Now Begins the Diary of Lily Evans
Monday – 1:23 pm
I'm in the Library.
My life is SO over.
GOSH I hate him!
No I don't
I'm really very happy... I think
Why MUST MY LIFE BE SO FRAUGHT WITH TRAUMA? GOD! I mean, GOSH!
Ok, you must think I'm over reacting.
And maybe I am. I mean, there are probably plenty of other girls who go through worse than this... like...like... I don't know. No one that I know at anyrate.
Anyway, here is why 'My life is SO over.' Ok, you already know about Remus, and Sirius, and James, and Jack right? gosh I hope Katie doesn't take Jack from me too because if she does... Woe betide her! well, I have liked other people, but Katie hasn't stolen them away from me. There was Arthur Weasley. Which never would have worked out by the way. I mean. Molly...molly...whatsherface and him are like SO TOTALLY in LOVE. Then there was Cliffton Young, the Ravenclaw seeker. But he was a year older than me and graduated... owell. Then there was David Champlain. But everyone calls him Dave.
Now it is around Dave that my story circles. See, I liked him right?. Seriously. Then I didn't because I knew that it would never work out right? I mean. He's in Gryffindor and all, and he's in my grade...but I just didn't think it would work out. And he's my friend and all. Like we'd tell each other who we liked. I mean, Jen and Dave were the first to know about Jake...but I just didn't see him liking me back. So I gave up on it.
NOW, at LUNCH...errr
Actually
JUST BEFORE LUNCH, Jen comes up to me right?
She
says all nonchalantly,
"so...who
is your current crush."
OBVIOUSLY I looked at her funny. I mean. I HAD told her and Dave.
But she goes right on to say, "right see? I knew that."
But THEN she goes, like TOTALLY OUT OF THE BLUE , "Do you still like Dave?"
Now, I hate to admit it, but I kind of liked Dave since I became friends with him. I just kinda...shoved it to the back of my mind I guess... I don't know! I don't know what happens in my subconscious! Anyway.
So I'm all '...yeah...I think...kinda'
And she goes , "well, nowhelikesyouandIwasn'tsupposedtotellyousopleasedon'ttellhimthatyouknowbecau seI'llbeinsoooomuchtroubleitwouldn'tevenbefunnyandIreallywasn'tsupposedtotel lyoubutI thoughtthatmaybeyou'dwanttoknow."
All that was said in one breath and very fast...at first I was like 'huh?' just because I didn't want to believe her. I mean, I understood her...I just didn't want to believe her because that would make everything including my life VERY OVERLY COMPLICATED!
AND I DIDN'T NEED THAT!
So anyway, yeah. SO here I am.
In the LIBRARY!
HOW TOTALLY DORKY IS THAT?
BUT that's not the only reason why my life is SO TOTALLY OVER.
I have a crush on James, AND Jack. And NOW I LIKE DAVE TOO? It makes me feel all bad.
Then I know that if one of them DID happen to ask me out which I highly doubt I mean cummon! then I wouldn't know to say yes or what...
I mean. I know for a FACT that Dave likes me. I don't really know if Jack likes me yet. And I HIGHLY doubt that mister 'I'm going with the prettiest girl in the school' is EVER going to like me back! I mean. Seriously. GET REAL! But I DO know that Dave likes me...so should I say no to the other two? But I don't know which one I like more.
I mean, if they ask me out, OBVIOUSLY they like me. UNLESS James just is trying to play a joke on me as usual. THAT would be the most obvious thing in the world. But if I say no the James when he asks me out...then what? What about Jack and Dave? I still like them too!
Or perhaps Jack asks me out. What then? Should I say yes? Because if I do, then what about James and Dave. I mean. I've liked James for a long time. And it would finally be like my chance to get back at Katie!
The problem that most worries me though... is Dave. I started liking Dave in like my... 3rd year...? Yeah. Third year. I mean. He always hung out with us and stuff... its just that I always saw him as a friend until I started having a crush on him and flirting with him and then I told Jen and it seemed to kind of seal the deal, and I always kind of liked him in the back of my mind I just didn't want to admit it b/c I thought that he'd only like me as a friend and I just don't know what to do! So when I finally almost get over liking him, and theres another guy. He just comes WALTZING RIGHT IN and starts liking me.
Perfect.
Absolutely.
I have to go now. Lunch is going to end in a few seconds. Bye for now.
-Lily
Monday – 8:41 pm
I didn't have a lot of homework and I had to retreat up here to think. Hold up. I can hear Katie and James on their way up. WHY do they let the boys come up here huh? WHY? Girls are A LOT more trust worthy than guys so I can see why we should be able to go over to their dormitory. But they should NOT be allowed here. Gosh! I think he's coming in! oh my goodness! I have to clean up all of my mess that I made! ... ... ...
Well! THAT was certainly frantic. He sure as the nose on my face came in. And luckily I had like just finished cleaning up. Thank goodness. So they sit there forever, or at least, it SEEMED like forever. And I had the curtains drawn around my bed right?
So I'm listening to their conversations...and all of a sudden you wouldn't believe what I heard!
Katie Holmes is jealous of me!
KATIE HOLMES.
JEALOUS OF ME!
ME!
There is SO no way. I sooo must be dreaming.
You know what else I heard?
That they bumped into Jen and Miko in the halls and they were hugging.
HUGGING!
Not that it really matters I mean, Miko is a cool guy too... I guess. He used to be my friend too... then... well...I don't know what happened really. A friend moved away, and he didn't talk to me as much. Owell. I'm happy for Jen. I must ask her when she comes in. I mean, it's 9:12pm how much later could she be?
Oh, I hear her. I'll write tomorrow.
-Lily
"Hey Jen!"
"Ay Lily."
I stalled for a minute, debating over whether or not to ask Jen about Miko. I decided to.
"So Jen...I heard you were hugging Miko..."
"It's nothing. Just an innocent hug."
I looked at her skeptically.
"IT WAS!" Jen bellowed at me, nearly waking Katie who is a heavy sleeper up.
"Uh huh."
Monday – 9:15 pm
I know I said I'd write to you tomorrow...but I just need to do this quickly.
I don't think it was such an innocent hug because of how she was skipping, dancing, and singing around the room. NOT TO MENTION SMILING NON STOP!
She is SOO not telling me everything.
I WANT TO KNOW! GOSH!
Ok, now I'm seriously sleeping.
-Lily
ps...This is the earliest I've gone to sleep in a while me thinks!