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Not that different
Events that lead to pain
*****Sakura POV*****
"Great, no motives, no reliable witnesses. Just fucking great! How the hell are we supposed to solve this case," Trina said, while sitting around the table in the briefing room, "I mean those people did help, but just not that much."
"Calm down Miss Starlight," said the leading officer on this case, "I know you. we are all a little on edge, but we can't do much right now on the information we currently have,"
Right that is it; I have to say something, even if it's only a little bit, just to keep these people going. I get up out of my seat, grab a pen and move towards the white board. I draw the old Clow symbol on it. I turn around to see the shocked faces of my co-workers.
"What is that?" Ryu asks me; actually, it's the first time he's spoken to me since I broke up with him.
"It's an old symbol that dates back throughout history. It was said, to originally to be used by an ancient magician who went by the name of Clow Reed. I just thought it looked similar to that which was burned in the victims back." I said, not mentioning that it was still used by the Li- Clan.
"How do you know this?" the leading officer, Mr Kami asked me,
I just shrugged and said, "My Father's an archaeologist. It just came to me now."
"Well, it's a start I guess. I mean the symbols are quite a close match," Trina said,
"Yeah, so the killer could be an old follower of a similar group who believe in ancient magic," Ryu said sarcastically,
"We shouldn't rule out any possibilities Ryu, there could well be some person who does follow a cult and claim that they told them to kill some people." Tony snapped back at him,
"Tony's right, we shouldn't rule out anything. We're going to have to wait for the tech's to get back on the DNA results. Let's look at the locations, an ice rink, a wood, the beach and a shrine. Can anybody see any connections?"
"Not really," I say, and everybody nods in support,
"The beach, would it have been the sea, but the body was brought in by the tide?" Tony said,
"That could well be, but I just don't see a connection, unless he or her or them, really didn't want to get caught," the office said,
"Maybe they were placed in each place for a reason, but there isn't any evidence of somebody bringing them to those places, it was as if by." Trina said,
"As if by magic," I added,
"Oh come on, magic. Have you heard yourselves? It doesn't exist." Ryu says,
I feel a swell of annoyance, but since I can't turn and say I'm the mistress of magical cards, I settle for, "My Father's an archaeologist and he's told me something's that just can't be explained otherwise."
"But magic?" he replied disbelievingly,
"I have my beliefs and I'll let you keep yours." I bark back, "Are we done? Coz, I wouldn't mind going home, I didn't get much sleep last night, there's something about waking up in somebody's hotel room gives me that feeling anyway." I say, now my cools gone. I must of hit home because he looked as if he's been slapped. I look around and notice that once again I have everybody shocked, but this time that excludes Trina.
"Yeah," said Kami, after he collected himself, "we're done." After which I leave the room in silence.
I walk straight to my car which I had picked up while on my lunch break, great, why did I say that, now everyone's going to think I'm a slut, when in truth, I've only ever slept with one person. I drive home with my head full of jumbled thoughts about Syaoran, these Murders's; how they're connected, the body dumpsites, it just didn't make sense. My thoughts are interrupted though when somebody's car headlights, which are obviously on full power, blind me temporarily, "shit head," I say as I beep the horn, but at that particular moment they ram their car into me.
"What the fuck?" I shout as they bump into me again, and their headlights are sill on full power. What the hell is going on? Then it hits me. Strong and forcefully, like I've hit a wall. I sense something I haven't for a long time. Magic! And an ancient magic at that! I haven't needed to concentrate like I have to now for a long time. It's going to be hard getting myself psyched up for this. I mean yeah, I participate in police raids all the time but they're nothing when compared to a magical battle.
I serve sharply and bang my head on the car door. However my little manoeuvre didn't go a miss because that ass hole banged into me again. I grab the wheel tightly and turn it as quickly as I could, so that I moved down a small road. My senses heightened so that it could help to predict what choices I can make and when that freak is going to hit me. I wish I could of used my magic right now but I needed to concentrate on the road otherwise I would end up in my car like a crumpled tin can, especially at the speed I'm now travelling at.
