her were Amy and me"
Clarke looked back at Raven with a raised eyebrow
Raven gave her a sheepish smile "You know how I am.. I've a soft spot for babies"
They all laughed at that.
The doorbell rang again and Wells raised an eyebrow "You were expecting someone?"
Clarke looked at Raven but her friend just shrugged so she got up and went to see who it was
"Oh my God I'm so glad I found you!" Exclaimed a chirpy voice hugging her as soon as the door had been opened
"Octavia? How?!" She asked blinking when the brunette pulled back
"What happened to your phone? I need to tell you something.. I gave your number to my brother and he tried to call you but he couldn't reach you, and I thought maybe it's because he's in the States, even if that doesn't really make sense, does it? But whatever, so I tried to call you and I couldn't too! The line was just dead. And GOD My brother, he wanted to see you again soo bad after he met you on that train, and I love him and he had done so much for me so I decided to take it upon myself to see that you two talk, really talk, not letters, so I asked him to give me the address that was on the envelope of the letter that you sent him, and now I'm here! Oh, and my brother doesn't know any of this, I didn't want him to give him false hopes or something, in case I didn't find you.." Octavia said almost never stopping to take a breath
Clarke stared at her with her mouth dropped
The brunette blinked and slapped her forehead "UGH I forgot to mention that my brother is Bellamy Blake, from Sky people, who happens to be the guy that you met on the train that day, five years ago.."
Octavia bit her lip then and made a face when Clarke still stared at her "Did I mention that I tend to talk too much?"
I'm so excited for this chapter, I think it's my favourite so far, I literally had so many FEELS when I signed the letter with "Love, Bellamy"
I'm so used to put "Love, Clarke" that when I realized how I had to sign it I was akfkhzdkdfa yeah, that's a word in my head lol
Gotta love Octavia, she's the n 1 Bellarke shipper in here lol
AND WELLS? YEAH I wanted him to be happy, 'cause I do nOt accept the end he had in the tv show, HE DESERVES TO BE HAPPY DAMMIT, so here he is happy daddy!Wells
And Raven making faces and weird sounds is everything in my head.
Anyway.. what happens next…?
Muhahaaha, Bell will receive the last letter Clarke had sent.. [letter #5] *gasps* YEAH
Well, I'm done,
I hope you liked the chap too,
I love you guys so much, thanks for the never ending support!
ps.
I really wanted to update yesterday, but then I got distracted from the episode..
like THA FUDGE WAS THAT PROMO?
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