Chapter 6 is up!
Hope you enjoy xD
Disclaimer: I do not own Durarara! or it's characters. I only own Kyo Shizukane.
"Kyo, get down from there, or I swear I'm going to shake this tree until you fall." Shizuo shouted while I was picking up some fruits from the tree. Three months already passed and I finally know how to speak a lot of Japanese words.
"Just a little more…" I mumbled as I was trying to reach the fruits at the highest part of the tree. Little did I know that the branch was already too weak to handle my weight. Snap.
I fell down but Shizuo caught me. I giggled childishly at my clumsiness and recklessness. "Such an idiot, Kyo." He sighed as he put me down while I was still looking up at the branches blankly. "I would've got those fruits if that branch didn't collapse." I said.
"That's because you're fat." Shizuo muttered jokingly. I jabbed him on the stomach and he seemed to laugh at me. "That didn't even hurt a bit." He remarked. I frowned. If you're wondering why I act almost like a normal human now, well, that's because…
Flashback…
"Shinra, what are 'emotions'?" I finally asked Shinra after weeks of studying Japanese. At least I'm able to ask him about stuff like that now.
"They are the feelings that you feel at a certain event or situation. Why do you ask, Kyo?" he replied.
"I don't have them. I can't feel, Shinra. W-why?" I stuttered, wondering why I can't feel at certain occasions.
"Actually, Kyo, you have them. You just don't notice it." He explained. I tilted my head. "I've noticed it, Kyo. Before when we first met, your face had no emotions. You had a blank expression on your face. But as time went on, your face changed. It became more lively and expressive. I say, you look prettier now than before." He continued.
I smiled at him, knowing that maybe, I didn't notice it after all. I must've changed a lot in Shinra's eyes.
"Did Celty show you?" Shizuo asked. I looked at him, confused. "Show what?".
"Her… face? Did she show you?" I blinked twice at his question. "Celty-san doesn't have a face. In fact, she has no head." I said.
"Your eyes are different now." He said. Was he changing the subject or what? Why ask a random question?
"Huh?" I wonder how my face looked like with my eye twitching and my mouth hung agape. "It's nothing." Shizuo said. This guy is weird, not even continuing his statement.
We passed by a broken house while we were just hanging around the forest. This forest is located near Ikebukuro and it's perfectly safe, as Shizuo said. I looked at the house intently. It looks familiar somehow. Is it…?
"Sh-shizuo! I wanna go in that house!" I tugged his shirt. He looked at me with his ever-so-priceless expression. "Are you sure? Aren't you even scared? Or… are you even scared of anything?" he asked, looking confused. "Something tells me that I have to go in that house."
And so I won the argument again and we're inside the abandoned house. I looked around and there it was.
My father, still asleep. But then, I know a new word that fits him perfectly – dead. Lifeless and non-living. I shrugged at the thought. "Hey, Kyo. I actually didn't expect to see a corpse here, but aren't you even frightened?" Shizuo asked once more. He must be wondering if I ever get scared. But years of not feeling anything had made me almost oblivious to anything.
"Kyo? Hey, are you okay? If you're scared, let's just—" Shizuo stopped in the middle of his statement. He then cupped my face with his hands. "You're crying, Kyo."
I'm… crying? What… why is there water trailing down my face? Why does my chest hurt? Why do I feel so hurt? What is this?
I held my right hand to my chest. There's… somethinginside my chest. It hurts so much… it's actually… beating. Why is it beating? Is there something alive inside my chest?
"Shi-shizuo… there's something beating inside my chest. It hurts." I mumbled. Shizuo looked at me with surprised eyes. "What are you talking about, Kyo? That's your heart."
Heart? Flashbacks suddenly went inside me. The 'Kokoro' song that I sang three months ago, the 'heart' which is a program. A 'heart' is programmed inside of me? Why? I don't remember Father programming a 'heart' inside of me. So why is it here?
I collapsed in Shizuo's arms. He looked at me with wide eyes. "T-take me home, Shizuo. I don't want to be here. I… hate this place." I said, burying my face on his chest. He sighed. "Shh... stop crying. I told you not to come in here. I'll take you home."
As he was carrying me home, I kept on mumbling words like "I hate that place, I really, really hate it." I think I saw his lips curve upward. Why is he smiling?
"Such an idiot, Kyo. Going in an abandoned house and crying after seeing a corpse." He muttered. "So childish and annoying." I don't know if I should think of a clever retort or continue sobbing. What are these foggy and blurry images in my mind? Are these… my memories?
The images in my mind, the more I try to recall what they are, the more my 'heart' hurts. What happened to me exactly? I shouldn't have went in that house in the first place. But what confused me the most… why do I have a 'heart'?
My thoughts were all blurry and I'm getting dizzy. I couldn't think well, I can't even respond to Shizuo's statements anymore. As far as I know, I was slowly falling asleep.
I slowly opened my eyes to find my head resting on someone's lap. It took me a while to realize it was Celty's lap. She typed in her PDA as soon as I woke up.
"You okay? Shizuo said you had a shock after seeing a corpse."
I tried to stand up, though I still feel dizzy. "It's not that, Celty-san. It's just… well…" I tried to reply. Should I tell her? Should I… tell her what happened in my three years in that house? I've only known Celty for months.
She quickly typed in. "You can tell me about it, Kyo. I won't tell anyone. Not even Shinra or Shizuo." I thought for a moment. My life as both a daughter and test subject to my father is… too complicated. I don't think anyone would even believe me if I told them.
But Celty is a Dullahan. She's extraordinary like me, though she is more extraordinary. The only difference we have is that she acts more humane than I do. I was about to open my mouth to respond to her, but her PDA rang.
I waited for her attention but then she seemed to have received an important message.
"Sorry, Kyo. I need to get back to work. You can tell me tomorrow." Her PDA read. I nodded. She then went out.
Thoughts still went inside my head. Should I really tell her? I have to think about it. But will she believe me? Well, she is more extraordinary than me, but still… I look like a normal human in their eyes. An innocent human.
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The truth is, I'm not that humane as they thought…
It's finally done _
Sorry if it's... rushed... I wrote this an hour before going to worship service xD
Finally, truth is about to unfold in Kyo's life! :D :D
