As I'm sure most of you know this story came about after many requests for Clare to get pregnant in Friends with Benefits. xaviorismy1andonly3512 requested a Clew pregnancy story after I told her that Clare would not get pregnant in Friends with Benefits. She gave me a couple of plots before I started plotting it but then she didn't want to see the plots when they were done. After I started writing she starting having more ideas and more plots which was fine only her ideas didn't work with the story I had planned already. I do want to tell her story however but this is no longer that story. This story will continue on the path I have planned for it and all of her ideas will be put into a short story, a story that will truly be hers, that story is on my list for plotting on my next plotting day.
Also I joined twitter tonight because the episode pissed me the hell off! Anyway aside from getting angry at the DeGrassi writers and producers I'm thinking I'll actually use it to let you guys know what stories are upcoming each week on Thursday and Friday, maybe drop hints about that nights chapter. And if any of you guest readers have twitter it might be an easier way to make requests to me and ask me questions. So if any of you care at all to follow me I'm Halawen_DFF
Ch.7 Girl You Want so Much it Makes You Sorry
(CLARE)
I was sitting on my bed doing homework, trying to concentrate so I could finish but I was horny! I had no idea why, there was no reason to be, I hadn't been thinking of Drew or anything but that tickle was between my legs and it wouldn't stop! It was making it increasingly difficult to concentrate on my native studies homework. I would simply lock my door and masturbate but Owen was in the room with me, sitting at the end of the bed and doing his own homework. So I bite my lip and squirmed uncomfortably.
"What's the matter?" Owen asks looking up from his world issues book.
"Nothing," I shake my head, biting my lip again.
Owen looks back at his book and I go back to my homework. I'm still horny however and I can't sit still, so Owen looks up at me again after a few seconds.
"Something is obviously wrong you can't sit still," Owen responds.
"It's nothing," I say quickly.
There's a sudden knock on my door and I jump, Lucas peaks his head in and smiles at me, I smile back and bite my lip.
"I'm leaving for work now, I brought out the air mattress from the garage, there's pillows and blankets in the hall closet. If anything happens call my cell," Lucas insists.
"I thought the point in Owen staying over was so that we wouldn't have to bother you at work?" I ask.
"It is but I still want to know if something goes wrong," Lucas says. "Mom is downstairs watching TV; she'll probably go to bed in a couple of hours. I'll be back about 2:30," Lucas tells us and then he waves and leaves my room.
"Are you going to tell me what's wrong now?" Owen questions when we hear Lucas leaving through the front door.
"No," I shake my head.
"Clare come on, pretend I'm Drew," he persists.
"That's sort of the problem, you aren't Drew," I respond and Owen cocks an eyebrow at me. I sigh, rolling my lip between my teeth and letting out a breath. "I'm…horny," I finally admit.
"Oh," Owen says and scratches his head uncomfortably. "I can uh…take care of it," he offers and now I cock an eyebrow at him.
"No that's…" I start to say and then bite my lip I really am horny.
"We already talked about it a…" Owen is saying when I cut him off.
"We had no such conversation," I dispute.
"No I had it with Mia, Lucas and Evelyn. It's not cheating Clare, Drew broke up with you and we're supposed to be dating. I'm stepping up when he can't and that includes everything," Owen asserts.
"I…ummm…" I mumble this is quite awkward but I'm also very horny and Owen has a point.
I finally bite my lip and nod after a moment of consideration, after all Drew left me and he can't blame me for having Owen get me off, especially since Owen's my boyfriend, well everyone thinks he's my boyfriend anyway.
"So uh we could…no uh that wouldn't feel right. Umm, okay so let's start with you taking off your jeans and panties," Owen says standing up and helping me off the bed.
