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p.s this is four years on.
Chapter. 7
4 years on.
Today marked the in-significant day, that four years ago Jacob had left me.
It might've been easy if it was just him to leave, but he took my whole life away from me.
My lover, my children, and most of all my confidence to love again.
It wasn't until Edward helped me through in my time of need, he opened up my heart to what what true love could be like.
"Don't hold to anger, hurt or pain. They steal your energy and keep you from love, you deserve love as much as the next person."
And that was when everything become sudden to me that, Edward, had never stopped loving me.
"Bella?" Edward soft, humbling voice richocetted through the empty room.
"Huh?" My un-flattering voice recked my perfect vision of Edward lying beside me, as I couldn't be bothered to open my eyes to see the real deal.
I was reluctant to open my eyes, as he continued on with his speech.
"Bella love, I think the family's just left." The Cullen's had been planning another one of their 'camping' trips, to Vancouver, and Edward decided to stay back with me, only going to feast off the blood of local deers, every now and again, which would quench his thirst, enough to stay sane.
I wondered why I refused to open my eyes, was it because I wanted my day-dreaming to never end, or was it because I didn't want to face reality that;
Edward was perfect, flawless and everything somebody could ever want.
And then you have me, whiny, dependent, clingy and indecisive.
I'd give anything just to be half as perfect as Edward, then maybe we could be the least bit the same.
I knew that'd never happen.
"Come on Bella, lets get you something to eat you must be famished?" His chilly hand took mine in his, and swept me up from the couch and shook me away my current drowsy state.
"Edward, I'm not hungry, honestly." Once he'd placed me back on my own two feet I un-surprisingly stumbled over them, before Edwards cold arms jerked me swiftly into an up-lifting embrace.
"I refuse to not feed you, now what would you like." Edward made sure I was stable before he speedinly ran over to the pantry in kitchen and scoped through the varieties of food.
"Just eggs." I shrugged my shaking shoulders, still a little cold from Edwards hug.
I searched for an expression on Edward's face, and sure enough it was a gloomy look.
Lately the Cullen's had left us alone, or we'd gotten away from them.
And Edward had proved to me that he could cook extravagant meals.
But me, being me, didn't want him to go out of his way, and just wanted the simplest of meals.
But obviously it wasn't just about the idea of him being able to cook a wonderful meal and me not being able to cook anything more then a fine ceaser salad, that wasn't the least bit superior to Edwards, but it was about him being able to do yet another things without fail.
This always irritated Edward, not being able to do something he loved for someone he loved, but that wasn't the way I rolled.
"Eggs it is." Edward had quickly arranged the ingredients for a nice scramble out onto the bench.
His face still a little disappointed.
"Yum." I scarped the last piece of egg off my knife and shoved it into my mouth, then realizing Edward was intently staring at me.
"You mind?" I joked and raised my hand to hit his arm, but then hesitated before returning it back to its original place.
"I'm sorry, but did you enjoy that?, seems like you were a bit hungrier then you claimed to be."
I turned my back to him stubbornly, his hand was now on my shoulder, making it shiver once again.
"Ow!" I screeched, and Edward immediately swirled me back around in my seat without a pause.
"I'm sorry did I hurt you?" Edward pleaded as he spotted me clenching my stomach, nausea growing in the pit of my stomach.
"No I- erm." I shook my head and breathed out, before straighting up. "I'm alright now."
But obviously this didn't totally convince Edward.
"I'm so sorry, where does it hurt, should I call Carlisle?" Edward was jumping start to conclusions, and I hated when he fussed over me.
"It wasn't you it's just that." I pulled my hand away from my stomach. "I think I just broke something."
My voice was filled with agony as I tried to arrange my face to look some-what normal.
"You think you broke something?" Edward pushed.
"It might've been a rib?" Suggesting the worse.
"It can't've been a rib, because -." Edward cut off when he saw the pain had vanished from my face.
I couldn't feel the hurt anymore, it was more of a nice sensation, but it still confused me, it had felt like a broken rib.
It had happened before and it felt exactly the same.
"Bella?, I'm going to call Carlisle." Edward was already by the phone and dialing his number.
"Wait!" I yelled and sprung up off my seat, and grabbed the phone from him, I could hear Carlisle's voice calling from the other end.
"I need to talk to him in private." I shooed Edward away with one small gesture and he had already knowledged the fact that I needed privacy.
"Carlisle." I declared into the phone, starting off a very important conversation.
"I need some advice." And thats when Jacob's face appeared into my head, the swirling images flying around in my mind of him, Makenna and Carter, all waving at me in sync, their lovely smiles on their faces, like they'd wanted me back.
But I knew it wasn't real, and I knew that I'd most-likely never see them again.
And I had to think realistically, in truth I was with Edward, not Jacob, who had my family, and my whole life.
It was time to accept that and move on.
"Edward, can you come in here?" I requested from the kitchen.
I stood steady, with my hand on the counter supporting myself as I glanced twice at Edward who was gliding to me.
"Whats happened Bella?" Edwards demands where up-front, but this I had expected.
"Edward, I don't know how to put this, but I 'er." My eyes seemed to be more shiftier then ever.
"What Bella?" Edward got more frusterated as I built up the confidence to tell him.
"I'm pregnant." I blurted out.
My face went pale as Edward froze, stone-cold.
Thank-you a billion for reading my story, it means so much to me :)
Bellas pregnant now, but I don't want you to think that she doesn't miss Jacob and the kids.
She does, :)
& I do things a little different to Stephenie Meyer, thats why I decided Edward and Bella would have sex.
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