Sorry for the long wait. I still don't have a computer. lol.

I was spinning, falling in the blackness. It was all I could see... All I could remember before the black was a little girl screaming... But I don't know why she was screaming..... Maybe it was because of me.... But who was she? I knew her somehow..

"Bella." someone said. I didn't know the voice. I didn't have a voice to respond with. Something was familiar about the word though.... Bella..... A girl's name..... But why did the voice say it? Were they talking to me? I'm almost sure they were... But I don't think I'm Bella... Am I? I really don't know...

Jasper's point of view

"Bella." I whispered. She didn't move. Nessie stared at her, wide eyed. Bella didn't move at all. Not a flicker of life on her face what-so-ever.

She can't die.... She can't... It isn't possible... She can't die...

Renesmee leaned over and put her hand on Bella's arm. Tears rolled down her face. She pulled her hand away and stared at me.

"Fix her." she demanded. "Fix my mommy." When I just stared back she started screaming "fix her" over and over. I tried to calm her down, but she refused.

"Nessie.." I stared at her, pleading. "Stop. Please. Screaming won't help her."

"Fix... her." she whimpered, and began sobbing hysterically. "If Edward was here, he'd fix her Daddy. I know he would."

Something stirred on Bella's face while Nessie was talking."Bella?"

Nothing. I thought over what Nessie had said... "Edward?"

Nothing. "Renesmee?"

Nothing. "Jasper!" Renesmee burst out. Something flickered across Bella's face. What was it? Recognition?

Bella's point of view.

The little girl was speaking again. But it wasn't in my head, it was out loud. "Fix her." she demanded. "Fix my mommy."

Then she started screaming it, over and over. It made me sad to hear her. I wanted to do something to help her, but the was nothing I could do....

"Nessie.." The voice I so wanted to remember whispered. It was sad too....

I want to help you, I though. I want to know you.....

If only he could read minds..... I knew someone who could read minds once.... But he hurt me.... So much... Who was he..?

The man said something else... Then the girl started crying... "If Edward was here, he'd fix her Daddy. I know he would."

Edward! Nessie is the girls name.. Edward is her dad... She doesn't call him dad anymore.... Who does she call dad? The man? He just said Edward's name again....

Rernesmee..... is my daughter. Mine and Edward's.... Two faces popped into my mind. One, a beautiful little girl, with an angels face.... Another, a face like a geek god... He's so beautiful.

That's me and daddy, mommy. Please wake up! Why won't you wake up? Jasper and I are so sad... Wake up mommy..

Jasper.

The name set off a hundred memories...

My 18th birthday party..... the blood....... The hotel with him and... a beautiful girl who I couldn't name.... Protecting Renesmee from me... Telling me he loves me... Saving me from Manny.

Manny.

She's why I'm here. Everything came rushing in..

I did, I mused. I saved Renesmee.

But now Jasper is going to try to save me...

No.

No.

He can't... he can not do that.

I need to open my eyes....

Slowly, two little crevices or light penetrated the black. Slowly, they became circles. Slowly, the burning brightness faded, and I could see.

See the face of my angels.

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"I love you." Jasper whispered. The river was roaring in my ears. I wouldn't have heard him if I hadn't of been looking at his lips.

"I love you more." I whispered. He grinned and leaned down to kiss me and I jerked away.

"What's wr-"

"Edward." I whispered.

"What do you mean?" He stared at me.

"He's here."

"Here? As in, right now, here?"

"No Jasper, he's here as in tomorrow. Yes right now!" I snapped, jerking around to stare at the spot where Edward was watching.

What do you want? I demanded, unblocking my mind.

"What do I want?" Edward said softly. stepping out of the trees. Jasper stiffened and bared his teeth. I pressed my hand to his chest.

"She isn't here." I whispered softly to him. I took one step away from Jasper, one towards Edward.

Where is she?

"I don't know.. Bella, I need to talk to you." his eyes were pleading.

I took a step forward, and so did Jasper. I turned to him. "Alone. Please. This is something I need to do."

"But-" I cut him off, kissing him lightly. "I love you."

"Be careful.." He turned away. Something inside me broke.

"Jasper.."

"Just go." He snapped. I turned and slowly walked to Edward.

What's going on?

"Shh. Not where he can hear us."

Your the one talking out loud.

My crooked smile crossed his face, for a moment. Wait, my smile?

"Yes, your right about that." the smile was gone, replaced by sadness.

"Well?" I demanded softly. Why wasn't I ripping him to shreds like I should be? He broke me..

But I love him.

Whoa. Where did that come from?

Well, when I thought about love in the... darkness, my unconscious mind produced Edward, not Jasper.

"Soulmate." he whispered, and kissed me.

Okay, I know I said fight this chapter, but the nest one is a fight for suree.