Disclaimer: Still do not own NCIS, though I would love to just have the writers ears for a day. This is just for fun, though I try to keep in Cannon of what we know about Ziva from the show up to Season 5 episode 11

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November 12 1986

I had my 13th birthday today. Ari came as promised; he got me a book on Paris and the underground. I laughed as it just goes to our secret that Paris will be our place to meet when we are in Mossad together. He said he wants me to memorize all I can about Paris and then this summer he and Aunt Nettie and I can go touring the tunnels.

Dad called he is on a mission and could not come. So much for him being home more, however it is much better to be away from school. However I think he is taking the missions because we are gone.

Tali was very quiet while Ari was here. I can not get her to tell what happen with her and Ari. Tali got me a walkman she said it is really popular in America according to her friends. She also got me a couple CD's and I am enjoying the music while I study.

Well I need to call Daddy and give a report on my mission. Daddy says I am Ari's personal controller so it is my job to let him know about his friends and what he is doing. Daddy said Ari trust me and will tell me things he will not tell others. I asked Dad who my controller is; he laughed and said I did not need a controller.

I told Dad about his friends from the UK and Bahrain. I decided not to tell him about all what they were talking about. Some part of me inside said I needed not to give that information yet, well not until I had more information.

Dad also arranged for me to start private piano lessons, I played some when mom was alive. Now I can learn properly I am very excited.


February 23 1987

Ok, I have really got to find time for me. I am so busy with school I have no time to even write in my Diary. I actually miss writing in here, I wish I could reduce my course load however Dad would be upset with me.

Ari and I went to Paris for a week during Winter break and saw Aunt Nettie and toured various portions of the underground tunnels. I got to learn how the Allies used the tunnels to help defeat the Nazi's and how the Nazi's also hid in the tunnels.

I asked Ari more about his friends. He told me they were just friends and no one to be concerned about. He assured me that they were safe. I told him I was worried he seems to have changed a lot. He laughed and told me I was just a young girl, I reminded him I was a woman according to Jewish Law. He said I was still just a young girl and should enjoy life. Aunt Nettie whispered he was just jealous because I was so observant.

Dad took Tali on a trip to America during the week we were gone. She said it was so cold and she did not like that. She also enjoyed the National Zoo and picked up a various amount of stuffed animals. She is such a baby, it is hard to believe she is now 9, she acts a lot younger. Though Ari says I just act older.

Ari is enjoying medical school. He said when he is finished he wants to go back and work in Gaza with his mother, she is also a Doctor. I am curious how mom felt about Ari? Mom and Dad were married only year when Ari was born. Ari's mom is also Muslim he follows her religion however he is going into Mossad. I would like to ask Dad but I know he will never tell me the truth.

Well, Dad calls me and asks about the conversations I am having with Ari, I give him information I think he needs. I decided not to tell him about the threat he made to Tali especially since she still has not told me what he said.


June 12 1987

Only two weeks of school left. I have never been so excited for the year to end. I am going met Aunt Nettie and Ari in Paris then we are going to go tour various countries. I am not sure which ones yet. I know we are going to Spain and Portugal then Aunt Nettie said we are just going to drive and see all we can see. We are doing this for three weeks. Then I am heading back to Tel-Aviv and spend rest of the summer with Tali.

Dad is now the head of some team of special ops. I can not remember what he called them however now he no longer gets to go in the field. He is letting Tali come back to Tel Aviv for school. She is so excited; she keeps begging me to also return.

Dad told me if I wanted I can also stay with him in Tel Aviv and he would be very happy. He just said we both need to give him a chance to learn how to be a dad again. I am thinking about it. However I do like the challenge I get here at the school.

The last few months at school have been challenging. I am getting the highest marks possible in all my classes. Ari though has told me I need to work on learning new accents so I can not be located based on my accent. So I am now working hard on using various accents. Ari almost at times sounds American, then he can switch and sound British, his French accent is horrid though. I have a decent French accent however it may help most of my classmates are French.

I am going to take a basic computer class next year. I guess I will be staying here, I feel bad for Tali she will be home with just Dad who is not always the best company. However she was always the favorite, so maybe it will be good for her and him.


July 19 1987

Have I ever said how much I love Aunt Nettie? Well she is the best Aunt in the world. She is so much for she made Ari puke twice as we drove through the Alps the other day. I love the way she drives fast, the autobahn was so much fun with her. Aunt Nettie teased Ari and asked how he kept from puking when he rides his motorcycle. I did not know he had one, tell she mentioned it.

