Roksas: Big exams, failing Math, what else? I'm going to die in school right now.

Sora: It's normal…

Roksas: No it isn't! I'm going to get kicked out since I got a line of 7, and my life is RUINED! Thank god for cancelled quizzes…

Depression strikes. Now read on, don't let me burden you with miseries. Instead, listen to Good Charlotte!

Roksas: And Civics tests!

Extreme Confusion

Naminé POV

I pulled at the thick comforter, wrapping myself around it. Before I knew it, it was pulled away and the cold air got to me. Annoyed, I tugged at it again until I got to pull it over my head.

My room's air conditioner was still busted, since of course, nobody was there to fix it. Here I was once again in his room, trying to sleep in comfort. It was better than staying with Kairi, my twin, since she believed in saving electricity or the world would wilt or something, and Larxene loves it so cold you couldn't stand it. Axel was out of the question, and Zexion was up reading and I can't sleep with light near me.

"Give it back!"

"The air's cold!"

"It's not that cold, Naminé, so give it back! Besides, it's mine."

I grunted, pulling. "If it's not cold, then give me the blanket right now."

"Oh come on!"

He rolled over, coming close to me. I faced away from him, burying my head into the pillow. "Go away this is my side," I muttered sleepily, stifling a yawn. I shut my eyes. "Or don't come any closer."

He laughed softly. "Or else?" he prompted.

"I'm going to kick you," I replied easily, turning to face him. It surprised me how much space was lost between us in the dark. "Like right now." I smiled a little.

"You said you were sleepy," he pointed out, giving me a hug. My heart raced and I willed the feeling to go away. "Now you go to bed."

"Leave me to peace," I smiled.

He murmured a yes and I relaxed, shutting my eyes and drifting to sleep.

I didn't complain and he didn't let go either, but I didn't mind.

o0o

Caitlin POV

I sat silently, eating my omelet quietly. Everyone at the table was at ease, even Naminé was in a good mood; probably floating between the clouds. I was the only one jumpy.

Somehow, bad things always happen to me. I hated getting caught last night! It made me feel guiltier than ever and it bothered me so much. I didn't mean to do that, really, but how can I get to the bottom of the whole mess? People love her and hate me! How can I ask her without making her blow up or something?

Last night, I hid it under my pillow again and today, I'd put it back when she wasn't there. Easy as pie; she wouldn't know unless—

"Hey, is Caitlin in the Organization yet?" Xigbar spoke up and I nearly choked on my food, cursing in my mind silently. Across the table, Naminé had the same reaction.

Their Superior turned to the one-eyed senior, a pointed look in his piercing eyes. "What makes you say that?"

Naminé POV

What?!

That can't be true. I took a deep breath and bit my lip from screaming. What was Xigbar thinking? He may not realize it, but it practically destroyed my world. Just letting her in meant I'm being alienated. The House was the only place I could stay where Caitlin wasn't allowed to come in! Now I have nowhere to go?

"Well," Xigbar swung his fork to the side. "She does have the Organization Diary and all, so I thought you gave it to her or something. I thought we weren't accepting any more members?"

"But my diary is as plain as a notebook," Caitlin protested, her purple eyes gleaming with hurt. "Besides—"

Xigbar cut her off. "Plain? As if! I could recognize that logo at the spine. Yours is blue, huh?"

As the conversation went on, I was pulled to the back of my own mind, events flashing. My imagination was running wild, I realized. But how could she have gotten a blue Org Diary? Mine was blue, and it was missing…

Oh god, no!

"Hey, you okay?" Roxas nudged me, my thoughts cut. I looked at him with alarm and his eyes flashed worry. "What happened?"

I suddenly felt like crying. Why would she do that to me?

I stood up abruptly and everything stopped, sixteen pairs of eyes staring at me. "That was so low, Caitlin!" I yelled, pointing a finger at my cousin, who sat across me. "I can't believe you'd steal my diary! You tried to take my life away, didn't you? You stole the people dear to me and now you're trying to steal my feelings too!"

