Summary: AU. Dean and Castiel's feelings erupt to the surface at a high school party. Will Dean accept his sexuality or will he keep hiding from it? Oneshot. PLEASE REVIEW!

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True to Myself

Chapter Seven: An Unexpected Surprise

Castiel started college and he was getting along great, apart from the fact he hated the damn Law course. He hated it, loathed it, despised but he was doing this for his brothers. Although he shouldn't have to do this for his brothers. He should just do as he pleased. He didn't want a powerful, high paid job. He wanted to help other people, and he wanted to be with Dean. He loved his family but this isn't what he wanted. Gabriel (the second youngest Novak) had tried to argue Castiel's point but Zachariah (the third oldest Novak) wasn't having any of it. Neither was Michael (the oldest) or Raphael (the fourth oldest), but Lucifer (the second oldest) was happy for Castiel to do as he pleased.

His first assignment was due in a week, and Castiel had almost completed it. As he completed it, he printed it off in the college library and placed it in his folder before heading home. He and Dean had been together for almost six months, and Castiel was going to make Dean an anniversary dinner this weekend. But walking through the apartment door, Castiel got the shock of his life. Dean was on the sofa, making out with a girl. It was bad enough that Dean was making out with someone else, but when Dean had told Castiel he was certain he was gay, and now he was making out with a girl, that just pissed Castiel off so much. The couple were completely oblivious to him, and he slammed his folder down on the kitchen table, causing them both to jump up.

"Cas…" Dean breathed, seeing the betrayal and hurt in Castiel's eyes, "Cas…I…"

"Dean?" The blonde asked, looking from Castiel to Dean and back again.

She knew exactly what the issue was, and she climbed off of Dean before leaving quickly and awkwardly.

"Who the fuck was that?" Castiel asked, gripping the back of one of the dining chairs so hard it was leaving red marks on his hands.

He was hurting so much right now he could just curl up and die. Dean made his way towards his lover until they were inches apart.

"Cas…I'm sorry…" Dean began, Castiel immediately noticing the slur in his words, "I just had a moment of weakness…"

"A moment of weakness?" Castiel asked, "Dean! You have me! I thought you loved me!"

"I do, Cas…I do!" Dean cried, "I fucking love you, Cas…"

Dean broke into sobs, and collapsed to his knees, running shaking hands through his hair.

"You're drunk, Dean." Castiel said, "And you've betrayed me. You've hurt me and…we're done."

"Don't leave me!" Dean begged, grabbing Castiel's hand, "You can't leave me! Not now!"

There was something in Dean's eyes that terrified Castiel. Dean was scared and vulnerable, almost childlike, and Castiel knelt down in front of him before talking to him, noticing the tears sparkling in those warm green eyes.

"Dean, what's going on?" He asked, unable to do anything but cup Dean's cheek when the older boy looked away from him with terrified eyes, breathing uneven and ragged.

"My dad…" Dean began, "He's got cancer…"

Castiel grimaced and tears filled his own eyes.

"You just weren't here…and I needed comfort so bad…" Dean whispered, "I know it's not an excuse, but I just needed it…I'm so sorry, Cas."

Castiel couldn't help it, he couldn't. He caved and hugged Dean close to his body, pressing soothing kisses to Dean's temple.

"I've got you, Dean." He whispered, "It's okay."

"Sorry, Cas…" Dean sobbed "I'm sorry…don't leave me! Please don't leave me!"

"I'm going nowhere." Castiel whispered, keeping Dean close to him, "I'm not leaving you, I promise."


Dean lay on his side that night, crying into his pillow while Castiel rolled onto his side too, wrapping an arm around Dean's waist before leaning over and kissing his cheek. Stroking Dean's face with gentle fingers, Castiel shushed him and rolled him over, pulling him close to his body before running soothing fingers through his hair.

"I love you." Dean whispered, clinging to Castiel with all his strength.

"Love you too, Baby." Castiel whispered back, "I love you so much."

"I'm sorry for cheating, Castiel." Dean breathed, moving further into Castiel's arms.

"Shhh…no talking now." Castiel said softly, "Try and sleep, Dean."

Dean did as Castiel asked and settled down to sleep.

-TBC-