Chapter 7: Getting right down deep in it
!
!
!
KAG POV
"YOU'RE HAVING A WHAT WITH WHO!"
I put my hand on the dash board to combat the overall impact of his sudden stop. I didn't want to repeat anything I said. I felt like telling him was the biggest mistake I've ever done. He stopped the car in the middle of the road, and a fast driving navy blue truck honked before bypassing us. "You're having an affair with Sesshomaru… since when?" He asked as he pulled and parked the car into a random curve.
I didn't want to talk about it anymore. I turned the other way, looking out the window. I should have dealt with the problem myself. I should've never told him. I tried to decipher whether or not it was the real Kagome who felt this way or if it was really me. "Kagome…" He said trying to get my attention. I couldn't talk to him anymore. I had this overwhelming urge to tell him I made it all up, but I knew this wasn't really me. I knew it was just the fake Kagome. "Kagome…"
"I'm not having an affair…" I snapped while looking out the window. I didn't know what else to really say. I was stuck. I knew I should have just continued to tell the truth, but I couldn't, he wouldn't understand. Inuyasha didn't really like it when I dated other guys. He especially didn't like his brother, so I knew he would hate me having any sexual affiliation with Sesshomaru.
"What do you mean…?" He asked in a surprisingly subtle voice. It shocked me that he was being so calm all of a sudden. I turned towards him for a slight second and I sighed when I saw the anger in his eyes. He tricked me, he wasn't trying to be sympathetic; he just wanted to get my attention. I grunted not knowing how else to extend what I just said. He knew now that I was facing him, I couldn't back down.
"I'm not having an affair with him… this Kagome is." I said. I watched the confused look on his face, and I sat up in my seat. "I just found out about it now… I had no idea." he took that into consideration and I rolled my eyes. I hated how spectacle he looked. It was as if he didn't really believe me. "Why would I be having an affair with your brother, we don't ever talk…"
"Well…" He turned in his seat before sitting back. I watched his frustrated meet relaxed position. He seemed a bit flustered, but too exhausted to do anything about it. "We've got to confront him about it." He said and for some reason that got me exceedingly nervous. I felt my stomach churn and I knew I couldn't let him do that.
"No…" I snapped as he sat up in his seat. He narrowed his intense golden eyes, and I felt myself actually shy away from his stare. "Uh… no… don't do that." I tried to calm myself down. I had conflicting feelings. It was like one side of me was screaming to tell Inuyasha everything. I wanted him to fix all my problems, but the other side wanted to keep everything a secret. I bit my lip as I thought about what would really help me. I was wondering if it was possible to have both ways. "I mean don't do anything too drastic." I mumbled. "Listen all this is temporary, in a month or so this'll be over, we'll both have our lives back. I'm already stressed enough… please don't put any more pressure on me."
"Pressure…" He said mockingly as he sat up in his seat. I watched him as he started the car again and slowly began to drive. "Pressure… yeah right, you're the reason why we're in this situation. You keep forgetting." I watched him in disgust. "I guess you can continue having your little affair…" He said and I shook my head as I turned in my seat.
"It's really none of your business…" I hissed while he took a left turn. I looked around knowing he didn't know where Kim lives.
"You're right it is none of my business…" He mumbled and I watched him carefully. He was pissed. I didn't really understand why, but he was beyond mad. Inuyasha never liked it when I dated guys. Since my sixteenth birthday his ex friend Kouga asked me out six times. I had been really ecstatic, but Inuyasha was extremely livid. I thought it was because Kouga was a close friend, but when I got asked out in school, he was just as mad. It was such a double standard because Inuyasha dated anyone he wanted at anytime. He acted as if I shouldn't be mad, and then it came to me.
"Who are you having an affair with?" I asked accusingly, and he leaned towards the driver window in frustration. He usually did that when he was in great need of a cigarette, but he had none.
"What are you talking about?" He asked and I shifted in my seat. It made my stomach churn to think that he was seeing someone as well, but I and Inuyasha weren't dating.
"You know what I'm talking about. We switched lives… if I'm having an affair with Sesshomaru who were you seeing?" He took that into consideration and I felt my nerves act out. I hoped to all heavenly being that Inuyasha wouldn't say Kikyo… she was an actress that he met on the set of one of his earlier movies. They had hit it off and since then they were off and on. I would always come second to Kikyo.
She was single handedly one of the reasons why I didn't argue with the kids at school when they called me a whore. Even when Inuyasha was dating Kikyo it didn't stop him from being with me. It didn't matter who he was dating, he cheated on all of them with me. And I was too spineless and too infatuated with him to stand up for myself. "No I don't know what you're talking about… I'm not seeing anyone." He lied. I knew he was lying by the way he clenched his jaw. It was a shockingly handsome gesture that always had my stomach flipping and my heart sinking.
"Whatever Inuyasha… I'll deal with my own problems…" I said while looking away. I knew he knew I knew he was lying, but I decided that it could have been a lot worse. Seeing as we switched lives Kikyo was out of the picture, and that I could be grateful for. "Kim's house is coming up on the right." He pulled up towards her brick front and I undid my seatbelt so I could go get Shippo.