He turns around allowing me to undress without him looking; although considering what we're about to do I find it funny. I undress from the waist down and sit on the bed again, hearing the squeak of the springs Owen turns around again. He stares for a second and then gets on the bed telling me to lie back, so I do. Owen gets between my legs and his head goes down between them, his arms go around my thighs and then his tongue slides into me! I pull in a breath and release a moan, my back arching as I grip the headboard. Owen's tongue darts around a little, I bite my lip and my head lulls back into the pillow. Owen's rather good at this and I'm already very horny so I feel the climax building very quickly. Biting my lip and moaning endlessly, my breathing increases exponentially and my hips buck, writhing against Owen's face. My body tenses, then relaxes and then tenses again before I climax, moaning loudly as I release!
Owen slows and then withdraws his tongue, I curl up quivering a little and Owen gets off the bed. I hear him lick his lips as he sits back on the bed. He hands me my panties and jeans again. After a few minutes I can breathe again and put on my panties but I don't wish to wear my jeans anymore. I stand but my legs are still shaking and I wobble, Owen hops up catching me by the waist so that I don't fall. I put my hands on his and find my footing again, assuring him that I'm simply still recovering and nothing else is wrong. He let's go of me when I'm stable and I walk to the closet getting out a pair of pajama shorts. I sit on the bed again and we finish our homework, Owen gets the air mattress and makes it up on my floor while I get ready for bed.
"Wake me up for any reason," Owen insists as I get into bed.
"I'll be fine," I tell him but he doesn't look like he believes me.
He goes out to get ready for bed and I lay down closing my eyes. I'm really rather tired and I'm already drifting to sleep when Owen comes back in the room.
(OWEN)
"You ready?" I ask Clare when I pick her up for her prenatal appointment on Saturday afternoon.
"Yeah I guess," she sighs grabbing her purse and coat.
"Dr. Burns isn't your doctor this time and if he somehow is on duty I'm taking you out of there after last time," I tell her taking her to my car.
I drive to the clinic and park, we go in, Clare tells them she's there for her appointment, they tell us to go back to exam room 4. I turn my back and let Clare change; she tells me when I can turn around. Clare sits on the exam table and we wait for about ten minutes before the doctor knocks on the door. The female doctor is a nice looking woman in her forties with dirty blonde hair that's pulled back in a ponytail.
"Hello I'm Dr. Jackman you must be Clare and Owen," she says after looking at her notes.
"Yes that's us but I'm not the father just a friend," I tell her.
"Yes I see that here in Dr. Burns notes. Why don't you lie back on the table Clare and I'm going to perform a sonogram to get an accurate gestational age," the doctor says.
"Will we be able to see the baby?" Clare asks as she lies back.
"Yes, the baby will even look a little like a human," the doc tells us lifting Clare's gown and putting gel on Clare's belly. "Right now your baby is only about two and a half inches it will be a little hard to see on the screen but I will take a picture and blow it up for you to take home," Dr. Jackman tells us and turns on the sonogram machine.
"When will I know the sex?" Clare questions.
"Not until next month it's too soon to tell right now, there if you look at the screen you can see," the doctor says and I look at the screen.
I see a very large head that looks more like an alien than human but I do see it. I kind of expect Clare to be happy and excited but she's just blinking at it. The doctor is also looking at it very closely and then puts more gel on Clare's baby and moves the wand to the right.
"Is something wrong doctor?" I question.
"No I don't think so, the baby is in an awkward position it's just hard to see. I'm going to put the fetal heart monitor on," the doctor tells us.
"Is something wrong?" Clare asks.
"No I just want to hear the baby's heart while I have a look around," she tells us.
She sets down the wand and picks up a belt looking thing that she lays on Clare's stomach. The doctor switches it on and I can hear a really fast heartbeat.
"That seems pretty fast," I remark.
"It's supposed to be, that's perfectly normal. Alright Clare, you baby looks very healthy and I think you were quite accurate, twelve weeks is right," the doctor says turning off the heart rate monitor and sonogram machine. "Given that and the date of your last menstrual cycle your due date is," the doctor takes out a little tablet and seems to do some kind of calculation, "September 17th."
