Um…so yeah. I'm kinda in love with this chapter. I want to marry it and have its little participles.
You almost got this right after I finished it…
But here it is now…
EPOV
In my mind, Bella's fantasy hand ghosted across my chest, her nails dragging over my nipples. My hand tightened reflexively around my cock as I imagined just how good it would feel to have her so close to me. I wanted to feel the satiny soft skin of her low back against my abdomen as I bent her over the couch and pounded into her sweet pussy. I wanted to hold her tightly as she wrapped her legs around my hips, her back pressed against the wall as I ravished her. I wanted to take her breath into my lungs as I made love to her, our eyes locked together as we tumbled into ecstasy.
I wanted it all.
"Yeah. Oh fuck, like that," I sighed, my head going loose on my neck as I pretended it was Bella's little hand wrapping around my shaft and not my wide palm. Her hands were just as work-worn as mine were, but still so delicate. Moving my hand faster, I searched for the perfect fantasy that would tip me over the edge, but I stalled. I was disgusting, doing this while she was in my apartment. Did I not have any self-control? I dropped my hand with a grunt, leaning over and slamming my head against the tile wall repeatedly.
A cold draft brought my head around and I nearly swallowed my tongue when I saw Bella standing there. She quietly pulled the door closed behind her, and I watched as the steam enveloped her as if it were caressing her luscious body. I stood straight on legs that trembled and watched as she closed the distance between us. Stopping so she was just shy of touching me, she brought her eyes slowly up the line of my body. Her gaze felt like an embrace and I couldn't find it in me to be embarrassed that she'd caught me jerking it.
"I didn't bring you here for this. This isn't why I'm taking care of you," I rasped when she finally met my eyes. She cocked her head to the side, sending a wave of her brown hair cascading over her shoulder.
"I know that, Edward. And this is not a thank you. This is not because you cooked me breakfast or came to my rescue. This is because something inside me is finally awake…and it's because of you," she whispered. Her hand slowly moved from her side and landed gently on my chest. I closed my eyes as my cock jerked painfully, fantasy and reality blurring into one erotic symphony.
"Show me what you like." I glanced down at the sound of Bella's husky voice, only to be met with the top of her head. She was staring down at my body.
"What?" I grunted, unable to form an intelligent response with her eyes on me.
"I want to make you feel good," she replied, sliding her hand down my chest, her fingers stroking my muscles, making them jump.
"Bella, you make me feel good when you smile. You being safe and happy makes me feel good. The rest is just icing on the cake," I laughed, my cock agonizingly hard. My brutal honesty brought her head up, her big, brown eyes wide.
"Is that really how you feel?" she sighed, her shy smile making me feel like I'd won a million bucks. I stepped closer to her, bringing our bodies in full contact and cupped her face in my palms.
"Bella, I would do anything for you," I growled before I pressed my lips to hers.
BPOV
Oh my God…the man could kiss.
My bravado and courage evaporated when I saw just how big he was. I should have realized that the size of his hands and feet would have been proportional to the size of his…well, you know. Jesus, how the hell could I be any good for him if I couldn't even say the words? Riding the downward spiral of self-doubt, I felt my mind start to jump to his previous lovers. I was sure they had all been sexual dynamos, knowing the ins and outs of a man's body like a pro. And here I was, one step removed from a virgin. My sexual history amounted to a fumbling backseat adventures in high school. The entire event was just one painful penetration and premature ejaculation on his part. I was thankful when Edward's slow, languorous kisses made me forget anything else.
I was lightheaded when he finally released my mouth, his lips coasting across my jaw. His hands spanned my lower back, bringing me even closer to him. I was hyperconscious of how his erection poked into my leg. Jesus, that thing was hot and hard against me and my fingers itched to touch him, but I just didn't know what to do.
I took quick breaths, trying to get enough oxygen into my lungs as he nipped at my collarbone.
"I want to take you to my bed," he whispered, his voice full of need. I nodded frantically, thinking that maybe I could grab his laptop and do a quick Google search on blow jobs or something. To my great dismay, Edward didn't let me out of his reach. His hands were rough as he swiped the towel over my damp skin. I hadn't really gotten that wet, but he seemed to enjoy taking care of me, so I gave in. It was too easy to give in.