Without any other word, I pushed the chair back and ran up the stairs and locked myself in my room, swinging the door with a satisfying slam.

o0o

I heard a knock on the door. "What," I asked, irritated.

"Naminé, please, I have to talk to you!" Caitlin pleaded. Instantly, my blood boiled.

"Go away!" I yelled, fresh tears filling my eyes. "You're just making things worse." I looked out the window longingly. It was so ironic; I waited for this vacation to come for a long time and here I am, wishing to go home or drown.

"We have to sort everything out," she tried.

"No!" I retorted. "You'll make things worse than it is now!"

I heard her sigh in defeat and walk away, leaving me slightly guilty. I shook my head, about to run after her. I knew I would end up screaming at her, so what's the point? Things would become worse between us, just the way I predicted it to be before she arrived, but for different reasons. I admit, I wasn't sure what reasons, but I knew we were fighting, and was I losing, I don't know.

A few minutes later, Axel came and broke the lock of my door when he burst in. "Sorry to interrupt or something, but why don't we go swimming? You know, to take your mind off of some stuff…"

He knew what was bothering me. Of course he knew; he was there this morning and he witnessed the whole outburst. I was probably kicked out of the Organization, but why not? Caitlin's taking my place anyway.

"Come on, come with us," he wheedled when I didn't reply, leaning against the doorframe lazily, his goggles dangling down his neck and his emerald eyes showing sympathy. "You'll have fun!"

I stared at him. "Who's going, anyway?" I asked listlessly, almost giving in. "I bet she's going…"

"Let's see…" he began counting his fingers. "Me, Larxene, Roxas, Kairi and Sora are going, and you could come if you would, right?" Axel smiled, running a hand through his hair.

I found myself smiling back at him and getting up. "I don't know," I said dubiously. "She might come, knowing she has this radar when I'm with him." When I said that, he rolled his eyes and dragged me along while I protested.

"You've been dressed to swim," he pointed out and I flushed. It was true, since I was going to swim but changed my mind. It was so tempting, the good weather beating at the waves.

o0o

"Oh goodie, you came!" My twin squealed, giving me a big hug. I forced a smile and avoided her gaze. "I haven't seen you the whole time we were here, and I thought I'd be stuck with all of them alone."

"Hey!" Sora protested, leering at her, offended from her other comment. "You make it sound as if I'm some kind of—"

"No I'm not," the redhead twin let go and skipped towards her boyfriend, this time hugging him.

I made a face and Sora snickered, only to be batted by the girl. Turning around, I jumped into the water to join my blond guy friend. Unlike his usual diving suit he was only wearing beach shorts, the tacky ones I bought for him before. It was meant for a joke, actually, since I kept teasing him about having bad taste in food. They were dark blue with bright pink and electric green coconut trees pasted around and they were unusually baggy yet tight on his waist.

"Hey, you're wearing it," I laughed, standing beside him. He jumped, laughing nervously.

"I thought you weren't coming so I wore them," he shrugged. "Have to use it at least once." He laughed, sticking out his tongue at me.

"Aw, you hate it," I concluded, putting on a practiced pout. "You told me you loved it more than you loved me." It was a joke between us, that he loved me so much and all. But at the moment I wish it wasn't.

Roxas bent down and sent a spray of water at me. I squeaked. "I didn't say I loved you that much," he kidded, poking me. "Just kidding, Naminé."

I poked his cheek and he complained. We raced goofily towards the deeper part where Axel and Larxene were looking at some kind of thing at the sand below them. I could hear them murmuring stuff like "It's getting near your feet" and "Dude, those are your feet; mine don't look like prunes," and all those things, so we didn't disturb them.

I stopped, turned around and pushed Roxas for absolutely no reason, turned around and ran towards the sand, trying hard not to laugh or I'd topple over. Looking back, the blond was chasing me with something long and green in his hand. I increased my pace but tripped suddenly when the wave hit me from behind.

