Hey, sorry this actually has taken me forever to update, but a lot of stuff seems to have happened all close together, I think I've managed to get on the site once recently to post my untitled one and that's only 'cos that chapter was written even longer ago.
Did know what they were going to talk about but can't remember now so I'll just try and write and see what happens. Wish me luck.
"Sara," he said seriously. "We need to talk."
She took a deep breath and sat up a little straighter in the chair, trying to brace herself for whatever was about to come.
She saw him hesitate, still obvious unsure what to say and she longed to reach out to him, to take his hand, to tell him that everything was ok. But she didn't know it was going to be ok, she didn't know what he was going to say, and she didn't know if reaching for his hand would make it worse.
"Sara, you know I'm a very private person" he began and she nodded to indicate she was still listening, "I really do think this could work, but ... there's gonna be problems, there's the team, there's the age difference, there's both of our backgrounds and histories, there's going to be problems at work, it'll be awkward and I'm your boss which won't look good.
"I feel that we could be perfect together if we had the chance, but I need to know that if anything does happen we're both gonna be in it together. That you're going to be risking as much going into a relationship as me. That you won't quit the instant we run into an obstacle."
Sara couldn't decide whether to be offended or not, he'd basically just been implying that she only wanted a short fling with him, or that she'd quit, she knew there were going to be problems, but she'd been waiting for this chance for year, she'd been waiting for him for years, she wasn't going to let a bunch of logistics stand in her way.
She didn't know how to reply and knew he wouldn't want an unthoughtout answer, so she stayed silent, a silence which soon Grissom filled.
"Sara, I know you'd need to go slowly and learn to trust me due to your parents, and I'd need to go steady too. Since my father died I've never really let people in, let them into my lives and shown them all of the really me, it's almost become a bad habit that I've done for so long that it might take years to break it. And I don't want to be entirely open and show you how much I love you for you to then just walk away."
He suddenly realised Sara was staring at him and realised what he'd said.
"What did you say?" she asked.
"That I'm not used to letting people in."
"No, after that."
"After that?" he replied, voice rising slightly, the words had slipped out and it was too late to take them back, besides they were true, but he couldn't say it again, not now he was thinking about it.
Sara watched him for another moment as though she could read his thoughts.
"I love you too" she whispered.
A smile broke out on his face and slowly seemed to spread across it lighting all his features up in turn. He still couldn't bring himself to say the words now that he was thinking about them again, but he didn't need to, in that moment Sara saw clearly just how much he cared for her and loved her.
So maybe they'd done things in the wrong order, they'd told each other they loved each other before they'd even shared their first kiss, a fact which Grissom seemed to realise.
He leaned over the table quickly and gently pulled her head towards him with his hand. He paused an inch away from her face for a second allowing their eyes to meet, before he closed the distance and kissed her strongly.
It was everything that could be wanted in a kiss and Sara suddenly felt as though she was flying with the combination of everything.
Grissom surprised himself by standing up without breaking the kiss and pulling her in the direction of his bedroom and Sara was just too happy to care.
Everything finally seemed to be working out.
OK, planning to do one last closing chapter and then this will be finished, please review and let me know what you think considering this wasn't where the story was originally going.
