Here you are! A new chapter! Sorry it took so long to get it up... Been a bit busy this week! HOPE YOU LIKE IT!


The Love You Deserve

Chapter 7: You Look Away

Tony had stayed in his garage getting no sleep that night. He waited for Loki to show up at any point. Loki didn't show. None of the other Avengers did either. Steve had made it so each Avenger has a shift at Tony's house to make sure he didn't get anywhere near the god of mischief. So, Tony continued to work on trying to find what had caused the device he had used on Loki to turn him blue.

Tony let out a sigh. He turned to walk over to the coffee pot to pour another cup only to run straight into Loki. Tony gave out a shocked noise as he balanced Loki and himself so neither would fall.

Tony glanced at the god, his heart filling with relief that he was alright and uninjured. "Where have you been? I was worried something had happened to you." Tony practicly yelled at the at the god.

"It is none of your concern what I have been doing." Loki stated in a monotone voice. This caught Tony's attention very quickly, but he ignored it.

"I-" Tony started to reply before stoping himself. He gave out a sigh. He didn't really know what to say to Loki. He had thought all these hours trying to come up with a way to apologize to Loki. He had gone through many different ways it could come out. Finally he decided on which one he was going to go with. "I need to apologize for anything I have wronged you of. I shouldn't have reacted like that with your other form. It was an awful thing to do. But you should know everything else I said was true."

Loki gave him a long and hard look. The god the says, "It does not matter I will be leaving again very soon." His voice still held no emotion. "I should not have stayed as long as I had and that is my mistake. You can go back to your life before this ever happened." Loki started to walk to the other side of the room ignoring Tony as much as possible.

Tony felt his pace speed up. He could not lose the one person that he had learned to truly love. He had to say something. Anything.

"Does this have to do with the Avengers finding out? I don't care what they say. They can go to hell for all I care." Tony said still having a hard time looking like he was in control.

Loki gave a swift turn and looked at Tony with narrowed eyes. "You told them?" HIs voice now low and cold as ice.

Realizing his mistake Tony back peddled saying, "Of course not. You told me not to. They found out on there own." Loki still looking at him accussing eyes.

"I have plans I need to full fill. They do not include you." Loki replied. Tony gave him a half hearted look.

"You don't have to do them. Stay with me and you won't have to do them ever again." Tony stated trying to make it so Loki would not go back to the crazed mad-man he was before.

"Loki. Please don't leave. I promise everything will be fine. I can convince the rest of the Avengers that you are no longer causing mischief." Tony pleaded. "Well, to the city at least." he added trying to lighten the mood. Still Loki just stood there with no rebutle. Tony really wanted their normal conversation. He would say funny, and then Loki would have a smartass reply. He waited a few more seconds. Still nothing from the god.

Loki gave a short hollow laugh. "It all makes sense now. You planed all this. Trying to make me into one of the heroes. That will never happen." He said barely a whisper.

"Where the hell would you ever get that idea? I never planed for any of this. I actually do care about you. Just stay." Tony says in response.

"I am sorry Mr. Stark." Tony flinched at his last name being used. "You seem to be mistaken. I have not switched sides nor do I plan to. Perhaps we shall see each other again on the battlefield." Loki quietly replied again, turning away from Tony.

"Damn it Loki. Why do you always do this? Pull away once you find something that actually makes you happy?" Tony finally snapped, all his compsure gone now. "You did it with Thor and now you are doing it with me. Why are you... running away?"

Loki didn't turn look back at Tony while he said this. "I can not face another life that is built on lies."

"I am not lying to you! Stop thinking I am!" Tony yelled in response.

At that Loki turned to show his eyes full of tears. "I am the god of lies. I know a lie when I see one." He says this with such steel resolve it made Tony even more aggitated but at the same time broke his heart.

"Well you can not see what is standing right fucking in front of you." Tony said this in the most desprate voice that he had ever had. "You have been lied to so much you can't even tell the diffrence between the truth and lies when it comes to people's actual feelings."

"It doesn't matter. This is good bye Mr. Stark. I am leaving no matter what you say." Loki snarled still having tears in his eyes.

"Stop running away like a little child and listen to me." Tony said his voice raising again.

"I hate you, Mr. Stark." Loki replied. Tony froze, his heart crumbling from those tiny little words. "Farewell" Loki said and was gone before Tony could think of a response.

Tony needed alcohol. He couldn't deal with this shit anymore. He headed for the stairs opened the door and ran into Clint.

"You didn't follow the Captain's orders." Clint glared at Tony.

"Fuck you to, Barton." Tony said as he pushed past Clint to get to his much needed alcohol.


Next chapter shall be interesting...I have 2 ideas on what I would do on the next one. I am also debating on making a sequel after this story(I still have about 2-3 more chapters left!). It would explain a couple of things like where Loki was in the last chapter and so on...