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Lethiferous

Chapter seven

Peters' pov

Well I thought the previous night had been a fuckin' shitstorm, if that was a shitstorm, today has started with a mothafuckin'-tornado. It was fan-fuckin'-tastic talkin' with my Char but it hurt havin' to say goodbye. I can't express how desperate I am to wrap my arms around her, I'd seriously be happier to have my fuckin' limbs torn off then go another day with her with me. It's just as fuckin' painful anyway. I hadn't even had the chance to say hi to Micah and Dakota before the next lot of tits and balls came rainin' down on us. The images and pain we were ambushed with will forever fuckin' haunt me but, fuck if I'm proud of that girl. I haven't a fuckin' clue how she didn't scream to the high heaven's, seein' that was indescribable. I have never experienced so many emotions and certainly not with such intensity. It was tremendously difficult to even want to try to calm down with toxic storm that kept bouncin' round the room between everyone. We were all passin' it to Major and he was slingin' it right back like we were playin' an emotional Frisbee war game and no fucker was winnin', none of us stood a fuckin' chance. I'm sure that if Angel hadn't calmed Major, there would've been carnage and even Carlisle would've tainted his score card for not feedin' on humans, let alone the friendlies.

Once the crap settled down a bit and I regained a level head, I found myself in the family room down stairs. How the fuck I got here, well your guess is as good as mine. All I remember was a replay of what I never wish to see again and the next thin' I know I have Daka slappin' me across my face.

"What the fuck Daka?"

"Sorry Peter but you were off with the pixies for over an hour."

"Sorry, is everyone okay?"

"Yeah cobber, Major's up with his Bella, all seems calm there. The doc and his tribe took to the woods to hunt down some critters for their tukka."

"Where's Micah?"

"He went to the store cause I was gunna scrub up some grub for Buggalugs up there but there's not a crumb of human food in the kitchen and that girl needs to put some meat on them bones ta get healthy."

"Sorry, I haven't even said hi, I'm sorry Daka, how are yah sweetheart?"

"I'm great cobber, better now I'm where I'm needed. Ya know me, hate bein' as useless as a one armed trapeze with an itchy arse. Nope, I like to keep me busy as bat shit."

"Fuck, you got a way with words woman."

"Puts a smile on ya dial though don't it?"

"Just havin' yah pretty little arse round here could put a smile on my face Daka."

"Well, it weren't workin' earlier. The tension in this house; stinks like someone flung dung Peter."

"Gee's woman, Christ. I know what yah mean though; it's just been one shitfest after another round here. I feels like I can't breath and I know that's fucked up since we don't need to breath, but I'm chokin' on the tension here."

"I noticed the Jasper isn't into the four legged tukka any moree, why don't the two of ya go catch a crim or two tonight. With the stress ya two are under, ya need feed and it'll keep the both of ya chilled out."

"Sounds like a plan, I real well just fed last night but Jasper could definitely go for another feed, with all the extra emotions goin' round, he'll need it."

"Yeah the dark under his eyes stands out like dogs balls. Poor bugga, I really wish that, that didn't happen up there. Major'll shit bricks at me for that I'm sure."

"Nah, don't stress bout it Daka, he'll understand."

"I hope so, it's not the best first impression to make with someone, and I need to apologise to his Bella for it. I wasn't expectin' to see a thin' and it was just too much and I lost a handle on my gift. I tell ya, I'll think twice bout touchin' her again. That was horrible Peter I ain't seen nothin' like it."

"I know Daka, there aren't words for it. But don't blame yah'self for what happened up there. I'm sure Bella will be good with yah, she's quite forgivin' and I'm sure she'll understand."

"She's battler that one isn't she?"

"Ah, that she is Daka, like none ever seen before."

"So, how ya copin' after ya chin wag with Char?"

"Mm, where do I start Daka? It's fucked up, I don't know how to feel, ya know. I'm over the fuckin' moon that she's alive, but I need her here, to make it real. I need to hold her and feel her, just to make sure I'm not fuckin' losin' it or somethin' yah know. It just don't feel quite real yet, not till I can hold her."

"Cobber, I couldn't imagine whatcha goin' through, but if ya ever need and ear to lend or a shoulder talean on, mine are free."

"Gee's Daka yah gonna make me cry."

"Harden the fuck and put ya man pants on"

"Bitch"

"Tosser"

"Mole"

"Buttmuncha"

"Behave children"

"Hey Micah how are yah?"

"Good brother, you wouldn't believe the shit they have in the supermarket know. I didn't know what to get so, I got a shit load of stuff for her. I got woman things as well and I tell you now, never again. That shit is embarrassing, I was in that isle forever, how many types of bloody tampons do woman bloody need?"