I opened the door and slipped out of the car. I was about to head towards Kim's house when I felt him grab hold of my arm. "I'm not dating her…" He said making me turn to examine him. He seemed very earnest, but I knew he was paraphrasing things. He didn't have to be dating her, for him to be with her. Hell he was always with me. I nodded before walking out of the car and towards the house. I had around a month before we switched back, a month without Kikyo. I was hoping I could make him see my terms.
!
!
!
INU POV
I watched her ring the door bell then hug herself. She didn't believe that I wasn't dating Kikyo, for good reason too. I didn't want to think about it or talk about it. I waited for her to quickly pick up Shippo, but when the girl's mom witnessed Kagome she became extremely shock. I cursed inwardly forgetting that she was famous now. I let her talk for awhile before honking my car horn. She threw me a look and turned back around.
The mere thought of her having any relationship with any guy frustrated me to no end. It made my teeth grind and my blood heat up. I had no idea why. I thought it was just jealousy but I knew now it was something else. When she told me she was having an affair with Sesshomaru I literally felt myself lose it. I couldn't tell her that, I couldn't tell her anything. I turned towards the house again. Shippo's friend's dad was at the door now, and Kagome was in the middle of signing what looked like an autograph.
I honked the horn again making her look up and raise her pointing finger, telling me to wait. I rolled my eyes while I tried to divert my attention somewhere else. I hated thinking about things this serious, but I couldn't help it. Every time I thought of us going back home and seeing Sesshomaru my blood would boil. I didn't want her to be on my mind anymore. She turned away from the house with Shippo by her side. I hated that the first thing that was on my mind was how gorgeous she was. But she was always extremely attractive, even before we switched places.
She walked towards the car with a dazziling smile on her face. I leaned over opening the door for her. "I just signed my first ever autograph…" she said with that same stunning smile. I stuck both my eyebrows up in mock astonishment and her smile disappeared automatically.
"Hey is daddy home..?" Shippo asked as he climbed his way into the back seat. I looked back at him before ignoring him completely.
"Hey Kagome…" I said as she sat back down. She pushed her seat belt on then turned to look at Shippo.
"Yeah… your dad's home…" she answered making Shippo smile widely. I rolled my eyes. Sometimes she was too overly nice.
"Hey Kagome…" I repeated again. She turned to face me waiting for me to continue on. I backed up to allow myself to make a 'u' turn. "I was thinking that maybe tonight… you can… you know sleep in your own house." I said and this made her look up at me in consideration. I was cautious of what I said in front of Shippo, but I knew she understood what I meant.
"Uh… why?" She mumbled a bit distraught. I could tell she didn't like the idea too much. She hated being home alone. I remembered the time her mom and dad went on that cruise for their anniversary and Souta was in summer camp. My mom sent me over her house to stay for that whole week. It was ridiculous how obtuse our parents were.
"Well because…" I said. I didn't say anything else as we pulled up to the house. I waited for Shippo to get out before leaving the curve all together. "I don't want to give Sesshomaru any leverage…" I told her. I drove down the neighborhood into a detached black gate separating the above average size houses from the full fledged mansions. She had a cheerless look on her face as she sat back in her seat. "Don't worry… I'll stay with you…" I told her as I looked up.
She rolled her eyes as she looked out the window. "Why are you trying to get rid of me?" She asked and I let the gateman give Kagome a steady look before letting us in. I drove down to the huge house at the end of the road and Kagome sighed as she saw a few cameras go off near it. "I don't want to go."
"Stop acting immature… what do you have to worry about." I told her. "I'll bring my stuff down here. You'll be fine." I said as we entered my old house. It hadn't changed in the front, but I felt a bit of nostalgia as I realized it was no longer really my house. I sat up as I entered the mansion's own domain. It had a gate around it, and I quickly put in the codes that had the door sliding open. "I'll drop you off…"
"Your mom said I can stay at your house… it's really my house so I have every right to stay." She said but I ignored her while driving the solid road down to the front. There were a series of limos around the front and a couple of cars parked on the side. I pulled up waiting for her to get out, but she never did. "I'm not leaving… when I leave tomorrow I'll be tackled by paparazzi."
"Kagome relax I'll be there…" I reassured, but she eyed me like I was lying. I waited for her to leave, but instead she crossed her arms.
"I can't believe you're doing this because you're afraid I'm going to have some weird affair with Sesshomaru… I shouldn't have told you anything."
"Yeah well I can't believe you're afraid of going into a house by yourself. Your eighteen… it's ridiculous." I turned the key into the ignition turning it off completely. We both sat there staring at the glass window just waiting for one of us to make the move. There was no way in hell I was letting her go back to my house. I promised I wouldn't say anything about the Sesshomaru thing, but I hated the idea of it. It made my blood scorch. I could already feel my teeth clench at the idea of her under him, or in any provocative position.
After awhile of awkwardly looking away from each other she finally decided to get out of the car. I watched her slide down and forcefully slam the door then stomp up the porch steps. "I'll come by a little later…"
"Don't bother Inuyasha…" she said while knocking on the door. I waited to see who would open it. Usually my parents left maids keys when they left me at home by myself. I was wondering if her parents would do the same. Luckily they did, an older woman opened the door and she slipped in without giving me a second glance.
!
!
!
