I could kill my mom, I want to know how long its been since the gutters were cleaned? i was sitting on the roof i picked up my phone and dailed brittany.
"Hey you" she said i could hear the smile "hey babe, look these gutters are bad. i want to say its been at least 5 seasons since they been clean i dont know how they didnt fall off the house they past winter. but i was wondering would like to have a night in? i know we havent gone out on a date but these gutters are kicking my ass."
"Santana, you realize you're babbling right? I just finnished the grass, if you would like i can come help you out with the gutters? and then maybe we could shower together, and if were not too pooped we can still go out on a date." she should realize she's kind of babbling too now, but i wont say anything. I think i her shower together. "hmm shower together. i can get down on that" i smiled and looked up and the sky "i'm already on the roof if you want to come over and come up" I herd her giggle in the phone "sounds like a plan see you soon" We hung up and i pressed play on my phone for the music to start up, i put my gloves back on and started throwing leves and shit from the gutters, i really need to talk to mom about this problem, i think those protecter things for the gutters would be a good investment.
Out of the corner of my eye i seen my moms car pull up. i took my headphones out "hey mom, i was just thinking about you" i yelled to her when she was getting out of the car in the drive way "these gutters are bad when was the last time you had someone come over and clean them out?"
"your cousin was doing for awhile the he stopped calling when he found out you were coming back.. He misses you. you need to call him" my mom was scolding me. my cousin and i were around the same age, "i'll call him. but i'm going to get something to prevent all this shit thats in here" and as if on que Brittany pulled up. My mom turned around "well look who it is" she said to Brittany with a smile "what are you doing here? and covered in grass?" she i was climbing down the ladder at this moment, "i had to cut the grass, sometimes i make a bigger mess of myself then need be. We smiled at one another i stepped beside my mom.
"By the way mom, there was a sponge? in the pipes of the sink. can you tell me how that happened?" my mom just looked at me, shocked.. "No clue, could have been your sister or i" how could either one of them even manage that. i didnt ask her how. "You guys are something else" i smiled at my mom. Brittany was watching us interact with one another. "are you girls hungry? i can make something real fast before your sister gets home. she gets droped off around 3:30 its 2:00 now." i smiled and Brittany and i both said "yes" at the same time. my mom walked a head of up into the house. i grabbed her and kissed her on the lips "i missed you britt" and pulled her into a hug she hugged me back and i turned and "get up" i told her pointing at my back, she did so happy jumping my me, I ran into the house with her as if it this was a nothing task.
She dropped off of me when we got in the house, "Santana finnish the gutters another day" my mom said as we walked in the kitched, "why? i mean not that i mind but why" i looked at my mom she pulled out left over chicken. "Because you already fixed the sink and you've had a long week even though you wont talk about it." I blushed heavy my mom knows all to well that i dont like to talk about my feeling before and after the Army. Its not just me, it always just comes out in a sea of emotions, which my mom knew. "Alright mom, do you want to write a list of all the things you want done around the house" i watched my mom pull out the stuff for chicken quesadillas. YES my mom is making quesadillas there good and one of my favorites.
Brittany's hand was resting on my upper thigh as my mom was grabbing plants out of the cupbored I turned to her she squeezed my leg a little and smiled at me in that moment she was glowing again, my breath caught in my lungs as i tried to exhale she leaned into me "breathe baby, its just me" i'm in love. thats it i'll admit it. i am in love with her. "i'm sorry i just got caught up in the moment." i kissed her cheek and rubbed my nose on her cheek.
"Ladies, food is servied" my mom smiled at us, there was salsa and sour cream on the table we ate talked to my mom a bit, "mom i wanted to let you know i'm going to the doctor in about a week about my flash backs. the 3 months i spent in washington at the VA hospital will count to my visits here, i'm hoping they will be able to give me something to help me out." i smiled at my mom "well Satana thats always good to hear, how have you been managing now?" I didnt know how to tell her how i was managing. Cause i am doing the best i can.
"Well i really dont know how i am managing. Um, Brittany helps out. quite a lot. i've been really good every few days i have this warning system, if i have a good dream say about when i was kid, or about Brittany or Bug, i have a really really bad day, um, i had a dream at Brittanys that she was glowing angle-like? it was one of the best dreams i've had, later on she spent what she says was 15min claming down in the bathroom that day. i feel like it was hours i was gone for. But when i dream about whats happened over there, i have really good days, I dont know if its really its a system or anything yet, but it seems to make kinda since" I smiled at my mom, i could see the tears in her eyes, i left like it was just my mom and i talking now, I could hear the ocean in my ears i was snapped from my moment the door slammed and i jumped from my seat.
"Santana its okay." i felt soft hands on my arms, I looked to see it was Brittany. I inhaled sharp when i seen Mia walk into the kitchen, i didnt think we were talking that long, Oh no i'm going in and out again, I was being picked up and brought into my room, Brittany was laying me on my bed, i could feel her wrapping her arms and legs around me from behind. I was shaking so hard, "San you know if you leave me just for a moment I'll be here when you come back, just promise you will come back to me. Please." My ears were ringing, so i did i slipped into my flash back allowed it to happen.
"Lopez get Evans, and Huddson, were going in to take care of buildings that have been rigged up." I took my orders and got the boys, Finn was mostly just for show, he was big and tall so it looked for us when we went in to take care of bombs. We geared up as we started to make our way into the city. When we herd the first bomb go off, the truck was starting to speed up, i gripped my gun harder, we were going to be shooting, and i didnt want that at all, "alright guys were going to have to play this one by ear."
"Sir, i dont like the way that soun-.".. "Shut up Huddson. this is how its going to go." The Radios went off on our vests "we need back up in the south-west side of town over." I herd our captin raido back "were on our way over"
it was happening so fast, i was blacking in and out of whats going on i herd a voice in the back ground
"Brittany is she going to be okay? its clear you've seen this before. Please answer me Brittany!" my mom was freaking out, i could feel her pulling away from me. I grabbed her "please" was all i could get out
"i will make sure she's okay, Santana wont let me go, which is a good things she knows i'm here" she gripped my hands, i could feel myself drifting in and out of sleep. "please let me know if you or Tana need anything." i herd my door shut and i could feel Brittany relax into me. I could feel her hand going down my shirt, and the other one going up my, she held me so close to her with, her hand over my heart. I could hear her whisper "you can come back to me, you know i'll keep you safe even if you dont come back right away. please just come back to me" my shaking stopped, My breathing was evening out.
"brittany?"she nuzzled her face in the back of my neck "Sanny" she smiled at me.
I looked to her eyes. "i have to tell you something please dont freak out. But, i love you"
she looked onto my eyes. i could see tears in her eyes "I- I love you Santana"
AN: i still need a Beta, i hope this is a good chapter, i'm up for ideas anyone want to give me some ideas thanks again for reading
-Spee