"Ya went shoppin' for vampire teabags?"

"Christ woman, that is just fuckin' feral."

Micah lost his shit and dropped the bags laughin' his arse off and the laughter comin' from up from upstairs from Bella and Jasper set me and Daka off too. Jasper was spreadin' the happy juice and we couldn't stop.

Bellas' pov

"Yah gotta get naked to get in the tub; yah want me to do that too?"

"Ummm"

"I was kiddin' Isabella; I'll put shorts on same as last night darlin'."

"Okay, yah don't have to do this for me; I could get Rose or Esme to help me wash up if yah want"

"Baby I don't mind, I enjoy takin' care of you and soakin' in a tub with you will be relaxin'."

"Major?"

"Yah can call me Jasper; I'm calmer now and we're both one in the same. I don't know how yah did it, but it's like one mind at the moment"

"I'm happy for yah; it must be hard to have two separate personalities like that"

"Every vampire does, it's just mine are usually extreme opposites, one very placid and one very aggressive, and sure each can hold his own, but with the Major there's no reasonin' most of the time especially when it comes to threatenin' what he holds close to his heart."

"I understand that more than yah know. Help me in the tub and yah don't have to put shorts on. I trust yah Jasper, I would prefer yah um...this is embarrassing to talk bout."

"Beautiful yah don't need to be embarrassed with me, anythin' yah want or need just ask."

"I want to feel close to yah, with no clothes, just us. When yah hold me, I feel so relaxed and safe. I haven't felt relaxed or safe in so long and my body aches from the strain and tension. When yah hold me it feels so good, and I want to get used to yah touch and just get comfortable with yah. Does that make sense?"

"It sure does baby"

Jasper finished undressin' me and then himself and God damn he is breathtakin', he has a deliciously chiseled body. He helped me in the tub and sat behind me with me in between his legs. I rested my back on his chest and my head on his shoulder and relaxed into him, he ran his hands from my elbows to my hand then interlocked our fingers so we were holdin' both our hands together crossed over my stomach, his elbows just at my ribs. His chin rested on my shoulder.

"Is this okay baby?"

"Yeah it is. It feels so nice Jasper. I wish I could feel like this all the time"

"Mmm me too darlin'. I'm glad yah feel safe like this with me. It feels good to hold yah in my arms with no barriers, just bein' close to yah like this is beautiful."

"It's strange but beautiful. I shouldn't feel so comfortable with anyone so close. I haven't had anyone safely touch me other than Char in seven months Jasper and even when I was bein' hugged by the family last night I had to keep tellin' myself that they were safe and wouldn't hurt me, to try to get my body to relax a bit but it was hard. With yah it's different and I guess it all comes down to the fact that we are mates and meant to be. I don't want to fight it."

"Baby don't fight it; just go along with what yah feelin'. I'm so proud of yah baby, after seein' and feelin' what yah went through, no, yah shouldn't be feelin' safe or comfortable with me like this. Yah should be a nervous wreck. It might be that we are mates, I can't tell honestly cause it's a first for me too. We only ever get one mate, so I haven't the experience on it to tell yah. I do think that this, with us now, is just fuckin' perfect. I love holdin' yah like this baby and its one of those baby steps but a big baby step and yah doin' great."

"I love how I feel right now in yah arms naked and I know with each little thing, each tender touch the feelin' in my chest is growin'. I don't understand it but I won't fight it. But I'm scared Jasper."

"Baby what are you scared of?"

"Sex Jasper. I was a virgin when they took me. I still have never properly kissed a guy. I don't know what to do, or if I could please yah. What if I freak out or somethin', and then there's the fact that from what I assume, my bits don't look to pretty anymore."

"I haven't seen yah bits, as yah put it, to see the damage and by the sounds of it neither have yah. As long as it doesn't cause yah any pain, I am damn sure ya'd be able to please me without even tryin' baby and as for if yah freak out, we'd stop and I'd just hold yah till yah calm down and then some. We can start off with little stuff like kissin' and touchin', gettin' comfortable, yah know. We won't just jump into it. Baby I love yah and I want to help yah be happy and enjoy that part of us bein' together as much, if not more than I will but we go slowly. I can even help yah with my gift if yah wanted me to."

"What do yah mean, like make me want it?"

"No, God no. I would never do that even if yah ask me to. No, what I meant was I can bring yah pleasure with my gift, help yah orgasm without physically touchin' yah 'bits', I can help yah relax and just feel it and take away the anxiety."

"Oh okay, yah can do that with your gift, make people cum?"