KAG POV
I hated the idea of being in this house. It freaked me out. I hated seeing pictures I didn't remember posing for and all my parents' furniture in what should have been Inuyasha's house. It also reminded me of the night everything changed. We were in his living room playing truth or dare with countless celebrities when he hauled me upstairs and I made that wish. The thought of me being back in that room where he flew out scared me to no end. I hugged myself as I looked around the mansion. There was no mess like there had been during the last night I was me and he was him. Everything was tidy and in reverse. There were pictures of my brother's soccer matches and one picture of me at some party. A party I had never been too.
I wanted to just run upstairs but I couldn't. I remembered too clearly the tornado that swept everything away. It pained me to remember that tornado was because of me. When I was at my old house, which was of course no longer mine. I didn't feel too sad, now I felt horrible. A few random people wearing butler and maid clothing shuffled by me. I could tell they were ready to go for the day, but more importantly the way they carried small bags of luggage I knew they wouldn't be back tomorrow. They probably had the rest of the time off till my parents came back. That hurt me to think I'd be in this creepy huge house alone.
!
!
!
INU POV
"Why would you do a thing like that…I wanted to see my Goddaughter." My father said in frustration as he looked down at his dinner. I had told them I dropped Kagome at home, and they all seemed a bit disappointed.
"You should see her now…" My mom said as she pushed a bowl of biscuits in the middle of the table. "Ever since she got booed off that show, she's change. She's so much nicer." I looked up at that for a split second before grabbing my fork. My mom wasn't a good cook before Kagome's wish, and she still wasn't. My plate was filled with a sticky green goop thing. It was supposed to be soup but it looked and smelled like vomit.
I stole another look at Sesshomaru. He was reading some business article in the newspaper and had forgotten his food completely. Every time I saw him I got instantly mad, but of course I had to hide that from him. "Past the salt…" I said as he flipped the newspaper page. He pushed the paper down a smidge to look at me, then at the salt. I wanted his attention before I asked my mom a question. "Hey mom…" I said making her look up. "She doesn't really feel comfortable in that house all by herself. She doesn't want to wake up to paparazzi. She asked me to stay over for a while. Just until her parents come back." I side glanced Sesshomaru, and just like I suspected he was shocked. Well shocked for Sesshomaru. His face still seemed calm, but he was staring at my mom waiting for her response.
She sat down in her seat thinking things over. I didn't know how things had changed since Kagome and I switched lives, but if anything was the same. Then both our parents were still obtuse to anything me and Kagome did. Even if a magazine said I was seeing or cheating with anyone with her. They would assume the article was lying. None of them ever thought we had sex or did anything like that. They thought we were practically family, but we weren't. "Hmm… that's very sweet of you Inuyasha… especially since I know you too hardly get along." So our arguments hadn't stopped. "Uh okay, just make sure you come to dinner, and you get to school on time."
I nodded before taking a satisfied glimpse at Sesshomaru. He didn't seem moved by the whole aspect, but I knew he was thinking over something. I wanted to know what it was so badly. He thought over whatever it was for a few seconds before looking back down at his newspaper. "So Sesshomaru…" I said getting his attention again. What I didn't know was I had surprisingly gotten everyone else's attention as well. Obviously I and Sesshomaru talking to each other was taboo. He turned to nonchalantly glance at me, and I bit the inside of my cheek to combat the total hate and slight jealousy I was feeling. "How's Rin… is she coming by anytime soon…"
He shimmied gracefully in his seat. His shoulder never ever slouched. he just simply met my eyes directly. "Yeah she's coming by the last week of my visit." Izayoi looked very excited by this and she began a conversation with my dad. I only stared past them wanting very much to say something I shouldn't. "So… how's your relationship with that girl… the one who goes to your school?" He asked, but I didn't know what he was talking about.
"Yeah Inuyasha… we haven't heard about Kikyo for awhile." I felt my stomach drop at that instance. Kagome could not find out about Kikyo. I hadn't seen her today. Miroku and Koga hadn't mentioned her. I felt my blood turn cold.
"Ugh we broke up…" I said before mistakenly pushing a spoonful of broccoli soup in my mouth. I spit it out instantly making everyone in the room look up.
!
!
!
KAG POV
I asked the chef to cook me something before he left. I only did it because I didn't want to be alone. He had told me he made a series of food to last me the rest of the time my parents would be gone. They were in the fridge and then he left. I watched him leave with sudden nostalgia. I hated this cold house, I was about to leave when the door opened again. I thought it would be the chef, but it was Inuyasha with two duffle bags in his hands. I decided even though I was happy he was here. I still didn't want to talk to him.
I was sitting on the spiral stairs when he came so he saw me automatically. He dropped his bags on the marble floor and shut the door with his foot before striding very quickly towards me. He had hot determination in his golden eyes and I felt my stomach flip before standing up in my spot. "Hey Inuyasha…" Before I could finish talking he slammed his lips on mine.
I was supposed to be mad at him, but like always I just melted. Though I didn't understand why he was kissing me. I kept thinking of reasons, but I couldn't, soon I decided to stop withholding and just kiss him back. I let my arms hang around his neck and I kissed him fully, but before I could get my full fill of the kiss he ended it. It all seemed a bit bitter sweet to me, and I felt like a total fool when he pushed back and stared. "What was that for...?"