"Shit, shit, shit!" I shout as I serve again, jerking in my seatbelt, I'm going to have grazes in the morning that is if I make it that long. I turn left, then right, then right again but I'm not losing this sucker. I serve sharply again on a road to my left.
"Oh no!" I shout as I realise that the road I'm travelling on leads to an extremely busy road, I look behind me to see if that fucking car is going to slow down, like hell it is. I concentrate as hard as I possibly can to freeze time and just as I'm about to reach the cars at full speed, the road freezes including that bloody car behind me, my car scrapes through the others and as I pass through, time unfreezes and the car tailing me plummets into the fast lane. I can finally let that breath out, which I was holding. I keep on driving ignoring the fire burning behind me, and more importantly, not looking back.
When I finally arrive within a block of my home, my car breaks down on me. Figures. Well, it could of collapsed during that chase, so I guess I should have been grateful. I collect my bag and walk quickly to my place. The moment I open the door though Kero starts hounding me with questions,
"Where the hell were you? You didn't come home last night? You could have." he shuts up as soon as he sees me. I must be a sight for sore eyes. "What happened? Yue!"
Yue then comes in to see me; the both of them help me to the couch in the living room.
"I was attacked," I say as Kero places a cloth on my forehead, while Yue stands in front of me. "I was in my car, and then something blinded me, banged into me. I couldn't tell at first but they had magic! I finally lost the on the Jefforson road, but otherwise I couldn't shaked them. I could have been killed."
"There's something's I can check out, see some people, ask them if they know of anybody with a grudge on you." Yue said,
"There's something else," they both turn to me, "Syaoran and Eriol are in town."
"What!" Kero says, as the bell rings, Yue answers it, hopefully his presence will scare them off, and I'm not in the mood for company right now. Maybe it has something to do with the fact somebody tried to kill me!
Yue comes back into the room but he's not alone. Syaoran is with him.
"Kero I'm going to need your help," Yue says pulling him out of the front door so that I'm alone with Syaroan.
"Subtle, right." I say,
"What happened?" I wasn't going to tell him but his concern shocks me and before I know it, I've old him everything that just happened.
*****Normal POV******
Syaoran just looks at her once she's finished telling her story. He then moves to grab the cloth but she gets to it first.
"What are you doing here?"
"Your friend Trina came to see me," he said simply,
"I'll kill her," Sakura says,
"Well she'll kill me if I hurt you," he jokes,
"Then you'd better leave because I know why you're here," she replies,
"Sakura, please tell me,"
"I can't," she says looking at her feet,
"Tell me why you left," he replies insistently, lifting her chin up with his hand. She pulls away and stands up away from him, forgetting about her injuries,
"There was just to much pressure Syaoran," she says quietly,
"I don't understand, what pressures?" Syaoran said, his voice rising questioningly.
"The pressures of being married to you!" she shouted back at him, and when those words were out he looked hurt. But she didn't care, they needed to have this conversation for along time coming and that was it, the floodgates were opened and she was going to let it all out. "The constant attention of being married to somebody so powerful, the press continuously hounding you, watching your every move, asking you when you're going to produce that ever needed heir to the Li-Clan"
"Is that what this was about, was that why you left?" he said softly, trying to control his temper, "I thought we weren't ready for kids, not then anyway, it doesn't matter what they said. And if by some chance you did get pregnant we would of dealed and."
"But I was pregnant Syaoran, that's the point!"
"What?" it came like a slap in the face to him, as the next thought he spoke aloud, "How come I didn't know this? What happened to."
"Because I miscarried." And that was it, it was finally out and so were the tears that fell down her cheeks, "that's my big secret Syaoran, your brilliant, loving wife couldn't even give birth to a child. And it was my fault, I mean, maybe if I'd. I could of."
"Why didn't you tell me?" he said with his anger seeping into his voice, "We could of got through it together. But you wouldn't even let me grieve for my unborn child because I knew nothing about him or her."
