A/N: How did you like the cheerleading stuff? If you let me know and like it I will keep it in, if not then I will keep it to a minimum. Here's chapter 7, I was bored at school today so I wrote in class. Once again thank you for all the reviews/favourites/follows, it makes my day! I always tell my parents "Oh mom I got over a thousand views this month alone" and stuff like that, she doesn't really understand it all but when she tells me how proud she is of me I feel great. I was going through a lot of stuff in my life and ff has really helped me see that there are other things in my life. So, thank you all!

Disclaimer: I don't own Divergent.


Chapter 7

The next few go by in a similar routine to my first day at school. I get up and get dressed. I brush my hair and then go downstairs. I eat breakfast with Tori and then she gets me to take my medication for my "anxiety". After that, she drives me to school. I meet up with the gang and then we go our separate ways to classes. My classes are pretty boring but at least I'm showing up. The only class I'm having some problems with is math. I do all my work, it's just hard and pretty confusing because I haven't done most of it before and I don't want to ask the teacher for help because why would someone waste time on me of all people, explaining something to me that I should already know. Today is Friday though, and everyone except for Lynn (she's working) is coming over to go swimming before it gets too cold and then we are going to Zeke and Uriah's house after.

Since Monday I feel like I've been accepted into their group. I haven't told them about my past and I'm not sure if I ever will, but they don't push me for answers just include me in their activities. They are all so kind. Especially Four and Christina. Four still waits for me by my locker and walks me to all my classes. We've become pretty close. We talk about anything and everything all at the same time. I haven't told him any secrets but he doesn't push. I enjoy being in his company. And Christina is amazing. It is like she makes up for me not having many friends in elementary and middle school. She invites me to everything and is nice. I never would have guessed that my life would become so terrible and then do a complete 180ĚŠ turn and become so much better. It isn't perfect. I still feel like I'm alone and no one understands me or what I've been through but I don't know if that will ever go away, I will just have to learn to live with it. I also don't eat as much as I should but it is more than I used to eat so I'm not sure if that is good or bad. The other two things are I still get nightmares, always the same ones. They are practically my life flashing before my eyes. I haven't told anyone about them. The other is that I am still cutting myself. I don't do as often as I used to but when Tori is out, or asleep, or when I'm in the shower. I add cuts for My mother and brother dying, for me being so stupid, for putting Tori through the trouble of having me come to live with her, for being worthless.

Four and I meet the gang outside under the cherry blossom tree at lunch.

"Did everybody bring their bathing suits with them to school?" I ask, I get a response of yeahs. Everybody except Zeke and Uriah because they dropped theirs off this morning.

"That's great." I am kind of excited for tonight. It should be pretty fun. Tori took me shopping for a bathing suit and we bought a bunch of food for everybody. I learned to swim when I was younger. We went on a mandatory trip with school.

Soon enough lunch is over and Four is walking me to my next class. I don't really pay attention but get my homework for the weekend. Then, Four and I walk to our accounting class and sit down.

"So Tris, Are you excited for tonight?" I smile.

"Yes, very excited. Ever since I've met you guys my life has become so much better."

"Well that's good, I feel the same way about you." I smile but am quickly wondering what he meant by that. I dismiss the thoughts only seconds before class starts. We get yet again more homework but before I know it we are walking out into the parking lot to meet everybody. When everybody is there we get into our cars and drive to my house. When we get there everybody comes in and we are met by Tori in the kitchen. She has laid out fruit and veggie trays along with six bags of chips and a whole bunch of snack foods.

"Tris, should we get changed now?" Christina asks me. I am suddenly aware that for the first time in my life, my FRIENDS are at my house and I am officially hostess until we go next door.

"Sure, I'll go upstairs to change, some of you can come upstairs and the rest can take turns in the bathroom down here." I show them where the bathroom is and the boys stay down there while Shauna, Christina, Marlene and I head upstairs. I get changed in my closet and Shauna takes the bathroom and then Marlene takes my spot and Christina takes mine. I'm wearing a navy blue and white horizontally striped full top with neon pink accents (straps) with solid navy blue bottoms. Christina is wearing a white bikini with light blue, gold, and yellow polka dots from old navy. Shauna is wearing a plain turquoise bikini and Marlene is wearing a one piece that is mostly black with a pink floral design on the side. I go into the closet and get out a bunch of towels Tori showed me that were pool towels. And with that we head downstairs.

When we get down the stairs and see that all the boys are already changed and digging into the food. I look down and then at all the other girls and then the boys. I feel very self-conscious and wrap my arms around myself. I've done a good job of wearing long-sleeves shirts and sweaters to hide my scars but now I'm in a bathing suit and exposed with no way to hide.