"Nothing…" He lied while turning away from me to get his bags. "It was nothing you just… you looked amazing. I couldn't control myself." He of course was lying. Whenever Inuyasha said something along the lines of a very good compliment he was hiding something even bigger. I decided not to argue with it. He looked around the room taking in everything. I was hoping he'd get shivers too, but he didn't seem like he was that fazed. "Tomorrow…" he said before turning to look at me again. "Cancel everything you have to do. I want to talk to Kaede… I want to reverse quicker." He said and I looked away from his gaze. We both knew that was impossible.
"I don't think that's possible." We had only been each other for a day and things were already starting to spiral out of control. I decided the kiss was lace with Inuyasha's egotistical jealousy and a tad bit of something else. I wanted to kiss him again, but I didn't say anything. I never did, the only way to get him to would be to make him even more jealous. "So I hope you didn't talk to Sesshomaru about anything. I told you I wanted to handle it by myself." His jaw clenched and I realized I had hit the nail on the head.
"No I didn't…but he's getting on my nerves. I wanna murder him…" He mumbled and I walked closer to him.
"Well yeah you should have seen the way he kissed me. It was like… "
"He kissed you…" He said interrupting me, and I realized how tense he had become. He dropped his bags on the ground and I sat down on the couch across from him. I knew better then to heat him up just for a second kiss, but I couldn't just out right tell him to kiss me. It would be unusual and weird.
"Yeah… how else did I find out we were having an affair." When I said that his face actually smoothed over. I had no idea why, but it made me a tad bit annoyed. I realized that for the first time he actually believed me. He believed that I had just begun having this affair now and it wasn't something that had been going on throughout even the switch that I was admitting now.
He grabbed his bags and started for the elevator. The same elevator we stood in that night everything changed. "Stay away from him…" He silently warned as he pressed the 'up' button. I watched him climb in and I followed. He moved his bags to the side to accommodate me. I didn't know why his sudden better mood made me so mad, but I hated it. I also hated myself for being the way I was. I shouldn't tease him just to get a rise out of him. That was so stupid and immature.
We didn't say anything, like always it wasn't awkward. It was just silent. The doors opened and it led out into a hall. "Inuyasha…" I asked as we walked a nice steady pace to the doors I knew were now mine. "You know you don't have to stay here… I'm sorry for causing a scene in all of this." I didn't want to glimpse up at him, but he was part of the reason why I was feeling like a fool. He was right I was eighteen. What was I afraid of?
"No… its fine… it feels good being back at home." He said as he opened the double doors to his room. Of course it was mine now and a solid lavender color. He looked around it and I knew how it felt to walk into your room, in your house, and not recognize your things. It made you feel so helpless. All the things that were so close to you were now gone.
"Yeah it felt great to be home too…" I mumbled as he dropped his bags. The bed was now a huge king size princess bed. With unusually long tickle me pink canopies hanging down from the top. There were actual collectable glass porcelain dolls of high price in a glass drawer. I didn't want to show it on my face, but I loved them. Those were the international collector dolls I used to collect. All186 of them were seated. I remember when I was fifteen only collecting twenty. I walked towards them as Inuyasha looked around at the dark purple carpet. The room looked like a Barbie dream house, and though I found it weird that at the age that I was supposed to be. I had a room like this, even now at eighteen I was completely over this sort of stuff. What was with this world's Kagome?
Inuyasha picked up a Barbie doll on one of the tables and looked it over. "Really…" He mumbled and I turn to look at him before walking towards the glass drawer. I stared at all 186 of the dolls. Each of them coming from a different nationality and region. There were supposed to be a lot more, but they were discontinued when I was seventeen. I stared at them with a dopey look on my face, but I didn't voice it. "This room looks like it belongs to a seven year old." He said and I turned around fixing my face to agree with him, but I couldn't leave the glass set all together. I had to touch some of them. "Look at the bed, and oh the ceiling…" He said making me look up.
The ceiling was painted like the sky outside, but with lavender clouds. I loved it! It was too cute for words. Would I actually have a room like this? Hell no, I wasn't two anymore, but I did find everything extremely adorable. I was having those conflicting feelings again. It was like the fake Kagome loved it and the real me appreciated it. He laughed a little while walking towards the balcony. The balcony where he had flew out the first time. Without thinking I ran to block him.
"What are you doing?" He asked a bit spectacle. I didn't know why I just did that. I guess I was afraid it would happen again. I didn't know why, but I was. I moved away from the door letting him walk outside. He shook his head at the pink color of canopy that hung over the glass doors. "This room's ridiculous" he said. I felt my heart beat quicker, but no strange wind came in and grabbed him. Everything seemed normal so I turned towards the glass dolls. I grabbed the purple bejeweled key so I could open up the glass pantry. I opened it up as I heard the balcony door close and I grabbed the first one wearing a traditional robe from whatever country. I didn't care, I was going to touch and hug all of them eventually. "What's going on with you…?" Inuyasha asked and I turn to see him staring at me. I was hugging the doll like it was a puppy. "This doesn't seem like anything you'd like… where's your guitar…?" He questioned and I set the doll with care back.