"Yes, I was selfish in not telling you, is that what you want to hear. I didn't know what was I supposed to say, when I found out I was pregnant you were out of the country and I didn't want to tell you over the phone because it felt so impersonal, but by the time you got back I'd already lost the child."
"You still should have told me, you should of."
"The past is littered with should of's or would of's, but the key word there is PAST, Syaoran. I could have made a lot of different choices on how I went about it, but I've already done it, I made my choices on it and there is no way I can change that now! It happened four years ago!"
"Time doesn't mean a thing Sakura, I know that for a fact. Time doesn't heal all wounds or make the heart grow fonder, it just doesn't happen. And if time was such a big issue here, I wouldn't feel the way I do now and you wouldn't be crying or hurting the way you are."
"You don't know what it was like Syaoran. I'm the mistress of the fucking cards, and I felt so powerless. I could have gone back to change things, rewrite time, but some things are just meant to be and you don't know how hard it was for me to except that, and I didn't think I could have stood it if I lost him again. But just because I didn't want to go back and try and redo things, doesn't mean that I didn't feel responsible or hurt, I mean for God's sake I lost my child and you don't know how that felt!"
"Because you wouldn't let me!" Syaoran yelled back, Sakura reeled back and turned away from him.
There was a few moments silence, both of them breathing heavily and out of sorts. Until Sakura's sobs broke through the quietness. Syaoran felt guilty, sure she didn't tell him and he should be able to feel angry and hurt. But she went through what he was now feeling and more; she went through it alone. He always thought they were soul mates and that they could get through anything if they went through it together, he just didn't realise until now that they might not want to go through it together. She had to choose whether or not she wanted to try and redo things, see if she could save their child, but he couldn't really blame her, for fearing of repeating the same issues again, for not wanting to feel it again. He moved towards her and pulled her in to a hug, she tried to pull away but he kept hold of her possessively not letting her get away, but after several attempts, she collapsed in his embrace and cried into his shoulder.
Not that different
Events that lead to pain
*****Sakura POV*****
"Great, no motives, no reliable witnesses. Just fucking great! How the hell are we supposed to solve this case," Trina said, while sitting around the table in the briefing room, "I mean those people did help, but just not that much."
"Calm down Miss Starlight," said the leading officer on this case, "I know you. we are all a little on edge, but we can't do much right now on the information we currently have,"
Right that is it; I have to say something, even if it's only a little bit, just to keep these people going. I get up out of my seat, grab a pen and move towards the white board. I draw the old Clow symbol on it. I turn around to see the shocked faces of my co-workers.
"What is that?" Ryu asks me; actually, it's the first time he's spoken to me since I broke up with him.
"It's an old symbol that dates back throughout history. It was said, to originally to be used by an ancient magician who went by the name of Clow Reed. I just thought it looked similar to that which was burned in the victims back." I said, not mentioning that it was still used by the Li- Clan.
"How do you know this?" the leading officer, Mr Kami asked me,
I just shrugged and said, "My Father's an archaeologist. It just came to me now."
"Well, it's a start I guess. I mean the symbols are quite a close match," Trina said,
"Yeah, so the killer could be an old follower of a similar group who believe in ancient magic," Ryu said sarcastically,
"We shouldn't rule out any possibilities Ryu, there could well be some person who does follow a cult and claim that they told them to kill some people." Tony snapped back at him,
"Tony's right, we shouldn't rule out anything. We're going to have to wait for the tech's to get back on the DNA results. Let's look at the locations, an ice rink, a wood, the beach and a shrine. Can anybody see any connections?"
"Not really," I say, and everybody nods in support,
"The beach, would it have been the sea, but the body was brought in by the tide?" Tony said,
"That could well be, but I just don't see a connection, unless he or her or them, really didn't want to get caught," the office said,
"Maybe they were placed in each place for a reason, but there isn't any evidence of somebody bringing them to those places, it was as if by." Trina said,
"As if by magic," I added,
"Oh come on, magic. Have you heard yourselves? It doesn't exist." Ryu says,
I feel a swell of annoyance, but since I can't turn and say I'm the mistress of magical cards, I settle for, "My Father's an archaeologist and he's told me something's that just can't be explained otherwise."
