Bcozy-To be honest, I must ask for forgiveness to all the people who wanted to read this story and I have not had the time or the patience to sit down, write this all down and update. I know many are not here now to read this good book but I do hope that you all will come back some day, like I did, and read this over again. I improved in my writing skills as well as my ability to articulate and use big words-like articulate- so I think this will make the story If It Ain't Yu just a bit better than it was before. Thank you and Have a nice time reading.


It was getting hotter.

Kanda tossed and turned in his bed sheets, trying to find some type of coolness to his sizzling skin. Small beats of sweat rolled down from his temples as well as his muscular arms, which was bare. He threw his jacket off a long time ago but that did not help with the humidity in this room.

Through his mind he could only think about you; The way you spoke to him the last time you were next to each other, even though it was on bad terms, the way you smilied, showing all of your pearly white teeth that shined brighter than the moon during the winter nights-

Woah, no no no no. No. No.

Kanda grunted in his sleep, his mouth turned into a frown.

No, there is no way on this green earth that I would start compairing her stupid looks to nature.

That is what whimps and chumps do.

Like Lavi.

Though his mind was running like a out of control train, he couldn't stop himself to go back and talk about you. Then he would see your image. Your gorgeous visage that made his "heart" pump just a bit more quickly.

Knocking himself in the head with his palm, he finally got your face out of his mind though he had a bit of a bruse of doing so. Though he didn't care. To be honest, he would walk out of this room tomorrow, wearing those red spotches on his forehead with pride. He could live without thinking about your face and body.

He finally rested and laid on back, opening his eyes as his blue eyes skimmed over the ceiling, counting the small circles in the ceiling.

Was someone poking the roof? Who does that?

You would do that. When you are bored, you would get your writing utencil and start to poke the table if you had a wall in your train of thought.

Damn it he was doing it again! Will he just stay Way from your face? For once?

So let's go with the smell. The aroma that came from you was always pure flowers. oh how you loved flowers that would grow in the Black Order's garden in the back. It would sprouted out beautifully and earned it's place next to the other common flowers. There were sunflowers, tulips and those other ones that he couldn't think about. He couldn't think about it because if he did, he wouldn't stop.

The system works like this; if he thought of the name, he would see the flower. If he seen the flower, he would smell the flower. If he would smell the flower, he would smell you and that is not how Kanda Yu rolls.

So he stayed put.


The rockyness of the train had ruin all the chances of you to sleep. So, once again, you stayed up and looked at the view through the window, gazing up the brightness of the moon.

If I am gazing up at the moon, you thought, could he be too?

No, no don't think about that. You didn't want to think about him, the situation or even the mission. You just wanted to stay here, gazing through the window laced with metal wires shapped like diamonds. If you looked at it in the right way, you could see the moon turn into small shinning diamonds that could be worth more than all of the money in Europe.

With a sigh, you closed your eyes. Letting the only train you liked, your mind, wonder off track.

You were too lost in your thoughts to noticed the door opening.

It could buy anything that you may have wanted. Even a person to be next to you during this night. To be honest, that is what you wanted. Companionship. Though Lavi was with Bookman, and there was no way that he would be let out in the night of a train full of women, and there was him.

You were too lost in your thoughts to hear the soft footsteps of heavy feet come into the dark room.

Kanda Yuu. Man he wouldn't care even if you bought him a heart to put in his chest.

With a click of the door shutting, that bought your attention. Your eyes popped open and searched through the dark room, seeing only shadows dancing by the light.

You could of sworn you heard someone...

Then there was a clank. A loud, disgusting clank...

A scream left your lips while you had the chance but someone covered your lips with something soft yet firm.

Then it all became dark.


bcozy-I hope you all like this chapter. I'm so late...like a whole 2-3 years. -3- I'm so bad...