Chapter 7-Hello
I woke up in my bed, with Josef no where in sight. I sat up and my head throbbed in pain. I slowly slid out of bed and walked into the front, Jo was leaning against the counter in the kitchen, Josef was sitting at the table, his head laid down on it.
"Morning..."
They both looked up at me.
"Shit Adelia, you look worse today..."
I glared at Jo. "Thanks, you make me feel so beautiful."
I walked closer to Josef and he slid his arm behind my legs and pulled me even closer.
"How are you feeling?"
I bit my lip. "Nothing."
"I don't know what's worse, the fact that you said that or the fact that you're not lying..."
I wasn't feeling anything, I was numb all over. I just didn't give a fuck anymore. It hurt to much to think about Brad, so I didn't, it hurt so much more to think about Josef, so I didn't. That left me numb.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Jo asked as she handed me a cup of coffee.
I shook my head. "No, thank you...but no."
"Was this the only time?"
I looked back down to Josef, his face showed his worry.
"No, he's done it a few times before...but never really this bad."
Josef looked down at the table, trying to hide is face from both me and Jo. I knew why, he was angry, and even a 400 year old vampire loses a small amount of control when they're angry enough.
Josef suddenly stood up and I just stared at him.
"I'm hungry..."
"We have some food in the fridge if you want it..." Jo said pointing towards the fridge.
Josef shook his head. "No, that's okay, I have a certain thing on my mind..."
He kissed me on the forehead then quickly walked to the door. I wonder where he was going to get his blood from?
I was shaken out of my thoughts by Jo's voice. "Why didn't you tell me about you and him..."
I bit my lip. "What do you mean?"
She sighed. "That it wasn't a one time thing? That you spent every weekend with him...that you were in love with him..."
"Am...I am in love with him...and I didn't tell you because it didn't matter...it was over with..."
"What happened?"
"He just called me one day and told me he didn't want to see me anymore..."
"Wow...what was that like?"
"You know how sometimes a special someone comes along and makes a you feel like all your troubles are gone, and nothing bad can ever happen again. But then they go and rip it all away from you... and you are left standing there, miserable, and back to where you started..."
She shook her head. "I couldn't imagine..."
"Yea...it sucks..."
"You didn't have to go through that alone you know...you don't have to go through anything alone...I'm always here for you!"
I gave her a weak smile. "I normally handle my own emotional problems Jo, you should know that by now..."
She rolled her eyes. "I know, and you shouldn't you need some kind of outlet, you'll end up nuts if you don't get one!"
I shrugged. "I handle it in my own way...I know that sounds weird and crazy, but I do."
We heard a knock on the door, Jo walked past me and opened it, Nathan walked in holding a bottle of Grey Goose and a box of chocolates.
He gave me a small smile. "Jo told me what happened."
I walked over to him and gave him a big hug. "I figured she would..."
He pushed me back so he could look me in the eyes. "Now, who was that scrumptious man that left here about ten minutes ago."
I laughed, Nathan always could make me laugh, no matter what.
"His name is Josef, he has this big thing for Adelia." Jo said with a smile.
Nathan smiled. "Oh really? Damn girl, where'd you find him?"
I smiled. "New York."
He sighed. "Of course, from the North, where all the good men are."
I shoved him. "Hey, what about Justin?"
He laughed. "It doesn't hurt to look."
He walked into the kitchen and pulled out three glasses and poured some of the Vodka into them.
"It's kind of early for this isn't it?" Jo asked with a grimace.
Me and Nathan both glared at her.
"Adelia, please slap her..."
I smacked Jo on the back and she jumped.
-30 Minutes Later-
Jo and Nathan had both left, they had to go to work, Jo almost called in, but I told her I would be okay alone. I was sitting on the couch sipping on a glass of vodka when I heard someone knocking on the door. I untangled myself from the couch and looked through the peep-hole. Josef was standing on the other side of the door, I opened it with a smile, he gave me a small one back.
He walked in past me without a word, I shut the door and locked it. When I turned back to him he was standing with his hands in his pockets, looking a little stressed.
"Josef...what's wrong?"
He made eye contact and sighed. "I had a reason you know...
"What? For what?"
He sighed. "For cutting you out of my life two years ago."
"Josef, that doesn't matter anymore."
He shook his head. "Yes it does, it matters to me...I had a damn good reason..."
"Well what was it?"
He looked away from me. "I had fallen in love with you...and it scared me, because I knew I wasn't supposed to love you. I'm not the kind of person you should be with Adelia, you need to be with a good person, not me..."
I stepped closer to him and he took a step back. "No, I still feel the same way...I'm in love with you, I am, so don't think otherwise, but you deserve so much better than me..."
I shook my head. "No, you're perfect, what are you talking about?"
He looked back up at me. "I am the farthest thing from perfect Adelia, I've been thinking about this all morning, it's been bothering me...find someone else...someone better than me...you deserve someone better."
I shook my head again. "No, I don't, and I don't want someone better, I want you!"
He closed the distance between us and took my face in his hands, careful to not put to much pressure on my bruise. "No, you think you do, but if you knew me, really knew me...you wouldn't want me...trust me..."
Tears were filling my eyes , he was leaving me again...couldn't he see that I wouldn't be able to handle this? I lost him once, but how will I live with losing him again?
"Please...don't go..."
He leaned in and placed a light kiss on my lips. When he pulled back he gave me a small smile.
"You'll be fine without me..."
I grabbed onto his shirt and shook my head. "No, I wont, I wont be fine...I need you to be fine...otherwise, no fineness will be happening..."
He wiped my tears with his thumb. "You'll be okay, I promise."
He placed one last kiss on my forehead, then walked past me towards the door.
"I'll die without you.."
He stopped and turned back to me, he gave me a small smile. "No, you wont...trust me."
He walked out the door and shut it behind him. I stood there, just staring at the oak door, waiting for him to walk back in with a smile saying 'just kidding, man you should have seen your face!' But he never did.
