A/N: As always thank you to everyone who has read or reviewed this story. It means a lot and makes me want to continue to the story. I was happy to see that a lot of people do read my author's notes. Thanks! So most people wanted this to stay Blackwater and I want it to be also, but I make no promises, I think you guys all know that stories don't always go the way you expect! Ok so the password for this chapter is Shadow. Summer is almost here so I will probably update more often (hopefully)!

Nathan pov:

Nessie had come up with a plan. And as always I followed it and helped her with it. It was a simple plan and hardly glamorous. In all actuality it would probably hurt me and be painful for me to do. Of course Nessie would be fine. If Nessie wouldn't be fine I would never do the plan. No matter how twisted and cruel she may be I love her. I love her enough to ignore her flaws and to do this plan that will undoubtedly hurt me.

What I need to do is tell the Cullen's my power. I will tell them I could have gotten Leah back but I didn't. I will tell them that I purposely killed Leah. I will also tell them that I killed Jake. I don't know what their reactions will be. They'll probably be appalled and disappointed and then they will kick me out.

The Cullen's had become like my family and I didn't want to be kicked out. But if Nessie said this was all for the bigger part of the plan then it was. Yes it is foolish to believe her so blindly, I know that. But I have a feeling this plan might actually work!

Going to the house and telling them goes by in dreamlike state. They react differently. Esme is so disappointed and Carlisle and the rest seem angry and upset. The hurt and anger so clear in their eyes stings like physical pain. I keep my face blank as to not show any emotion. I need to look like a killer through and through. I sing the national anthem in Spanish and then French as to not alert Edward to my thoughts.

"We trusted you! We let you stay here even though the wolves didn't want you to! How could you do this? To us? To me? To Nessie!" Bella screeches at me. It takes all my courage to stare into the cold eyes and not flinch. Nessie blinks rapidly and wails loudly "You killed Jake! You killed him! You killed Leah too!" I try hard not to look at her like she is insane. She did not warn me about this part of the plan but I wasn't worried. She was truly an amazing actress… To some extent is scared me just how well she could act. If she ever used those skills against me I would be screwed.

As I thought I was kicked out of the house. I didn't blame them. It still hurt but it was really understandable. Nessie had told me to wait for her in the forest. I knew where she meant. It was the place we had met each other. It had been a beautiful night and I quickly recognized her. She seemed friendly enough and we got along very well. Of course one day her true colors showed but by then I was already in love with her.

I sat down on a log and fell into a lull as I listened to the birds and watched the grass. I had no idea when Nessie would get here. It could be today or tomorrow. As long as she came I didn't care about when. I heard a rustling in the bushes and see Nessie's red wedge shoes poking out from between the bushes.

I call out to her and she comes over. She gives me a quick hug and kiss and dances off. In the sunlight her hair practically glitters and she has a smile on her face. Her affection towards me was definitely a surprise, but by no means did it bother me. This was probably the happiest I had seen her since I had met her!

"What happened?" I asked curiously. She responded chipper as ever "Everything went as planned! They think I hate you and that I am mourning the loss of a friend in La push!" Confusion was now evident in my face. Why was that a good thing? Nessie saw my face and sighed "they were going to think that I had something to do with you killing Leah and Jake. I couldn't have that! So now they think that I am the poor victim here! They'll never even think that I did anything to Leah!"

The plan made sense to me but I had one question "They thought that you might have had something to do with her death? Why?" She sighed again and said "I don't know why but I just could feel it! They were starting to become suspicious and I needed to stop them from being merely suspicious before they got worse! So now they will never ever even think that their precious Nessie would do something like this" She ends her words with an odd barking laugh that I have never heard before. I repress am shudder and laugh along with her.

When she stops laughing she looks at me. Her eyes hold the look a wolf has when it sees an oblivious deer and it almost scares me. "I don't love you as much as Jake. But if he dies then eventually I would love you. You'd be my second choice." For most the words would offend them but I knew she meant it as a nice comment for me. Nessie was trying to be nice to me and I appreciated it.

Then Nessie looked at me her eyes hardening again "You need to send me into a coma as well. I need to get rid of Leah once and for all" Shock surrounds me! "You….What…..what!" She repeats herself and talks to me as if she was talking to a young child "I am going after Leah in spirit form. I will destroy her and you will help me get there." I ask timidly "What if I don't?" Nessie gives a long, hard glare and says "You will. You know it and I know it."

Her words have a final warning in them and I say no more.

Leah: (pretend as if top part hasn't happened!)