"Ah yeah, but I don't. That is a for yah only offer."

"I didn't know you could do stuff like that with it. I didn't know orgasm is an emotion"

"God yah Beautiful Bella and funny."

"Hey how am I meant to know, yah the one with the orgasmic mojo."

"Sweetheart an orgasm is made up of a number of emotions to start with usually attraction, want, lust, bliss, desire, passion, euphoria. That's just to name a few. While feelin' those emotions yah own body releases the hormones to help yah reach yah peak. But I think we should stop talkin' bout it now cause it's effectin' yah and me both."

"Sorry"

"Don't be beautiful"

We were sittin' in a comfortable silence. I was thinkin' bout what we had talked bout. I was intrigued and well, quite turned on. As he was talkin' bout givin' me an orgasm his voice took on this sexy huskiness and his cold breath blowin' along my neck as he spoke. God just thinkin' bout it is makin' my tummy tingle and tighten up. Jasper started placin' kisses along neck just under my ear down to my shoulder. It feels heavenly. I tilted my neck as he kiss back up to my pulse point.

"I can't wait to bite yah here baby, to have yah forever. La mordedura eterna, para siempre mío." Eternal bite, forever mine.

"Mm uh ha, Para siempre suyo." forever your.

Oh god it feels so good. I never felt anythin' like this. I can feel his erection in my back but it's not scarin' me, if anythin' the fact that he still finds me attractive turns me on more. God he's just moved my hair, starts kissin' the back of my neck over my mark. His hand is tracin' a line just under my breast. He's kissin' his way back to my ear, to my jaw. His hand under my chin as he gently tilts my face to him still kissin' along my jaw to my mouth, soft gentle kisses. I lift my hand and place it at the back of his neck to draw him closer, to let him know I'm okay. I want more, this kiss he doesn't pull away. He met my lips ever so gently slowly applyin' the pressure movin' his soft lips over mine. His hand on the side of my neck tracin' his thumb along my jaw. His tongue smoothly runs along my bottom lip seekin' entrance. I couldn't refuse. Oh god, he tastes like honey and vanilla. My god, he has takin' over me. I'm lost, all there is,is him. My breathin' is embarrassingly heavy and I can't hold the moan that escapes as his tongue entwines with mine. There's no fight for dominance, he is all power and force. A purr sounded from his chest like a content cougar. All this strength, yet such a gentle touch. He slowly ended the kiss placin' a few sweet pecks on my lips and then one last one the tip of my nose.

"Yah chest is rumblin' like content cougar. It's cute."

"I am very content my beautiful. My purr, is not cute though, its rugger'd and sexy and... Just more manlier than cute. Babies and little kittens are cute Bella, not me."

"Sorry I didn't mean to insult yah manliness. I like yah rough and rugger'd purr. It is very sexy."

"That's the first time I've ever done it. I've heard Em and Peter purr with their mates. I used to think it was a sexual thing, like when they wanted to be with their mate that way. I thought it was them lettin' em know they were horny. It's not though, its bein' with yah mate and relaxed. Bein' happy to just hold each other "

"Do the girls purr?"

"I'm not sure; I haven't heard them do it. I think the only reason I heard Em and Peter Is cause their very affectionate with their girls and don't give a fuck if others are round em, not that mind it's nice to see how happy they are as couples. As long as they don't go too far with the PDA's I'm happy for em"

"Do yah show affection in front of them?"

"I haven't had anyone other than Alice and she was more private."

"What do yah like though?"

"Since I have yah and yah my mate, I fuckin' want everyone to know bout us. I think I like showin' affection whether it be just us two or round the other's, I find it hard to not touch yah. I'd like to Kiss and hold each other no matter where we are or who we're round but only if yah comfortable doin' that."

"So your fine with the PDA with us than?"

"Yes, I love yah Bella, I want the world to know. Now I think it's time to get out of this tub and get yah dressed. I'll get Rose and Esme to go buy yah some clothes and I'll grab Peter's laptop so yah can choose stuff for yourself online. Get clothes and whatever else yah need but get stuff yah comfy in. Whatever Rose and Esme get will be baggy and loose so yah more comfortable, cause of the bruises and broken ribs yah need em loose"

"Thank yah Jasper"

"No thanks needed baby, I told yah I'll be lookin' after yah and that involves everythin' what yah want or need. Now that reminds me yah goin' to need a new identity. I'll get my guy on it this afternoon but we'll need to go over that after we're dried and dressed and yah also need to eat yah hardly ate last night"

"I can't fit a lot of food in; it hurts when the food hits my belly somethin' awful."

