So, wow, I was in love with my best friend… DAMN IT, WHY? He was my BEST FRIEND! What if he didn't love me back? What if that ruined our friendship? Well, that wasn't the worst of my worries. It was the 3rd week since Chord had the accident and he was still in coma. I hadn't visited him in 2 weeks since I argued with Naya. Or that was what everyone thought. The truth is that I hadn't left him. I went to the hospital everynight and stayed with him all night. I told him what I had done that day and how I felt about it. I also sang him a song with his guitar. Only his mother knew about me. Each day that pessed, the more I realized I was in love with him. I missed his smile, his bad jokes, how he always was there when I needed him… and thinking that I'd probably never see that again was devastating. Everynight I prayed fot him and told him that he had to be strong, at least for me.
One day I recived a text message from Lea. It said:
"Talked with the doctor today. If Chord doesn't wake up this next week he probably never will. Please come, Chord needs you."
I didn't text back. It was too much for me to handle, that night I went to visit him as usual, with his guitar. I wanted to sing him a song, I hoped that it'll might wake him up, I didn't know why. I chose the perfect song, "Beautiful Girl". It was his first single and he always played it whenb he was sad. He said it gave him strenght . I wished it was about me, but I was pretty sure it was about that bitch Emma.
Anyway, I left my thoughts and started to sing:
*Beautiful Girl*
Can you hear me?
Barely breathing, as you pass me by.
You're an angel, with a body,
got me crazy
without even trying.
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck
No one makes me feel like this.
BEAUTIFUL GIRL CAN YOU SEE ME FALLING?
ALL I WANT IS YOU
MAKE THIS A BEAUTIFUL WORLD
NOW MY HEART IS CALLING
SO CAUGHT UP IN YOY
I WISH I COULD CARRY YOU AWAY
AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOUR NAME
DO YOU EVEN KNOW, YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL GIRL
Conversations, I imagine
Were they in my head?
Did I wake up?
Am I dreaming?
Are you here now?
Baby in my bed
I'm a mess, I'm a werck
If I asked would you say yes?
I stoped singing and the only thing that came out of my mouth was "Yes".
I looked at the clock. It was 6·30 am, time to go. I packed up my things and said goodbay to Chord. I was opening the door when something stopped me. I had to do a thing before leaving. I walked to the bed, I leaned and I kissed him. It was a soft kiss, because I was afraid I could hurt him, but still, it made me feel like never before.