The boy began shouting cowboy words, nearing. I stumbled and tried to get away but something wet and slimy hit my head. Instinctively, I screamed. I let one eye check what it was, and it happened to be a long string of seaweed.

Roxas kept laughing even until he sat down beside me. He raised a fist triumphantly, saying "Aha, I lassoed you! Rampant Roxas got um pale maiden!"

I rolled my eyes. "Oh come on, Rampant? That's such a lame name, you idiot, and 'um pale maiden' is for the Indians." I put a finger on the tip of his nose. "I'd say Rolling, or Rascal or something like that." I laughed, pecking his nose without a thought.

After I realize what I did, I waved my hands frantically in front of his face. "Don't' get any ideas, it was just—"

He stuck out his tongue, making me stop reasoning. "It's okay," he smiled warmly and somehow, the joking mood was replaced with…

"I—I miss things like this," I looked away, my face burning. "You know, just being…innocent like before." I didn't know it was me speaking like this. I never said that to anyone, nor would I imagine saying something like that.

The late afternoon sun began disappearing behind the horizon and I didn't see Sora or Kairi around; they probably went back. Axel and Larxene were still in the water, probably talking about feet again but they were swimming. I turned my attention back to my friend but he just did the same.

The words left my mouth. "But she came and ruined everything and now you're—"

"Not hers," he finished, an almost stern look etched on his features. "I don't love her, okay?"

They pierced my heart. I'm not sure if I should scream and throw myself at him or dance or maybe cry from happiness. But who did he really love? She must be someone so great compared to Wonder Caitlin Who Stole My Diary, since my cousin was so great and all. Who could stand a chance to her?

Not me.

"Can you fix my air conditioner?" I broke the tension with a nervous laugh, looking to my left. Having him so close made me uncomfortable and it made me feel all weird. "It doesn't work."

"Sure," he replied, snapping out of his own reverie. "I could, but that's tomorrow."

"What about my diary, can you get it from her?" I asked hopefully, pressing my luck. His reply was a big grin.

"What else is broken, your heart?" he teased, his cerulean eyes unreadable; I wasn't sure if what he said was just a joke but it knifed my heart. He didn't know it.

Looking at him in the eye, I felt something wrong touch my face. "I guess," I confessed. "It really does hurt for some reason." Some reason that I know of and you don't, I added silently.

Tense silence filled the small space between us and somehow the tiny space made me uncomfortably at ease. I hated it—it was as if I wanted something to happen when it shouldn't, when it was absolutely, impossibly stupid for it to happen.

"So-o-o you want me to fix it?" a gleam danced in his pretty eyes. I nodded stupidly, not trusting my voice so much. "Okay," he smiled gently, coming closer. I fidgeted away, face burning.

"I don't think—I think my heart's fixed," I laughed shakily, my heart practically jumping out of the web of veins it was attached to. "I'm okay!"

"You'd better be sure," he said, trapping me in a loose hug. "Now, shut your eyes…and shut up."

I swatted him playfully and obeyed, a tiny smile tugging on my lips despite how scared I was.

But…but why was I scared?

"Now don't look," he instructed, and I nodded. Suddenly I was thrown forward but he told me instantly to still squeeze my eyes shut. I trusted him and did as he said. I kept hearing the steady heartbeat of his, drumming as fast as mine.

Was it?

"Now face up, but don't open your eyes."

"What kind of healing is this?" I chided playfully. "Is it herbal or oil, or what?"

"Shut up and you'll see," he replied teasingly.

Here goes, I thought, and tipped my head back, only to collide with something. My eyes flew open, found out what it was, smiled to myself and shut my eyes again. Something so wrong, but so wonderful.

"Rolling Roxas has done it again," I said, euphoria filling my heart.

"I told you I could fix anything," he said with mock modesty. "Well anyway, care for one more?"