"Well don't you ladies all look wonderful!" Will says. The rest of the boys turn around and I am even more uncomfortable. I'm so glad when Christina takes the attention off of us and says,

"LET'S GO SWIMMING!" We all run into the backyard and Tori comes out and turns on the waterslide. Tori brought out some of the snacks and then left us alone to be stupid teenagers. We all line up on the side hold hands and then count down from three and jump in. After about thirty minutes Uriah is in the pool shed and bringing out a bunch of floater toys. We decide to put a raft at the bottom of the slide so we slide down and then slide off the raft into the pool. I have never had this much fun in a while. We swim for two hours playing games like colors and marco polo. Eventually we start getting cold so we all get out and dry off. It is now about 5:30 so we snack and talk while we dry off. Eventually we take turns going inside to get changed. Once everyone is changed we go inside and I say bye to Tori and we head next door. When we get there Zeke orders pizza for dinner and we head into their living room. Uriah gets us to sit in a circle because he said we are going to play some games. We decide to play never have I ever but just with pop.

"I want to start!" Uriah announces. Everyone pours some pop into their cup so I follow suit but I have never played any games like these so I have no idea of what I'm doing. So I lean over to Four who is sitting beside me,

"How do you play, I've never played before?"

"We go around the circle saying something you have never done before, If you have done something that someone says they haven't done before you take a drink of your pop." He never once looked at me oddly because I hadn't played. It's like he doesn't judge me because I'm different.

"Ok, thanks." He smiles back at me in response. I smile too and then turn my attention back to Uriah.

"Are we ready?" He asks everybody, we all nod.

"Ok, never have I ever taken a fashion course." Shauna, Christina, Marlene and Zeke all take a drink. I'm not shocked about the girls but I am about Zeke.

"Never have I ever taken a family studies course." Zeke says, he must be getting back at his brother because Uriah, Shauna, Marlene, Christina and I all take a drink. Next up is Four.

"Never have I ever caused a car accident." Zeke, Uriah and Marlene all take a drink. It's my turn next and I think I thought of a good one.

"Never have I ever been on a sports team." Some of them glance at me oddly and I look down to avoid their eyes but everyone takes a drink. We play until the pizza comes and then all get up to get a slice. When we return we play in between mouthfuls and about an hour and a half after we started its Four's turn again. We have gone around about five times but we are starting to run out things we have never done.

"Never have I ever had any sibilings." Shauna, Will, Christina, Zeke, and Uriah all take drinks. I look down and feel like my heart has been shattered all over again. I quickly get up and mutter an 'excuse me' before walking through the kitchen to the backyard. I can feel my eyes burning with unshed tears. I go and sit down on the patio steps and feel the tears come. I put my head in my hands and will myself to stop crying but I can't. I'm so upset that I don't even hear the patio door open and close indicating someone coming outside. Next thing I know someone puts their hand on my back but I jerk away from their touch. I look up and see Four. He looks concerned.

"Are you okay Tris, I didn't mean to startle you." I just shake my head. I am still crying and probably look like a mess but I don't trust my voice.

"Come here." He pulls me close into a hug and holds me while I cry. I allow myself to be comforted because he is so kind to me and I actually feel like I trust that he won't hurt me. Once I calm down enough not to be sobbing into his shoulder and my tears have ceased to fall, he leads me back over to the steps and we sit together. We sit together for atleast five minutes with him absently rubbing my back until he finally speaks.

"Do you want to talk about what made you so upset?" I have no idea what to say. I've never told anyone anything about my past and don't want him to hate me when he finds out how worthless I am. But, I feel like I can trust Four with my life and heart and he would protect it.

"I had a brother, his name was Caleb." I speak quietly and look at the ground."He k-kill-led himself." At this I choke up. I take deep breaths. Four grabs my hand to comfort me. With his other hand he lifts my chin so I am looking at him."It was only a couple weeks ago." I look into his eyes and am comforted somehow by his intense blue eyes.

"I am so sorry for bringing it up." He says, I feel bad. He probably feels like this whole thing is his fault. I simply shake my head and say,

"It's not your fault, how could you have known." He looks at me and he smiles a small sad smile.

"Are you still going to stay tonight?" I almost forgot that we were all going to stay the night here tonight. I smile,

"Yea, for sure." He gets up and offers me his hand. I get up and our fingers intertwine. We walk in and find everyone downstairs watching a movie. There is a huge tv and a whole bunch of couches and chairs. Four pulls me over to a couch and grabs a blanket for us. I sit down next to him and he covers our laps with a blanket. I have no idea what we are watching, I am preoccupied with the fact that I am so close to Four. The only other things I remember is Four pulling me closer, me resting my head on his shoulder and falling asleep.

A/N: So I am really excited about the characters and the story developing a lot. Some exciting events should be happening in the next two chapters so I will try to write them when I have time. Also, just a forewarning... when it comes to fluffy parts of the story I have like 0 experience in that department so bare with me if it is really bad. Let me know what you think with a review or PM! ( also, I'm going to add my quote of the day to the end of every chapter soo...)

-"We can't choose where we come from, but we can choose where we go from there"-

-The Perks of Being a Wallflower