A/N: I can't begin to tell you guys how sorry I am that I haven't posted. I've been extremely sick, I was diagnosed with Crohn's disease and have been in and out of the hospital ever since. But I finally got around to this! I know it's very short, but I believe the shorter they are, the more I'll post. Thanks, guys! Enjoy!
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The Diary of Bella Swan
Month Three:
Hello, my sweet kicker. I felt you for the first time today. So did Edward, your dad that is. Speaking of Edward, he's been acting strange lately. He gets so very paranoid about you. I'm not sure why, nothing bad can happen. You're mommy's little girl.
You are a girl… Right?
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Month Four:
Your 'Auntie Alice' is driving me insane. If she buys you once more article of clothing or stuffed bear, I'm going to strangle her… Forget you just read that. That was for my eyes only.
Edward's been working extremely hard at the law office lately. Not sure why. It would be nice to have him here during this, but I'm sure it's hard to get your foot into the law door.
Right?
I'm just being hormonal. Not my words, but your aunts….. I'm really want to strangle her.
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Month Six:
You've been giving me some trouble, little kicker. There doctors are worried some, but I'm not. You'll be just, of course! Edward is starting to get worried, as well. They just don't know like I do. We're going to get through this, sweetheart. And I'll see you in a few months. No sooner or later. I love you, baby.
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"Are you ready, love? We're already running late."
"I know, I know. I'm coming now." I replied huffing down the stairs. My stomach was now fully distended, and I looked like a cow.
Edward wrapped my arm in his and led us out to the car. He opened my door and helped as I struggled to sit in the compact seat of his Volvo. He had bought a Volvo in a strange attempt to prove how prepared he was to have a family. However, no matter what he did, there was always that doubt in the back of my mind. Why would he stay? Why is still even here? One of these days he must want to run for the hills. I would understand, if I had to.
"Ow, shit! Try not to hit bumps, will you?"
"Bella… Sweetheart, I didn't hit a bump." He said, looking at me wearily.
"What do you mean. God, Edward stop doing that please. It hurts." As soon as the words left my lips, he pushed the acceleration impossibly harder and headed in the opposite direction of our destination.
"I haven't hit anything, Bella." That's you. We're going to the hospital now. The doctors knew there was something wrong. You should have let them monitor you, Bella."
"Do not chastise me right now, Edwa-" I cut myself off with a scream. This shit hurt. A hell of a lot.
Edward's brakes squealed as he pulled into the hospital's emergency entrance a slammed the brakes. "Sorry! Sorry," he exclaimed when he noticed the obvious discomfort the stop had added. He opened my door then ran into the automatic doors.
I cringed at the pain that shot through my abdomen. What're you doing to me, Kicker? I felt the pain start to seep into my lower back and legs. I was having trouble keeping my legs together, which made it more painful. This can't be happening. Everything is going to be fine. Edward came running back out and unbuckled me, waiting for the nurse that trailed behind with a wheelchair.
As if knowing my thought, Edward turned to me, frustrated, "Everything is not okay, Bella."
I got into the wheelchair with the help of both Edward and the male nurse. I was pushed past the registration desk and up into the emergency labor ward. I don't want to be here. I shouldn't be here for another three months. This can't be happening. It just can't.
Little Kicker, stay with me.
