And now, a little Paul...
I should have figured. Come up to my spot and there's some dumb fucker here. Wait, it's a girl. Her dark hair is flying about from the breeze coming off the Pacific. Great, now I sound like a pansy bitch from the soaps Ma...
My hands clench into fists. I barely can fight the urge to scream and shout and a whole bunch of other shit, but I do. I keep it together. I tilt my head when I see a small pale hand. Fuck me running, she's not even a local. So, of course, me being me, I get mad all over again.
I snarl out, "Who the fuck are you and why are you here, white girl?"
She turns around and I'm lost. Fuck, she's cute. Fuck that, she's in my spot. Fuck, she's cute. I sneer at her. "Got nothing to say?"
She blows me away when she tells me she was there that night. The night everything changed. Chief Swan's daughter Bella. She's got a mouth on her though. Gives back everything I try to throw at her.
Don't know what makes me sit down next to her, but I do. Don't know what has me spilling my guts to her, but I do. She tells me she's proud I killed the bastard and I can tell that she means it. She looks me dead in my eyes when she says it. Not like all the other dicks around here that can't make eye contact because they're afraid. Some of the Elders look at me too and not through me. Harry, Sue and Billy, and even Chief Swan who's not from here.
I don't even realize I'm crying until she wraps her arms around me.
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After I cried like a pussy in front of Bells, correction, wrapped in her arms, she became my best friend. Doesn't matter that she's a chick or, gasp, a pale face. She's just Bells. So now I'm rushing off to meet her because she's a stickler about being on time.
I race up to our cliff and stop just to watch her when she's comes into my field of vision. She's sitting there, sun (yes, a miracle, I know) hitting her with a book in her hand. I snatch it out of her hand because I'm an ass and that's how I roll. We sit and bullshit for a bit when she brings up Jacob Black.
Alone. I'm alone, even when Billy and Harry visit me, I'm still alone. When I go over to the Clearwaters for dinner, I'm alone. When I sit in the living room of my house, I am so alone. I listen to her and realize she's right. I don't want to be alone. I don't want to get lost in myself. That night? I'm on the beach behind the Blacks searching for shells for Bella's mom. That night? I realize I love Bella Swan. Fuck my life.
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Bells is gone. I knew it was happening so I'm kind of pissy that I'm acting like such a baby about it. She was right about Jake though. He's a good kid. I know we're the same age and, yeah, he lost his mom too, but I feel older than him. We have fun. Playing video games and checking out the girls in the magazines his sisters left behind after running away from La Push. Now Jake's growing up because his old man depends on him. Like I said, a good kid. Now Twiddle Stupid and Twiddle Stupider? They're morons.
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Fuck is everyone's problem? School fucking sucks. People keep giving me shit. I beat some kid's ass because he said my dumb mother probably deserved what my dad did to her. Just because I whooped his ass in basketball during P.E. I swear I saw red. Then total blackness. I didn't even realize I had hit him over and over until a couple of teachers pulled me off of him. When Billy came into the principal's office and asked what happened I told him. Principal Lautner looked at me, then at Billy. He told me he would have done the same.
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I don't know how long I'm sitting here on some stupid rock. I know it's cold as fuck, but I don't feel it. She's not here. She won't ever be here again. I can remember asking her why she stayed with him. Why she didn't take me and leave.
Her face holds no sadness or regret. She touches my cheek gently before telling me, "Because this is our home, baby. We won't leave our home."
I knew then just like I know now, there was something she was holding back, but she never told me what. I had gotten so angry because home sucked. Now? Now, I'm just sitting here wondering if I should run away. Go somewhere else and be someone else. Not the kid whose parents killed each other. That's the official story. Or we could go with the truth; the kid who killed his dad.
Something drops into my lap. I turn my head to look up while holding the small box like it's a freaking nuke or some shit. Then it clicks. Bells. She's here and she got me a gift.
While she's babbling and stuttering, I open my present. I can feel my heart constrict and think it's about to explode. It's a wolf. It makes me happy that she remembers the legends Billy's told us about how they protect our tribe. I can barely breathe. She got me a present. It means more to me than she'll ever know.
I'm amazed by her. I hope I look smooth as I put it on. When I tuck it under my sweater and feel the silver wolf against my chest, things start to look and feel brighter and maybe, just maybe, it's not the worst Christmas ever.
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Okay if the bastard pounding on my door like a freaking Mary Kay saleswoman doesn't just stop, I might cut a fool. I fumble with the locks as I'm yelling at whoever's on the other side. It has to be Jake. Only he would have the balls to be so annoying. "Goddamn it! Hold your freaking horses. I swear, Jake, if..."
I throw the door open, ready to pound his ass when I see her. All the tension leaves me. I don't think as I wrap my arms around her. "Bells!"
Damn! I see over her shoulder that Charlie's in the car. I quickly let her go, hoping the burning I feel on my cheeks isn't showing on my face like it is on hers. She tells me some shit about her mom going away and she got to come up earlier than planned.
I lock up behind me, making sure to put my keys in the pocket of my jeans. I have a hard time swallowing because she came to my house first. Not Jake's. I have to ask even though it makes me sound like a Justin Bieber fan, "You came here first?"
I almost curse when I see her stumble. She starts stuttering like a dork and I can't help but smile. She quickly bursts my bubble when she tells me my house is on the way to Jake's which is about right. I talk to her about all the crap that's been going down at school. Of course I ignore her smirk when I tell her about how Quil saved my ass from getting suspended, again. Fucking douche of a gym teacher deserved it. He was picking on some runt in our class. No need to be such a dick, especially when it's known that the kid's mom is sick with cancer. A little compassion doesn't hurt.
We spend the whole summer eating pizza, watching movies, going to the beach and just hanging out. Charlie's even let her hang out at my house instead of just at Jake's like last summer. Of course, the front door must always be unlocked and he did drop by unexpectedly a couple of times. I never got mad because he always had snacks or ice cream with him when he did.
The only thing that pisses me off about our summer is Jake's crush on Bells. I know the dude's been in love with her since he took his first step, but come on now. I can tell she just sees him as her little brother. Doesn't stop me from giving him dirty looks. Bells just shrugs the whole thing off. Of course, this makes me feel like a moron because I'm crushing on her too.
The day we take Bells to the airport, poor Jake has to go with Billy to a doctor's appointment. Boy, was he pissed. Bells just blushed like she always does. I couldn't help feel a little happy that it's just me and her. Well, Charlie too.
Charlie sucks with the emotional stuff, even worse than me. He gives Bella a quick hug, some money and a kiss on the top of her head before rushing off like his balls are on fire. This leaves me and Bella in a crowded airport not sure what the fuck to do. I look at the screen and realize it's about time for her to board.
I just grab her to pull her into a hug because if I wait for her to do it, she just might miss her plane. Being the smooth player that I am, I go to kiss her cheek. She turns her head and it's our lips against one another.
HOLY SHIT!
My lips are on Bells. In an airport. In Seattle. Did I mention it's our lips touching? Because they are.
We jump apart from one another like it's our balls on fire now. She's beyond blushing. She's freaking tomato red and the way my cheeks feel I'm betting so am I.
I don't even look at her. Just at some point right above her shoulder. "So, yeah, umm, uh, I'll write you, okay? And I'll, like, call or some shit. Okay, um, have a safe flight."
I rush off, bypassing Charlie, who I can't help but notice has a shit-eating grin on his face. Fuck! He saw. Whatever dude. It doesn't matter.
My first kiss was in the middle of a crowded airport with the Chief of Police's daughter. I smile. I am the fucking man. Yeah, there's a little swagger in my walk right now.
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