A/N: Chapter 7! Enjoy! The song in here is called Its complicated by A Day To Remember.
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CHAPTER 7
Gosh, why are things so complicating?! It is 6:00 AM; I was too tired to go on my morning run. I was up all night thinking about what happened with Ashley. It's been two months since we last talked. I saw her in class but we both never really made eye contact besides a couple times. I hate the fact I pushed her away. I was just scared. All I used to do was hook up with people after Okalani. I didn't want Ashley to be the one I hurt when I finally decided to be committed to someone again. That's when Okalani came back in town and saved me or her? Ashley means to much to me. I haven't stopped thinking about her, I see her with August and she seems so happy. I don't ever want to see Ashley crying because of me. I think today is the day I'm going to finally talk to her for the first time since we kissed.
I heard footsteps walking towards my room door. Within seconds my mom Paula Carlin came in.
"Good morning honey." She walked in and kissed my forehead. Slowly she peeled my comforter off of me but I groaned and pulled it back over me.
"Nice try mom. Not going to work."
"Spencer, seriously, you need to go to school today. You missed all last week because you were sick. "
"But ma, I still don't feel well!" I groaned once more and started fake coughing under the comforter hoping she'll believe me.
"I'm not falling for it. I know you don't want to go back because you're afraid to see Ashley." I quickly shot up and threw my comforter off my head. I stared at her and I could tell she could see the pain in my eyes. My mom read me like no other. Well, besides my dad since he is a social worker.
"Mom, it's just hard. I pushed her away and I want her to be in my life again. We haven't talked since that night at the beach.
"The night you two kissed? Honey, remember the day you told me you were gay?" I am so confused right now.
"Mom what does that have to do with Ashley?"
"Spencer just answer the question."
"Yes mom I remember. I sat you down and I told you with dad next to me."
"Do you remember how upset I was? How I pushed your father away and kept fighting with him because he never told me you were gay even though he knew.
"I felt like everything was my fault."
"But it wasn't, it was mine. It was mine because I should've loved my daughter no matter her sexual orientation and I shouldn't have let my feelings get caught up in mine and your fathers' marriage."
"Do you love me mom?" Right when I asked I knew I shouldn't have. I saw the pain in her eyes when those words came out. She just smiled and pulled me in for a hug.
"Honey, I'll always love you. No matter what you decide to do."
"I love you to mom."
"Good, but what I was saying is that, your father fought for our marriage because he loved me that much. He never gave up. I don't think you should either. Even though you are with Okalani and even though Ashley is with August. You should fight for what you want and what you love. Just like your father fought for us because he loved you and I just that much. "I knew my mom meant well when we went through our dark times back then. I knew she loved me but she just didn't show it because she was disappointed about what happened. We are all a family now and there isn't anything going on. Which I'm proud of.
"Thanks mama bear." I smiled and kissed her on the cheek
"No problem honey. Now get ready, dad is cooking breakfast. I still need to wake up your brother and sister." I nodded and started laughing when out of nowhere I was knocked onto my bed. I looked up to see Kyla, Glen and my mom on me.
"Glen! Kyla! Get off! I can't breathe for Christ sake!" We all started laughing as everyone got off of me. Glen, Kyla and I all looked at each other and nodded
"Mom we love you so much!" We all hugged my mom and fell back on my bed. We kept laughing until my dad ran into the room with a spatula
"What's going on?! Is everyone okay?!" We all looked at each other and back at our dad. Glen jumped up and tackled our dad on the bed.
"Family hug!" We all cuddled up and hugged for a few moments then we all departed to do our own things. Damn, I love my family!
I ran to my bathroom and took a quick shower by the time I was done it was 6:30. I got dressed super quick; I threw on some ripped jeans, a white v neck and some brown and black vans with a brown beanie. I couldn't wear my contacts again since I fell asleep with them so I threw on my ray bans. I brushed my teeth and grabbed my satchel and phone. I ran downstairs and went straight for the dinner table.
