Hey y'all! Here I am with another chapter! I've been on a roll now that I'm off my little hiatus which I'm sure you guys are thrilled about :) This is last chapter in Torrance's POV, I hope you guys enjoy it!Heavy In Your Arms
Heavy In Your Arms
Three weeks.
It felt almost like a lifetime, but I'm starting to feel like my old self again. I haven't had anymore thoughts of me dying in Brendan's place since Katie literally slapped some sense into me. I feel like I can smile a little more without it being forced.
I even started dancing again.
When Brendan died I no longer had the will nor the urge to dance like I used to. Last week was the dance concert which was a huge success; I had forgotten how much I missed the stage. I didn't get to practice my dances as much as I would've liked to since everything happened; but when you dance, you remember the steps not with your brain but with your body, and that body memory stays with you. Being back on the stage, dancing under the lights, feeling the energy from the audience and hearing their applause...I felt like I was home.
I got up early this morning to do my new routine: a morning jog. I started jogging when I joined Dare on one two weeks ago, it made me feel relaxed and calm, so I've been jogging every morning since then.
I jogged around the block for half an hour, got home and took a shower. I put on my school uniform and packed my dancewear in my backpack and went downstairs to eat breakfast. Mom and Luke were already downstairs. Mom was at the stove making omlettes and Luke was at the table drinking cranberry juice.
"Good morning guys." I greeted them.
"Oh good morning, sweetie." Mom smiled at me before turning her attention back on the stove.
"Morning, sis." Luke mumbled, obviously still sleepy.
I then noticed that Dad wasn't around. "Where's Dad?" I asked.
Mom was the one to reply, "He left for work early today."
That was no surprise to me. Dad had been leaving early for work every day for the past few weeks. He's been on edge since that day at the courthouse. We all know there's something wrong with him but he refuses to talk to us about it, even Mom. We were quiet as we ate our breakfast. After we ate we cleaned our dishes and headed out for school; Mom went in her car, Luke and I went in mine and we drove off to school.
"Got any requests?" I asked Luke as I gave him my folder of CDs.
"How about Spring Awakening?" Luke suggested. Ever since I took him with me to see Spring Awakening he's been listening to the CD over and over.
I smiled, "I knew you would love the show. Aren't you glad I took you to see it, Lukey?"
Luke rolled his eyes as he smiled, "Yes, I'm glad. Even though it was awkward watching a sex scene on stage with my sister sitting next to me."
I let out a laugh as I thought of how uncomfortable he looked when Melchior and Wendla have sex at the end of Act 1. Poor little guy kept squirming and made sure not to look at me. It was hilarious.
"Aw you poor innocent wittle baby." I cooed at him as I reached my hand out to pinch his cheek.
"Stop touching me, woman! Nothing gives you that right!" Luke yelled in an over exaggerated tone as he swatted my hand away.
The car was filled with our laughter. I put in the CD and skipped the songs til I found a fun upbeat one which was 'The Bitch of Living'. We had the windows rolled down and had the volume turned up as Luke and I sang loudly along with the song. People driving past us would look at us as if we were crazy which made us crack up.
We made it to the student parking lot at school in plenty of time and in high spirits.
"See ya later, Lukey." I told Luke as we went our seperate ways to class.
"See ya!" He called out.
I walked over to my English class where I sat with Dare, Lauren, and my guy friend/dance partner Wade.
"Hey guys." I greeted them as I took my seat next to Lauren.
"Hola, chica!" Dare exclaimed in her cheerful voice behind me.
"Hey." Lauren and Wade spoke in unison.
"Ready for a great day of learning?" Lauren asked in fake excitement.
"Oh yeah, I'd just love to read another boring chapter of The Great Gatsby." I replied with a roll of my eyes. They chuckled in agreement with my sarcastic remark.
Wade leaned toward me from behind Lauren, "You ready for our duet today, Tor?"
