Eyes that could move Mountians
chapter 7: My mission in life
Irish: this is gonna be a sad chapter
Momo(my BFF, not from bleach): I'm still mad at you
Irish: why?
Momo: you sent lavi to someone else
Irish: you still have Allen
Momo: its not the same
Irish: you anime whore
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I dug my nails into my arms, the pain was my punishment. I don't care if it hurts but it has to be done. Everyone was quiet, the general dragged us on this smelly hay cart to the next town which was a day away. It would have taken us 2 hours but the general begged the driver to take the long way because "the schenery was so much better this way". Better schenery my ass theres nothing here but trees and dirt. Calm down Mia, think about something else before you go through a nervous breakdown. Maire was passed out and snoreing like a banshe in woodchipper. Kanda and the general just sat there. Without someone to talk to make me avoid the fact that I was a killer. The panic swept through my body like a deadly nails dug into my arms once more. I could feel my skin breaking and my blood flowing free.
"stop that"
Kanda said bashing my hand with the hilt of his sword. I looked at him blankly. Blood dripped from my fingers to the wood. He glared at me, it was strange its not his wound why should he care?
" why do you care its not your hand thats bleeding"
He began to "che" but held it longer till grew angrier. He grabbed my collar and held yanked toward him. His cold black eyes seemed to burn in cold fire. His breath was uneven yet feirce like an animal about to make the final kill.
" what the hell is worng with you! Yesterday you were happy, three hours ago you were angry and now your like a corpse"
He yelled into my face. My body began to move on its own. It swatted him away sat back down. Without taking my eyes of him.
" tell me, why was lenalee so warry about you"
" you don't want to know"
" Tell him Mia-chan, it'll feel good to get it off your chest. You knew told anyone before have you?"
The general said. I guess he was awake this whole time.
"no I haven't but you have read my file you should already know."
"true but Its better to hear from the one who knows it best"
I sighed and smiled a bit. He tricked me, sneaky bastard.
" so thats why you took the long way to make me talk"
"yes and the schenery is lovely too"
Just when I would I have any respect for him, he destroys it with pictures. If I told them would they hate me like lenalee does since she some how got her gruby hands on my file.
"If I told you would you promise not think of me any differently?"
Quiet, they couldn't promise that. People's opinions on others change every hour of everyday.
"very well then"
When I was 14 years old. My family, my parents, my 3 brothers, my 7 cousins and their parents. We left our hometown after an akuma attack. After days of traveling we came to a small town. It looked like an average town. But It was strange because all the house surronded one building. I looked like a church but it didn't have windows just one large door. The people were quiet and always gave us wierd looks when we passed by. The wouldn't sell us anything and wouldn't recive our gifts. My mom said its because we were new to the town but I wasn't so sure.
Every sunday all the locals would go into church. I never went but I couldn't go even if I wanted. They told me it was for locals only. I tried to go in once when everyone left. It wasn't like any church I've seen. It was all painted black and it smelled like a decaying animal. The only light in the room was the candles from the red altar. Above it was a horrifing painting of a demon with gleaming red eyes and yellow horns. Paintings of fire were everywhere. I wanted to get a closer look but every step the smell of death was stronger. I couldn't take it I had to leave.
The next part went so fast. They asked us out in the middle of the night, then the knife, the blood, the screaming. I tried to stop them but I wasn't strong enough.
"there was nothing you could do"
"NO IF I WAS STRONGER I COULD HAVE SAVED THEM!"
My wound wasn't fatal like the restof my family. They looked like they were sleeping, like perfect doves that were bleeding very badly. I waited for them to wake up. They would say that I was right and this place was bad and we could return to our old village. I waited for two days for them to wake up. I never thought that they were dead but I just couldn't grasp it. I didn't cry for them that day not the next day or the day after that. I was filled with too much hate.
I wanted them to pay, to suffer! They will feel the pain my family felt ten times over. I was going to send them to hell were they belong. Blood was going to be shed. I was going to kill them in the fire they loved so much!
When they went into the church I barricaded the door. I set the place on fire, it was like a halo to hell. The screaming was like music to my ears. They screamed praying to god for the salvation they so do not deserve. As the fire grew the screams began to were dieing. The door began to creak open only just enough to see the hell I made. I loved it they were screaming and crying. It was so funny I couldn't help but laugh. Making them feel my pain, no matter how hard they cry to their god for help it will never come.
Burnt hands clawed at the door. In the door cracked and I saw a crying eye and bleeding mouth. This day I wonder what they would say to me if the church hadn't collapsed.
"then the exorcist found you"
the general said interupting my story.
"yes"
I didn't tell them, that they found me as I was about to hang myself. I begged for them to kill me but they said I was valuable.
The only that was keeping me from being executed on the spot was that I was compatible. Every time I passed some one they said they same things that I was a killer and I should die in the fire I started.
"are you done?"
"yes I am done"
"no you're not"
"yes I am'
"no you'rre not ari"
"fine what else do you want to know"
"what is your purpose for living. I would have expected a weak creature like you would have killed yourself by now."
" To reddem myself from the great sin I have made. When I die, I can see my family in heaven and give them a proper good bye before I go to hell."
The general was right I do feel alot better now that I have gotten that off my chest. I felt so calm that my body and mind finally went down for a peaceful night's sleep. I had my first good dream that night since the fire.