We didn't walk for more than 10 minutes until we reached a small clearing with waist-high grasses and a small stream. Jasper stood in the middle of the clearing with his eyes closed. He appeared to soak in the peacefulness of the place. He seemed to be at ease just standing there. Seeing him like that made me notice how on edge he was back at the house, like he was always holding something back; keeping control he could let go in this little bubble the clearing created. As I went closer he let go of the breath he was holding and a small smile appeared on his lips. He turned to me and held his hand out to me. "I want to show you something. Do you trust me?" In this moment he truly looked like an angel. At ease with everything, without any worries or doubts. I couldn't do more than nod. So I took his hand and he lifted me up bridal style in the blink of an eye. I closed my eyes and kept my face hidden in the crook of his neck as I felt him moving but I couldn't get myself to look where he was taking me. When he stopped he kept his hold on me and I waited for 3 more minutes to pass before I opened my eyes and what I saw made me speechless. Jasper brought me to the top of one of those tall trees that you could find in the forest. The view we had was outrageous phenomenal. You could see up to the cliffs and further more.

I managed to concentrate on the sight before my eyes before I got nervous again. I wasn't nervous that Jasper would let me fall but what he wanted to talk about. I looked back at him and noticed that his face was glowing what made me curious. Taking a closer look I could make out the faint lines of many crescent scars on his neck and the parts of his shoulders I could see. There even where some on his face. I was curious as to why he had those but I wasn't going to steal his story like I did Carlisle's. He noticed my stare and sat me down on the thick branch of the tree, still steadying me. Here comes the talk. Great.

"I see you recognized the glow. That's partly the reason you're here. You don't know everything about vampires and I wanted to tell you. You already know that we don't sleep or eat. Well not the same as you at least. We do drink blood, but our family only drinks animal blood. That's why our eyes are topaz instead of red like they would normally be. We do call ourselves 'vegetarian'. It's kind of an inside joke to us. We can't go out in the sun, because of this glowing. We would expose ourselves. We don't need to breathe and have super strength, speed and hearing. That means we know what you told Carlisle and Esme back at the house. I'm sorry we listened in on you but we all just worried so much." It was much to process. The information he gave me about being a vampire and their eavesdropping. I have to say that I was angry but as I looked in Jaspers eyes I couldn't find any betrayal. All there was was a silent plead to believe him, to trust him, to love him.

Wait, love? This can't be real. He wouldn't, he couldn't. Not someone like me. But what if? What if he fell for me like I had fallen for him? Maybe that's the other reason why he took me out here; to tell me he loves me. But please my silly heart. Don't hope. Don't give him the chance to destroy the parts that have just been fixed. Oh did I mention that I have the tendency to get overly dramatic? No? Well now you know it. I really should stop talking to myself like that. Maybe that's not even what he wanted to talk about. "Bella?" I totally spaced out. I concentrated back on him and waited for whatever he had to say. Mentally preparing for the worst. "You know there is more I wanted to talk to you about. Well, Bella, Edward and Alice are not the only ones with a gift. I do have one too." Okay, now I was curious as to what this gift of his would be. "Bella, my gift is that I'm able to feel and manipulate everyone's emotions." Wow that's a pretty impressive gift, but a curse too if you reflect on it more accurately. It must be hard to always feel when someone's angry or sad or when they're in pain. He really must have some control. That must have been the reason he acted like he did back down in the clearing. Back down there and up here in the tree he didn't have to feel his whole family. There weren't any emotions but mine.

Whoa… what? Mine? Oh no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. that means he knows how I feel about him and how much I liked him. No more than that loved him and now he's going to tell me off. I know it. He just brought me here so the others don't have to hear it. It has to be this way. Nobody as perfect as him would love someone like me. A used, ugly and battered toy. I wasn't worth to be loved. They told me often enough. My emotions changed from insecurity to sadness. I hated myself for I let my heart fall in love. I put my face in my hands and cried. "Bella? What happened? What made you suddenly hate yourself so much?" he really was concerned about me. I could hear it in his voice, so I tried to answer him. "It's just … I have … and your gift … but this can't … ugh!" Babbling really brought my point across, don't you think? "Bella, calm down. It can't be that bad."I tried and after ten minutes I managed to regain control over my breathing. "Well, now care to elaborate? I really would like to know what brought on this sudden self-hate and sadness." Okay. Now or never. I have to tell him. What can be the worst he can do? Reject me? Yeah, that's what I'm afraid of. Let's get this over with.

"Okay. I'll tell you but you have to hear me out. That first time I saw you I felt something for you. I didn't know what this feeling was but it grew stronger every time you were near me. When I was at the cliffs I realized I had fallen for you. I didn't even know you for more than maybe 9 hours but I fall for you and I fall hard. Jasper, I love you." There it was. Out in the world ready to be heard or rejected. As I looked up to him, he was facing away from me without any emotion in his eyes. I knew I shouldn't have told him. In the end it was impossible. "Bella, I …" "No!" I cut him off immediately. I didn't want to hear his words. They would just hurt more than the mere knowledge.