"I don't like this stuff…" I lied while looking around for my guitar too… "I just… they're so cute…" He rolled his eyes as if he didn't believe me before walking towards his walk in closet. It was of course lined with a sluty-er version of my clothes. I watched as he walked in then quickly came back out. He had my dark red guitar in his hand expecting it for any differences. I would usually have the guitar somewhere special so I could stare at it before I went to bed, but for some reason I didn't much care about the thing.
I sighed while taking in my room. I hated this overwhelming feeling of comfort for something I didn't much like. I knew it wasn't the real me. I wasn't yet ready to tell Inuyasha about my conflicting emotions. I knew he wasn't changing personality wise so I didn't think he would understand. If this was the first day of our change and I was already feeling like this. Then how long would it take for me to crack down and become just like this worlds Kagome. I looked to the side spotting a black and red calendar. It looked so awkward in this fluffy room that it caught my eye. I walked towards it as Inuyasha set my guitar back. It was weird that I was the leader of a rock group but this was my room. The songs I sang in this dimension were a lot grungier then in my own world. Why was my personality a lot prissier? I looked at the calendar and crossed my eye brows. It had everything that I had to do this month written on it. Tomorrow I had some sort of press conference for an album. I looked through it finally getting an idea.
I pulled it down and turned the page to next month's calendar which was surprisingly full. On the night of Inuyasha's new moon; I had another performance on Celeb life at 12 in the morning for New Year's Eve. I looked around the room spotting a pen. I would write down on this date the wish I had to make and the time. This way I wouldn't forget. I felt someone watching me and I turned to see Inuyasha. "You're not doing that…" He said.
"Why not?"
"Because I don't want other people knowing when I change…" He walked towards me in frustration and I backed up. How else did he expect me to remember? "Where's that sheet of paper Kaede gave you?" He asked and I backed up from him not knowing what to say… "Where is it?" He asked, and I had no idea. "Well get another scrap paper and write it on there, but don't use a work calendar…"
"No this is better…" I told him. "This way we can cross off the days." I proceeded to write down the wish. I was almost done when the calendar fell abruptly from my hands… I looked up at him and he just sighed before turning the other way around and grabbing his things. "Where are you going…?" I asked hoping he wouldn't say home. I really didn't want him to go home.
"To the guest room…" He said and I watched him leave before following after him.
"You don't have to stay in there… you can sleep with me…" I said and I knew that wasn't me talking. It couldn't be. I never once encouraged sex with Inuyasha. He was the one that led me to it. I felt like slapping my hands over my mouth, but I didn't I just stood there staring at him, and he just paused in his spot. Did that mean that not only this Kagome had affairs, but she still had feelings for Inuyasha too? Wow she was even more of a whore than the real me was.
"Ugh… okay…" He said, but he still went to the guest room and dropped his stuff in it. He made a swift round about. "Let's go to sleep now…" He said while turning to leave. I felt my stomach flip, but I didn't argue with him.
!
!
!
INU POV
I looked around for my shirt before sitting up in my spot. The knocking on the door ached in my ear and I moved around Kagome's openly naked body to get around her. It had to be around 4 in the morning. Who could be at the front door at this time? I moved the bed's long pink and lavender canopy to the side before stepping out of the soft purple carpet. I felt someone grab my arm and I turned seeing Kagome face me.
She seemed half asleep as she sat up in her bed. "Where are you going?" She whispered, and I slowly pulled on my pants.
"No where… just to get something to drink…" I lied there was no way she could hear the knock from up here. Whoever was at the door didn't think to ring the bell. "Go back to sleep… I'll be up in a few minutes." She seemed to agree and I watched her lay back down before jogging down the stairs. The knocking never ceased and I grew more and more annoyed as I wondered to the front door.
I pulled it open before backing up in surprise. "Where is she?" The old woman asked. I looked down at Kaede not knowing what to say. She looked very concerned and shocked, but I wanted to know how she left her house in the middle of nowhere to get here. Did she take her broom? I laughed subconsciously before concentrating at the task at hand.
"Kagome?" I asked while scooting over to let her in. "She's upstairs sleeping… how did you get here…?"
"Never mind that…" she snapped while pacing in the foyer. I didn't know what to say or do so I closed the front door and locked it.
"Do you want me to get her…?"
"No… I must leave soon, but I have horrible news…." I stared at her waiting for her to continue. "It turns out that Kagome might be changing into you faster then I might have hoped… have you noticed anything different with her." I shrugged, but it was a lie shrug because I had. I didn't know how to explain it yet so I shrugged for lack of things to say. "Well I'm sure that's good… but I most warn, if Kagome gets your attributes faster, the faster she'll forget, the faster she forgets, the more you'll change, the more you change, the faster you disappear. You must try to get Kagome to stay the way she is faster and longer…"
"Wait how do you know this…?" I asked as she actually turned to leave. I could sense Kagome upstairs moving, and I wondered if that's what had Kaede on edge.
"Because I'm changing…" She said and I narrowed my eyes a bit confused. "I expected I would, but not this quickly… make sure she holds on to what makes her… her…" She turned to leave with that, and I watched her walk out the door. "Don't tell her I came… don't tell her what I said…" She said and she disappeared into the dark.
I watched her leave for a few minutes before closing and locking the door. I paused for a second thinking about what she just said. How was I going to make sure Kagome stayed the same longer? I tried thinking about things that she liked doing, but nothing came to mind right away. I decided I just needed more sleep. I didn't want to think that the reason why I couldn't think of anything was because I didn't know enough about her.