"Great right after school starts up again," Clare says sardonically.
The doctor prints Clare a picture of the sonogram, gets Clare's blood pressure and her weight then asks if we have any questions.
"No," Clare shakes her head.
"She's been feeling pretty lousy, throwing up and getting dizzy, passing out."
"That's all normal Owen; she's got a lot of hormones and things going on in her body. Pregnancy can present in a number of symptoms and especially when, like Clare the mom is young and small frame. You should start to feel better as you get into the second trimester, have more energy but some women do continue to have morning sickness throughout the pregnancy. I'm going to prescribe you some prenatal vitamins you can pick up from the pharmacy," the doctor says scribbling something out on a prescription pad. "Make another appointment for four weeks and if you have any concerns at all don't be afraid to call the nurses line."
"I like her much better," I tell Clare when the doctor has left the room.
"She also didn't have to do a pelvic exam but yes I like her better too," Clare nods.
"I'll let you get dressed and go make you another appointment," I tell Clare and she smiles. I leave the room and go to the reception desk, "I need to make another appointment for Clare Edwards in four weeks."
"Okay let's see four weeks would be April 2nd, that's Saturday again, do you want the same time?" The reception nurse asks.
"Which doctor is on duty that day?" I question.
"Dr. Burns," says the nurse.
"No anyone but Dr. Burns," I reply.
"Okay if you want Dr. Jackman again she's on duty that Monday the 4th," the nurse tells me.
"Good Monday is fine, during lunch if we can at 11:30," I tell her.
"Yes 11:30 is fine the next few appointments won't take very long," the nurse comments typing on the computer and then giving me an appointment card.
When Clare comes out I give her the appointment card then I swing by the pharmacy to fill her prescription.
"You want to swing by the Dot to get something to eat?" I ask her after getting in the car again.
"Actually I'm pretty tired can you just take me home please?" She requests.
"Yeah but I'm staying tonight since Lucas is working." I tell her and she smiles.
I take her home and she goes upstairs, I tell Lucas about her appointment and then go upstairs to check on her. Clare's asleep in her bed so I shut the door and let her sleep, going back downstairs to hang out with Lucas until he has to go to work.
(DREW)
The plane lands at Pearson airport and I open the blind on the window. It's night time and there's not much to see other than lights on the runway but I've been away from Toronto for eight weeks and it feels good to be home. It feels like it takes a very long time to taxi to the gate and for us to be let off. Then I have to walk through most of the airport to get to the area where families are waiting to greet their loved ones. I grin widely when I see Mom, Dad, Adam and Dallas here; Mom pulls me into her arms and hugs me very tightly for several minutes.
"Nice to have you home son," Dad says hugging me when Mom finally releases me.
"Good to have you back big bro," Adam smiles hugging me after Dad.
I high five Dallas and then we go down to baggage claim and grab my bags. We stop for dinner at Swiss Chalet on the way home and it's nice to be eating food that I didn't have to cook. Mom and Adam tell me all about everything that's gone on since I left, for all the news they give me two names are curiously missing from the list, Clare and Owen. Then of course Mom tells me that I'm still on probation and I have a whole list of chores to do this weekend. When we get home Adam and Dallas help me take everything to my room. I tell Adam I'm going to shower and go to bed, which is what I do, I fall asleep quickly and I dream about Clare all night long.
Mom doesn't let me sleep in; she wakes me up at seven for breakfast. I eat a good breakfast and then Mom tells me I get to clean the gutters. I do chores all day long, after the gutters I clean behind the fridge, and then clean the tile in all the washrooms with a toothbrush, then vacuum the entire house. By the time we have dinner I'm exhausted, I eat as much as I can and then fall asleep as soon as I fall into bed. I dream about Clare all night long again, I didn't talk about her or hear about her all day; I was too busy doing chores. Mom wakes me up seven again and after breakfast it's back to chores, Mom has me start by cleaning out the garage, the chore I should have done when I left that day. Adam comes out after a few minutes, sitting on a box and watching me work.
