A/N: Since Stephenie Meyer already did such a great job in writing the wedding from Bella's POV I decided that this particular One Shot will be from EPOV, just to mix it up a little ;) So bare with me and tell me what you all think! :) The song I've used for this particular One Shot is When you say nothing at all by Ronan Keating, I really love this song, it's so beautiful! Enjoy and review ;)
When You Say Nothing At All
Today was the day I was going to become the happiest man in the world. I was marrying my beautiful Bella. I had spent the entire night at my bachelor party, nothing special, just hanging out with my two brothers, having fun. We were still joking around when we entered the house. I noticed her smell immediately, my bride was already here. I hadn't been paying attention to anything else around me so Emmett caught me by surprise when he spoke.
"Edward, I know that it was your last night as a free man and everything but you're marrying Bella so there's not need for you to mope around like you've been doing the entire night. After all, you were the one who asked her to marry you remember?" he said loud enough so he was sure Bella could here. I was shocked.
I had been talking about nothing but how happy I was that I was finally going to be able to call that beautiful creature mine officially. And Emmett knew just as well as anyone that Bella was nervous for the wedding and had been having some doubts about my love for her. This was just plain evil! I would have to talk to her and explain to her that my jerk of a big brother was just messing around. I glared at him and let out a loud hiss.
His booming laugh filled the entire house before he yelled "Just kidding Bella, no need to worry, little Eddy has been driving Jazz and me crazy with all his happy rambling." He winked at me and I couldn't help but laugh a little. Emmett would be Emmett. Then I rolled my eyes and got ready to dash upstairs and see my love. I was halfway up the stairs when I noticed an angry Alice standing there, glaring at me.
"And what exactly are planning to do?" she asked angrily.
"See my bride, what else?"
"Oh no, not until the actual wedding you won't! It's bad luck. Go make yourself useful somewhere else! Shoo!" It was clear that she wasn't going to step aside without a fight… "Don't even think about it! I will rip your head off!" she told me menacingly.
"Fine," I grumbled, but this was going to be the last time she was going to keep me from Bella, after that I will never let her be alone with her again, just to get back at her.
I knew she had seen my plan in her mind and was now thinking You wouldn't do that to me Edward! You know you love me too much, besides… Bella likes hanging out with me! I stuck my tongue out at her before walking downstairs to go find Esme and see if she needed help with anything.
I ran into Carlisle on the way to the kitchen.
"Hi son, how are you feeling? Cold feet?" he joked.
"Always," I winked, "but I'm nothing but excited to finally marry Bella!"
"Good, I was wondering if we could have a talk before you go into the kitchen and help out your mom set things up?"
"Sure dad, what do you want to talk about?"
"Lets go to my study, it's more quiet," he suggested. I was wondering what he wanted to talk about with me, especially if it would be important enough to go to the study, but his thoughts gave away nothing.
We walked to the study in silence and when we were there Carlisle sat down in his usual chair behind his desk and motioned for me to take the seat in front of it.
"Am I in trouble?" I asked smilingly. It felt like I was being called into the principal's office.
My dad smiled, "no of course not son, I just wanted to discuss some details of what you're about to do with you."
"Alright," I said hesitantly.
"I overheard Alice and you talking earlier, when she discussed Bella's plans for the honeymoon, now I know that you'll have some questions about that and I just wanted to let you know that I'm here for you."
Alice had foreseen that Bella wanted to have a real honeymoon with me, including a wedding night the traditional way, consummating the marriage. I wasn't sure if it would turn out fine. Sure Alice had assured me everything would be more than okay for the both of us but she had been deliberate not to think too much about the details. I thanked her for that, I didn't want my most intimate moment to be shared with my sister in full detail. For the first time I understood exactly how my siblings must feel whenever I'm near them. It must not be very pleasant.
"Well, I just don't know what to expect, I haven't had this experience when I was human and now it's even worse because I'm so many times stronger than Bella is and I could hurt or kill her so easily." The thought was too much to bare. "But it seems that Bella has had her heart said on this one human experience, although we haven't really discuss it, but Alice's vision was pretty clear. Which means that I'm not going to deny her what she wants either." It surprised me how easy it was to talk about this with Carlisle, I didn't really see him as my father right now, he was my friend, my equal. I was glad and thankful that I could always count on him, as well as the rest of my family for that matter.
"I see. Well, for vampires it is indeed different than for humans and I haven't come across any vampire who has had intercourse with a human he was in love with so I can't tell you exactly how it's all going to work out. But for a vampire, making love to his mate is more powerful than anything in the whole world. It changes you for good. It's a wonderful experience and it feels like you lose control completely."
