No one spoke a single word for what seemed like hours, but turned out to be only a few minutes. Sookie didn't actually have the guts to look at Eric, though he couldn't seem to keep his eyes off of her. And she knew it. He couldn't keep his trademarked shit-eating grin off of his face when he saw a blush spread across her face. Even Godric had a small smile on his face when he took notice of the antics between his child and the telepath.
God. Why does he keep staring at me like that? Doesn't he have any shame? Of course not. It's Eric . He doesn't even know the meaning of the word. I cannot believe I did that with him. I wanted it so bad. I could've… I almost… It was like… I was being glamoured. It was like… I was burning for him. What is wrong with me? I can still feel it. Like he's inside of me. I must've lost my mind. That's it. That's totally it. I've just been pushed too far. My mind is broken. That's the only explanation. That's the only reason why I'd want someone like him. Someone who… has the most perfect body. God, his stomach. Those lips! I guess you learn a lot in a thousand years. A thousand years… How many other women… Oh, God. I'm just another notch in his bedpost. Then again, maybe the experience isn't so bad. I mean… he could've learned… perfected… God. He'd better wipe that smirk off of his face before I do it for him. I can't believe him. He's so damn cocky. I don't care how many women he's been with. He doesn't have to be so damn confident. Does he have any idea how intimidating that is? God. If I had… I would be horrible to him. I could never compare… Stop. It's not going to happen. Just a simple lapse in judgment. But it's over now. It's okay. Just… breathe. Sookie took in a deep shaky breath. She felt Godric's hand tighten on hers. He must sense my anxiety. She tried to reign in the crazy for at least a few moments so that hew didn't have to deal with it.
I wish she would just stop fighting it. They'd be so perfect for each other. She'd help him keep his humanity. He could protect her. She certainly needs it. I've never met anyone who was so desired. She certainly causes a lot of trouble. But she's worth it. She is truly gifted. And she doesn't even know just how valuable she is… Godric turned to offer a small smile in Sookie's direction. He only hoped it was as comforting as he meant it to be.
Fuck the queen. And her little visit. I should just take her right now. She wanted me. She really wanted me. The way she wrapped her arms around me… Those moans… She's killing me. I want to touch her again. Now. I want to touch her right now. Just do it. Just pick her up… and carry her into the bedroom. We wouldn't come out for days. I will have her. She will be mine. Only mine. Eric had always been arrogant, but he had honestly never been more sure of anything in his life. She would be his. There was no doubt in his mind.
A knock at he door startled Sookie out of her inner battle. She jumped at the sudden sound and then blushed brightly when the men on either side of her turned to look at her. She rose automatically, but Eric took her hand and pulled her back down. He stood and walked to the door to welcome the guests.
Bill was the first one through the door. I can't even believe I have to be here. Eric's probably fucked her already. He works fast. Then again, so does she. Fucking human. I can't even believe I lasted that long. Constantly whining. Sophie-Anne owes me big for this bullshit mission. Failed or not. That was the most annoying shit I've ever had to do. I will be so fucking glad when this shit is over.
Sookie flinched from his thoughts, but quickly composed herself. Oh, God. What if they saw that? They don't know I can read vampire minds now. Keep it together. Just keep it together. They couldn't have known. No one could've known. God, this is a fucking disaster. I can't believe this is happening to me. Did he hate every single moment he spent with me? How could I not have known? I thought… I can't do this. I have to get out of here. No. Stay out here. Don't let them think anything is wrong. Don't let them know that you know anything. I can't believe I couldn't see through his shit. Fuck you, Bill. I hope you rot. Goddamn you.
The next to step through the door was the queen herself, Sophie-Anne. Oh, fuck me. Godric's bonded with her? There's no way I can get her now. Did he know? Unlikely. Play it out. Maybe he'll be willing to trade. She's pretty. Prettier than I thought.
That was the thought that shocked Sookie the most. She couldn't really ever remember being so uncomfortable. To say that Sophie-Anne was stunning was an extreme understatement. She was perfection personified. Sookie knew she could never compete. She honestly felt like crying… up until the point when she realized Eric's eyes were glued to hers. It felt like her could actually see into her head. And he smiled. And winked. Jesus, is he fucking suicidal? Behave! Sookie rolled her eyes and turned her attention back to the door and the last person who was walking through it. And her jaw dropped.
No one else paid any attention to the girl who had just walked in. No one, that is, except for Sookie. She was sure she was hallucinating. Of all of the messed up things in her life, she had the most trouble accepting this. Not possible. Not fucking possible. "Hadley? What the hell?"