"So you going to tell me about Clare?" I ask my brother.
"I don't know are you going to tell me why you two broke up?" Adam questions.
"I already told you Adam," I respond somewhat annoyed.
"Yeah sure," Adam replies rolling his eyes. "Clare's fine, she's with Owen a lot, all the time really, I hardly see her except for Class."
"Then Owen's controlling her pulling her from her friends?" I question.
"No I don't think so; he's been worried about her. She's been kind of sick or something," Adam tells me.
"Not sick, pregnant," I think but don't say anything. "Then Owen's taking care of her?" I ask.
"Yeah, he seems to but she doesn't really seem happy with him. Are you going to talk to her tomorrow?" Adam queries.
I set down the box I was moving and look at my younger brother and Clare's best friend. "I can't Adam, I just can't, she has every right to hate me. What I did to her was beyond forgiving," I tell him.
"You broke up with her, how is that beyond forgiving?" Adam asks.
"You don't understand Adam and if I tell you then you will hate me. Now unless you're going to help me can you just leave me with my shame?" I request of him.
Adam shakes his head and sighs but he gets up and walks back inside. Cleaning out the garage takes me all day and after dinner I take a shower and go to bed. Mom wakes me up even earlier Monday morning, she tells me I'll be doing this for a while until she's sure I'm not going to behave like I was before I was sent away. Adam drives us to school and I head straight for my locker, I'm anxious and really afraid to see Clare. When I get to my locker I see her with Owen at his locker, he's getting books out and seems to be carrying her backpack while she argues with him that she doesn't need her backpack carried. She hates being told she can't do things, I know it's wrong but I smile and hope that they get in a bad fight and breakup. Then again even if they do break up Clare probably wouldn't come back to me after what I put her through. She sees me now, lingering at the end of the hall, she stops talking and looks right at me, her eyes locking onto mine, God how I love those amazing blue eyes of hers. She smiles just a little and waves, then Owen takes notice of me, he nods but closes his locker and puts his arm around Clare.
"Lucas is working so I'm sleeping over tonight," Owen tells her as they walk past me.
"He's sleeping there! They're sleeping together! How long has that been going on?!" I feel the anger in me rising, I clench my fist and get ready to punch the locker but then I remember everything I learned at Horizon and manage to calm myself down. I quickly put books in my locker and go see Mr. Simpson, he also tells me that I'm on probation and he'll be keeping a close eye on me.
"Hey Drew, welcome back," K.C. smiles at me when I leave Simpson's office.
"Thanks, nice to be back at a school where I don't have to cook and clean everything," I reply and K.C. laughs. We part ways to go to class and when I get to math class Jake is already at his desk.
"Hey Drew," Jake nods.
"Hey," I nod back. It's tempting to ask him how long Clare's been sleeping with Owen but Jake wouldn't know. He barely kept track of her life when they were living in the same house, he didn't even know she and I had had sex until weeks after the fact. My brother on the other hand is her best friend and he'd probably know. I find Adam at his locker after class and lean on the locker next to his. "How long has Clare been sleeping with Owen?" I blurt out.
Adam gives me a look as he closes his locker, "I don't know I'm not in the habit of asking Clare about her sex life. I'm guessing since he started sleeping over nearly every night which was about a week ago."
I lean against the locker and slump, "I lost her Adam."
"Why don't you talk to her Drew, you don't know you lost her until you talk to her," Adam says but I only shake my head and walk off to class.
"Hey welcome back, you got your anger control Hulk?" Bianca teases when I get into business leadership class.
"Yeah, I learned to control it and figure out what I was angry at," I reply.
"So how was the troubled teens school?" She asks.
