Chapter 7
Jaspers POV
Once Bella, Rose and Emmett went out to hunt, Peter warned me that Bella was a very gifted and a strong vampire and that when she had full control of her many gifts nobody would be as strong. He stated that I would have to be careful how I handled her because even though we all knew I hadn't raped her and had just claimed her as far as Bella was concerned I had and that nothing would change her opinion.
I am now in an unfamiliar position as I have to try to see things from her point of view and if she believed that I raped her how would I get her trust because I would need to claim her again in the next couple of weeks if I could hold out that long. I would have to ensure my scent was always on her to try and fool my instinct and stop the Major from coming out.
As the pain started to lessen I knew Bella was close. The sight of her walking in with her long blown hair with red bits and her full lips, tits and hips, I knew I was going to have a hard time not claiming her in more than one way; I was already hard for my mate.
What happened next shocked me but also pleased me. When Bella warned us not to touch her I should have realized that it included me but I didn't and approached her. I thought with her hold on Carlisle she wouldn't be able to do anything to me, I was wrong. Only when I was in the air did Peter's words repeat in my mind about how strong and gifted she would be. Once Bella released us I asked if we could talk but she just looked at me with revulsion in her eyes and went and sat with Emmett.
The next two months were the same the only people Bella would let near her were Rose and Emmett and she didn't really talk to anyone at all. Then she walked into our room and said that I could talk to her but was not allowed to approach her.
"Bella I realize I went about things in an inappropriate way. I do love you and need to be near you the pain in my chest gets worse everyday because of the need to reclaim you. I know you do not trust me but you must know that I would never hurt you? I feel we need to spend some time together getting to know each other and find a way through this. I am trying to be patient but that alone goes against my nature and the Major has tried to come out a couple of times when you don't smell like us." I said.
"Jasper you raped and beat me that is not a sign of love. Yes I agree the pain is getting worse and that is why I decided to try and talk to you, but if the only thing that will help this pain is for you to, how did you put it, that's right reclaim me then I think we need to get used to the pain cause I wont let you rape me again. If the Major comes out he will get the same as you he will not touch me. You have had me wear some of your clothes and Rose said it would help. Is it so I smell like you?" She asked.
"Yes the more you smell of me the less I feel the need to reclaim you. So the days you haven't smelt of me the instinct is strong and the pain is more but the days you have worn my clothes the pain and instinct is less. I am trying to give you some of the time that you need to get used to this life." I said.
"I will wear your clothes if it will ease the pain. I feel no matter how much time you give me I will never trust you." She says.
"Bella can we try and talk every day from now on?" I ask.
Bella nods her head and leaves the room. We manage to talk most days over the next two months but some days Bella just won't come out of our room and she puts up a shield to stop anyone getting in.
Four months have passed since Bella was changed and Peter tells me to follow her out on her next hunt because she will need me, so that is why I am following her scent and when I come across her she is in a field with a dead human in her arms that she has just drained. I approach slowly and ensure that she sees that it's me.
"Bella please let me help you. I can feel the disgust you are feeling. You have slipped that is all, most of us have and you are doing really well that's why we keep forgetting that you are still a newborn and don't have all the restraint that you need." I said.
Bella keeps her head down for another 15 minutes and then raises it and the pain that is reflected in her eyes because of what she has done tears at my heart, I can do nothing but try to hold her. I move to her and take the human away I then return to her and pick her up and rock her on my knee telling her that everything will be ok.
Everyone is surprised when I walk back in the house with Bella in my arms and her holding on to me. I just ignore everyone and take her to our room and run a bath for her. When I have the bath ready I strip us both down and get us in. I sit with her on my lap for a while and then cleanse her body ensuring she is clean but that I don't scare her with this innocent attention. Once we are clean I lift us out and dry us off then putting her in pants and a top and me in pants. I lie us down and hold her for as long as she will let me. I know it's not much but being able to do this for her helps me feel complete and she now also smells of me which helps, but I do ensure that my stiff cock doesn't come into contact with Bella at all.
We stay in bed not talking for a week and then Bella looks at me and sits up.
"Thank you for taking care of me and not trying to take advantage of the situation. I don't think I would have been able to come back here if you hadn't brought me. Why are you being nice to me now I really don't understand you?" She asks.
"Bella I live to take care of you and I would never take advantage of you. I realize that I have in the past and that when we are in a better place we will have to decide how our relationship will work. Please understand that you just slipped and that it can happen to any of us. I know we have a lot of things to talk about but I can feel your thirst so can we talk later once we have hunted." I said.
To my surprise and pleasure Bella agrees and we leave to hunt together for the first time. I know that it is arousing seeing your mate hunt but I am so hard that I am finding it difficult to hunt but maybe if Bella sees me hunt it will have the same effect on her. With this thought I manage to get a big cat and feed when I look up the lust that I feel from my mate is nearly enough to make me cum, but then I smell her arousal and I cum in my pants like a virgin and I can't help but project my lust and ecstasy back to Bella and that is when she drops to the ground cumming multiple times. God how I wish I could lose myself in her but I know that now is not the time and I need to think about long term not just now.
Bella looks at me and I am sure if she could she would be blushing.
"Bella please don't feel ashamed or dirty about what just happened it is always stimulating hunting with your mate and with your lust as well as mine I couldn't help but cum. I am sorry that I projected those feelings back to you but I have to say I have never seen a lovelier sight as you when you cum. Now I think that we should run home and enter our bedroom from the balcony, shall we go?" I ask.
"Why are you telling me how I should enter the house I thought that you were starting to want my input but you haven't changed at all have you?" She says.
"Bella no that's not it. I just thought you would rather the rest of the family didn't see you wet with your cum and I don't really want them seeing me like this but if you want to walk in front of everyone smelling and looking like you have cum that's fine, but I will be entering through our balcony cause what just happened between us is none of their business." I said.
I then run back to the house without giving Bella time to answer me, she needs to see that I am trying and that if I make a suggestion or a decision it is with her best interests at heart.