Ari promised he would take me on a motorcycle ride before our trip ends we just have to rent one. I am so excited about that.

Aunt Nettie has been teaching about Nazi Germany and how terrorism has always been around just under a variety of names. She then gave us a lesson on how Mossad has been an important part of finding the Nazi war criminals and brining them to justice.

Aunt Nettie also told us once you are Mossad you are always Mossad no matter what even after retirement. I asked her if she ever killed anyone. She looked at me and told me I was old enough for the real answer. I looked at her and she explained how she had killed more than she cared to count. She said it was to protect Israel. I asked if she regretted it. She looked me in the eye and said NO.

I am not sure if I could kill someone. What if it was someone I cared about? Interrogating someone and using force was one thing however I am not sure about murder.

Well August 1st we head back to Israel. Ari, Aunt Nettie and I will celebrate his 18th birthday in Greece.

Ari and I have talked about various places we visited and places that would be safe or not safe if you were in hiding. Aunt Nettie said she was impressed with our choices and agreed with them. She again said we were going to make fine Mossad officers when we were done with school.


August 5 1987

I am back in Tel Aviv now, Tali was so excited to see me. She has informed me she is also returning to boarding school because she wants to see me more than just a couple times a year again. I am kinda happy she is returning, she is fun to go shopping with and to just talk with. She does not talk about Mossad or bombings she talks about fashion and fun stuff that makes you think the world is fine.

Dad seems to be happier he is taking us out shopping and to the beach and just all around treating us like children. He has not pushed more for more information regarding Ari. I think he trusts me to tell him what he needs to know.

Dad is gonna take us to England the week before school starts to visit Grandma (mom's mom) we have not see her since Mom died. Though she has called and sent presents and cards. I am excited to see her.

The rest of the trip in Europe was great. Ari took me on a motorcycle, my new love. Aunt Nettie said we looked like quite the team. She then told us how it was an assassin's choice for get away vehicles. I wonder if she did that when she was an assassin.


September 3 1987

We are on a flight back to Switzerland. The visit with Grandma was fantastic; she has aged so much since we saw her last. Dad encouraged her to move to Tel Aviv where he could help care for her, and she could see us when we were on school breaks. She finally gave in and agreed to move back to Tel Aviv. Dad is having an apartment built onto the house for her. She is staying in my room until it is done.

Tali is already making arrangements for Winter break to head to Tel Aviv to spend with Grandma.

Classes start in three days this barely gives us time to unpack and visit with our friends. Marsi is till at school, she is doing well. We are both looking at going to University in Israel however she has told she is not going into Mossad.

Ari has not contacted me since we separated at the Airport in Tel Aviv. I have a weird feeling something is wrong. I just can not put a hand on it though.

Aunt Nettie is going to come skiing in a few weeks with Tali and I. I can not wait to go skiing with her.

This year in school I am taking English and French Literature and writing. Dad said I need to focus on just the two languages for now. I am taking algebra 2 I hope it is better than algebra I. Dad signed me up for intro to computers, what does he think I am a geek? That would be Tali spoiled child extraordinaire.


October 5 1987

Aunt Nettie was so much fun to go skiing with. Tali and I both could hardly keep up with her. She is taking Tali and I to go sailing in a few weeks. I asked where she said it was a surprise.

Ari called he is coming with his friends again for another ski trip; he invited me to join them if I wanted. He said two of them were all ready in Mossad and it would be a good opportunity to learn what happens and what we need to know from someone on the inside that was new. I am not sure if I want to go, Tali is begging me not to go. I told him it depended what weekend as I was going on a trip with Tali and Aunt Nettie. He said he would call me back and let me know.

Dad is doing well he is coming this next weekend to visit with Tali and I. Yep, skiing again. He said he has a surprise for us why do I not trust this surprise?

Marsi and I are in Literature together. Marsi has been very quiet though I think something maybe wrong at home. I have tried to get her to talk, however she is not talking about it. I know she is like me and likes to keep personal stuff bottled up, I hope she is also keeping a diary so it does not eat her inside. I must admit being able to write makes things easier at times.

School well, I am doing well, however Tali is not. I am helping her study for her classes and checking her homework for her daily. I think she is just not wanting to try. She says it is because she did not inherit dad's brain like Ari and I did. She is right she has mom's brain a very caring and loving and compassionate brain. Ohh she forgave Ari and life is back to the way it was. I am still Ari's favorite sister though and Tali is my favorite sister.