I walked towards the stairs ready to go up when I sensed her. I paused at the foot of the stair looking up. She was leaning on a banister. Her long black hair flew down her left shoulder and past the railing. She wore my oversize school button down as she watched me. "Hey who was that?" She asked and I felt my stomach churn. I didn't know if I was more taken aback by her appearance or the idea that I would have to lie to her again.
"Nobody…paparazzi." I lied as I walked up to meet her. She left the banister and headed towards me. "I thought I told you to go back to sleep?"
"Are we still going to Kaede's tomorrow, because I don't know if Myoga will let me?" She said as an excuse as she watched me get closer. I thought about that for a second. Remembering how stressed her grandma had looked. I didn't think she'd be up for a visit.
"No...I don't think so." I told her as I got increasingly close. I could make out her face better. Her dark blue eyes were filled with perplexities and I decided I was still mad that she didn't follow my previous order. "Kagome… you really should go back to sleep." I told her as I stood in front of her petit form. She backed up slightly to allow me more room. I knew I should have let her go back to the room but instead I slipped my arms around her waist making her pause in complete shock. "Who told you to get dressed?" I whispered in her ear and I could feel her lean closer to my bare chest. I subconsciously placed both hands to the hem of my shirt. I pulled it up gently waiting for her to show some sort of approval. She hesitated before lifting her arms up telling me I could in fact undress her.
I lifted the shirt over her head and let it fall freely to the ground. She hugged her naked form after that. I took it as an opening to kiss her fully; I bent over watching her face carefully. She had her dark blue eyes on me and I couldn't exactly read the emotion so I took it as lust. I let my lips crash into her but she didn't kiss back. She actually seemed reluctant to kiss me. I paused for a second taking another calculated look at her face. She seemed a bit solemn. I wondered why? "Hey what's wrong?" I whispered and she actually uncrossed her arms and placed them around my neck.
"Nothing…I was just thinking?" She lied. I could tell by the way she set her features. When Kagome lied telling by how big the lie itself was she went through an assortment of expressions. "I just… who was really at the door?" She whispered and I knew at that moment she had seen her grandma. I had a habit of lying to Kagome. I didn't know why, I just rather lie then see her sad. I pushed her arms off of me so she stood directly in front of me naked and all.
I had no attention of telling the truth. Kaede had came miles to give me that thinly veiled message. I was actually thinking that she probably didn't want us to visit her. I didn't know why but something told me that Kaede knew more then she led on. I believed that she didn't know a way to change us back, but I knew she knew other things, sadly I didn't think I wanted to know what they were. Seeing as I was afraid to know what they were, I was defiantly not going to tell Kagome. I looked her straight in the eyes: "It was just the paparazzi." I lied again and she narrowed her eyes.
She set them on my jaw line for some reason before rolling her eyes and turning. "Why do you always lie to me?" She asked while heading back to the room. I was shocked that she had read through my front, but all my attention was actually on her backside as she stomped in the nude back to the room. She opened the door and attempted to slam it behind her but I was right there. "What do you get for lying to me Inuyasha? What game do you win? We're in this together why can't you tell me who was here? She demanded. And I knew she hadn't exactly seen her grandma. She had probably heard the talking. Though I hated seeing her mad, I rather her mad then sad.
"Kagome I'm telling the truth it was just paparazzi." I lied while closing and locking the bed room door. She gave me an intensify look before sitting on the edge of the bed. I tried to direct my attention to another place. My eyes catching her electric guitar, I knew her acoustic was here somewhere.
"If it was just the paparazzi then why were you talking to them?" she asked and I looked back at her as I walked into her walk in closet. I came back in with her acoustic guitar in hand. "Inuyasha if it was some other girl I don't care. It's not like we're dating you don't have to lie." She said boredly and that got my attention. She thought I was with some other person.
"Kagome it's like four in the morning. Who would be here?"
"My sentiments exactly…" She said and I realized for the first time the holes in my lie.
"Hey look…I got your old acoustic guitar." I said changing the subject, but the way she rolled her eyes told me she wasn't interested in it. I thought back to what Kaede said and my stomach turned. Kagome loved everything music and instruments. Why all of a sudden did she not want to hug her guitar? "Your upset right… come play your guitar." I advised her and she gave me a very annoyed look before lying back down in the bed.
"The only thing that's going to make me less upset is if you tell me who was here." She said boredly as she mocked a very tired person. I watched her for a second before looking around. I spotted the dolls she was hugging. I remembered when she used to love those dolls, but now they were all in boxes in her attic. In this dimension she still loved them and since Kagome was changing to this dimensions Kagome I had to try and halt the change.
"How about these dolls?" I asked trying to see if that would get a rise out of her. "Do you want to hug them?" she looked up slightly and I realized she did want to. How very immature of her. I didn't comment on them instead I walked closer to her. "Hey Kagome…" I said as I took her in. she took one look at me and fell back into bed. She looked away in pure anger, and I found the action a bit bratty and unlike the Kagome I knew. Had she changed again? "Do you feel different? I asked and I could tell that got her attention.
"No…" She lied. "Do you?"
