Someone told me they were confused Smile for Life I think it was. I am curious as to what you are confused about so if you could leave me a more detailed review or email me that would be fine I don't like people being confused unless it is something that was purposly put there to twist the plot.
I do not own Twilight.
And I have seen the cover of Breaking Dawn and it is crazy I wonder what is going to happen I have also read the first chapter excert! But if I were a chess expert I could tell you what the Breaking Dawn cover meant but I can't but god I hope she ends up with Edward he may be controlling but he does it to keep her alive!
Yeah and this may sound stupid but who is Sally?
"My demon can not be stopped"
I hadn't realized I'd said that out loud until Jane and the Cullens' gave me a weird look.
"Your demon?" Esme asked.
I looked over the room in my years and years of life as a vampire I have always lived in the fear of knowing something somewhere in my mind wants to hurt me. If it is me so be it but I am scared to be alone. Scared she may talk me into it, my children Harper and Samuel they have seen me at my very worst they are the ones who have kept me stable for the longest time but now standing in the house I spent so much time as a human in. In the presence of the man who I loved so much, and still love. My stability is threaten to relapse.
"Bella come on what demon?" Jane asked sitting me on the couch.
"You aren't going to tell them are you?.. Show them just how crazy you are?.. Are you really going to burden them with your selfish banter?.. Like you burden everyone else with your ugly appearance?" She asked laughing evilly.
"Please stop" I put my face in my hands.
"Stop what?.. Telling you the truth?.. Are you really that weak? Why don't you go and die?" She asked taunting me.
"Please" I begged.
I looked up she was standing there beside Edward smirking, "Your not good enough" She laughed.
"Bella calm down" Jane said sitting behind me and rubbing soothing circles in my back.
"Get Harper and Sam" She ordered someone I wasn't paying attention I was watching my demon frolic around and saying horrible things to me.
I heard the door slam and someone come and sit by me, "Mom shhh its ok she's not there."
Harper and Samuel sat down on either side of me, "Mom she isn't there now look" Sammy ordered.
I did as they said and she wasn't she was back in my mind waiting to escape again.
Sammy and Harper have always been able to see things my mind was one of those things and reading my mind in turn gave them the power to see my demon and in turn making me a little less crazy.
"What is her demon?" Alice asked.
Harper and Sammy stood up, "She's not crazy.. Just a bit unwell not to copy a song or anything but she isn't crazy." Harper treated me like a child in laying me back on the couch and putting a blanket over me I turned around but could still hear them.
"When she left and she has told us why like her we don't like to be lied to" I could hear the bitterness in Samuel's voice.
"I'm sure she has explained at least a bit of the story and it's not ours to tell. But her demon is there most of the time and she does see it and it is a figment of her imagination but she sees it to hold her back. She has been hurt in the past and that demon as evil as she thinks it is stops her from experiencing things she wants. Doing things she would normally want to because she feels she will get hurt again.
"She is a nervous wreck most of the time and fears any kid of relationship with anyone outside of Jane and us. And now more then ever she is probably having trouble every time the past before she was changed is brought out she tends to break down." I heard someone clear their throat.
"Is it the blood suckers fault?" Jacob asked.
"Which one?" Sammy asked he is always protective.
"That one Edward" Jacob said.
"Yes. Yes it is" Samuel clarified.
"What did Edward do?" Rosalie asked sounding disgusting.
Harper snapped, "You really have no idea why she left do you?"
Esme answered, "No we just assumed she was tired of being human."
I heard Samuel give a hard laugh, "Tired of being human? Who gets tired of being able to eat or breathe or scrap your knee and have you mother put a bandage on it because its bleeding? Human experiences are long held dear to those who did not choose to be a vampire. Harper and I didn't even get a choice born from a vampire you have seventeen years of human life then you turn. Don't get me wrong we wouldn't choose any other life our mother has worked so hard to make it so we don't need a father and we don't need one. But it would be nice to have one over the years you get used to having only a mother but its difficult to go op school for seventeen years and have to explain why you don't have a father when you don't understand it yourself. "
"Is there a point to this?" Rosalie snapped bad move.
"Yes in fact honey there is a point to this," I turned over to see what was going on when Harper or Sammy got mad they usually had someone to take it out on and if weren't careful they would scare the crap out of you with one look.
Harper pushed her hair from her face glare set on her eyes Sammy smirked and stepped back his sister was better with hurting people then he was.
"Ok dear this one the big one Emmett I think your married to him right?" Harper asked.
Rosalie looked hesitantly at Emmett then to Harper and nodded, "Alright then has your husband ever cheated on you? That you know of course" Harper asked.
Rosalie looked wide eyed at her, "No I mean I don't think so" She stuttered.
"Of course not!" Emmett yelled.
Harper smiled, "And if he did what would you do?"
"I..don't.." Rosalie stuttered.
Alice interrupted, "Is there a reason you are harassing my sister?"
Harper turned to her, "Jasper right? What if he cheated?" She asked.
"he wouldn't!" Alice said confidently.
"How do you know? I mean he tells you he loves you but what if he did cheat would you break down? Would you run away? To Italy perhaps?" The room looked to Edward in shock.
"Edward you didn't. Did you?" Esme asked.
Edward looked away to the floor, "Edward Anthony Cullen how could you do that to Bella?"
"You see what he has to go through because of you?" My demon asked inside of my head.
I stood up, "Stop."
"Why?" They looked at me in shock.
My eyes were on the ground, "No one. Absolutely no one should suffer because of me. Even if it means they will hurt me by doing something that will make them happy no one should be forced into guilt because I got hurt. I'm not worth it."
"That's it your not worth it not at all" My demon laughed.
"Hey has anyone seen Elizabeth?" Harper suddenly asked.
Oh no Ricardo..
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Collections of a Tattered Soul