"Yum! What's for breakfast today?!" My favorite breakfast meal is chocolate chip pancakes. It's just so delicious! Good thing it's the same for Glen and Kyla also.
"The three of yours favorite breakfast meal… CHOCOLATE CHIP PANCAKES!" We all cheered and grabbed some pancakes. Kyla downed hers in whip cream. Glen downed his with butter and syrup and I downed mine with whip cream cherries and syrup. It tasted so amazing!
"Thanks pop!" We all yelled
"Thank you honey" I think it's adorable when my mom calls my dad honey. It's cute like you want to finally call someone honey for the rest of your life. My mom and dad gave each other a peck on the lips
"AWW!" That was so weird Kyla and I awed at the same time and started laughing while Glen had to ruin the memento!
"Eww! Mom, dad, I'm trying to eat here!"
"Oh shut up." We all laughed for a few moments then prayed. Once I was done I gave every one a kiss and said thank you.
"Hey KY, you need a ride?" She nodded and we walked out to my car. I put my backpack in my trunk and Kyla threw her soccer bag in the back seat.
"So Spence, what's going on with you and Ash?" I pulled out of the drive way and quickly drove off.
"Nothing, we still have yet to talk."
"What do you mean yet?"
"I mean that I'm going to talk to her. I plan on stopping by her house later. If I even get the chance."
"Oh, be careful okay? I know you're hurting and confused with everything Spence, but don't drag her along with the ride on the train of pain. "
"I hate to say this but I'm confused." She scoffed and started giggling.
"What I meant was, you know you deserve better than Okalani. You know what happened in the past with August and Ashley. You know for a fact that Ashley also deserves better. What I know is that you're still confused on who you should be with. You're riding the train of pain and we both know it's better we keep Ashley off instead of having her along for the ride. At least until you figure out what you are going to do." I looked at her and nodded.
"I understand, I know what I want now. And I'm going to fight for her." We smiled at each other and high fived. 15 minutes later we ended up at school. I said bye to Kyla and walked off. I had to go to my locker to grab my Romeo and Juliet book. Today it was Tracy and my turn to perform a scene from Romeo and Juliet. I'm totally not in the mood but I need to if I want points. This sucks, a lot!
When I got to my locker I opened it up, right when I pushed the handle up and pulled the small door open all my books and papers fell out. Half of the papers weren't even mine! They were mostly Kyla's!
"Shit! Great, freaking Kyla." I knelt down and started picking up all my papers. When I saw two hands come down, I looked up to see who it was and it was the one and only Ashley Davies.
"Let me help you out." I didn't say a word. I froze up before I could even process everything! When all the papers were cleaned up we both stood up completely and smiled at one another.
"Here are your papers" She put out her hand with all the papers in it and I nodded and grabbed them
"Thanks, means a lot."
"It's no biggie." I smiled and grabbed my book. I quickly closed my locker door and tried to leave.
"See you in first period." I started walking past Ashley but she grabbed my arm and stopped me. I turned around to see her staring at the ground.
"Spence." Gosh I missed hearing her say that. She looked so cute today. She had on camouflage skinny jeans, white v neck, a black jacket, high top converse and a jean vest over her jacket with a black beanie on. I loved the way she dressed.
"Yes Ashley?"
"How much longer are we going to have to stay away from each other?" When I heard those words I looked away quickly. What do I say?! Say what you feel Spencer! I turned to her and hugged her.
"Not any longer. I really miss you Ash. I need you." I smiled at her and kissed her cheek.
"Thank God, I thought I lost you forever."
"You aren't going to lose me. I promise you that."
"Good, I like the sound of that." The bell rang and we slowly started walking to first period.
"How've you been?"
"I've been… good." I playfully hit her and we started chuckling.
"Tell me the truth."
"Fine, I've been terrible. Lately, August and I have done nothing but fight. To top it off, Christine has been extra bitchy. Plus I don't know I felt like everything fell apart after you left." Silence fell on us for a few moments.
"I never left Ash. I just needed a break."
"A break from what Spence?"