I could feel my cheeks turn slightly pink as I tried to play it cool in front of him, "I was born ready, man. The question is are you?"
He chuckled which always gave me goosebumps, "Oh you know I'm ready, babe."
I could feel my heart pound a little faster at him calling me "babe". I've always had a crush on Wade, but I've never said anything to him. I figured he just saw me as a friend, and I didn't want to mess up our friendship.
The rest of the day went on with nothing eventful happening. That is, until dance class. Eva was having us go up on stage to rehearse for our dance final which will be duets. Wade and I were going over our steps when Eva called us out.
"Wade, Torrance, you guys are up!"
Wade stood up and sighed as he looked at me, "You ready, Hume?"
I waved my arm toward the stage, "Lead the way, Walker."
"Let's do this!" he said as held up his fist.
"Let's rock!" I replied in my "pumped" voice as I held up my fist and we did a fist pump.
We went on stage and got into our positions. The lights faded and the stage was blacked out for a few seconds before our song started and we just let our bodies move.
I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced to crown.
I was a heavy heart to carry
My feet dragged across ground
And he took me to the river
Where he slowly let me drown
I didn't think about my troubles or my pain, I just lost myself in the music.
My love has concrete feet
My love's an iron ball
Wrapped around your ankles
Over the waterfall
I'm so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms
I'm so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms
And is it worth the wait
All this killing time?
Are you strong enough to stand
Protecting both your heart and mine?
Wade and I can feel the rhythm of the music flowing through us as dance with eachother, as I cling to him
Who is the betrayer?
Who's the killer in the crowd?
The one who creeps in corridors
And doesn't make a sound
My love has concrete feet
My love's an iron ball
Wrapped around your ankles
Over the waterfall
My love has concrete feet
My love's an iron ball
Wrapped around your ankles
Over the waterfall
I'm so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms
I'm so heavy, heavy
So heavy in your arms
I can feel my heart pound as the song builds. As I'm dancing, my skin begins to tingle...as if I'm being watched.
This will be my last confession
I love you never felt like any blessing
(Ohhhh)
Whispering like it's a secret
Only to condemn the one who hears it
With a heavy heart
The more I'm dancing, the more I can feel the burn of someone's eyes on me. It felt hauntingly familiar.
Heavy heavy i'm so heavy in your arms
(I'm so) Heavy heavy I'm so heavy in your arms
(I'm so) Heavy heavy I'm so heavy in your arms
(I'm so) Heavy heavy I'm so heavy in your arms.
I was a heavy heart to carry
My beloved was weighed down
My arms around his neck
My fingers laced to crown
I was a heavy heart to carry
But he never let me down
When he had me in his arms
My feet never touched the ground
I'm so heavy, heavy in your arms.
Heavy, I'm so heavy in your arms
My heart's pounding and I'm breathing deeply from the adrenaline the dancing has given me. I hear the applause coming from everyone in the class and it made me feel elated. What can I say? I'm like Tinkerbell, I need applause to live. I suddenly feel a shiver run up and down my spine. I have that feeling I was being watched again. I looked over at the audience seats, my eyes shifted to the back row. It was too dark for me to see anything, but I felt that shiver again. It was fear. I couldn't see anyone, but I knew someone was there, watching me. I got distracted from my thoughts by Wade pulling me into a hug, and I immediately felt safe.
Ooh Torrance has a stalker. A very sexy stalker if I do say so myself ;) For those of you wondering, Wade Walker is being played by the very sexy Michael Trevino aka Tyler Lockwood from the show Vampire Diaries. Do any of you get the reference from his name btw? brownie points to those who do! I'll give you a hint: the name is from a John Waters movie. The song Wade and Tor dance to is Heavy in Your Arms by Florence + The Machine. Here's the dance video again in case you didn't see it before: http:/www . youtube . com/watch?v=vule_4b9qDE I hope you guys liked the chapter. Thanks so much for the awesome feedback. Remember, feedback is not required but always appreciated :)