I swatted him. "You idiot, you sound like a play boy or something!" I exclaimed. "If I'd known better you got that from Axel or someone."

Of course I kind of did want another, if it was possible. But I didn't want another yet, not now, not tomorrow.

Or maybe tomorrow.

o0o

I hummed to the tune of "Walking on Sunshine" as I went down the stairs after taking a bath. I admit I was still floating millions of feet from the ground.

Except for the fact it wasn't his first, but…

I pushed the thought away, deciding it would ruin my mood. It still stayed on my lips, and I didn't tell anyone. I wasn't exactly dying to tell anyone, especially in front of Wonder Caitlin Who Stole My Diary, whose radar for once didn't work. She'd probably make a big move and who knows what she'd do?

Again, I pushed the thought away before my imagination ruined the whole thing.

Superior ordered everyone out of the house for dinner, where Axel was grilling some burgers and hotdogs. I pushed the door open and a pungent smell wafted through the air. The wind made my white dress billow with the wind and my blue sandals sank into the sand immediately. I shook it off.

Everyone was around, either moving around or sitting down and talking. Demyx was trying to cajole Larxene into playing a small game of volleyball with him. Axel was dueling with Roxas with spatulas, Caitlin in a deep conversation with Superior and the other five "founders" of the Organization, probably talking about her joining. She'd get in anyway, I thought bitterly, heading over to the grill.

"It's going to burn," I pointed out with a smile, leaning against the top of the grill. It wasn't scorching hot, so it was okay. Besides, he just started grilling.

Axel waved his spatula in the air, doing a victory dance. "It's mine, so touché, Rox," he grinned deviously. He flipped a patty and another, concentrating with cooking.

His blond best friend gave up and handed the extra spatula to Axel and I linked my arm with his. I told him we should play a game with Demyx and he agreed. I loved sports, but I had a reputation of being incredibly lazy sometimes.

Caitlin POV

I watched them hurry over to Demyx from the corner of my eye. I was half listening to what the other six people say. In fact, I didn't want to be near them. No offense, since I had to do everything in my power to—just remember, all is fair in love and war.

Or was it something like that; I can't remember.

I stood up and excused myself, smiling earnestly. I headed over to the blond trio, wondering loudly if I could join.

"Sure," Demyx smiled, and I grinned back with a tiny giggle. Of course he'd allow me. He'd be the last person to hurt a fly!

They all don't know what I've been doing.

Oh, stop it! I scolded myself, letting a frown appear. I hid it back. Stop being…evil like before!

"I'll team up with Roxas," I smiled at everyone. Did I hint a glower from Nami?

But in one of her later passages, she said she hated him with all her heart…

I read another page last night to make sure, and I found out. She didn't love him! Or maybe she hadn't written in a long time? How should I know? It dated about…almost a year back. Besides, I wasn't that close to her and letting this boy get in the way made it worse, but I loved him so much!

"My call," Demyx said and served. I bent low enough and caught the ball, pushing it towards the other side. Naminé returned easily, I spiked it down. Demyx caught it in time and Roxas pushed it from his face immediately. My cousin, scowling, spiked the ball and it hit my face with a sharp pang.

"Oh!" I sputtered, cupping my face with my hands. "It hurts!" Not exactly; it wasn't a lie, nor was it the truth. It didn't hurt that bad, but it still hurt a little bit.

"I'm sorry," I heard my cousin cry repeatedly.

"Are you okay?" It was Roxas, his arm over my shoulders. "What happened, where does it hurt?"

I looked up at his concerned face, my façade almost tipping. "It hurts here," I pointed at the place between my nose and lips. I looked away, feigning embarrassment.

"My mom used to kiss the spot where it hurt," I sighed. "Can you…" I stared expectantly at him.

Naminé POV

I was still fuming when I got to the table, although I didn't show it.

I slid into the seat beside Larxene, tapping my fingers on the table.