"Maybe we can get some soup, my mama used to make me soup when my tummy was upset."

"Yah remember her? "

"Bits and pieces yeah, what I don't Peter can fill in, he remembers everythin' from us growin' up."

"Yah and peter grew up together?"

"Yep, he was best friends with my older brother Matthew. Peter had a shitty father, so he ended up livin' with us till they both ended up in the war. My brother was killed before I joined. Peter was pissed at me cause I lied bout my age to get in. He didn't dob on me though cuase I'd be in deeper shit then. We watched each other's backs then and still do now."

"So did you mean to turn him?"

"Come on we'll get fixed up and yah back to bed and I'll tell yah all bout it."

Jaspers' pov

My gorgeous girl. I'm so fuckin' proud of her. Bein' in the tub with me like that isn't a fuckin' small step. To me that was fuckin' huge. But like I said, I'm goin' at her pace and she wanted me in the nud too. I was really shit stirin' with her but she asked me to actually do it. I was fuckin' nervous at first when she asked me. My thoughts were `what if she freaks out at seein' my trouser snake' but she didn't. I caught her gazin' at my body and felt her attraction and appreciation for me, which stroked my ego a bit. I was surprised at how open and honest she was with me about her fears and despite her fears, she still wanted us both in the razz. That just showed me how courageous she is.

During our talk bout our future sex life and how we can test the waters gradually so to speak, we we're both feelin' quite effected by it. I guess I didn't even think... I just did what felt natural when I started kissin' her down her neck. For a split second I thought 'shit what the hell am I doin', she'll panic'. No, my beautiful Bella shocked me again; she remained calm and responded by tiltin' her neck for me. Her desire was elevatin' and her lust was peakin' too. She wasn't scared or nervous, she was just goin' with what felt good. When I reach her pulse point all I could think of was that I was givin' honour of givin' her the eternal bite. I get to keep her forever. I whispered the words 'eternal bite, forever mine' in Latin American. The words that my Bella replied with, two simple fuckin' words that could've started the blood pumpin' through my cold dead veins again. It was the beacon to my dark doom. It was the brightest light I'd seen in so fuckin' long. Just two words. 'forever yours'.

I couldn't help but gently tilt her chin to me and press my lips to hers. I gave her subtle little kisses. Bella then wrapped her tiny hand round my neck drawin' me closer, lettin' me know she wanted more. I wasn't goin' to object. I started to kiss her tenderly and little by little built up the intensity runnin' my tongue faintly along her lower lip. She opened for me and good god, if I wasn't hard already. Her flavour was, no is so tantalszin'. I had a cast-iron love rod. There was no fuckin' chance of hidin' the fact that she stimulated all my sensory receptors. Every fuckin' part of me was respondin' to her taste, smell, touch and her feelin's. I was consumed with nothin' but my Bella and I'll be honest with yah, as masculine as I am, and I fuckin' am. I could've fuckin' cried right there. I mean fuck, come on. Yah gotta look at it from my point of view. My Bella has been violated in the fuckin' worst ways ever fuckin' imagined and she only recently escaped; now she is here naked in a tub and allowin' me to share such a fuckin' beautiful and passionate experience. It was fuckin' phenomenal. I slowly ended our first of, I fuckin' pray. many kisses. Placin' delicate kisses to her lips and then a last one to her gorgeous little nose.

She was all worked up, breathin' heavy just as I was. She is stunnin' when all flustered. Her scent when aroused is tremendously tantalisin'. It literally made my mouth water. I had to get out of the bath. Don't hold it against me, I'm a fuckin' man of course my thoughts would go further than they should and I fuckin' know it ain't right with this situation. That's why I'm gettin' outta the fuckin' tub okay.

I got outta the tub wrapped the towel round myself and then picked my Bella up outta the water and dried her off. Wrappin' her ribs up is emotionally hard on me. Just seein' the dark black and blue stains on her skin. A lump gets stuck in my throat. It's different with the scars, I guess cause there healed but these bruises are just so fresh, it's a reminder of how fresh it all is. I dropped to my knees and placed feather light kisses to them wishin' with all I am that I could kiss them away. I kissed all the marks I could from her ribs to her navel. All over her belly and made my way to a large thick cut on the her left breast, runnin' my tongue along the length of the scar. God I wish I could heal her inside and out. I just wish I could take it all for her. I made my way to her chest with slight shudders flowin' through me as I tried to hinder the sob that was threatenin' to seep from my chest; I was achin' like her pain was mine. Rememberin' what I now know she went through. Bella placed her hands on my head ruunin' her fingers through my her while gently pullin' face up so I was now eye level with her. Her eyes had taken on that mesmerisin' appearance. They are so beautiful yet heartbreakin' as tears run from them. Her voice with a timbre that is so alluring. I wiped the tears from her cheeks.