"No. I know it's impossible for you to feel the same for me. No one as perfect as you would fall in love with someone as broken and used like me. I know I'm not worth …" I suddenly couldn't continue my little speech. First because my tears where choking me but mainly because Jasper was kissing me. It took me a second to really recognize this in my brain but then I started responding to him and most of all I started to hope again. Hope that he would prove me wrong. Hope that he could love me back. In a small part of my mind I even registered that his intimate touch didn't bother me at all. I used to even flinch away when someone accidently touched my shoulder but Jasper kissed me out of the blue and I didn't thought of my fears for a second. It just felt right to feel his lips on mine.

Soon again Jasper broke the kiss that left us both panting although he didn't need to breathe. There were still some silent tears streaming down my face as I kept my forehead leaning on his. I didn't dare to look, to break this moment that I would held close in my heart no matter what would happen next but I needed to know. "Jasper, please tell me there is hope." "There is, my love, there is. I did feel what you felt but always thought I projected my feelings on you and this weren't really your own. Bella, I love you." I leaned back to look him in the eyes and all I could find was love and although I could see that he told the truth there was still some doubt in me. "Why is there still doubt?" Of course he felt it. "I do believe you. It just seems so impossible for me. You are perfect and I'm just me. Plain, broken Bella. It's hard to believe that anyone is able to love me. I was told so often I wasn't worth it that I started to believe it."

"Bella you are the most beautiful person I ever met and you're worth everything and more than the world can offer. Despite everything that happened to you, you can trust us. I felt it. You managed to work through your hurt and pain to feel love again. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for. You are the perfect one not me. I'm a monster." I felt the blood rising to my cheeks and the blush deepens. With just a few little words he made my doubts vanish. But what did he mean he wasn't perfect? There couldn't be anything wrong with him. "Thank you, for your words but made you think that you're not perfect. I heard what you said although you didn't want me to as you just whispered. I can't see you as the monster you are seeing yourself as."

"I do have a past too, don't forget that. You won't think the same of me if you knew." I twitched once because his tone was suddenly so harsh but there was sadness in his eyes I couldn't stand. "Show me and I will show you it doesn't matter." Like two day before I didn't know where the courage came from but I slowly reached out to him and after he didn't prevent the touch I took it as his permission and built the bond.

The first thing I saw was that he was born and raised in Texas. He was the spitting image of his mother; just the boy version of her. His parents were loving people that deeply cared for him and his two little sisters but their live was hard and they hardly had enough to feed everyone. I saw how Jasper decided to join the army so there would be one mouth less to feed but he could provide money instead and support his parents. I saw their proud but worried expressions as he told them he would leave. I saw his live as he quickly switched through the ranks in the army. I saw how he met those three beautiful women that one night. I saw how he was changed and what he was forced to do just because of his gift. That Maria manipulated him; took advantage of him in his confused state after the change. I saw him drinking human blood and killing other newborns, as I now know they were called. I watched him hurt and in pain until he met Peter who pulled him out of his stupor and helped him escape his life of war. I saw him wander the world until that one fateful night he met Alice. I saw their friendship blossom and his life changing for the best as they joined the Cullen's. He was happier and slowly learned to let his past just be. The memories slowly faded out showing the recent events again. I saw how he tortured himself because he loved me but was afraid to lose me cause to his past. I saw his pain as he and Carlisle found me at the cliffs and the happy expression as I told I loved him.

To watch his past wasn't as exhausting as to watch Carlisle's because he was younger but I still needed to lean on him for support. It took a minute to compose myself. I could understand why he was afraid but I did not blame him for his past. I knew what Monsters were like and he was not even remotely close to being one. HE would hurt and violate me out of fun but Jasper didn't know better and he was definitely not enjoying it. I saw how often he sought isolation to grief. I knew he was still afraid of losing me. Looking at him I could clearly see it written on his face although his face was turned away and he had closed his eyes as if to brace him for the coming rejection he thought was inevitable but that would come.

I couldn't reject him. Parts of what I saw made me love him even more. No matter what all the others around him did he would always strike fast on his prey not able to bear the pain they felt for long and although it seemed to be common amongst the others he never forced himself on one of the other female vampires. He often even went to intervene. No, there was no way I could hate him for his past so it was entirely normal to me to lean in to him and give him a peek on the cheek to show him my thanks for his trust. Shocked by my actions he spun around finally facing me with a doubtfully expression so I concentrated on all the love and trust I felt for him so he could see that his past didn't matter to me. It wouldn't change a thing. He understood and cuddled me in a tight but still caring embrace. It felt like he never wanted to let go of me and so we stayed like this until I fell asleep in his arms, the sun setting down the last thing that consciously crossed my mind.

So now they two finally know about their feelings.

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