So who am I to him, then?

He told me that he didn't love her! But what did he do in front of me? I shut my eyes and faced down, willing the tears to disappear. Then again, he didn't say that he loved me either… But he—!

"Roxas did something," Larxene interrupted my thoughts. I faced her, a tear sliding down my cheek: an instant giveaway.

Without a reply from me, she nodded and stared at the black ocean. "It's hard," she commented.

"And what's that supposed to mean?" I demanded, glaring at Larxene, only to let this anger fade. "I know it is," I sighed, looking down at my hands. "I'm no match for her."

And this was where silence filled the space.

"Hey," Roxas greeted as he sat down beside me, flashing a tired smile. "Doesn't she ever give up or something?" he chuckled and I only sat in silence. I didn't want to ruin the greatest day of my life (so far), but what could I do? And I was so right: she still managed to ruin my day.

I stared at him sorrowfully. "So what was that you did a while ago?" I asked, unable to keep the pain from my voice. "Was it the same thing as…this afternoon?" Tears threatened to form and I pushed them back, humming a fast tune in my mind. "What're you trying to do to me?"

He looked back at me in confusion. "But I don't understand…"

"You…" I took a deep breath and looked up to Larxene for help. I knew she saw it too!

She sighed, her green eyes flashing dangerously yet she kept calm. She shifted position, her temple resting on a knuckle perched behind the seat. "You were kissing Caitlin, no?" Larxene raised an eyebrow. "I don't think that's nice."

He drew back, guilty? "What kiss?"

"I saw it," she said.

"Me too," I chimed in, hurt. What in the world was he trying to do to me?

"But she told me to peck the space between her—"

"And so you do have to do as she says, huh?" I challenged.

"No!"

"Food, everyone," Axel hollered, waving his spatula wildly. Most of the members forked their meat, piling them onto their own paper plate.

I sighed and got up to my feet, letting the grainy sand tickle my toes before I got to the grill. I picked up a plate and took the plump patty, a sort-of burned hot dog and a bun. Slowly, I headed back.

Roxas went ahead of me somehow, and he was seated already at the far end on his claimed chair. Wonder Caitlin was beside him on my seat, but what does it matter anyway? I'm losing.

I took a seat across Roxas and flashed a small smile. He returned with an oh-my-god look. I laughed inwardly, only smiling. I stared down at the cooked food and started eating. How I still had an appetite I don't know; so don't you dare ask any question.

Larxene came and did a double take, came over to my side and sat to my left. Good thing she's on my side.

I guess Caitlin was flirting up a storm, and I was here to cut it. "Superior says we're leaving tomorrow," Caitlin pouted. "I don't want to leave this place ever!" she smiled meaningfully at Roxas. "This island is absolutely perfect!"

Caitlin POV

I watched the two closely from behind the trees.

It was after dinner and they excused themselves, probably to have another bicker session. After a couple of minutes, Larxene left for Axel; who knew why?

"What was it about?" my cousin repeated, her eyes flashing. "I want to know!"

"Honestly, she just asked me to—"

"Oh come on!" she threw her hands up, exasperated. "Is there any better excuse? You're always doing things for Caitlin because—!"

"Now you stop with that!" he announced. "I'm so sick of telling you tons of times that I don't! I don't know when that would get into you and realize that!"

"I'd believe you if you show it!"

"She just asked for a little kiss like her mom used to give her when she got hit somewhere."

"And I'm supposed to believe that, right?" She demanded scathingly. "And you're supposed to shower kisses generously in every direction, is that it? Because you're such a ladies' man, you should show the Roxas Magic?"

"Naminé!"

Pushing him away, she darted off with him behind her.

I smiled to myself, following after a minute or two.

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So… it's August! And exams done, failed lots, now please review this uselessly ugly chapter. I promised a long one, so here, but nothing great. I even wanted to redo the whole thing. It's that ugly, huh?

Please review!