"I am here, with yah sugar. I'm not goin' anywhere. I am safe; they can never harm me again. Yah wouldn't let em honey. Now don't yah cry for me. I don't need that. I need my Jasper. My Major. My mate. I love that yah feel such compassion for me but I don't want the sympathy sugar. I know yah hurtin' for me right now but I can't do this with yah. I can't fall apart yet Jasper, so I need yah to stay strong so I can, please."

"I'm sorry baby; I know yah need me to be strong. I just fuckin' hate that yah had to go through that. It hurts me to see yah harmed in anyway but what y'ave gone through, had done to yah. Those images are in my head and there's pain in my heart knowin' the pain yah suffered and are still suffering. I want to take it all for yah and I can't. I feel useless unable to help yah and take it."

"Yah have such a tremendously gorgeous heart sugar. Yah are helpin' me. Yah touch is healin' and your soft kisses are soul soothin'. Yah are easin' the pain. Don't you see that Jasper?"

"Doesn't feel like enough baby."

"It is, baby steps remember, sometimes the healin' takes baby steps too."

"I love yah Bella so much baby. I know yah holdin' it all in and I get it. I know yah don't want to open that hole and let it out. But it will open and it will come out. I know yah not ready yet. Just please, know that when it does I will with yah. I'll always be with yah baby."

"I know yah will sugar. Now come on let's get dressed, I'm gettin' tired standin' here."

Fuck this woman is astonishin'. She has an inner strength I fuckin' swear it's unheard of. I've seen some fuckin' atrocities in my long fuckin' life, committed more than a few and yet they don't hold a bar to what has been committed upon her. Yet she stands here battered, scarred and bruised. She has been violated beyond comprehension and her head is held high. She seeks no sympathy nor does she let me fall apart. She stayed strong when I fell apart. I know she will have her moment and sure, it will be a gut-wrenchin' experience but fucked if I'm not goin' to be there.

We were restin' up on the bed after gettin' all fixed and dressed. I was runnin' my fingers through the length of her hair. She was feelin' very relaxed. Her eyes still had that enchantment thin' goin' on but I could see her natural brown comin' through. I wonder how her eye colour will be after the change; I haven't thought of it before now but is it possible for her to get more gifts? She has the enchantment thin'. I prefer to call it allurin'. Enchantment reminds me of witches or somethin'. Well if Eleazar is comin' he'll tell us what it is. I still haven't had the chance to find out if he is comin'. Back to her gifts, she has obviously got telekinesis and she could block Edward from gettin' in her head. If Bella does carry these gifts over she'll be a super-vamp. Shit Bella is goin' to be a shitofanewborn.

"So, I thought bout the name I want."

"And what did yah come up with darlin'?"

"Bella Charlise Whitlock."

"That's beautiful. Where did yah get Charlise from?"

"Well, I've always liked it since I heard of it. There's an actress Charlize Theron. She's so pretty, she looks a bit like Char. Anyway Charlise is a combination of Char, Charlie and Carlisle. So I figure it fits well."

"It does fit well and it's pretty."

"Yep it is. Now can yah tell me bout yah growin' up with Peter?"

"Okay"

Well we're raised on a ranch in Austin Texas; it was beautiful, plenty of land to ride the horses. We still own it but the original house is gone. We built a huge home on the land. We'll be goin' there just before yah change, we'd go sooner but there's no toilet inside and I doubt y'all wanna use the outhouse.

My mamma's name was Evelyn; my pa was named Joel Matthew Whitlock. Before peter came along there was Matthew, myself and little Ebony my little sister. Peter came to live with us when I was eight or nine, I remember we'd get in the shit a lot but I don't remember why.

We grew up and were raised pretty much like a normal family for back in those days but us boys, we were thick as thieves. Matthew and Peter joined the confederate's bout a year before me. When Matthew passed away, I joined Peter at sixteen fibbin' sayin' I was twenty to get in. I'm tall so it wasn't hard. I became a Major when I was twenty a bit after Peter become General. We were a top team, always had each other's backs. Soon after I become Major, Maria bit me. I burned like lava for three days and woke up in hell. We came along Peter, he'd come searchin' for me and found me bout six months after my change. I was givin' the choice to either feed or change him. I was only a six month old newborn, she was countin' on me killin' him; I couldn't kill him so I bit him. And that's the cliff note version. We've had some great times but it would be more interestin' with peter's commentary."

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