"You remember how you said before that we're in this together?" I told her and she turned slightly at that. "You have to tell me how you're feeling." I said seriously and she just stared. I knew she was contemplating telling me. "Come on don't keep it all to yourself." I told her and she sat up. Unlike the eighteen year old Kagome I knew. She didn't bother hiding her bare parts. She just let the sheets fall willingly to the bed. Half of me found the gesture exceedingly attractive while the other half felt a sudden nostalgia.
I took a long look at her bare rounded breast. Both nipples were hard and they rose up and down with the movement of her chest. She looked up at me and as soon as she saw me staring. She pushed the sheets up telling me not all of the old Kagome was lost. I had the overwhelming urge to bend down and kiss her but I had to stay on task. I waited for her to say something, but I could tell she wanted me to start.
"So do you feel different?" I asked but she didn't say anything. "I feel different." I lied. The only thing that changed in me was some of my physical attributes. I didn't have conflicting feelings like how I thought Kagome must have had.
"No... I feel the same. Why would you ask that?" She lied while staring up at me. She eyed my bare chest for a second and then began scooting in deeper. "I don't feel like talking about that though…" She said with an uncharacteristically sly grin on her face. It made me move closer to her, but I still understood that this wasn't how she usually acted. I bent over and she let her lips mold into mine. She seeped fierce passion into the kiss with the intent of one thing. I felt myself come closer and soon I was on top of her. I paused for a second as I felt her bite down on my bottom lip. This wasn't like her either. I wanted to stop her, but it was so hard to get a grip of my sensible side.
She let her moist lips trace down my neck before moving back up my jaw. "Kagome…" I said hoarsely wanting to get her attention. She didn't say anything she just nipped at my flesh furiously. I felt my words fade as she began toying with the buttons on my pants. It had me thinking that maybe I could ask her about her changing emotions after we were done, but I had a feeling that she wouldn't want to listen to reason later. "Kagome…" I said again as she attempted to pull off my slacks.
"What…" She whispered as she left the button to my slacks to rub the palm of her hands through my chest. I tensed up before adjusting myself off of her body. She sat up in disbelief. "What do you think you're doing…? She asked incredulously as if it was blasphemy to deny her of sex.
"We need to talk?" She crossed her arms in anger. She let her body lay limply on the board of the bed. "It's about the switch…" I told her but she still didn't budge. I decided the only thing to do to catch her attention was tell about Kaede's mysterious visit. I sat up so I could face her, but as soon as I did she turned her head to the left. "Your acting so immature… you don't usually act like this." I told her and that actually caught her attention slightly, but not completely. I could see a spark of realization run through her dark blue eyes. "Kagome I think you might be changing faster than normal." She didn't move at that. Instead she pushed herself onto the bed and attempted to pull the magenta sheets over her head.
"You can go to the guest room now." She said gruffly. "I can sleep by myself." She informed me. I found the double meaning in the sentence. I couldn't believe she was getting so angry just because I wouldn't have sex with her.
"Kagome…"
"I'm not changing…I'm perfectly fine." She snapped wanting me to shut up, but I knew better. I didn't move I just stared at her form as she pushed a plush crown shaped pillow over her head.
"Listen I didn't want to tell you earlier because I promised I wouldn't, but down stairs that was..." I paused thinking back to the conversation I had with Kaede, the distress I saw on her face. There had to be a reason she didn't want me telling Kagome, I didn't know what it was, but I felt as if I should heed her advice…"I think you should trust me Kagome…I can tell."
She tensed in her spot. Her back went rigid and the pillow slipped slightly. "Well what can you tell?" She whispered and I smiled softly to finally have her attention. I let myself slip down the bed so I was eye to eye with her when she turned to finally face me.
"Well a few things." I lied as I thought back to some of her mannerisms. I was a bit disappointed to admit that I couldn't pin point all of her changes. I thought back to just a few minutes. "Just the way you act. Like the fact that you like this room, and the dolls." I said and that made her finally turn. She seemed surprised to come face to face with me when she turned over in the bed. I waited for her to speak but she seemed a bit hesitant all of a sudden. "Come on Kagome, we're in this together…remember?" I asked and that made her look up.
She nodded slightly. She was trying exceptionally hard to avoid my eye sight. She stared past me to the door. I waited patiently and I could tell she knew I was getting a bit annoyed. I wasn't one to sit around for too long. She let her eyes roam towards mine before quickly shifting to the curtains of the bed.
"Damn it Kagome…" I snapped and I quickly shut my mouth as soon as it came out. "Look…I'm sorry… but can you please speak." She rolled her eyes then sighed obnoxiously.
"Okay so what if I said I have been changing slightly." I narrowed my eyes and she sat up in her bed a bit distressed. The look matched Kaede's to a 'T' and I realized why she didn't want me telling her anything. "Okay so I've been changing a lot… it's like I feel this way, but a part of me feels this way. It's stupid there's nothing we can do about it so why…"
"It's not stupid, the quicker you change, the quicker I disappear." I told her and that made her tense up in complete shock. "It's much worse then what we thought Kagome." I let myself slip off of the bed. I had to get a pencil or a pen. I looked around the girly room finding dark pink paper. "Can you write down all the changes you're having. I think we can prolong everything till the new moon if you do the exact opposite of your urges." She watched me as I plucked a pen from a pen bowl on the center of a desk. I turned to face her. She had both her hands hugging her legs in a classic Kagome position. It made me smile slightly. So she wasn't changing that quickly. There had to be something we did tonight that had her acting normal all of a sudden.