"A break from drama."
"I understand, well um, I'll call you later when I get the chance okay?"
"Sounds good." We hugged and walked into the classroom. I went straight to Okalani and Ashley went to August. Before the bell rang again we both looked at each other then smiled. I turned to Okalani and kissed her.
"Hey baby."
"Hi babe."
"How's your morning?"
"Good now that my beautiful girlfriend is here." I couldn't help but smile. She knew how to brighten the day when something was bothering me. I kissed her again and looked into her eyes.
"What do you say you and I go out for dinner tonight?"
"Really? You sure?"
"I'm sure."
"Pick me up at 7?" I smiled and nodded. Tracy came up behind me and whispered into my ear.
"Do you think Mrs. Goldberg would let us translate the balcony scene in more modern times?"
"I'll ask when we go up there." She nodded then headed back to her seat. I smiled and kissed Oaks one last time. I looked over to see Ashley holding hands with August. My smile went to a frown. I know who I want to be with.
"Everyone can I have your attention?!" Mrs. Goldberg walked into the class and waved to us all. I looked back at Tracy and gave her a good luck nod.
"To continue off the acting we've been doing, I asked Spencer and Tracy to act out the balcony scene in Romeo and Juliet. Spencer, Tracy, you can come up now." We both got up and walked towards her. Once I got to the top of the class I moved closer and whispered into my teachers' ear.
"Mrs. Goldberg, do you think Tracy and I could translate the balcony scene from the book to modern times meaning?"
"Sure I don't care." We both looked at each other and smiled. This is going to be so much easier now.
"So which one of you is going to play Romeo?" We looked at each other and started laughing
"Well I was supposed to be Juliet, but this little brat over here didn't want to do the boy part. So I'm playing Romeo." I playfully pushed her and the whole class started laughing
"Okay, you two can start." We turned to our classmates. Simultaneously we both looked at each other and nodded. She walked outside and I stood in the middle of the class.
"It's easy for someone to joke about scars if they've never been cut." Tracy walked in from outside and smiled. I dramatically turned to her.
"But wait, what's that light in the window over there? It is the east, and Juliet is the sun. Rise up, beautiful sun, and kill the jealous moon. The moon is already sick and pale with grief because you, Juliet, her maid, are more beautiful than she." I dropped to one knee if front of her.
"Don't be her maid, because she is jealous. Virginity makes her look sick and green. Only fools hold on to their virginity. Let it go. Oh, there's my lady! Oh, it is my love. Oh, I wish she knew how much I love her. She's talking, but she's not saying anything. So what? Her eyes are saying something. I will answer them. I am too bold. She's not talking to me. Two of the brightest stars in the whole sky had to go away on business, and they're asking her eyes to twinkle in their places until they return. What if her eyes were in the sky and the stars were in her head?—the brightness of her cheeks would outshine the stars the way the sun outshines a lamp. If her eyes were in the night sky, they would shine so brightly through space that birds would start singing, thinking her light was the light of day. Look how she leans her hand on her cheek. Oh, I wish I was the glove on that hand so that I could touch that cheek." I started giggling to myself. I'm so nervous right now. Tracy started walking towards me; I stood up quickly and smiled. She passed by me and went into Ashley's direction. I no longer focused on Tracy; my eyes went straight to Ashley.
"Oh my!" I jumped a little after Tracy screamed. The whole class started laughing along with Trace. When we all settled down I started talking again.
"She speaks. Oh, speak again, bright angel. You are as glorious as an angel tonight. You shine above me, like a winged messenger from heaven who makes mortal men fall on their backs to look up at the sky, watching the angel walking on the clouds and sailing on the air." This is the cutest scene ever!
"Oh, Romeo, Romeo, why do you have to be Romeo? Forget about your father and change your name. Or else, if you won't change your name, just swear you love me and I'll stop being a Capulet." After Tracy said that line I looked at Ashley once more. If she loves me she can tell me.