"That's what I'm afraid of, what if I lose control when I'm with Bella? I could hurt her! We shouldn't do this, we should wait until after she's changed." I didn't want to wait but it seemed I didn't have a choice, I wasn't going to risk Bella's life like this.
"Are you sure Bella can wait for another couple of years? If she's already ready right now, it's going to be very difficult to convince her otherwise especially if you want her to wait for what would feel like a lifetime to a human before you can give her what she wants. And she wants to have this experience as a human right? Since she's afraid being a vampire will change her priorities and feelings." He made very good points. "Besides, do you think you can wait that long? When you know she is ready for it?" He smiled at me, he was teasing me.
"I'm not sure dad, I don't really know what to do here, I want to give her what she wants more than anything but it's dangerous."
"Son, I've never seen anyone with as much control as you have. You've been with her and close to her, holding her and kissing her, for so long now, I am very confident that, if anyone, you'll be able to do it," Carlisle told me sincerely.
"Thank you dad, I'll consider it carefully."
"I think the best thing for you to do is talk to Bella, tell her your fears and work it out together, you two are so close you'll be able to figure it out." He had so much faith in me, faith I was sure I didn't deserve.
"Thanks, I will."
"Now, as for the marriage, I wanted to talk to you about that briefly as well if you don't mind?"
"Sure, what is it you want to discuss?"
"I know I'm not your biological father and I'm not sure what is customary for our kind, but I would just like to discus what marriage entails, even though I know you're well aware of most of the things, I still feel it's my duty to discuss some of the finer points with you." My dad had a look on his face that told me he would blush if he could. "I have also discussed all of this with your siblings before their first marriage but for them it was different, they were, first of all, marrying their own kind, so certain problems I'm sure you'll have to face eventually were not an issue for them, and they hadn't had the kind of relationship that you do with Bella, they had had some ups and downs but not like the two of you." Images from all the conversations he had had with Alice, Jasper, Rosalie and finally Emmett rushed through his mind and he was showing me their responses and the words he had told them all individually. He smiled when he had remembered the conversation he had had with Emmett. The rest of my siblings had been easy, they had accepted his words and took his advice and knew that it was important to Carlisle to get this conversation over with before the wedding. But Emmett had been particularly difficult. He had had the same feeling I had had before walking into the study, like I was being called to the principal because I did something wrong, but for Emmett, the feeling had lasted throughout the entire conversation and at the end of the conversation he wasn't even sure if he would be 'husband material' anymore after all Carlisle had told him. He had been unusually quiet and uncomfortable throughout the entire conversation.
Carlisle chuckled and I couldn't help but laugh with him. It was funny to see my big brother so insecure for a change. Of course he had made a perfect husband to Rosalie and he had always been so sure of himself that it was just entertaining to see that those encouraging words from Carlisle had been the exact thing needed to break through his brave exterior.
Carlisle brought me out of my laughing mood with his thoughts when he changed back to the conversation we were having. I won't repeat the words I told them about marriage to you, I would just like to discuss the extra difficulties you might have with Bella. If you don't mind that is.
I nodded.
"Good, you want Bella to stay human for a while right?" He knew the answer perfectly well but he still wanted me to confirm it.
"Yes, preferably as long as possible."
"But you do intent on living with her after the two of you are married I assume?" Again he knew the answer but he was building up to his story so I played along.
"Yes, that's the plan."
"Then I see it as my duty to inform you about the dangers that can come with that, although I'm sure you've thought it all out very well, I would still like to summarize it for you, so I can clear up some of the questions I know you have been dealing with for quite a while in your mind." I just nodded. "Bella is very fragile compared to us, it is one thing to be with her most of your time but still have an escape to your own home every once in a while when it gets too overwhelming but actually living with her, no need to come home to change or get something or anything of the sort, is a different story. I'm not saying you won't be welcome here anymore, of course we would love for you, both of you, to still think of this house, and us with it, as your home too. But when you're living in the same house you'll always be around her, and you'll be comfortable around her, it's easy to fall into the same pattern you have in this house then, using your supernatural abilities on a daily basis. This makes it easier for you to slip up as well. Like I said, Bella is fragile and one wrong move can end pretty badly for her." I flinched. "I'm sorry to say it because I know it's hard for you and I know you're well aware of the dangers but I still think it might help you."
"You know that's one of the most prominent problem I have dealt with regarding our matrimony." I was glad I would get the chance to talk about this with my dad before the wedding.