"But magic?" he replied disbelievingly,
"I have my beliefs and I'll let you keep yours." I bark back, "Are we done? Coz, I wouldn't mind going home, I didn't get much sleep last night, there's something about waking up in somebody's hotel room gives me that feeling anyway." I say, now my cools gone. I must of hit home because he looked as if he's been slapped. I look around and notice that once again I have everybody shocked, but this time that excludes Trina.
"Yeah," said Kami, after he collected himself, "we're done." After which I leave the room in silence.
I walk straight to my car which I had picked up while on my lunch break, great, why did I say that, now everyone's going to think I'm a slut, when in truth, I've only ever slept with one person. I drive home with my head full of jumbled thoughts about Syaoran, these Murders's; how they're connected, the body dumpsites, it just didn't make sense. My thoughts are interrupted though when somebody's car headlights, which are obviously on full power, blind me temporarily, "shit head," I say as I beep the horn, but at that particular moment they ram their car into me.
"What the fuck?" I shout as they bump into me again, and their headlights are sill on full power. What the hell is going on? Then it hits me. Strong and forcefully, like I've hit a wall. I sense something I haven't for a long time. Magic! And an ancient magic at that! I haven't needed to concentrate like I have to now for a long time. It's going to be hard getting myself psyched up for this. I mean yeah, I participate in police raids all the time but they're nothing when compared to a magical battle.
I serve sharply and bang my head on the car door. However my little manoeuvre didn't go a miss because that ass hole banged into me again. I grab the wheel tightly and turn it as quickly as I could, so that I moved down a small road. My senses heightened so that it could help to predict what choices I can make and when that freak is going to hit me. I wish I could of used my magic right now but I needed to concentrate on the road otherwise I would end up in my car like a crumpled tin can, especially at the speed I'm now travelling at.
"Shit, shit, shit!" I shout as I serve again, jerking in my seatbelt, I'm going to have grazes in the morning that is if I make it that long. I turn left, then right, then right again but I'm not losing this sucker. I serve sharply again on a road to my left.
"Oh no!" I shout as I realise that the road I'm travelling on leads to an extremely busy road, I look behind me to see if that fucking car is going to slow down, like hell it is. I concentrate as hard as I possibly can to freeze time and just as I'm about to reach the cars at full speed, the road freezes including that bloody car behind me, my car scrapes through the others and as I pass through, time unfreezes and the car tailing me plummets into the fast lane. I can finally let that breath out, which I was holding. I keep on driving ignoring the fire burning behind me, and more importantly, not looking back.
When I finally arrive within a block of my home, my car breaks down on me. Figures. Well, it could of collapsed during that chase, so I guess I should have been grateful. I collect my bag and walk quickly to my place. The moment I open the door though Kero starts hounding me with questions,
"Where the hell were you? You didn't come home last night? You could have." he shuts up as soon as he sees me. I must be a sight for sore eyes. "What happened? Yue!"
Yue then comes in to see me; the both of them help me to the couch in the living room.
"I was attacked," I say as Kero places a cloth on my forehead, while Yue stands in front of me. "I was in my car, and then something blinded me, banged into me. I couldn't tell at first but they had magic! I finally lost the on the Jefforson road, but otherwise I couldn't shaked them. I could have been killed."
"There's something's I can check out, see some people, ask them if they know of anybody with a grudge on you." Yue said,
"There's something else," they both turn to me, "Syaoran and Eriol are in town."
"What!" Kero says, as the bell rings, Yue answers it, hopefully his presence will scare them off, and I'm not in the mood for company right now. Maybe it has something to do with the fact somebody tried to kill me!
Yue comes back into the room but he's not alone. Syaoran is with him.