By the time we finished the bell rang. I grabbed my stuff and waited for Okalani outside. I waved as Ashley walked past me with her arms wrapped around August. You can't keep hiding Spencer.
It was finally after school. Today went by so slow! I told August I was going to meet her at her place later. I had to go home and get ready for this gig with my band. It's at this club called Midnight, we auditioned to play live and they loved us! I was beyond happy! When I got home I went upstairs, Tracy was at volleyball practice still so I decided to bump up my music and shower. I walked into my room and threw my stuff on the couch in my room. I looked up and saw someone I wasn't in the mood to see.
"Mom! Why are you in my room?!"
"I'm here to apologize."
"What the- huh? How could you do have the guts to do that! You left Tracy and I to go to England with your new man candy then came back and did nothing but tell us how worthless we are! What happened mom? Not that long ago I remembered us telling each other I love you and see you soon honey. Now it's nothing but fights between the three of us."
"I just- I want you two to be ready" I got so scared for what she was going to say next.
"Be ready for what mom?" Silence took ahold of the room for a few minutes.
"To be ready to see your father."
"Daddy wants to see us?" She just nodded. I have to call Tracy!
"He called me the day I was going to leave England. He said he wanted to see you an Tracy. We fought for a little and I agreed. He wants to make up for lost time Ash." I shook my head and the tears started to fall.
"Daddy was the one the who left! Do you know how much time he is going to need to make up for, do you know how much pain he caused?!" I fell into my mom's arms and she started to cry.
"Shhh, baby I know. What you need to know is I love you two no matter what. The rude things I say, I'll never mean. I just wanted to test you two and make sure you would overcome it. Why? Because that's how your father will make you feel when he is ready to leave again."
"I understand, I love you mom and all is forgiven. Can I go to August's house?" I hugged her and kissed her cheek.
"I love you to honey. Yes you may go. Just don't tell Tracy anything yet, let me. Got it?" I nodded and grabbed my keys and ran out to my car. I got in and hit my steering wheel a few times while I cried. How could he do this?! I wiped away my tears and drove off to go see August
When I got there I saw her outside getting bags from her car. I ran over to help her and followed her inside. We walked up to her room and I started pacing back and forth. Nothing but silence, she was sitting on the edge of her bed and I was just waiting for her to break the silence.
"Ash, why do you look like you were crying?" I stopped pacing and looked at her.
"My dad wants to see Tracy and I. How can he leave for all these years and want to be with us again?! He forgot about us August! He left my mom for some groupie."
"Isn't that how you got Tracy as your sister? Aren't you glad to have her as a sister?"
"I'm glad she is my sister but after her he went onto another groupie! Raife told my mom that he wants to make up for lost time! The hell with him right now!" I started pacing back and forth. My pulse is beating rapidly with rage.
"Ash, maybe you should give him a chance." That made me so mad. I stopped pacing and glared at her.
"Give him another chance?! Whose side are you on?! My dad was the one who left out of nowhere. He can't just magically appear back into my life like nothing ever happened!" When I yelled I scared her enough to make her flinch. When she focused back on me she stood up.
"Ashley I'm on your side! I'm just saying give him a chance!" I scoffed and looked down.
"Oh, so I'm supposed to give him another chance to leave and cause pain? No thanks, I'll pass." She scoffed and sat back down.
"Nothing pleases you." I looked at her and shook my head. I can't believe she just said that
"What are you saying August?" She looked up at me and I could see tears fill her eyes
"I'm saying, nothing pleases you! Your dad wants to reconnect and you're complaining! Some peoples dad left and have never came back! You have a girlfriend standing in front of you that loves you and you love someone else! You don't even know who you want!" Seconds after she finished, her tears fell. I walked up to try to hug her but she pushed me away. "Don't." I scoffed and got really pissed off
"You don't know anything! You think you do! I know who I want! I know I'm going to see my dad whether or not I want to and I know who I love! Do not drag Spencer into this!"
"I didn't want to but I had to! You don't love me Ashley you love Spencer! You want her but you can't even own up to Ash. You just keep using me!" I tried to walk towards the door but August grabbed my arm and stopped me. I turned around and looked at her.