It really hurt to ask Jake who he loved more. Deep down I knew the answer. It wasn't the one I so badly wanted to hear. But he had to say the words aloud. Maybe if he said the words aloud I would be set free. I would no longer love him and be put through another hurtful relationship. Maybe I could just jump this sinking ship.

I was also desperately hoping that he would say he loved me more, that he believed me more. In the end I didn't want to be set free! Well I mean I do want be free but…Ugh this is all so confusing. And Jake still hasn't answered. He protested at first, stalling and trying to delay having to answer. I didn't let him get away though. He needed to tell the truth.

I need hear the truth. I need to be told I am his number one girl or that Nessie is his number one. Either way he would break a heart. Obviously I would rather have Nessie's heart be broken. I have already had enough shit happen to me to last me a life time. Why add more to it and yet another scar to my heart?

I thought that when I was in my thoughts that maybe Jake had finally answered my question. I stared at him and asked him to repeat what he had said. He looked at me and said weakly "I don't know Leah. This isn't fair to you and I know that. I am so sorry for making you go through this. What I can tell you is that I am trying to break my imprint with Nessie. I am going to break it so we can be together and that you and only you will be my number one. But you need to know that no matter what I really do love you!"

His words made me feel a mixture of emotions. I was annoyed that he really hadn't answered my question. I was happy that he wanted to be with me and was going to try to break the imprint with Nessie. And last but not least, I was worried that he wouldn't be able to do it. Or worse, would decide he didn't want to go through with it.

I looked at Jake straight in the eye and said firmly "I love you too. And you are right, this is not fair to me. You will need to pick eventually. You cannot keep pulling me and Nessie through this. It means a lot to me that you are willing to break the imprint for me. But if you can't then you really do need to pick"

Jake nodded his face understanding and serious. Normally right now would have been the time I would have gone over and kissed him. But this wasn't normally. I wasn't going to be 'his' girl again until he really broke the imprint. It is not that I doubt him but I am not going to give him false hope. If he can't break the imprint there is a very really chance that we will be over. For good.

Most couples fight over stupid stuff or money. Not us though! No we get to fight over what a brat his imprint is! I don't know how to get him to see Nessie for what she is. I mean apparently he saw her like attack Nathan and he still thinks she is a darling girl! That boy needs some sense knocked into him!

I am still worried about finding a way back to our bodies. I don't know how to! I mean in science they don't teach you what to do when physically you are dead and spiritually alive. Come to think of it they don't teach us about werewolves and vampires either. Clearly they need to change the curriculum!

Stress has become an ever present factor in my life. I am very, very stressed right now! I am becoming transparent, that is not normal! I turn around and see Jake still sitting. I don't know why but I feel like we just can't sit. I feel like it will speed up the disappearing/dying process. We are already in a race against time and I see no reason whatsoever to give time even more advantage. I bark for Jake to come over and he does, slowly.

I tell him my theory about sitting and he looks at me like I am crazy. Granted that probably is an option but it still makes me annoyed. If it was Nessie dearest telling him this he would have believed it in a second. I look at him waiting for an answer or comment, something, anything! He takes a moment pondering it over in his mind. He puts his head to the side in thought. I bite my tongue to keep from saying a nasty comment. "Well!" Jake looks at me and his eyes widen. "Leah you are fading in and out. It is like you are really starting to disappear!"

I let out a snort. I am not surprised I am starting to become fainter. It was bound to happen. Looking at Jake I stifled a startled gasp. He too was starting to fade away and it worried me. We were going to need to get back to our bodies even faster than I originally thought. And I still had no idea how to! IF this didn't work, well who knows what will happen to us.

"Jake you're starting to fade as well. We don't have much time left!" Stress was hitting me in waves and it took all of my will and strength to not phase! I could feel the inner wolf starting to become outer as well. I took a deep breath and tried to steady and calm myself.

Suddenly something starts to click in my mind. The wheels start turning and excitement crawls through me. I feel something I haven't felt since I 'died', hope. If this works everything will be better! The negative side of me shrieks at me that this won't work. But right now I am focusing on the positive side of me that is singing "Leah this will work! We'll be alive" If I wasn't already insane I would probably be worried.

Jake eyes me curiously as I quickly tell him my new theory. His eyes widen in shock when I finish telling him my plan. He nods eagerly a new glint in his eye.

"YES! We are leaving here! I hope!" Jake yells this and I cringe. Clearly he didn't understand the whole 'this might now work' part of this plan. I take a deep breath and smile. His happiness is rubbing off on me and I feel like this insane plan might work. Quickly Jake and I start the plan. Hopefully Jake is trying to break the imprint as well.

A/N: Ok sorry if Leah seemed out of character towards the end! I hope you liked this chapter, please, please review.

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