Hey all :)
I am honestly SO sorry it has taken such a long time for me to write a new chapter, it was all going so well, and then I just hit a mental wall, I had absolutely no idea what I could put in, and thus, took a break, gave myself time, and now, I feel like I'm back here, and capable of writing a new chapter :)
Thank you to all those that have reviewed :) I hope I haven't lost any readers by taking such a long time...
But anyway, on with the story
I hope you enjoy
Tori looked up, she couldn't really believe what she was seeing, she thought it wasn't real, she thought she was just going insane.
But no, Cat was there, Cat was standing there at the other end of the beam, staring at Tori.
The moonlight was shining directly down, making the tears on her face look like little diamonds as they rolled down.
"Tori?" Cat tried again, wanting Tori to say something, but Tori was lost in thought.
What is she doing here?
How did she know I was here?
Why is she here?
What does she want?
"Why are you here?" Tori's voice was soft, she hadn't done much talking lately, only a whole lot of crying.
The wind picked up a little, Tori could feel it crashing against her, as if it were trying to push her off the edge.
"Tori, come down from there" Cat pleaded, sure she didn't really 'like' Tori right now, but she didn't want to see her die.
"Why do you care? soon I'll be dead, just like my family, its what I deserve, its all I deserve! to be 6 feet under, because I'm worthless, I'm ugly, I'm untalented, and no one cares, its true Cat, its all true, just like you said"
Tears rolled down Tori's cheeks, and Cat's surprisingly.
"Tori please..." but before Cat could continue Tori cut her off.
"You only came here to see it happen, you only came here to watch me die, I know its what you want Cat, I know, I don't know what I did to offend you, or upset you, or make you mad, but whatever it is, I am, and this pains me to say, because its not really deserved, but I am deeply sorry"
"No... Tori, I'm sorry"
Tori's expression changed, as the confusion was visible all over her face.
"What have you got to be sorry for? its all going the way you want it to"
"No, that's not true Tori, look, one day, I um, there was this boy I really liked, and I asked him on a date, but he laughed at me, and said he only had eyes for you, he said I was nothing compared to you, and after a while, I started to think, maybe that's true, maybe I'm the untalented one, I started to get angry, I... I'm not good when it comes to controlling anger, I lost it, something changed in me, I lost sight of what mattered, I didn't even bother to talk to you about it"
Tori listened on, not knowing what to think right now.
Sure Cat was practically pouring her heart out, but the reason was ridiculous, because of a boy?
"I should have never done that, I know its stupid, but umm, see, the truth is, my brother was never the one with the mental problems, no... that's me, all the therapy sessions, the padded walls, having to be tranquilized by my own parents when I couldn't control myself, its all me, and this... I don't know... I couldn't do anything... it was like something else had control"
That's when it changed, Tori realized the truth, Cat's reason, sure it wasn't a very good one, but a reason none the less.
"I... I lost my parents too, and my brother..."
Tori was taken back by shock now, hearing this, it was all starting to piece together.
"They went on a cruise, I said it was 'because my brother needed some help' but no, it was because they wanted time away from me, they hated me, and they got their wish, the boat went down, everyone on board died, they never cared about me, they hated me, they hated how 'different' I was, how I had to go to therapy all the time, because I was hearing voices in my head, they thought I was lying, or all the money that had to be spent on medication to keep it under control, they hated all of it, I know, I overheard them talking one time, I heard my dad call me crazy, mental, and a disgrace... it broke my heart"
Tori felt a few twitches in her heart, seeing Cat break down like this, the truth finally being told, it was like, Tori was seeing the girl she knew again, the girl she loved, the girl she called her best friend.
The truth sinking in, all the stories Cat told about her 'mental' brother, they were really just about her, she was just living in denial, she was just finding a way to project all of the things she had done toward someone else, so in a way, she could feel 'normal'
"Cat..." Tori started, catching the attention of the red head, who was now in floods of tears.
But in a split second, one huge gust of wind hit.
And that was when Tori lost her balance.
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Well, I hope this made up for my time away, I certainly enjoyed writing it I must say, I hope you did too.
I wont give away any spoilers ;) haha
Hopefully my next update will come a little sooner than this one, again I'm really sorry :)
If you liked it, please leave a little review below, they all mean so much :)
