The Lyoness
"Ma, what's wrong?" Mal asked me as we coasted along towards the white party venue... Your got damn daddy is what I started to say, but I held my tongue and reserved my true feelings for another time. "Nothing baby." I told him instead, I missed the board meeting today just so I wouldn't have to deal with Lucious...I'd probably kill his ass if I saw him right about now but tonight I have no choice. "Come on Ma, you know you can talk to me right. You ain't been yourself lately, I know something's going on with you." He lovingly continued to push me for answers.
"Mal, baby I'm fine...mama's a big girl, don't you worry bout me okay." I stated while cupping his cheek in my palm to reassure him. He turned his head, glanced out of the window, then back over at me, "I know you're a big girl, but you've always had my back...let me be here for you now. I know something is up...did dad do something to you?" He continued. Here he goes, the boy has radar or something about me and my feelings, but there's no way in hell I can tell him that we slept together...he'd be so disappointed in me considering all that Lucious has put me through.
I love my baby so much, he's always trying to look out for me...even while I was away he put money on my books and made sure to keep me in the loop about he and his brothers. He's such a perfect mix of me and his father, he has it all, but dumb ass Lucious won't admit it. "Mal, focus on the song baby. Once you and your brother debut it tonight I just know it's gonna be a hit...we might even add it as a bonus track on your album." I spat in his direction as my best attempt to divert his attention away from my feelings and change the subject.
We pulled up onto the scene before he could interject...Thank God, I thought to myself as the driver opened my door and helped me down...I'm in no mood for having to defend my actions tonight. Once we stepped inside there were people everywhere, this event's being held to raise money for the Lucious Lyon Music Foundation, so it's jammed packed with celebrities and influential folks from wall to wall.
As Jamal and I made our way up the stairs he stopped to tie his shoe, I checked my makeup in my compact just to be sure it was still on point in case a photographer caught me off guard or something...suddenly I heard all the paparazzi begin to shout and flashbulbs started popping like firecrackers. "LUCIOUS...LUCIOUS...MR. LYON, THIS WAY...THIS WAY." They continued vying for his attention. Ugh, I rolled my eyes with my back to him...damn we should have just kept on moving, the little voice in my head said.
I slowly turned around, there his ass was with Anika on his arm looking like he was the damn Bishop at the Church of God in Christ...Ugh, I can't stand that damn fool. I looped my arm back through Mal's when he stood up as Lucious and his kitten posed for pictures. While my son and I walked by Lucious' eyes met mine and he continued to follow my frame across the floor as they stood there. HUH, the hell he gawking at me for...he should be more focused on his fiancé instead of eyeballing me like he's miserable...shit, he chose her and now he needs to live with it, this bakery is closed for business.
I AM NOT, gonna be there for him to drive bye fuck on demand in the dark, while he flaunts Similac guzzling, fake ass Hallie Berry round town like Malibu Barbie or some shit. Hell Nah, Not I, I said to myself as I checked my coat with the attendant and noticed as Jamal looked over at his father then back at me. I didn't look back over at Lucious, instead I grabbed a glass of champagne from the server walking by and took a sip from my glass.
We stood posted at the top of the steps, Mal slowly faced me with his head cocked to the side, he moved in closer to me so that only I could hear what he was getting ready to say before he broke the silence between us, his voice barely above a whisper. "OH. MY. GOD. Y'all slept together?" He spat out...Oh Hell... "Boy quit playin, I don't know what you talking bout." I said hoping that my chuckle would help disguise the truth, I avoided his eyes, and took a gulp from my glass. "Y'all Did, didn't you? You two hittin? Ma, come on...dad hasn't taken his eyes off of you since we walked by and that would explain why you've been acting super strange...so just tell me." He probed while staring down into my eyes.
I took a deep breath, looked up at him, my hand resting on the rail against the wall... "Fine...Yes we slept together aight. You happy now?" His eyes got wide at my admission. "Let's just forget it okay...it was a dumb mistake on my part and I'm over it now." I admitted, Mal sucked his teeth while standing next to me, "Yeah, if you say so." He looked over at his father once more then back in my direction, while grabbing his own drink.
"Well, I hear you Ma but from the looks of it, YOU might be over it, but DAD is definitely not." He retorted as we started to descend the stairs, I glanced back over my shoulder and sure enough Lucious' eyes instantly locked on me again as he and Anika stood talking with some other guest. I swiftly turned around as we continued our descent towards the main party... Oh well, that's his problem not mine...Fuck Lucious. I told myself while sashaying out of his view.