"Now that I've told you what might happen, let me tell you what will happen, I trust you son, as does Bella, we have faith in you and I'm sure that you will be very capable of controlling yourself, you have been able to resist much stronger urges in the past when it came to Bella and this will be something I am sure you can handle perfectly well." He smiled at me serenely. I did not deserve the credit he gave me but his words helped me relax a lot. My father would never lie to me or try to sugarcoat something, mostly because I would read it in his mind as well and right now his thoughts were on the same page as his words, so I knew he was speaking the truth. It was a relief to hear these words.
"You give me much credit, but I feel more comfortable because of your faith in me, thank you for that."
"You deserve it son. Just like you deserve to be happy and I have never seen you this happy before, for that reason I know that you'll do the right thing and make it work with Bella." I smiled at him thankfully. "That was the main difficulty I wanted to discuss with you, we have discussed intercourse already, so I don't know if there is anything else you wanted to know or ask or get off your chest before you need to get dressed?"
"I just want you to know that even if Bella and I move out of this house, we haven't really discuss where we are going to live, I will always see this as my home too, you are truly the best family I could have wished for, and I love every single one of my family members." I smiled at Carlisle, this man had meant so much to me in the past and he had always been there for me, even though I knew he knew exactly how dearly I loved him, I still felt the need to thank him for everything he has done. "And I wanted to thank you, for your support and love throughout our long existence together, you have made me the man I am today and thanks to you it is possible for me to be with my Bella, so thank you."
Carlisle looked like he would have tears in his eyes if that would have been possible and he stood up from his chair, I did the same, then he walked over to me and gave me a hug. "You're very welcome son, I'm glad you finally are the man I always hoped and knew you would be someday, happy and whole."
Then it was time for me to go look for Esme and see if she needed any help with anything. When I found her the look on her face told me she had heard every word of the conversation with Carlisle. She looked like she would have been in tears as well. She was sobbing quietly so I walked over to her to give her a hug. "You are truly the best mom I could have hoped for." I kissed her cheek and she smiled.
"I love you son, I'm so glad you've found Bella, she has changed you in such a positive way," she told me sincerely.
"Thank you," was my only reply.
"Now, I don't need any more help with this, you should go upstairs and find your brothers, they are changing and I'm afraid they'll make a mess of their clothes if they get into yet another one of their discussions. Besides, it's time for you to get dressed as well honey, it's almost time."
I did as she said and went upstairs to find Emmett and Jasper. They were goofing around in Emmett's bedroom. They weren't even close to being dressed. When I walked in they froze, guilty looks on their faces. They had expected Esme. I laughed loudly.
"Oh, it's just you, Esme would kill us if she saw us right now," Emmett was the first to unfreeze. Jasper followed quickly after that and started laughing.
"Don't make me come up there." We heard Esme's warning voice from downstairs and within a second Emmett and Jasper were both dressed. I smiled.
"Sorry mom," both of them said apologetically.
"It's alright, now go help your brother get ready," she commanded.
"If you put on his pants, socks and shoes, I'll put on his shirt and jacket. We'll do rock-paper-scissors over who's allowed to do his tie, deal?" Emmett said jokingly to Jasper.
"I'm perfectly capable of dressing myself, thank you very much," I told Emmett while shooting him a mock glare.
"Are you sure? Not shaking too much from pre-wedding jitters?" Emmett joked.
"No, I'm not nervous at all, I can't wait to marry Bella," I knew he wasn't looking for a real answer, he was trying to provok me, but I couldn't help share my happiness with my brothers again, even though I'd done nothing but sare my happiness with them from the moment my bachelor party had started.
"He truly is relaxed and not nervous at all," Jasper announced serenely, "I'm happy for you Edward, you've been alone for way too long, and I've never felt these sorts of emotions from you. It's a nice change I have to admit," Jasper told me while winking at me.
"Well, we should get this monkey dressed before the waterworks start coming," Emmett told us jokingly, but I could see in his thoughts that he was really touched and happy that I found Bella and was finally marrying her. He too had been worried about me before I had found Bella, that I would never find a mate and be as happy as he was with Rosalie. There had been numerous occasions where he had tried to set me up with some of the Denali sisters. I couldn't help myself and just had to tease my brother for showing that he cared for me.
I slowly walked over to where Emmett was standing, Jasper didn't know what I was going to do but he felt my change in emotion and was anticipating something good, I stood in front of Emmett and I looked at him with my most loving smile, he looked scared of what I was about to do, he was even considering running away so I had to be quick. I held out my arms and hugged my brother tightly to my chest.
"Dude! What the hell?! Enough with the girly stuff already! Sjees!" He said while trying to wrestle free. I let him struggle for a bit but he was stronger than I was and before I knew it I was halfway across the room. I was a little disoriented and looked at Emmett in mock surprise.
"What is it?" I asked innocently, "Can't I give my big brother, who I love so much, a hug to show him my appreciation?"
