Chapter six; mistake.

"Wow, someone was hungry." Nick teased. Shit. I just ate a whole chocolate extreme millshake that contains, god only knows, how many calories. So stupid.

"Euh…" I laughed nervously. Why did he had to take me there? Out of all places! I don't know, he could have take me to the beach, now that's romantic. "I need to go to the bathroom…" I said as I got up and walked to the small bathroom. It was so small I almost didn't have the place to kneel down in front of the bathroom but I did anyway. I shove two fingers down my throat and made myself throw up all the calories I just gained. I hated doing this. And of course, I knew it was wrong. I've seen all the previews on tv and I've watched some movies and all that shit. But I was only doing it until I would gain a normal weight. At least, that's what I thought. The only problem was, I already was at a normal weight.

"Hey, you alright?" Nick asked as I walked out.

"Yeah, i'm fine." I faked a smiled. I was fine. It's not like I threw up because I was sick of anything. It was my choice. My life. And I would love the way I would look in the future. At least, that's what I thought.

"Alright." He smiled and take my hand leading me outside the restaurant. "I'm surprise there's no paparazzi here. Your a superstar now."

I laughed. "I'm no superstar, Nick. I won second place, not even first, and it was just a small competition anyway… Nothing big."

"So, is there going to be a big one soon?" He asked with a smiled. "I want to see my girl win first place this time." His girl. I guess now I really was his girl? Well, not yet but it was coming right? I didn't knew much about love but I've watched enough cheesy movies.

"Yeah… But i'm not going." I simply said.

"What? Why not? Miles, your couch would be crazy to left you behind! You were amazing out there!"

"It's not about my couch… He's actually mad i'm not going."

"Then, what is it all about?" He asked.

"My parents… The competition is in Charlotte and, well… You know the drill. They're working, no time for gymnastic. Or cheer, like they call it." He squeezed my hand apologetically.

"Mi…"

"Don't worry about it. It's fine." I smiled. It wasn't. But I managed to smile anyway, because well, I was on a date with Nick. My bestfriend. And he was amazing, wow. "So, where are we going next?"

"What about we go get our baithing suits and go to the beach?" He smiled.

"I would love to!" I smiled then I looked away as my smile faded. So stupid, again. He couldn't see me in a bikini, shit.

He wrapped his arms around my waist from behind and kissed my cheek like he knew something was wrong. "Your so beautiful." Ha. Cut the crap Nick. Of course, I didn't say that, but I wanted to.

"Thanks…" For lying to me? I then felt his lips on my cheek and he turned me around to kiss him lips but I quickly put my hands on his chest and pushed him away a little. It's not that I didn't wanted to kiss him, Gosh, I was dying to kiss him. But I had just threw up so that was gross. "let's go to the beach, I love the beach!" Or used to love the beach.

At the beach…

"Want to go for a swim?" He smiled.

"No…" I had the time to change and brush my teeth while he waited for me outside. So I putted my bikini on and wore a cute little summer dress on top. But now, I really didn't want to be in a bikini in front of him. He's been to a couple of party before so he's seen like every girls from high school half naked and everyone knew how much better they are then me. And not to mention his last girlfriend, Selena. She's freaking perfect. She's never done anything wrong, she has good grades, she's beautiful yet at the same time sexy. And there's me. "What about we play that kiss again?" I smiled. Of course I wanted to kiss him, more than anything but at this very moment I just wanted to change the subject. And we kissed. This time more passionate than the one we shared at the gym earlier. His tongue made its way to my bottom lips asking for entrence and I let him in. It was still a weird feeling to me but damn it felt so good. Our tongues immediately started a battle of dominance. A few minutes later I realise we were making out and it felt so damn good. Suddenly I felt his hands slidding under my shirt. The memories of Liam quickly came in my mind. I pushed him away with all the strength I had and quickly got up.

"Miles… I'm sorry, I didn't meant to—"

"I'm no Selena, Nick." I cutted him off. "I'm a virgin, Never even been touch down there, well until that Liam came. I've never even been kissed before that guy! You were my second kiss. I know you had sex with Selena like every night but I'm not her. I'll never be. We're both different persons. So if your expecting anything from me anytime soon, forget it. In fact, this whole thing is a whole mistake. We're best friend! Not lovers."

"Mi—"

"Forget it, Nick. Forget this whole thing. Forget about me. About us. I don't know what we were thinking—"

"I know. I was thinking that I am in love with the most beautiful girl I've ever met." Lie. "Yes, in love. I love you, Miley. I know your not Selena. And I don't expect you to be either… It's okay if you don't want sex. I don't need it. All I need is you."

"Nick…" I sighed. "It was a mistake. It is a mistake…"

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