Sickening, disgusted, broken, fragile , and most of all sad. My baby was alive but would have traumatic brain damage and might possibly die. Hailey died in my arms and I could do nothing as Azura pulled the knife out ending her life. The girl from district 1 that might have won was killed by the Mutt fish after district 2 female was K.I.A. I was now sat on a fluffy seat on a stage being interviewed by Caeser.

We watched the highlights of my games, which included the death of Brandon Fox, My birthday feast when I swung off the Cornucopia, Jay death. My warning about the mutts, and escaping the blood bath.

Caeser then asked me about my love life and if I had planes for my fellow victor when I smile slyly and just say no plans. Caeser then wishes Panem a good night. I fill awful as I am escorted of the stage and into Haymitch's awaiting arms. Caeser walks up to us moment after I am released.

"You're a very strong woman, Miss. December. I hope the best for you in the upcoming year." He said with a genuine smile and walked away.

Haymitch then led me to the train station where I wished all the Capital men in women good bye. The train door was finally shut I could cry, that feeling I longed for. Haymitch had and train worker show me to my room as he went to get something.

I sat against the headboard; my knees up to my chest, laying my head on the tops of my knees letting the tears soak through the fabric . the door open after a couple of minutes and Haymitch walked in with a glass of hot chocolate.

He wipes the tears from my eyes and coaxes me into drinking some hot chocolate. He then wraps a blanket around me. I just sit there looking drained. Haymitch wrapped is large arms around my petite frame.

"I feel like I failed Haymitch, I could have done something better." I said miserably.

"The baby alive you did your very best, you survived the games." He said then I snapped.

"BUT what have I really WON! Tell me my perfectly healthy baby is now brain damaged, with a little none chance of living. Please tell me what I have won." I cried.

"You've won the right to go home and be safe with your family." He said as he nuzzled her face into my neck.

"Don't do that, your facial hairs are ticklish." I screeched.

"like this." He said as he nuzzled some more.

And he had succeeded in his mission making me happier. The rest of the why home consisted of me and Haymitch being together. I think he just wanted to be with me when I was having a mental breakdown. If I had one.

By the time everything was over, I was exhausted worn out. They cut the ribbon at my new house which I would let Addi and Alli live with me because Aunt Camille has recently be diagnosed with an old disease called Cancer. She has very few months to live in any her health is so poor she can barely eat.

I was sitting in the kitchen when I heard something crash up stairs; it hasn't been to terribly long since I won my tour is still a month away thank heavens. Allison runs down only for Addison to tackle her once she was at the bottom.

"What are you two doing?" I asked crossing my arms over my chest looking at them like a mother who has just caught her children stealing cookies from the cookie jar.

Haymitch walked in my house without knocking which I frown at. He took his shoes off at the door not to track snow in my house. He smiled at me as Addison and Allison got off each other and looked at us and screamed.

"YUCKY!" they said at the same time.

"What so gross?" I asked them and Alli made a face.

"Nothing" Addison said as she and Allison ran back upstairs.

Haymitch propped himself against my counter top, as I walked over to him. "You've taken on a lot of responsibility." He said as he reached under my cabinet and grabbed a bottle.

"Do not drink that." I scolded, Haymitch doesn't drink as much but still drinks to my dismay. "Oh!" I exclaimed as I felt the baby kick.

"Ow that hurts." I said as I put my hand on my stomach.

"Did the baby just kick?" Haymitch asked.

"Put the bottle down and I'll let you feel it." I said as he then sat the bottle on the counter.

I grabbed his hand and placed in on the side that Brandon stabbed me in being the point of my pain and the baby's feet. He smiled at me as the tiny feet of our unborn child kicked again.

"I think she want out just as much as I want her out." I said with a grin.

He laughed at me after that grabbing the bottle and walking back out the door. "Don't come back if you drunk!" I yelled….

"I'll be back later!" he yelled as I shut the door. I watch from my window as he walks back to his house.

"Allison and Addison come down here right now!" I yelled from the kitchen putting their sandwiches on the island. They ran down the steps they both in pure humor saluted me, I made it very clear my rules or capitol rules the first day. They chose mine and saluted me with a yes ma'am.

"did…..Your….boy…..friend…le…..ave?" Alli asked with a mouth full.

"You know not to talk with your mouths full and yes he left earlier." I said I popped a strawberry in my mouth.

The finished eating there sandwiches when my home phone rang. It was my mother flower shop. "Hello?" I answered.

"She died." Mother said on the other end.

"She is? No that can't be right she had months!" I exclaimed and the girls looked up at me with worried glances. "Your other aunt died this morning leaving her 2 year old son to fend for died early this morning your father just found her, she killed herself." Mom said at the other in, my mom brother's wife Rosalie she was late thirties my uncle William had died a month before the reaping, mine explosion. Were all surprised she lasted this long, she was one of those who couldn't live without their other half and Will was just that

"She had a will ya know, she wants you to adopt them as your, she knows your young but she had faith in you." Mom said slowly.

"Then I cannot refuse if she had that much faith I will not let her down, I'll do my very best as raising Acelin." I said as I put my strawberry down.

"I'll bring him over later, you tell the twins not to worry. Bye." She said and hung up.

"Did Aunt Rosie kill herself?" Addison asked.

"Yes earlier today, I'll be adopting Acelin." I said as I picked up my phone.

"Haymitch I have some bad news." I said as he picked up his phone.

"I heard Rosie died right?" he asked.

"Yah I'm also adopting Acelin." I said as I put another strawberry in my mouth.

"So we have two kids now, and we aren't even married yet." He asked when a crashing sound was heard.

"Yah?... Haymitch what are you doing?" I asked slowly.

"Trying to find the damn TV remote." He said.

"Check under the couch." I told him and the phone dropped to the ground the made a fuzzy noise and I heard Haymitch yell. "You just love being right!"

"yep!" I yelled an hung up the phone.

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So what cha think? I was going to have the baby die but after reading you comments I felt like a bad person so I let it live with small chances. Acelin is her cousin who is becoming her son.

Love La' Rae Random quote: "Hey what did you say?" "Oh nothing i was just talking to myself, don't worry i'm just slightly insane."

I don't own Haymitch or the Hunger Games series.