Emmett rolled his eyes at me, he didn't have any clever response ready, he was shocked it wasn't long before we both looked over at Jasper. He was rolling on the floor of laughter, desperately grabbing his stomach to hold himself together. Then Emmett and I bursted out in laughter as well and it took us a while to recover. But when we finally did it was time to get ready. We had a wedding to attend to.
I got dressed and the three of us walked downstairs chatting happily. Esme gasped when she noticed us on the stairs.
"Oh, my boys clean up so well!" She gushed before snapping a picture of us with a camera. "You're all so handsome, I'm so proud!" She was sincere but I couldn't help laughing a bit still. Emmett and Jasper quickly joined in with chuckles and Esme smiled as well.
"Well, we don't have much time, go stand at your assigned spots, Carlisle is already waiting for you there, just like the rest of the guest I might add. So hurry up! We don't want to keep the bride waiting now do we?" she asked playfully.
"No mom, we certainly do not." I gave my mother a hug and quickly walked over to my place next to Carlisle, my best man.
I couldn't wait to see Bella coming down those stairs and walking down the aisle to become my wife. I was almost combusting with anticipation.
I heard everyone's thoughts running through my head, combined with my own thoughts, which were all over the place by now. I felt a wave of calm hitting me and I looked over to Jasper, he was smiling at me while raising one of his eyebrows. I chuckled, shrugged and then smiled back at him thankfully. He winked.
That's when I noticed everyone turning their heads toward the beginning of the aisle and everything around me went silent. There she was, my beautiful bride. She was walking next to Charlie, both of them supporting each other. She looked insecure and nervous, she hated being the center of attention. But when her eyes found mine all the insecurity and nervousness disappeared and a breathtaking smile took their place on her face instead. She looked glorious. It made my head swim. That beautiful creature was marrying me. I was the happiest man on the face of the Earth.
When she finally reached me Charlie shook my hand and placed Bella's hand in mine after he hugged her. I was home. She was still smiling at me, both of us unable to look away, when Angela's father began speaking. After we had both repeated after the minister, he said the words that made me happier than I had ever felt before.
"I now pronounce you husband and wife." Followed by "You may kiss the bride."
Nobody had to tell me that twice. When her lips found mine both of us were overwhelmed by passion and love, it took some coughs and laughter before we were able to break free and join our families and friends for hugs and greetings.
The evening was a great success so far and everyone was having fun. It was time for the traditional first dance and I walked over to my beautiful wife, oh how I loved being able to say these words, to ask her for a dance. She willingly went with me as they started to play the song I had requested. I'd had a hard time choosing between this song and "I've had the time of my life" since that was the first song we had ever danced to and it signified the beginning of our relationship. But I had decided on this song because it was more appropriate for a wedding dance and it portrayed so very clearly the way Bella made me feel.
"This song reminds me so much of the effect you have on me all the time," I whispered while we were swirling across the room.
Bella's smile was breathtaking.
"I love you, Mrs. Cullen." The smile that broke across my face was so big I was afraid it might stay there permanently, it sounded so good to finally call my Bella that. Her expression mirrored my own as she too broke down in smiles.
"I love you too, my lovely husband." I was her husband, I was on top of the world and I would probably never come down.
There was one particular part of the song that spoke to me very clearly, especially after the way her appearance had silenced all the voices in my head, including my own.
All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
I sang along with the lyrics while looking at the breath-taking woman in my arms. She smiled at me, she knew exactly what I meant. She kissed me and we continued dancing and kissing until the song ended. It was time to mingle some more with the rest of the guests. However, the thought of returning to my Bella at the end of the evening and finally starting our life together had my head swimming throughout the entire party.
When you say nothing at all – Ronan Keating
It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I can never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing
The smile on your face let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all
All day long I can hear people talking out loud (oh)
But when you hold me near (oh, hold me near)
You drown out the crowd (drown out crowd)
Try as they may, they can never defy
What's been said between your heart and mine
The smile on your face let me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all-oh
Oh, the smile on your face let's I know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best, when you say nothing at all
You say it best, when you say nothing at all
You say it best, when you say nothing at all
(The smile on your face)
You say it best, when you say nothing at all
(The truth in your eyes)
(The touch of your hand)
You say it best, when you say nothing at all
(Let me know that you need me)
You say it best, when you say nothing at all (nothing at all)
You say it best, when you say nothing at all (nothing at all)
You say it best, when you say nothing at all (nothing at all)
A/N: Well this has to be my longest One Shot so far. I really enjoyed writing from Edward's Point of View and I hope you enjoyed reading it. The next One Shot will be about the wedding night so stay tuned!;) and while you're waiting, don't forget to review ;) Xxx