"I love you August. I really do, but I'm just not IN love with you anymore." Her tears started to fall even more and I couldn't look.
"I think we should break up." I turned around quickly and stared at her. I tried to look in her eyes but she looked away.
"Why?"
"Like you said we aren't in love Ashley. Not anymore. Maybe it'd be better if you were with Spencer instead of me.
"Fine, I'm done." I scoffed and left her house. Slamming her room and front door. I got to my car and punched the door, close to leaving a dent. I checked my phone and it was already 9pm.
"Fuck, I'm going to be late!" I tossed my phone onto the passenger seat and looked at August's window to see her watching me. I smiled and drove off. Last thing I wanted to do was hurt her.
When I got to the club it was 9:30. I went through the back and told them I was supposed to perform. When they let me in I ran straight towards the stage to fine my band waiting. My friend Jimmy held out my guitar. I grabbed it and put the strap on and tuned it.
"Why are you late?! We were supposed to be here at 9!" I looked up to see Ben glaring at me. He looked so pissed
"Damn it Ben, do not yell at me right now! My girlfriend just broke up with me, my dad who left my sister and I when we were 5 years old is now back after being gone for 12 years and to top that all off the girl I have been in love with since junior year is dating someone else! So do not start with me!" He looked down and nodded his head. I jumped up, grabbed a wireless mic and looked to Chris
"Sorry I'm late dude." He nodded and hugged me.
"No problem, let's just get on stage and sing before we leave okay? We all nodded and went to take our spots on the stage.
"Hey everybody how are you tonight?!" Everyone in the club screamed as response
"Great well I'm Ashley, my friend Chris is on the drums, my friend Ben is on the guitar and my friend Jimmy is on the bass. "I hope you all enjoy! This song is called, Its complicated." Everyone started cheering again then it got silent. I looked to Ben and he started on the guitar, next thing you know Jimmy jumped in along with Chris and I.
"Here we go again, another night of being bummed.
I'll keep to myself, avoid the sun,
And cancel plans with everyone I know.
Cause this is how it always ends:
Our bond will break cause you can't relate
To anyone, to anything at all" I looked into the crowd and caught the eyes of a blonde girl with a tight red dress on. Damn she looks hot! Tanned skin and toned.
You brought your worst and I'm right here.
Now I've seen it all, and it's never been so clear.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
It's all too late to set things straight cause everything has been.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
Let's try and act like this didn't happen.
Move on with your friends like you ever had them.
You still know me, still not cut out for this sort of thing.
Never one to be caught in between,
I need constant reminders of everything.
So what? It's who I am, but I think I've played it off so well.
I just hold it in, no matter how I've been,
So nobody, nobody can tell.
You brought your worst and I'm right here.
Now I've seen it all, and it's never been so clear.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
It's all too late to set things straight cause everything has been.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
Let's try and act like this didn't happen.
Move on with your friends like you ever had them.
I won't sleep till the break of dawn (break of dawn)
I can't let our problems find me here, so everybody come on!
You brought your worst and I'm right here.
I've seen it all, and it's never been so clear.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
It's all too late to set things straight cause everything has been.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
Let's try and act like this didn't happen.
Move on with your friends like you ever had them.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
It's all too late to set things straight cause everything has been.
You're not the person that I knew back then.
Let's try and act like this didn't happen.
Move on with your friends like you ever had them.
When I was done, the whole club was cheering and clapping. My band mates and I all looked at smiled. I high fived everyone and got of stage to see the blonde girl waiting by the amps. She looked up and gave me a seductive smile. I went over to her and shook her hand.
"Hello there, I'm Ashley." She smiled with teeth. God, this is beautiful but not as beautiful as Spencer.
"I'm Briley and you are really hot if I may add." I smiled at her and tilted my head
"You to babe."
"You want to get out of here?" She smiled and I nodded my head. We intertwined fingers and left the club. That was a fast rebound!
