Randy woke up and looked down at Christy. He didn't know how she kept being raped bottled up inside all these years. He knew it took a lot for her to tell him. He hoped she'd let him help her through it. He wanted to help her in any way he could. He felt so much guilt. If only he had still been there. He felt like he let it happened. Christy didn't deserve what happened to her. In Randy's eyes she was beautiful she was perfect. He was going to do everything he could to make it up to her. He felt her move she looked up at him.

"Hi." She said.

"Hi."

"Thank you for staying."

"You're welcome." She sat up. "How do you feel?"

"Bad." "I feel like now that you know nothing's gonna be the same."

"Christy it's not your fault." He grabbed her hand. "I told you I'm gonna be here I promise." She looked at him.

"Did you mean what you said last night?" "Do you love me Randy?"

"Yes Christy, I love you." "I think I always have I was just to young to realize it." "Do you love me?"

"Honestly I don't know." "I know I have feelings for you." "I'm just confused about what they mean." "This is all new for me." "I'm sorry I know that's not the answer you wanted."

"No it's ok."

"So?" "Where do we go from here?"

"I'd like to give dating a try."

"You mean where I'm your girlfriend and you're my boyfriend?" "Or just dating like going out somewhere?"

"The first one."

"Are you sure you want to?"

"Yeah."

"I don't know." "I want to but if we did it wouldn't be fair to you."

"What wouldn't be fair to me?"

"Do you really want to be with someone who most nights yells and screams in her sleep?" "Who wakes up in the middle of the night shaking?" "Who has to take pills for anxiety?"

"I don't care about any of that." "I want to be with you."

"Even if I don't want and don't know if I could ever have sex with you?" "I know you Randy you can't do no sex at all." "You like it to much."

"What kind of guy do you think I am?"

"The kind of guy that likes sex like every guy in the world." "There's nothing wrong with that." "I'm sure it's enjoyable for you and that's why you like it."

"If agreeing to no sex is what it takes to get you to go out with me fine, no sex at all."

"I can't ask you to do that for me."

"You're not asking me I want to do this."

"Are you absolutely, positively, one-hundred percent sure about this?"

"Yes."

"Ok." "I'll be your girlfriend."

"Good." She kissed him. "Ok good I'm still allowed to kiss you." She laughed.

"Yes you're still allowed to kiss me."

"Can I right now?"

"Yeah." He kissed her very slowly.

"It only took us what ten years to get here?" He said laughing. "It's ok though I think I finally found someone who will treat me right and love me for who I am."

"Oh my god I can't believe you remembered I said that."

"Of course I remember I remember everything about that day."

"Do you remember when you picked me up and threw me in the water?"

"Yeah."

"I should've have known that something was up that night." "I cried for weeks, um I mean I really missed you."

"Aw you cried I'm sorry." "I wanted to tell you Christy, I really did but I couldn't."

"It's ok." "Did you ever want to sleep with me back then?"

"I can tell you the truth or I can lie." "Which one do you want?"

"The truth."

"Yeah I did."

"Why didn't you ever try to?"

"One reason was because I thought you were to young."

"What were the other reasons?"

"Well I didn't want anything between us to change and if we would of slept together it would have."

"You should have tried."

"You would have let me?"

"Yeah I wanted to just like you did."

"Christy have you ever thought about going to the police and telling them what happened?"

"No."

"I think you should."

"I don't want anybody to know about it." "I'm ashamed."

"You can't let him get away with this."

"He already has he's taken everything from me." "My self-respect, my dignity, the feeling of being safe, my virginity." She started to cry when she said the last thing. Randy hugged her.

"I'm sorry baby I won't bring it up anymore." "I do think you should get some help." "Maybe you should go to a rape crisis center." "Maybe they could help you through your nightmares."

"Maybe your right, I'll think about it."

"Ok." "Will you be ok if I go?"

"Yeah."

"I'm gonna go then."

"I'll walk you to the door." They got off the bed and walked to the door.

"I'll call you later ok."

"Ok." She hugged him. "Thank you."

"You know I'm always here when you need me."

"I know."

"Do I get a kiss before I leave?"

"Yeah." They kissed. "Bye honey."

"Bye." He left.

A few days later Christy walked into a rape crisis center in Pittsburgh. She explained to a woman named Lindsay what happened. They were sitting in her office.

"Have you told anyone else about the attack?" Lindsay asked.

"Just my boyfriend."

"How long have you been together?"

"Three days but we've known each other eleven years." "I have a question." "Is it normal to be afraid of sex after a rape."

"Yes it's very common." "Do you have flashbacks while trying to do sexual activity?"

"Yes." "I don't know why." "I know my boyfriend won't hurt me." "I can't even have sex with him."

"It may take a long time but your mind will eventually not think about that during sexual activity." "Eventually you'll be able to go back to normal sexual activity."

"I've never had sex before."

"You do know you're still a virgin right?"

"What how can that be possible?"

"You're virginity is something you give away it can't be taken from you." "So when you're ready share it with someone special." "I'd like to meet with you and your boyfriend."

"I'll have to check with him he's out of town a lot and so am I."

"I know it took a lot of courage to come here." "I'll see you when you can make it again." "Call me if you need to talk."

"Thank you."