"It's like I have to try harder to be me… if I do something carelessly then I start slipping." She informed me. I nodded as I put the sheet and pen in front of her. She looked down at it but she didn't hesitate to begin writing things down. She pushed the sheets higher up so I wouldn't catch a glimpse of any of her bare flesh. It was a very Kagome like thing to do. I noted, even when she was trying to undress me before she kept the sheets perfectly intact on her naked flesh. "And today I named the two sides… see the new one is the fake Kagome, the real me is the real Kagome." She said as she continued writing clumsily on the hot pink construction paper. I looked around for some sort of book so her handwriting would actually come off as readable.
I tuned her out as I reached for a thin unused folder on her desk. I passed it to her as she continued to talk. She took the folder and placed it on her lap. She still had the heavy comforter over her body as she adjusted herself again to begin writing. I found it funny how secure she was being when we both knew I had seen every part of her body already.
She looked up thinking for a split second then began writing. After a few minutes she seemed done and she passed the piece of paper back to me. I rose up from my spot on the edge of the bed while looking down. Half of the words were in a bit of a scribble from writing on an uneven soft surface. "Read these out loud." I said and she looked up at that. "I can't understand your hand writing."
She seemed very uneasy about reading the list. I wondered why but I didn't comment on it. "It just says how I feel different like… like when we went to Kaede's house. I wanted a cigarette." She said and I took that into consideration. She continued telling me everything till she paused.
"What… what…" I asked as I made my way towards her. She shrugged suddenly as if it was nothing, but I knew she had a secret to spill. "Come on Kagome out with it."
"Well… promise you won't be mad?" She asked in an overly Kagome way. It made me smile slightly and she seemed to notice this. "Okay well… I sort of like Sesshomaru…" She admitted softly. I froze in my spot. Any trace of the smile disappeared completely. She seemed to notice my change in emotion because she shifted a bit and sighed. "I knew I shouldn't have told you."
"What do you mean you sort of like him?" I asked not quite understanding. She shrugged in an overly shy way while I waited. I could feel my blood boil and I wanted to at that moment get up and just leave. Where I would go I didn't quite know, but I knew how I was feeling. It was a mixture of pure anger and a weird overpowering feeling of betrayal. I didn't know if it was betrayal on my brother or on her, but I knew I was feeling it.
"I don't know… I never liked him before, and I didn't even like him when you picked me up, but… when he kissed me I just…"
"Okay…" I said cutting her off. "Moving on…" I didn't want to know anymore about it. All of a sudden I was thinking this list was a bad idea. "What other feelings are you feeling?" I asked.
She shrugged momentarily. "I don't know…can we talk about this tomorrow I really don't have the strength.
"What if you change completely tomorrow?" I asked. "I have to know to do the opposite now so I'll be able to combat it." She didn't comment on that and I just openly stared at her waiting for a response.
"I don't feel comfortable continuing… I mean these are my personal feelings." She said and I studied the way she insecurely sat not knowing what to say. I wanted to comfort her but I was still upset.
"Well maybe you should have written in better handwriting. You wouldn't have to say it." She narrowed her eyes at me, and I only shrugged.
"Wow that was really a jerk thing to say." She stated. She watched me for a while waiting for an apology. I knew whenever Kagome wanted a 'sorry' for something that was minor she usually just stared quietly waiting. I wasn't planning on apologizing though.
"Come on Kagome… continue…" She didn't say anything. Instead she turned the piece of pink construction paper over. She began writing slowly on the sheet. I watched as lifted her knees so I wouldn't see what she wrote. "What are you doing?" I asked but she just continued to ignore me. "Kagome… Kagome…"
I waited a little while longer and she finally looked down at me. "I rewrote it." She said suddenly while passing it my way. "Now you can read it in the guest room." I looked up at her as she laid herself down and mocked sudden sleep.
Usually I would have started an argument with her, but I let it rest since kicking me out of her room for something as minor as insulting her penmanship was something very Kagome like, and I was a bit happy that she wasn't acting as unusual as before. I got off her bed while reading the list. She had separated the changes into columns titled Real Kagome and Fake Kagome. I knew one thing that halted her aggressive changing personality. Talking about the change, it seemed to turn her back to the real Kagome. I was thinking that maybe somehow it caused her to become more alert and cautious, and that made her question her actions. She had said earlier that when she did things without thinking she usually realized she was slipping, when she was cautious she knew better than to act like the fake her. It was only a theory but it seemed to make sense.
I walked towards the door looking back at her as I opened it. She had her eyes opened staring at the opposite wall. I didn't think she knew I noticed she wasn't actually sleeping. "You sure you want me to go?" I asked she didn't say anything. She nodded instead. "Really Kagome…?" She turned to face me as I took a step forward. "I'm sorry about before…" I threw in and that got her to sit up.
"Okay than who was at the door?" She asked suddenly and I rolled my eyes.
"I'm not that sorry." I said and she laid back in bed.
"Leave me alone Inuyasha." I took that as my cue to go and I turned and left her room…
!
!
!
A/n: Sorry again for the wait. I'm a horrible person.