Warning: ANGST. LOTS OF IT. That is all.
Disclaimer: (checks mailbox in vain) Nope, Akimine-sensei still hasn't given me the rights to SDK. Durnit!
Please…
20 Aus Theme #23: The Fragility of Strength
Please don't.
Please don't smile like that (that brittle smile), pretending to be in control, like nothing's bothering you - it makes me angry when you lie to me.
Lying is a sign of weakness, even if you do it to try and protect someone.
Especially me.
You used to take my breath away with your confidence, your clarity, your cleverness.
(You still take my breath away)
Not anymore.
You're not alone anymore, you're not facing the world by yourself, with nothing to lose - can't I convince you that I'm right here, standing beside you, trusting you (wishing you would trust me), right now?
Despair is a sign of weakness, even if you have nothing to lose.
Not me.
I would give you my last breath, if only you asked.
(You are not alone)
Please don't.
Please don't cry like that, wasting your tears (those precious tears), as though the world's ending - it makes me angry to realize your tears are for me.
Tears are a sign of weakness, especially if they're shed for someone else.
Especially me.
You used to take my breath away with your confidence, your charity, your kindness.
(I can't draw breath without you)
Always.
I want you beside me always, facing the dark path we all walk, with everything to lose - can't you understand I can't ask that of you, that I can't trust myself (knowing I might fail you), even now?
Hope is a sign of weakness, because it is all too easy to lose.
Like you.
I would rather you take my last breath than be hurt because of me.
(It is better to be alone)
Gyaaaahhh (twitches) I had to write it, forgive me O muse of Comedy! (curls up into little pathetic ball)