"Kero I'm going to need your help," Yue says pulling him out of the front door so that I'm alone with Syaroan.
"Subtle, right." I say,
"What happened?" I wasn't going to tell him but his concern shocks me and before I know it, I've old him everything that just happened.
*****Normal POV******
Syaoran just looks at her once she's finished telling her story. He then moves to grab the cloth but she gets to it first.
"What are you doing here?"
"Your friend Trina came to see me," he said simply,
"I'll kill her," Sakura says,
"Well she'll kill me if I hurt you," he jokes,
"Then you'd better leave because I know why you're here," she replies,
"Sakura, please tell me,"
"I can't," she says looking at her feet,
"Tell me why you left," he replies insistently, lifting her chin up with his hand. She pulls away and stands up away from him, forgetting about her injuries,
"There was just to much pressure Syaoran," she says quietly,
"I don't understand, what pressures?" Syaoran said, his voice rising questioningly.
"The pressures of being married to you!" she shouted back at him, and when those words were out he looked hurt. But she didn't care, they needed to have this conversation for along time coming and that was it, the floodgates were opened and she was going to let it all out. "The constant attention of being married to somebody so powerful, the press continuously hounding you, watching your every move, asking you when you're going to produce that ever needed heir to the Li-Clan"
"Is that what this was about, was that why you left?" he said softly, trying to control his temper, "I thought we weren't ready for kids, not then anyway, it doesn't matter what they said. And if by some chance you did get pregnant we would of dealed and."
"But I was pregnant Syaoran, that's the point!"
"What?" it came like a slap in the face to him, as the next thought he spoke aloud, "How come I didn't know this? What happened to."
"Because I miscarried." And that was it, it was finally out and so were the tears that fell down her cheeks, "that's my big secret Syaoran, your brilliant, loving wife couldn't even give birth to a child. And it was my fault, I mean, maybe if I'd. I could of."
"Why didn't you tell me?" he said with his anger seeping into his voice, "We could of got through it together. But you wouldn't even let me grieve for my unborn child because I knew nothing about him or her."
"Yes, I was selfish in not telling you, is that what you want to hear. I didn't know what was I supposed to say, when I found out I was pregnant you were out of the country and I didn't want to tell you over the phone because it felt so impersonal, but by the time you got back I'd already lost the child."
"You still should have told me, you should of."
"The past is littered with should of's or would of's, but the key word there is PAST, Syaoran. I could have made a lot of different choices on how I went about it, but I've already done it, I made my choices on it and there is no way I can change that now! It happened four years ago!"
"Time doesn't mean a thing Sakura, I know that for a fact. Time doesn't heal all wounds or make the heart grow fonder, it just doesn't happen. And if time was such a big issue here, I wouldn't feel the way I do now and you wouldn't be crying or hurting the way you are."
"You don't know what it was like Syaoran. I'm the mistress of the fucking cards, and I felt so powerless. I could have gone back to change things, rewrite time, but some things are just meant to be and you don't know how hard it was for me to except that, and I didn't think I could have stood it if I lost him again. But just because I didn't want to go back and try and redo things, doesn't mean that I didn't feel responsible or hurt, I mean for God's sake I lost my child and you don't know how that felt!"
"Because you wouldn't let me!" Syaoran yelled back, Sakura reeled back and turned away from him.
There was a few moments silence, both of them breathing heavily and out of sorts. Until Sakura's sobs broke through the quietness. Syaoran felt guilty, sure she didn't tell him and he should be able to feel angry and hurt. But she went through what he was now feeling and more; she went through it alone. He always thought they were soul mates and that they could get through anything if they went through it together, he just didn't realise until now that they might not want to go through it together. She had to choose whether or not she wanted to try and redo things, see if she could save their child, but he couldn't really blame her, for fearing of repeating the same issues again, for not wanting to feel it again. He moved towards her and pulled her in to a hug, she tried to pull away but he kept hold of her possessively not letting her get away, but after several attempts, she collapsed in his embrace and cried into his shoulder.