"I liked camping and the outdoor stuff, the classes were just as boring as they are here and there was a lot of cooking and cleaning. I didn't really talk in group therapy sessions, a lot of the kids were there for drug abuse or worse, I was angry because I abandoned my pr…" I start to say pregnant girlfriend but other kids come into class so shut up.
"You know Owen has Ice Hounds practice after school you could go talk to her, I can give you Luke's address," Bianca offers.
"No, I can't. I screwed up Bianca, big time I did a lot and she has every right to never forgive me. Anyway I'm on lockdown for the next week I have to go straight home after school," I tell her.
"Okay maybe you need some more time but you should talk to her Drew," Bianca says just as the teacher comes into class.
I want to talk to Clare but truth is I'm too ashamed to face her after everything I did. I grab lunch from the caf and almost eat there when I see Owen getting two lunches and guessing that the second lunch is for Clare I decide to follow him. He goes out to the football bleachers where Clare is waiting. They're sitting in the top left corner so I sit on the grass under the bleachers far enough to the other side that that they can't see me.
"What's wrong?" He asks Clare, I try to look through the bleacher seats to see her but I can only see her shoes and legs.
"I feel like vomiting like always," she responds.
"Well you still need to eat something," Owen says trying to hand her something.
"Owen I don't feel like eating, I feel like vomiting," she argues.
"Yeah but Lucas said you didn't eat breakfast either, at least a little of the yogurt it's protein," Owen persists.
"No it'll just come straight back up and I'll vomit on your shoes. Anyway the baby will take what it needs from me," Clare tells him.
"Yeah I know but you didn't eat much yesterday either and you're looking kind of pale again," Owen says and I can hear the worry in his voice.
"I'm fine, just didn't sleep much last night," she responds.
"Then you should have woken me up," he comments.
"You were sleeping at home last night I wasn't going to wake you up, anyway I was just stressing about seeing Drew today," she replies and I get stabbed by guilt. "I just want to lay down a minute," she tells him.
"You want to go inside?" Owen asks.
"No, I like the fresh air," she replies.
"Here," Owen says taking off his Ice Hounds jacket for her to use as a pillow or blanket. For the rest of lunch I eat while watching them, or as much of them as I can see but Clare just sleeps all through lunch and all through her spare after lunch. Owen and I both have a spare after lunch too so I just stay watching them since he stays with her too. "Come on the bells going to ring soon, I'll take you to class and grab your books from your locker," he tells her waking her up.
"Class? You mean I slept all the way through lunch and spare?" She asks with a yawn.
"Yeah but I figured you needed it, how do you feel?" Owen queries as she stands but she starts to fall, Owen catches her. "I told you to eat," he scolds her.
"I'm okay just fatigued," she responds.
"Here take your yogurt, eat it before the bell you need some food in you and I'm going to make sure Lucas feeds you when you get home," he tells her.
I watch them walk down the bleachers, I can see her eating her yogurt as she walks, I hide so they won't see me and then follow them inside. She eats her yogurt before they get to her native studies class and she tosses the container as they pass a trashcan. Owen hands her a bottle of water and she takes a few sips.
"I could text Dave to bring me my backpack," she says to Owen when they reach the door for her native studies class.
"No I'm the boyfriend I'll get it," Owen asserts.
She glances in my direction and then grabs Owen by his team jacket, puts a hand at the back of his neck, grazing her nails on the back of his head. She closes the gap between them and joins their lips, she kisses him hard, his hand goes to the small of her back and I feel my fists clenching. I can just see her lips parting and his tongue going in, she stands on her tiptoes deepening the kiss and they linger like that for over a minute.
"Be right back," Owen tells her with a goofy carnal grin on his face.
That should be my grin! That should have been my kiss! And if I hadn't screwed everything up it probably would have been. I screwed up and I lost her. I unclench my fists and turn to walk to geography, a class I have with Owen, this should be fun.
Update next Tuesday starting from around here in Owen pov in class and sleeping at Clare's again.