"God, you're fucking sexy," he grunted as he flapped the terry cloth over his body, tossing it to the floor when he deemed himself dry enough. I made some kind of embarrassing squeak when he hoisted me up into his arms. He didn't take his eyes off mine as he walked us into the other room, stopping when his knees hit the mattress.
Edward laid me down with gentle precision, making sure I wasn't jostled or bumped as he settled me on the bed. I wished I knew how to be seductive and sexy as he stood above me, looking like the cover of a romance novel, but I didn't. So I just laid there and looked up at him, trying to feel like I deserved to have his attention.
EPOV
As I stood over Bella's naked body on my bed, I really wished I'd finished jerking off. She had no idea just how sexy she was. There was no way I'd ever tire of looking at her. The subtle flush across her chest was enough to make me come on the spot.
"Edward?"
I realized I'd been staring at her too long when her nervous whisper invaded my mind. Shaking my head, I smirked at her as I settled down on the bed. I ran the back of my fingers up her calf, wrapping my hand around her thigh. With one tug, I had her spread for me.
"Fuck, you are so wet," I hissed. I leaned over her leg, hooking my elbow over her thigh so I could look down at her. "Is all that honey for me?"
Bella gasped as I stroked my fingertip down her thigh, dipping into her wetness.
"You're so chatty," she whispered breathlessly, making me chuckle.
"I can't talk enough about the beauty before me," I said truthfully, knowing she needed to be treated like a goddess. Her eyes closed languidly as I delved further into her secrets. Her back arched off the bed as I inched my finger inside her tight, little pussy and I had to hold her thigh with my arm to keep her from closing me out. "No, no. This is mine now."
I stroked my thumb across the top of her cleft, loving the way she moaned and writhed. As her slightly dazed eyes landed on mine, I wondered just how experienced she was.
"Bella baby, you wanna come?" I teased, watching those brown eyes blink in confusion.
"I thought I already did," she said.
What now?
"Oh, not yet. Have you never…" I let my words hang and the flush that painted her cheeks crimson was answer enough. "Not even by yourself?"
"I get nervous. So when it starts feeling good…I stop," she admitted shyly, trying to close her legs once more. I moved quickly, lying on my side next to her, my fingers still gently stroking her.
"I'm gonna take such good care of you, Bella," I vowed, meaning so much more than just introducing her to the pleasure I was about to bestow on her. Here with me, she didn't need to be so strong. She could rely on me to care for her, to honor her. And as I leaned down and kissed her love-bruised lips, it felt as if a promise had been made.
BPOV
I was slowly unraveling. My body was made of tiny little threads and every time Edward touched me, a strand of that thread drifted away. Each slide of his thick fingers through my folds, each nip of his teeth, each lap of his tongue brought me closer to something I'd never felt before. But I trusted him to somehow make me whole again after it was over.
My fingers threaded through his thick hair as he slid down my body, his lips and tongue leading the way. He savored the delicate dip where my neck met my shoulder. He teased my nipples until they were hard little points. His breath blown over my belly button drove me insane.
And I was taking everything he was giving me.
I tried to touch him, to make him feel as good as he was making me feel, but he dodged my advances.
"Let me love you," he whispered against my hip, his fingers wrapping around my thigh as he opened me once more. I was so nervous as he looked down at me, worried he'd find me lacking. But the sweet hunger in his eyes proved he liked what he saw.
The first touch of his tongue against me was electrifying. But when he went inside…who knew his tongue was that long. As he brought me closer to the unknown with his surging motions and delicate strokes, I reached for him, needing him to take care of me like he said he would.
"Edward?" My voice sounded odd, husky and strained as I called for him, my hands desperate to hold him before I flew apart.
"I've got you, Bella. Let it go," he cooed, moving so his words were spoken right in my ear. His fingers never stopped their slick slide as his voice comforted me. "God, I want you so much. I want to see you come for me. Just let go. I've got you."
My body tightened to the point that I broke apart, light exploding behind my eyes as I surrendered to the sensations. I could hear Edward's mumbled words of encouragement as I let the experience overtake me. And as the final shudders left me trembling in Edward's embrace I realized if this was how Edward was going to take care of me, I could get used to it.
Next chapter…he gets his.
Not sure if I can bust it out tomorrow. I should have been working on my Halloween countdown piece and yeah…it's due next week and I still don't even have 1000 words. Oops.
See you…soon.
